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Additional “Divine Comedies”

I find comic relief in words.

Words like Evil and Devil

that add to that "Divine Comedy" of
 
Live and Lived.

Where one can be Stressed and find Desserts in the same word.

I found others in life express a similar experience,

but seldom close to home.

35:15

“Upon a secret journey I met a holy man

His blindness was his wisdom
I'm such a lonely man

And as the world was turning
It rolled itself in pain

This does not seem to touch you
He pointed to the rain

You will see light in the darkness
You will make some sense of this

And when you've made your secret journey 
You will find this love you miss”

1:07:07

“There's a little black spot on the Sun today
(that's my soul up there)

It's the same old thing as yesterday
(that's my soul up there)

There's a black hat caught in a high tree top
(that's my soul up there)

There's a flag pole rag and the wind won't stop
(that's my soul up there)

I have stood here before inside the pouring rain
With the world turning circles running 'round my brain

I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign
But it's my destiny to be the king of pain”

1:13:03

“Mephistopheles is not your name

I know what you're up to just the same

I will listen hard to your tuition, You will see it come to its fruition.

I'll be wrapped around your finger.

I'll be wrapped around your finger

Devil and the deep blue sea behind me, Vanish in the air you'll never find me.

I will turn your face to alabaster, When you'll find your servant is your master.

You'll be wrapped around my finger”

Lyric Excerpts:

"Secret Journey", from the Album
"Ghost in the Machine" by the Police

"King of Pain",
"Wrapped Around Your Finger",
from the Album
"Synchronicity" by the Police

Time Marked from a Video featuring both Albums:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZltgYhe9BbE

Autism, the Internet and "Ideological First Identity", a Collection of Thoughts:http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/2013/05/autism-internet-and-ideological-first.html

Addendum on 5/21/13:

Just in case someone has no idea what I am getting at in this Blog Post.

"Hmmmm", which I think is likely.

It is about my "Hyperlexic" fascination with patterns in letters, numbers, and words.

I also made a Poll on the "Wrong Planet" website, to see how many "Pattern Thinkers" I could "capture" linked below, in context of my Blog Post.

To illustrate this, here is the link and quote from a comment I made in the "Wrong Planet" discussion on the associated Informal Poll Question I created, "Patterns are Cool?"


http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt231473.html


"Additionally, is it a time mark at '35:15', a bible verse from Job, or both?

I think patterns are cool in all forms including number and word. However, one can 'lightly' view them as a 'divine comedy', coincidence, or what one might describe as 'Synchronicity'.

'Synchronicity' is a 'Divine Comedy'.

It is also reflective of how the mind works.

A guide or map of 'Sorts'.

I haven't fully assigned a meaning to what 'I see' as an 'interesting pattern' in the time marks '1:07:07' and '1:03:13', but give my mind time and it will provide one. :)

Perhaps someone else will come up with one before I do.

That is part of how 'Synchronicity' works as an 'Acausal Connecting Principle'."

Addendum on 5/22/13:

Per my last comment, where I stated my mind would provide a connection in pattern of numbers, the Acausal connection my mind creates for the time mark 1:13:03 is 3/1/13:

This is the day I posted my "Ideological First Identity" 'idea', on my personal Facebook page quoted below, before I created the Katie/Mia Aghogday: Views from the Autism Spectrum page on 3/28/13.

On 3/13/13, I created the Katie/Mia Aghogday Nature Photos page.

"Katie Mia
March 1
Kind Autistics Taking In Everything Mindful in Awareness
Autistic Love And the Science of Kindology
An Ideological First Identity"

The Acausal connection for 1:07:07 is 7/1/07:

The day I walked out of the Gym, after exercising, at the Military Installation I worked at, in 100-degree temperature weather where my body felt cold.

It was when the effect of "Human Exhaustion" in "General Adaptation Syndrome" started taking a physiological toll on my body, as the blood was no longer circulating in my body like it was supposed to after the stress response, when working out strenuously.

My adrenal glands had been stuck in the on position in "Hyper-Vigilance mode", as a reaction to severe chronic stress about a year a half, at that point in time.

Eventually, I physically collapsed, March 1 of 2008 because of total human exhaustion, per Autistic Burnout.

