WaY uP HiGheR2

Hmm.. Well.. the next milestone
as i stARt this 707th Macro-Verse
oF LonGest LonG Form Poem..
still exceeding 3.3 Million
words as NOW ANEW
Ocean Whole Poem..
also named
SonG oF mY
SoUL too now..
kinda hidden
in a somewhat
Plain Fred looking
website.. even a
little cluttered as such
as mad scientists WiLL..
Back to the Future of
noW ALways do too..
in historical
aS WeLL..
yes.. neXt Milestone..
on Thanks Giving Day 2016..
celebrating a full 72 months also
kNoWn and fELt as 6 years.. full
of writing on line for
12 Million words
plus.. as Lord
kNows could be
much more than that..
considering from that
Thanksgiving Day of 2010
all the way through July of 2013..
i wrote from wake to sleep for 32
months every dam day to Escape
a life threatening synergy of 19 medical
disorders.. mostly pain related and invisible
to the outside eye.. including type two Trigeminal
Neuralgia.. the worst assessed pain in the associated
medical literature to date as far as i know and feel @least..
and Jesus F iN Christ.. worse than Crucifixion.. as it was like teeth drilled
then without novocaine.. in my right eye and ear that no drug would
touch.. words were my only escape and every word for those 32
months was a mountain to hill of pain.. where i was never sure i
could make even the next second alive.. without some kind
of literal escape.. that only words would partially bRinG..
with light turned down on screen to lowest setting
and eyes that could no longer use
prescription lenses effectively
as the focus only
turned up
the hell
of type two constant
Trigeminal Pain from wake to sleep..
and after the pain finally went away on or
about July 22nd of 2013.. i moved.. i literally
moved to dance.. and the rest of that as documented
for three years in the last Macro-Verse titLed After Dance
oF Fred.. so sure.. the words slowed down a little with
dance and speeded back up.. as my new Nautilus
Shell of Ocean Whole Poem.. had a skinnier
spine of word flow first.. and even
double spacing too..
much more often
than now..
and the photos
continued to explode
and that went off into
Nude New Age Renaissance
Art too.. and all the Dance at Good
Old Seville Quarter moVing into 128 weeks
now of dance tHeRe.. except for a week of sick..
and perhaps another one where the dance moved
to Saturday.. for a trip somewhere else.. but never
the less.. two and a half years of Dancing Rave with
all the cool college age folks at Old Seville too.. so many
photos of smiling friends that are girls.. in over a thousand
too.. as i continue to assess in each Macro-Verse wHere i’ve
been and wHere i’M going.. as when i flow iN Holy
SpiRit and Sacred Writing/DancE.. i am only noW
iN SeNse and FeeL of SonG and DancE..
lest i forget all of what
i’Ve doNe beFore noW
for mindfully/bodily aware
focus of JusT noW iN aLL
ways noW does surely sTiLL come..
practice.. practice.. practice.. never ever
GiVinG up.. BaLanCinG.. BaLanCinG.. BaLAncinG
wHeRe thanks God.. tHeRE iS noT only wRiTinG buT Dance Steps
Too.. ALL WiLD and Free.. Free verse in photos too.. as Visual
poEtry goes with the Verbal WriTing SonG and DanCe oF
Free Feat..
Too.. ISreaL noW aLL2..:)
Life is full of sad songs..
More than can be heard
by those who
sing the
no longer
felt at all.. A
hardest part is
when all feelings
are gone away beyond
sad.. and An only feeling
that is left aT all.. is pain to
replace numb.. a horrible
place that has
no Lazarus
to feel as space
beyond empty.. beyond
the nothingness of piece
of paper existence.. yes.. as
you say.. the black hole soul..
forgets to play a Song
of Human
no longer
aS tar
oiled bird
wHo no longer
moves a SonG of Life..
to morning star BriGht..
as heARt.. as SpiRit FliGht
Gone down.. so far bEyond thE liGht..
And A saddest pARt oF aLL.. is often
iF theRE is any cure aT aLL iT is wait
for numb to go away.. and of
course pills are
no fulfilling
to BrinG
back a Lamp
that lasts iN eYes
that SinG and DAnCe
aLive aGAin.. noW
and truly impossible
to fully understand
unless one
to this
empty place
as dead in life.. mY FriENd Zee..:)
Hi.. FriEnd.. rosemawrites.. thanks
so much for dropping by
and wading
this low
in Ocean
Poem MacroVerse
to share these words of
appreciation today.. glad
you enjoyed the continuing
collection of what i do.. mY FriEnd..
and hope you continue to have a beautiful day
or night
or whatever
way it may
be wHere you liVe..:)
With SMiLes..:)
“To see what is right and
not to do it is cowardice.”
— Cervantes
And sure a way to lose friends…
oh.. how.. the brave and the lone.. turn..:)
“Although it is tempting to resent disaster, there is
not much use in doing so… Whether we remain ash
or become the phoenix is up to us.”
— Deng Ming-Dao
Yep.. shit happens..
no reason.. reAlly..
to cover it up..
as it fertilizes
the ground
of Course..;)
“Think not forever of yourselves, O Chiefs, nor of your own generation.
Think of continuing generations of our families, think of our
grandchildren and of those yet unborn,
whose faces are coming
from beneath the ground.”
— Peacemaker, founder of
the Iroquois Confederacy, (ca. 1000 AD)
A death of the extended
village in home of
and the
death of this
in nomadic ways
of couples and singles
who have lost a village
that moves.. connects..
creates.. TogeTHer for
and respect
for Others and
Nature forevermore now2..
gone past the highwayS noW for Love..:)
“A woman takes off her claim to respect
along with her garments.”
— Herodotus
Hmm.. naked
women don’t scare
me.. per.. ‘Vagina FReED Dialogues’..:)
“(1) Everyone who shits on you is not necessarily your enemy.
