A Flock of Seagulls in PARADISE
Well..
this last weekend
and
beginning
of
this!
week..!
7182014
through
7202014
marks
the
ONE
YEAR
ANNIVERSARY!
FOR
A
LITERAL!
RISE!
OF
A
PHOENIX!
FROM
TOTAL!
ASHES!
FOR
ME!
WHEN JULY STARTS
IN
2013..
i
STILL
CAN
NOT
SECURE
FAITH
THAT
i
CAN!
make
it
through
another
day
with
19
medical
disorders..
TRULY
HORRIFIC
AS
SUCH..
MAKING
ME
ALMOST
A
COMPLETE
SHUT
IN
FROM
PAIN
SO
SEVERE..
EVEN
WORSE!
i
can
NOT
even
MAKE!
CONTACT!
WITH
ANYONE!
EVEN!
CLOSE!
FAMILY!
MEMBERS!
IN
HUMAN
EMPATHY!
EVEN
EMOTIONAL
HUMAN
EMPATHY!
A
HORRIFYING
MONSTER
OF
A
DEAD
HEART!
AND
SOUL!
IS
WHAT
i
TRULY
FEEL
THEN!
IN
REAL
LIFE!
AS
A
DEAD!
HEART
AND
SOUL
IS
NOTHING
ABOUT
LIFE
AS
HUMAN
BEING
TRUE!
MY JOURNEY BACK TO LIFE..
IS
PRECIPITATED
BY
A
CRYPTIC
AND
SOMETIMES
VERY
STRANGE
JOURNEY
IN
POETRY
AND
MUSICK
TO
DESPERATELY
FIND
MY
HEART!
AND
SOUL!
AGAIN..!
AFTER
LOSING!
IT
!
FOR
A
TOTAL
SLOW
BURN!
OF
DEATH!
IN
LIFE!
FOR
7
LONG!
YEARS!
CULMINATING!
YES!
IN
5
YEARS!
OF
SHUT
IN
!
BEING..!
WHERE
MY
THERAPIST’S
GOAL!
IN
EARLY
JULY 2013
IS
TO
JUST
MAKE
A
15
MINUTE
TRIP
TO
WHATABURGER..!
THAT
SEEMS
IMPOSSIBLE!
TO
ME!
THEN!
BUT!
A
MIRACLE!
HAPPENS!
IN
THIS
TIME
FRAME
LAST
YEAR!
WHERE
YES!
MY
HEART!
AND!
SOUL!
COMES
BACK!
IN
TRUE!
FULLEST!
FORCE!
ONCE
AGAIN!
AND YES..!
JUST THIS MOVIE
CLIP
CONTACT..
IS
INSTRUMENTAL
IN
REATTACHING!
MY
EMOTIONS
WITH
LANGUAGE
AND
THE
ABILITY
TO
FINALLY
FEEL!
UNCONDITIONAL SACRED LOVE!
AND
ACTUALLY
FULLY!EXPRESS!
IT!
AGAIN!
WITH
MY
CLOSE
FAMILY
MEMBERS!
YES!
HORRIFIC!
PAIN
IS
HARD!
BUT!
A
DEAD
HEART!
AND
SOUL!
MAKES PAIN
LOOK
LIKE
A
JOY
RIDE2ME!
IN
COMPARISON..!
AS
SUCH!
i
KNOW
ALL!
TOO
TRUE
TODAY!
NOW!
MY
EMPATHY!
AND
COMPASSION!
GIVEN
MY
EXPERIENCE!
FOR
ALL
OTHERS!
NO
MATTER
THEIR
CHALLENGES!
IN
LIFE!
OR
EXPRESSED!
DIFFICULTIES..!
EVEN!
SACREDLOVE!
FOR
SO
CALLED
ENEMIES!
MAKING!
THEMSELVES!
MY
FOES
AS
SUCH!
IS!
OFF!
THE
CHART!
OF
HUWOMAN!
BEING!
SOME!
PEOPLE CAN NOT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND
HOW
MUCH
!
i
SACREDlove!
them
simply
for
being
them..!
everywHere!
i
go
!
NOW!
SOMETIMES!
IT
SEEMS!2!
BUT!
OH
MY
GOD…!
IF
THEY
LOSE
THEIR
HEART!
AND!
SOUL!
PERHAPS!
THEY2!
CAN!
UNDERSTAND!
MY
SACRED!
UNCONDITIONAL!
LOVE!
FOR!
ALL!
OTHER!
HUWOMAN
BEINGS!
AS
SUCH..!
HELL
YES!
EVEN
ADOLF
HITLER..!
THE
GOLD
STANDARD
FOR
HATING
ANOTHER
HU
WO
MAN
DESERVINGLY
SO..
NO..
i
say..!
NO!
NO!
NO!
i
know
wHere the dark
soul
of
the night
goes..
and
NO!
NO!
NO!
i
can
never
PLACE!
personal
judgement
against
another
hu
wo
man
soul..!
as
there are some places
so
!
dark
that
the
LIGHT
NEVER
GETS
IN..!
AND
i
know
for
one..!
that!
there
IS
no
explanation
for
those
who
have
not
visited
these
TRUE
POTENTIAL
OF
DARK NIGHTS!
OF
THE
HEART!
AND
SOUL!
OF
!HU!
!WO!
!MAN!
!BEING!
!2ME460SACRED!WORD!SACRED460ME2!
!NOW!
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