A "real" "Divine Comedy", that was no comedy at all, as I also could not sleep either, to recover, nor could I turn off my Adrenal Glands, in all I can describe as a literal H** of existence.

My body is warm and strong again, but I'm not sure my mind will ever be quite the same, in the ability to fully connect with emotions for the full flow of what I know as human experience.

(:A Human Song:)

"I'm Not in Love" by 10 CC:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y2BavhwpIJg


(:"OMG, They Don't Make Songs like that Any More.

Why is That?":)

It is the hope I have for "KATiE MiA, the spirit of ideology I was before I met AGHOGDAY, Another "Ground Hog Day", where every day is close to the same in a challenge of dealing with various auto-immune system issues, in a body that has lost its balance.

There is no escape, only time.

Time can heal, if one gives it long enough.

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"All the World's a Stage"
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Existing Eyes of Universe ONEALLNOWFOREVERMORE ll
http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/2013/07/existing-eyes-of-universe_3.html

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"The Divine Comedy", Autism and Alexithymia

I think that Dante might have experienced some type of "Alexithymia".

It does seem at times like a "Divine Comedy".

I was gifted with one thing from the time I was young - intensity of everything.

Five years now, I spend my time somewhere in a fog of living death. The origin of "Aghogday", "Another Ground Hog Day", living in opposition to the other human that was me, "KATiE MiA", "Kind Autistics Taking in Everything Mindful in Awareness".
          
                                                    

                                              

Perhaps one day "Aghogday" will remain another day.

I've truly felt alive several times, but every single time, it has been over a worry of a cat being sick, lost, or injured. The only thing that makes me cry. The only thing that briefly makes me feel human again.

Today was one of those days.

The "Yellow Boy's" yellow son that injured him before, changing his life into an inside cat, has now become "Sunny Boy", at our front porch door. He wouldn't give up at trying to be ours; we finally gave in with a bite to eat.
 
He followed me around the block, that I walk around late at night before we gave in, and I wondered as I watched his persistence in trying to be my friend, if one day I would be his. He too, recently was in a fight and was injured, but he still is feral and only stays long enough for his bite to eat.
 
As he lay underneath our Sago Palm, and I saw that the abscess on his head had broken, I realized he is a sick cat now so I once again experienced being human.

I have been struggling so long with a will to go on, but along the way I have lost almost all of my ability to connect with human beings, including those who care and love for me.

 
"Nights in White Satin" by the Moody Blues:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IAjGdmFKf8E

 
It is the most horrifying aspect to me, not to be able to connect to those who can still connect to me.

Something about the nature photos I have been uploading to my Facebook page has changed something in my mind where I can experience the beauty again of the world around me.

                                                 

The temptation was so great to be human again, I have moved from one full "Ativan" down to a quarter.

The feeling of the beauty started coming back but so did the horrible feeling in my head that I can now remember more clearly, before I started on the Ativan.

Without the Ativan, my experience with the sick cat was not just one of sadness. It was also one of incredible guilt, for not being human enough in feeling love for those loving me in the last five years.


"After the Love is Gone"  by Earth Wind & Fire:
                                                                                     

                                                                  
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IZMOBTsz0uk



                                                            

I then experienced a feeling of rage against God, briefly, which I already know is along on this journey the same as I. Realizing once again, that I own it all myself, and no one but me.

                                                 

I found myself experiencing empathy for my spirit, and forgiveness for being the human that I am.

                                                    

Today for me, "The Divine Comedy" was that a person was proclaiming to the "Math" of the "Algorithm" that they were human, in similar wordplay I used in response back to a person that commented that Facebook "intentionally" removed their comment.

Later today, I find myself forgiving itself for being human, in fuller memory of what it was like to be human.

Should I feel guilty, should I cry, feel anger, rage, or should I laugh.

I suppose it doesn't matter because if I can feel any of those things it is only proof that I am still human. It would really feel good to laugh, which people tell me I used to do, but at least for today, I will be glad to be able to feel sadness.

For me that is a divine comedy, indeed.


"Living Inside Myself" by Gino Vannelli:
                                                            

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MOKLQPPMPdM


Autism, the Internet and "Ideological First Identity", a Collection of Thoughts:

http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/2013/05/autism-internet-and-ideological-first.html

                                                      

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