(2) Everyone who gets you out of shit is not necessarily your friend.
(3) If you are warm and happy in a pile of shit, keep your mouth shut.”
— Ancient Shit Happens list
yoUr nose
and F iN liVe..
or get use to it..
and STiLL liVe..
And even better yet
lEarn to Enjoy dARker
ShiT that leads to liGht too..
A first step is to pretend.. let
shit be written.. let shit be done..;)
Beaches Love me…
A memory from Seville
Square from last year to date..
with a T-shirt that says the same..
At a Pensacola Seafood Festival..
where i tore up a grass field in dance
With the bands playing there.. but seriously..
can you feel the beauty of Nature.. can you
actually feel a warm and fuzzy actual physiological
bio-chemical attachment to Nature driven by barefoot
oxytocin receptors in your feet as you connect to Mother
Nature’s warm sands.. well.. if you can’t.. it is very
possible you may have a case of spreading
Nature Deficit Disorder.. as
a First World Problem
that reaches as far
back and deep
in life
Refrigerator Parents
who were too busy working
or today attached to electronic
devices even after work
for warm and fuzzy
touchy feely
in both
verbal and
non-verbal language
as well as actual literal
hugs and even rough and tumble
play.. and yes.. even a play of dance
and visiting neighborhood FLESH AND
AND loving being outside literally
so much in warm and fuzzy
connection.. the last
thing in the world
ya wanna do is
come inside
and watch
until your mother’s
high pitched soprano voice
can be heard around the block..
Come home.. Come home.. it’s
time to eat.. Jane and Jack
or Freddy
hmm.. sometimes
even a Nurturing Soprano
Song can give you the warm
and fuzzy feeling of oxytocin Love..
if it was ever nurtured in you.. in the first
place or if you are very unfortunate as in
the case of psychopathic leaning folks that
lack this emotional contagion.. who torture
small furry animals as they can feel no
warm and fuzzy love..
you may live in
hell and it is
worth noting in
caution and warning
that chronic social stress
in ways of neglect and abuse..
and chronic stress in general..
can take away the warm and fuzzies..
until one day.. when someone puts up a
furry cat photo on the Internet.. you say..
Jesus Bad Cop Christ.. why are folks
putting up so many stupid cat photos..
when they could be talking all smart and
stuff.. and why do folks continue to share
photos of their babies.. and why do they just
talk about shallow stuff like it’s interesting.. when
it is just small talk.. well.. A core issue is they may not
be feeling the social emotional contagion that normal
nurturing social animals feel.. that is so beneficial to
actual emotional and physical well being and now even
healing that the village.. in both male and female way
always felt for bonding.. until we separated in the
Terminator movie and Zombie Apocalypse
and Matrix Movie real.. and have
become more mechanical
problem solving
oriented as
machine than
F iN human..
otherwise known
once again.. as a Spreading..
First World Nature Deficit Disorder..
and this distance from Nature is why
machine humans also toss their trash out
their car window in total disregard for Nature..
and why folks on the Internet can be so cold
and lacking any reciprocal social communication
for others like thank you and you are welcome and
smiles my friend.. and so many other things that
people are actually internally motivated to say
in social emotional contagion way.. ’cause
truly when you are mentally healthy
it feels good to do this..
and some folks..
sadly many folks..
do not even feel what
it should feel like to smile
at a stranger in a mall with
the empathic social contagion..
that says safe love rules.. safe love rules..
you are human and this is what makes you
great as all other mammals who are capable
of feeling the warm and fuzzy love of connection..
the glue of life that is warm and true.. again.. safe love..
there are ways proven in empirical science to increase
the emotional empathy of warm and fuzzy human
beings and there are other ways of distance
away from social cognition in
mechanical cognition
worry in solving
problems way
from modern electronic
gadget ways of life when life
becomes a video game instead of
a touchy feely human way of life.. the
only loss is humanity.. the greaTest loss oF aLL..
it doesn’t have to be this way.. when the Love Muscle
is exercised in MovinG ConnnecTinG and CreaTinG
ways alive.. and i do mean the one between your ears
with touch and feel..
that kNows/FeeLs
no own
but Love..:)
i won’t mention any names
but it said someone was noW..
yes.. the EN name test thingie..
says.. impressed by my soft lips..
Ha!.. other than that it said my cousin
than me.. no one
is happier
than me..
no.. no one..
hehe.. harhar.. haha.. hi..;)
Godzilla is GOD..
Well.. at least
in pArt as human
imAginAtion and
CreaTivity goes..
in this additional
Facebook provided
Macro-Verse memory
from two years ago.. then
but tHeRe iS moRe.. yes..
the reptilian brain for survival..
of course that moves.. connects..
and creates for BaLanCinG .. to stay
alive and thrive in animal homeostasis..
AnyWay.. Godzilla gets the job done and
reminds us who is truly in control.. yes.. the
whole of Nature.. when set free more as we too..:)
Yes.. Catholic Church Memories from a year ago..
yA never know and feel who Ya miGht meet when
you enter the Banquet Doors.. a People Francis
in Cardboard way could come as
a self authenticating
post card
as such
greeting way..;)
Facebook Friend Michael..
provides a video of an Orangutan
nurturing several Tiger Cubs.. including
feeding them with a bottle.. and back to
an earlier feeling and thought today.. if you
cannot feel the warm and fuzzies by watching
‘this’.. and perhaps respond with the common
verbal small talk of aww.. isn’t that cute..
perhaps your oxytocin receptors
need a ‘little’ loving
tune up.. per se..
as yes.. once
again.. the heArt
is a love muscle that
can grow like mine to
10 grinch sizes of previous
cOld dead heARt.. in ways of
increasing the muscle of oxytocin
that drives emotionally mentally healthy
human beings to practice greater successful
reciprocal social communication activities in
moving.. connecting.. and creating ways..
you might even wanna dance all
naked in sand and sun
all innocent
as such
to Feel
God as your sKin..
in Mother Nature way too..
hey.. if an Orangutan can feel
love tHeRe is hope for whoever
you are too.. let’s hope at least ..
as Nurture is the glue of human
family and survival when it’s working..:)
Aw.. Tuesday morning at the Pensacola
State College.. my Junior College Alumni
place.. in the gardens.. next to a scare crow
that ain’t scaring me at all.. everyday is like
the fourth of July when firework colors of
flowers are going off all around yA..
with so many
insect critters
pollinating and
feeding off the colors
of life free in groWing..
surviving.. thriving way..
if you have any problems..
you might escape them.. long
enough for your genetic memory
to feel the appreciation.. of Nature’s
Abundance that says deep down. hey..
tHeRe iS enough to eat.. now we can relax..
and play a life of easier loving.. there were literally
years i could not go to this place in the internal
Universe of myself.. nor could i even feel the
warm and fuzzies.. petting a kitty kat then..
tHeRe is great poverty in the
world.. but the greaTest
poverty oF aLL..
is the
death of
the human heARt
In liFe.. aS iN all sTuFF..
living.. use or lose applies..
humans are not exempt from
this Universal Law of Nature True aka GOD2..:)
“If you understand, or if you don’t.
If you believe, or if you doubt.
There is a universal justice
and the eyes of truth are always watching.”
~~ Enigma ~~
Nature is God..
is fool
not to
see the Law of this..
in practical ways of course..
all seeing as all that is we see..
feel.. hear.. touch.. smell taste..
and so much
or less..
depending on
how far we can
separate ourselves
from more that we are
evolved to be.. alive.. thriving
or not.. depending on how well
we understand this God as Nature
that lives as all existence or don’t..
as within us.. inside.. outside.. above..
so below.. and all around for @lEAst now..
tHeRe is no escape
but illusions
that are
pArt oF
dArk as
NaTuRe GoD sAme..
and like Enigma says..
matters not if one believes
or not.. there is bi escaping the
Laws oF God and Nature same
within we sAme as pARt oF wHole..
but oh.. how hard ignorant human cultures
have worked to do this.. from tearing foreskins
off babies.. to separate them from the other apes..
to becoming tools more than flesh and blood empathy
and compassion in moving.. connecting.. creating ways..
Karma is real.. it’s really simple.. obey nature or pay the consequence..
nature within..
inside.. outside..
above.. so below
and all around.. and survive
and thrive for those who have not
forgotten innate.. instinct and intuition
and the genetic memory to do just that..
a fluid intelligence this is and not crystallized alone..
as human labels that reduce the size of God all that is..
in illusion
of course
as small
is as real as large
for both the grain of sand
and an avalanche of LoVe..
gets it..
not people do
these days.. lost
in a matrix of
cOld in Zombie Apocalypse of living Robotic death away from
as liGht
opposed to thAT dARk.. as LIFe2..:)
“Jesus died too soon.
If he had lived to my age he would
have repudiated his doctrine.”
~~ Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche ~~
Nietzsche was missing
a very important
pArt oF
at least..
later iN
and other
that inspire
human life..
as social
as well then..
beyond Standard
IQ measures of books..
some folks
never get it
or give it.. and
end up going basically ‘humanely insane’..
the story is as old as hiStory.. and beYond..
and some
have lived
a life in both/’tween
places.. hell.. purgatory..
and heaven.. liFe.. understand Jesus..
what Jesus.. it’s just a created then and now
real human archetype of both the dArkness and
liGht that lives as human being.. love your
enemy hate your mommy and daddy and
sisters and brothers and children if they
don’t do what you say.. same Luke 14:26..
sAMe FucKinG hUman different story.. Now..
and liGht
in all sHades
of grey as anger.. fear and hate
dARk and colors hue hope and joy..
oF Love liGht.. either live liGht or die dArk..
or the
purgatory life..
and sadly for some..
there is no choice at all
as some are born without
ever gaining an ability to love.. aT aLL..
as far as science shows now@leASt2..:)
“The higher we soar, the smaller we
seem to those who cannot fly.”
~~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~~
in one of his
high moments..
no doubt ..
two places..
“If there is a sin against life,
it consists perhaps not so much in despairing of life as
in hoping for another life and
in eluding the implacable grandeur of this life.”
~~ Albert Camus ~~
See quote
one from
Enigma too..
Enjoy it if you can..
Why the FucK not..
unless culture
Suffer in frustration.. misery..
and ignorance.. ie.. Religion..
for those who cannot discern
the trUth and liGht housed in all
myths and metaphors of human language..:)
“Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain.
It’s not something you learn in school.
But if you haven’t learned the meaning of friendship,
you really haven’t learned anything.”
~~ Muhammad Ali ~~
Yes.. as science illustrates
nicely now.. there are two kinds
of intelligence.. Mechanical Cognition
and Social Empathic Cognition.. in general.. use
one solely and the other pipe withers away…
School.. rarely now teaches
Social Empathic Cognition..
or even work
that has
and feel..
Keep making those
good grades.. study
hard.. get rid of physical
education and no longer play
with other children.. as art of HeARt
and lengthen the school day if you
can from 8 to 5pm.. and.. raise your
kids with electronic devices.. and pay
the FucKinG
of Nature
Deficit Disorder..
and FucKinG
NoW lose
to An iSREAL
Zombie FucKinG
Apocalypse where
people can/will no longer
even connect to each other
iN Real Flesh and Blood Life..
And next thing ya know and feel..
youth in Japan.. no longer interested
in the ‘Wild thing’ with each other way
past the age of puberty.. into young adult
hood.. Dogs replace children.. and Robot
dogs replace the flesh and blood warm
and fuzzies.. and sure.. love a
car and a home..
a smart
phone too..
forget about
human and
God as
too.. as
flesh and blood
moving.. connecting
and creating star dust vibrant alive..
and thriving.. in the ‘old days’ of HeARt.. as liFe..:)
“We don’t see things as they are,
we see them as we are.”
~~ Anais Nin ~~
And God lives
within.. in more
than three letter
and less
of mindful
and bodyful
or more
wE can and will..
JuST F iN Do it
more than say iT..:)
“If you’re already in a hole,
there’s no use to continue digging.”
Roy W. Walters
But only if you
don’t find the
greATest liGht
in the
dArk to
finAlly.. come aLL ouT..
or perHaps.. dig A wHolE uP..;)
“Be what you is,
’cause if you is what you ain’t,
then you ain’t what you is.”
~~ Satchel Paige ~~
iS relatively speaKinG..:)
And other than thaT..
nice to see you writing
fresh again gigoid.. but
hey.. it’s
all good..
and present
and future too..
at lEAst foR
mE too..:)
Bottom Line..
i live the Restricted
Version of a thirteen
year old.. me.. as FucKinG
Old Days..
Feeling what
i felt then
more of what
i don’t miss now..;)
not Nietzsche..
God is alive as me..
F iN
Superman tWo..;)
Facebook Friend.. And Fellow Poet Blogger.. Rafiah.. says..
“I am a woman, hear me roar, I am a free child of God.”
I definitely love the feel of it. Makes me feel stronger
and braver , just as you are.
Heart Emoticon
Thank you for seeing the good in me.
As the beauty lies in the eyes of the watcher,
it makes you beautiful as well. Both of us are
assistant to beautify each other.
Heart Emoticon
i say back..
SMiLes mY
FriEnd.. Rafiah..
With soft Kitty purrs too..:)
Rafiah says.. further.. in response..
to another Blog post of hers..
after response by me..
Those are not my feet and my second toe is definitely not longer..:p
But when ever I hear from you I do feel like a leader, dynamic and resourceful.🙂
you make me more beautiful, more than anything in the world. Thank God for
the five year of sickness is no more and you got all the caressing of
the world from your Mum. She must be hAppy to nurse and comfort you,
as mothers normally feel when tending their kids. As sometimes
I feel so elated seeing my sisters happy and joyous,
and especially seeing them in so much peace
when they are asleep. I too would love to
watch Hichock’s movies with you and I’ll
cook lots of food for you. I’ll make
you fatter as well.
Inshaa Allah one day.
i return..
SMiLes my FriEnd Rafiah..
Mother’s who nurture and
people who nurture in
are God’s
for warm
and true
Loving Humanity..
and haha.. i eat too much..
if you feed me more.. i’LL have
to dance double as much
to keep
cholesterol down..
sMiLes.. but would love
to see a movie of any kind with
you as you say.. Inshaa Allah.. one day
noW iN
SpiRit my FriEnd..:)
Rafiah speaks on another Poem
in response to a response i made
there too..
How my wilts are predictable?..:p
and by now I have had too many plates of
garlic bread that I have become fat…:p
i say.. in response..
Every time
i stArt
To really
Miss you..
You come back
And say hi.. and
That is enough
For me..
My FriEnd..
i go on to say..
And if you
Get Fatter..
Is more
Of Rafiah to Love..
You’ll sTiLL have Rafiah
eYes.. heArt.. spiRit..
And soUl.. no matter
Form of beinG hUman..:)
And now in response to her current Poem..
You kNow/FeeL.. my friEnd.. Rafiah..
i have few friEnds
who truly keep
back to me
over the years of my
life.. but what i can
say for sure.. is..
i am not the
the one
broke the
threads.. beFore..
A village was alWays the
way of human life for thousands
of years more than a nomad way of life..
lots of lonely folks out there without a human touch…
What i come to
understand now
and feel
i must
not give up
and continue to
thread a needle.. no
matter how small oF Love..
and if nothing else.. Love God
within.. and be
to have
this gift of Life..
better shared of course.. now..
but no one can stop me from giving..
oh.. and by A way.. you are becoming
a more beautiful poetess as well.. as you evolve
SpiRit and sOUL..
need never gRow oLd..
as Ocean wHole pARt of GoD..:)
A busy day of writing.. dancing in sun and sand..
visiting the Escambia Bay.. and
Pensacola State College
Gardens.. Dancing
in Public store
way at
now.. back to
writing after the
Facebook Algorithm
Video Assistant helps
provide a slide photography
documentary of the Tuesday
full Activities.. and i must say..
with trance dance electronic music..
higher ways of body and mindful awareness
comes easy aS A BaLanCinG FoRCe noW
with healing power liGht as a FloWinG Forrest
Gump Feather in Center aisle
FReEDo in that Dance
Hall so nicely
prepared in
at nows..
juST a place
for me to further
my experience of
Dance and art more..
yes.. all for FReED @lEast
for me.. Bliss in the evening
of Super-Walmart Dance while
i somewhat sadly watch the robots
of the Matrix.. The Terminator.. and
Zombie Apocalypse iSREAL shuffle
by in remnant all to present worry
state of mechanical
cognition mind
of First
so far away
from what human
beings are even evolved
to be for free.. for free.. naked
of cultural induced illusory fears
and simply happy for this abundant gift of LiFe..:)
A Facebook Profile photo share
of YellowBoy reaching up for
the stars of mid-day play
on one back
with no
worry but
reaching the next
play toy just for
the experience
of existing
in play now..
for the fight
of survive
of life..
and i say..
Play yoUr
own FucKinG liFe..
Move.. Connect.. and Create…
i for one.. wiLL
And nah.. this week noW..
is not Fredbun and Fredku
week at dVerse Monday
Haibun and Haiku original
way of doing ‘tHeRe’ thing..
that i rif my own art off of..
in individual link and themed
poetic prompt way.. it is Quadrille
instead of 44 words that i will play
as that innately.. instinctually and intuitively
in holy spirit creative deeper mind and body
BaLAnCinG soUl Voice of heARt comes free for ALL..
when i get around to it.. if i get around to it at all as streAM
flows into river and waves make Ocean Whole Poem what it is
sTiLL noW
as Free
along with
the free martial
arts of Fred FU too..
And i understand the
theme of this week’s Quadrille
prompt is shadow.. as i shadow in
a little later.. as the shadow kNows and Feels
@ least
for mE..:)
The En Name Test
thingie says my problem
in life is being too generous..
it says.. i sacrifice too much
to do this and i say..
There is an off
Button on line
Far removed
From work
And it IS
A Free
oF Y i..
nah.. i AM
the one who controls
the on and off buttons now..
this is no longer Government
slave mastered work.. this is for
God of Nature free that respects
my humanity in BaLAnCe as the
rest of NatUre.. too.. no
tricks when the
laws of God
are followed
within as human
Nature.. and all of
Nature.. inside.. outside..
above.. so below and all around..
all treats for those who understand
the Nature of God Nature sAMe
and that Nature gifted
as HUman
to love this all that iS..
is to love GoD sAMe
and more force of energy
to Love all oTheRs sAMe too..
in BaLanCinG FoRce of Course2..:)
The F.B… EN name test therapy assistant
for the Power of Suggestion in bRinGinG
hUmanS uP through inspiration says
who i am.. as one who
unconditionally loves..
and suggests
my life
around an empath
way.. adding beauty
to the world.. and bRinGinG
happiness and inspiration to others
too.. well.. here’s the thing.. i do this
unconditionally.. all oF iT.. even including
my all male new age renaissance art
in A most passionate way
of human
being yet..
as legally
allowed of course
noW in Blogger way
of restricted adult links..
it cost me almost nothing
to inspire others this way but
the joy of doing it that is no cost
aT aLL and only pleasure for me
to feel and spread by doing all of what
i do too.. not everyone will understand
what a full empath human angel archetype
entails as there is no sin in the human function
and form.. that wills no harm to others but pleasure
same.. in wild and freeing setting hUman Nature FReED..
just the fAct that i AM free enough to do it.. is highly inspiring
to some folks..
and other less
open minded
who play
by the rules
of older Patriarchal
illusory fears and subjugating
ways of slaving and owning
other human beings.. may
sees it as foul
and disgusting
and that is
oKay.. as
i understand
they know not
what they do
and that
may be
of a more
scared and closed
minded being of human
way.. but nah.. i AM
FREE to Love
in all the ways
that literAlly
comes.. like
it or not.. bottom
line.. God lives Free as ME..
no books.. no chains.. God FreED iN and aS mE..
and hopefully for you iF FReEDom iN open minded
and body way is what you seek.. iF noT.. yoUr
miNd alOne..
allone.. i LivE.. FReED
@Least NoW.. onE..
for mE wiTh GOD
And.. oh by A way..
tHiS iS comment
number.. 60,777..;)
SMiLes.. mY FriEnd..
Mario.. and of course..
i don’t kNow you..
less than
a grain
of Sand that
iS sAMe as pARt oF GoD
in other words.. friEnd iS
A grain of sand and
you too..
if we
are to
be full
with God
of course as
all that is seen..
unseen.. felt.. unfelt..
and beyond of what we
can even imagine as hUmans..
mY FriEnds.. oh.. the paradoxes
of the shadows.. the pARts
we tend to overlook
of life as we
A Shadow
that plays with
us as subconscious
mind rather than the one
that escapes as God.. in Mechanical
cognition of literal worry of life.. obviously..
Jesus is only human.. in original story way..
before.. Constantine and his Roman Catholic
Cohorts.. made him into myth instead of man..
even in ‘that book’.. the shadows are more
than evident as Jesus
himself says
if you
in me you
will do more than
me as i have not done all
that can be improved as works
by human beings.. per John 12:24..
and the Golden Rule gets through in
most every testament of love your neighbor
as yourself.. and Love your enemy too.. but
then there is the Paradox Shadow of Luke
14:26 that says to follow me you must
hate your mother.. father.. brother..
sister.. and children.. and that
my friend is quite a shadow
and a paradox from
the story
of the
Good Samaritan..
and Love your enemy..
and then there is live by the
sword and die by the sword and
i bring a sword and not peace.. and
if i am in a really bad mood.. and not feeling
very diplomatic.. i will just turn some tables over
and maybe yell some to let you know i am angry…
Human nature.. my friend.. archetypes of shadow
being that will not go away.. as long as we are human..
bottom line…
And even Jesus
admitted he wasn’t
perfect as far as whomever
told the story.. for the light and
shadow of he.. and the good cop..
bad cop shadow Jesus too..
but sure.. God IS A
fuller shadow
that many
the paradoxes of liFe…
briGhtest liGhTs now.
DaRkest ShaDows too..
thaT truly thank God the
New Testament doesn’t wash
away as sugar coated liFe that
doesn’t exist.. even in a fairy tale
like Mary Poppins that doesn’t have
to make sense until you look deeper and
the shadows come out and play my friEnd..
So.. you are going on the offense here and following
the words of the Shadow Jesus more than the Good
Cop Jesus who focuses more on the liGhts of life than
the shadows that drive us more in ways of harming other
folks when we are not strong enough to unconditionally Love..
Unconditional Love is the next step uP my friEnd.. when one truly
finAlly understands the dark in one’s foes and never gives up hope
to bRinG them liGht.. but first.. my fRiEnd.. one must understand the shadow
in tHeir self.. embrace it.. forgive it.. and grow stronger as mountain of Love..
as the Grinch kNows
and feels
as the
Grinch has
come out of the
Shadow.. the heARt
that drives John 14:12 my FriEnd
is the SpiRit that comes out of the
Shadow to lift folks hiGher and
hiGher with the soUL
that kNOws and
FeeLs the shadow
and iS no longer
so afraid of
the dArK
of they
wHere they
lift otHers uP
who waLk iN the
dARkest ShadoWS
oF aLL… thaT was quite
a challenge that Jesus put forth
to come out of the shadows in that
story of he.. and do greater works oF liGht
and truLy my Friend.. it is often the Chimney
Sweeps.. the watchers from the ash who better
understand the dARk and BRinG the GreAtest LIGhts…
Question is.. are you uP to the challenge of John 14:12..
to do
more than
the Shadow
Jesus then
that is
the story
oF liGht and trUe pArt
New Testament along
with Heaven is only in this
generation now per Luke
17:21 as the Kingdom of
God within that is most often
overlooked in the Shadow of now..
thaT mY friEnd is the best Good news.. oF aLL..
wE can do more in Heaven now than ever bEfore..
but sure.. only those who believe in thE me that’s
yoU and wE wiTh hands and feat of God more than beFore..
as any
from Ashes/
kNows and
FeeLs foR noW..:)
John 12:24
New King James Version (NKJV)
24 Most assuredly, I say to you,
unless a grain of wheat falls into the
ground and dies, it remains alone;
but if it dies,
it produces much grain.
Rains Grain..:)
PS.. thAt IS
A Fredbun/Fredku
And for those ‘other’
‘noted’ poEtry scholars..
many other so-called forms
of poEtry are all incorporated
into this one SonG without even
GiVinG iT A FucK oF thOughT as ‘step in time’..
and only those of ‘you’ not too Jealous that i now
singularly produce the longest long form poem ever
will be able to pick them out of shaDow greed..
Bottom FucKinG
liNe from God
Essence FucKs Rules..:)
And i AM
A Son of
oF God
RinGs oN..:)
Okay.. it appears
now.. i am most
properly mused
it seems.. to carry on
with the Monday dVerse
Week Long prompt as Quadrille
44 worded theme on shadow tHeRe..
hmm.. should be fun as any shadow kNows and FeeLs..;)
Hmm.. 55 liNks
so far moving.. caution..
curves ahead..;)
Hmm.. and the one
from Tuesday was
something or another
about objects lined up
on pages in predictable
ways.. to get all mused
about tHeRe.. ugh.. gag me
with a straight line of garden
bricks.. not my style for today
but perhaps a prison form theme for another day..
as shadows sing from essence back to.. ugh.. form..;)
dOwn.. uP
goes the dArk..
Down coMes thE liGht..:)
(:..Rich Shadows
itch of memories
long gone past..
past gone long
memories of itch
Shadows Rich..:)
KoaN oF LiGht..
iNk bLot
liFe bEst..:)
Night oF Winter’s SpRing
Summer Fly oF liGht hiGh..
oF Leaves
FaLL.. Feed..:)
i muSt saY..
i loVe A
sUn noW
iN poEtic
Moon kNows
no fool
wiTh no
shaDow joY..:)
for animals
who kNow how
to escape to
oF Sun..
hmm.. humans
bake.. no longer
turning.. Insanity
reigns aWay
Shadow Sun..:)
Shadows groWinG
longer as first world
ways SinG dArker
into worry..
more tread..
as shaDow liGhts..:)
Shadow SonG oF Fall..
liGht groWs dArk..
Birds SinG
oF Night
dims longer..
next year
hope for liFe..:)
my friEnd..
Hope for
A longer shadow ‘forE liGht..:)
Fear of
oF light
Sun.. Moon..
‘tween paradox BriGht..
then LifE..:)
Ebony and
Ivory shadows
noW as melody of
SonG and DancE on
Digital Keyboards
oF liFe no longer
“God is dead and; we killed him–but his
shadow still looms.”
–Friedrich Nietzsche.
Lesson of Nature
and science same…
Humans evolved to
live peacefully in groups
no more than about 150 to 200 sets
of naked eYes and hips StiLL noW wHo trUly
kNow and FeeL each oTheR from head to toe..
anything else more and less..
IS A shadow
of God
including humans
packed as lemmings
in cities of strife and hate..
from clothes of culture worn invisible of Love..
Nah.. i for one ain’t scared
to walk city dArkest parKing
lots at night.. but not a
place for anyone
less than A
leg pressing
half a ton now.. heHE..
with real man fearless Love..
other than that move
to a small
village now..
give and
Fearless Love..
meh.. now at least
it can be done somewhat
virtually and vicariously online..
from the biggest roach motels oF all
in desert lands of fear too.. my FriEnd..
as the
of cultural clothes
continues to groW iN
dARker and liGhter ways too..
iN ParadoX
Ha! form
aWay from
A pan aLL now
theISt oF God plUs..
He!.. Essence.. LoVe
oF liGht ShaDowS noW..
Ignorance aWay from Free aLiFe..:)
side note..
either God
lives within
or doesn’t..
oKAy.. back
aGaIN.. yes..
to A original
scheduLed poEtry
ProGram.. as pArt
allthatis gRoWinG..
EmErGinG eVeN moRe..:)
Love gRows
Ocean wHOleR..
Birth by
sMILes.. i see/fEeL noW..
Art.. A BriGhtest
liGht.. A Nature
gift now greAt..
as Fearless
Love too..
iS n0
or LiGht
oF Fearless Love
for shaDows dARk..:)
LiGht consumes
dArk consumes liGht
goeS on as
dArk consumes liFe..
so why be
to eat..
as we are
all dArk and liGht..
as the
and pray
are one
Sacred and Holy NoW..:)
have no
of skeletons
in cultural clothes..
and often no need for
drink or
all can be fulfilled
as Nature without clothes..
iN sMall enough hUman Village LiFe..:)
Love iS liGht
anything less
iS dArk As liGht
too.. as travel way
oF liGht
as sNowS and
suGar wHiTe
refLect dArk liGht..:)
Side note..
it’s not that
poEtry alWays has
to have a discrete
meaning.. it’s more
that iT
and SeNses
As shadow
uP to LiFe liGht..:)
Shadows of my own
dArk reflected and projected
on Mother’s liGht..
A liGht
faiLed while
mine yelLed from
dArk.. A liGht liVinG
alone and finding allone..
no matter who
or goes.
A LesSon..
how fortunate
to be fulfilled
by living and
A leSson oF
MoTher’s Shadow
lives liGht as mE noW..
and my father lived then A
similar freeway2.. what went
wrong for me.. unTil
lost in A
away from
self-fill found now..
hmm… perHaps what
iS iN order.. soMe forAging
and Hunting to find wE allone..:)
Missing in action
a shadow
of Love..
than dogs
as empirical measures of
modern empathy goes..
sadly that’s
the way of
clothes.. warm
and fuzzy means warm
and fuzzy with sMiLes..
no matter 43 or 44 words..
can StILL
be found @44..;)
i’M not gonna lie..
i counted ALL your
words and liked
them just as
Sidenote.. here..
so the poet makes
a mistake in themed
way and does 43 words
instead of 44.. with
Microsoft word counting
the whole enchilada at 44..
and the administrator states..
i didn’t count your words but
you must have 44 excluding the
title.. so the poet says.. i use
Microsoft Word as i don’t have enough
fingers to count to 44..
and that’s
all that’s
of being
honest enough
to see the pink
elephant in the
room or not..
if you
are not gonna be
brave enough to
say what you mean
in ways of form and
rules.. why.. F iN say
it At aLL.. oh.. the webs
we weave with less than fearless clarity
on a
shadow day..;)
IF it was
me they would
have FucKinG
deleted my poem..
oh.. the rules for elder
ladies change from younger
men.. as
sure.. the strong
can stand to be
kicked around like A homeless dog..;)
Anyway.. as they used to say at work..
it’s good enough for government work…;)
Back to number 21 here..
A cave within..
dArkest depths..
and old.. juST
Awaiting aNew
to grow young aGaiN
as heARt.. as SpiRit
as BaLanCinG miNd
and BoDy reBorn as shaDow Lives..:)
Okay it’s 12:37 pm..
9282016.. on WeDnesDay..
not even half way
counting.. hehe..
off to lunch and
sand and sun dance..
God willing
TruE liGht as mE..;)
Nature aLL and
Human Nature..
ain’t it grand for
a Serpent who
his or her..
i care not
to spend a thouSand
dollars on it.. not a dime
or even a cent
of what
Am i surprised to fiNd
dARk and liGht in all things
liFe.. sMiles.. the Serpent kNows
and Senses more than sanitized liFe
of omnivore
killing hands..
Eat or be eaten
thaT pARt hasn’t changed..
Love.. AS A fearless gift..
new muscle
that must be exercised
properly aS liGht.. less
the Serpent
to strike and
bite A liGht tale..
Considering the benefits
over the dArkeR negatives bEinG noW A Furry
Warm and Fuzzy hUman.. liFe is much better
than AllAgator bait..
i have
A miracle
of Star dust plus…
it’s enough.. it’s enough..
aS Heaven plus.. @least for
me now.. as i weigh the options.. mY FriEnd..
elSE but noW..;)
Back to the dVerse Quadrille
Shadow theme prompt..
at 3:33 pm..
and will
see what
comes next..
or goes around aGain.. as
Shadow mirrors
first reflections
other than
puddles and
other bodies of
water that mirror i’s
of We.. seeing all into
each otHeR then
more than
now we
see more
F E E Lnow
be who we
a L L on E…
can be inside..
outside.. above.. WiLL
so below.. and all aRound..:)
withiN now
blue.. grey
and bLack
SpRings riSe..
fAll wiTh dArk..
grey scales tone as
melody oF Fault.. ah…but
to find within A weaTheRed hUman
SpiRit.. heARt and miNd
and body BaLanCing
soUL can stop the Rain..
so below above..
and all aRound..:)
mINd and boDy
mEnding bRoken
heArts and spiRits
SaMe.. DancE oF liGht
SonG oF HeaLinG noW..
LiGht hoMe sPeaks..:)
Hmm.. shadow
Dress liGhts
of thOughts
than Denim Jean..;)
Shadow Crowd
Trees Forest liGht..
Breeding outside
synthesis growth..
Limits come.. Fire a Savior
gRown DaRk..:)
Shadow Koan
iNk Blot sAMe..
sHade coloR
diFferent sAMe..:)
Shadow form..
not quite awake
or asleep..
Shadow ExisTence..:)
Dry cycle
human heARt..
wash once.. wash twice
StiLL a hUman pARt..
iron pressed..
spiral out
concrete liGhts..:)
iF tiMe
Had A color..
s H a d e noW..
what would iT
be.. sUre IS
A Shadow
oF liGht
Be.. NoW..:)
Shadow wiThiN..
essence as more
than form..
oF EmoTioNs
SeNses aS liFe..
goeS oN.. MoVinG..
ConNecTinG CreAtinG
or not..:)
a play of who
am thaT iS real
iS alWayS noW
A shaDoWed
as wHole iN onE..:)
Flow oF NoW iN ZoNe..
aLL aS oNe nOw..:)
Two Wolves
iN aLL
E MoT iONs..
onE dArk noW
TAste foR liGht
sMell For dArk..
TOuch f0r Victory..
SeeS Hears WolF liGht..:)
for those
wHo dare to be Shadow FReED
oF mINd
too.. Ocean
WhOle dreaMs
BrinG Fields morE..:)
Shadows oF liGht
tUrn cOld
oF heArt
DreAm Rises..:)
Fall… Not even
A shadow last yEar…
spoiLed FloWers color less..
When Winter’s
Love Shadows..
LiFe misSinG
LoveD one’s
Shadow Lives
iN eYes liGht..
aGaiN LoVe..:)
Love FliGht
oF Hawk
Love liGht..
reMinder BriGht…:)
Cats chaSinG
jusT for FuN..
jUst for FUn
plaY aGaiN
Tales for liGht Pan DancE..:)
of swings..
Love comes
in light of home
cherished Fun..:)
THeRe is a place
wHere colors hurt..
tHere IS A place
wheRe even
bLack and
tHere IS A
place wHeRE
shaDows liVe..
iNvisible to colors
oF Black and White..:)
Step one
out of
move.. move..
connect.. create
move.. move.. move
step last
step more..
Dance liFE as Art..:)
Okay that takes me
through number
44 at 5:33
pm.. now
for Dinner
and a Work
out and maybe more later..;)
SMiLes.. my friend..
Depression isn’t fair..
and really bad things
happen to good people..
as life doesn’t grade on a bell-curve
for being good people.. but what Life does
is reaLiTy.. my first real depression.. of course i didn’t
have a name for it then.. was in second grade when i moved
from my small school.. to a large Chaotic Catholic School.. where
Mean Nuns were the first thing i remember with rulers spanking hands
of kids.. and i went from the smartest
kid in a backwards town school…
to the one that had
to play
at the smarter
modern school..
private.. and well funded
for top notch teachers.. and by
the end of the year i caught up..
but the stress of being in such a cold
big place ended up with me being anemic
and not even able to eat at lunch for an entire year…
my mother took us there to be in the same home town
of my father.. but the stressful environment was killing both
me and my sister.. and nah.. no one then knew what the hell of
Asperger’s Syndrome.. per the Autism Spectrum was.. and
how stressful an environment
like that could be for empaths
with overloaded senses..
nah.. not the
kind of
Autism where
other folks are just
mechanical aids in the environment..
the kind that feels and senses way too much..
of our modern world.. and even can hear silent
alarms in stores.. like a dog might do at higher sonic
levels.. and my tactile sensitivity is still so intense i cannot
stand to touch almost anything man-made.. anyway.. the
second era of depression came in middle school..
while almost the entire school.. then.. bullied
my looks and social eccentric behaviors..
suggesting in words to the effect
i didn’t deserve to exist..
smiled too much..
at first
and they
wiped that
smile off my face..
as even the school pictures
eventually showed as depression
wasn’t a word in my vocabulary
at puberty age either.. so i
picked myself
back up..
carried on with
a smile again.. until
losing my first love..
and a full two years of
severe to off and on depression
then.. at 19.. and from then on.. ages 22
to 45 for 23 years.. working at a Bowling
Center.. Cheers like environment until age
42.. where everyone knew my name by the
smiles of norm that was me.. all
was mostly good even
though the
were always
there.. in budget ways..
change came at 42.. with
three job changes in three
years.. and in December
of age 45 in ’05..
my ability
to feel
started going
away.. and associated
auto-immune issues.. chronic
stress that i didn’t realize i had
started to take the best of me
away.. in a spiraling
dArk wHole
had no
idea of where
i would eventually
go in hell in ’08.. yeah..
about 7.7 years of Depression
for me then.. and i’ve spent about
about a quarter of my life in moderate
to Severe Depression.. Depression is a monster
who does not care.. a monster who is not like Santa
Claus or a Judgement from an Angry God who keeps
note of who has been naughty or nice.. it can come ’cause
we did our best.. always did our job.. or always took care of
the ones we loved without fail.. despite the challenges that came
our way.. it can even come from being too happy.. as often happens
to the Lottery Winner.. who loses sight of how fickle happiness can
be if not tendered with the dARk side of liFE too.. as humans
are evolved for intermittent rewards.. not instant gratification..
Seriously.. it shouldn’t be this hard for humans
to get in balance.. but my friEnd whether
or not we can see it or not..
we live in a truly insane
world.. and i’ve
already listed
those pARts in
detail here.. so need
to repeat that again..
truth is.. and i can say this
as an expert now as both a King
of Pain and a King of Happiness same..
in just one life of Heaven and Hell and
Purgatory that lasts for years and years too..
i cannot say.. i have met one sober person..
who is truly content in this life now..
my friEnd.. not even the
people i see on
TV.. but
my cat
is happier
than anyone i know
by the name of human..
my friend.. how sad is that..
beyond sad my friend.. it is an
indictment of how we all live in a
society gone insane from what it even
means to be human now.. so what i am saying
is.. don’t feel alone.. but i know you cannot help
to feel alone.. As Depression doesn’t give a FucK
how you feel.. but what i will say is.. anything is possible
in life if you never ever give up.. your life is precious.. you are
precious.. feeling and sensing life.. is the best Gift that God gives
star dust my friend.. and that is we when human.. feeling and sensing
it all.. even the grief.. even the despair.. that CAN AND WILL eventually
lead to liGht.. even if it takes a FucKinG Decade to come real..
i can’t say that any of the psychiatry professionals
did me any good.. except for the Ativan
that allowed me to sleep
with the worst pain
known to humankind
to go along with all
the emptiness i had..
but what i will say is.. the same
Psychiatrist who said i was his worst
case ever.. he in the Air Force as a Major
dealing with really bad cases of PTSD and
Combat Fatigue for the veterans of war then..
and by the time.. 7.7 years had ended our
relationship.. after he offered in ’08.. to
arrange for a vagal nerve stimulator
to be put in my chest for
me to feel something
of emotions again..
yeah.. like
a heart
of feelings.. he left
his practice to teach movement
therapy.. as he told me i inspired
him to do that.. as he saw my
movement therapy cured
me in real time..
as it worked
for me..
and the
same for my
Licensed Social Worker
Therapist.. who gave me what
is named as cognitive behavioral
therapy and psychotherapy.. she is
the one now who asks me for advice in how
to help her other hopeless patients.. that none
of her methods work on.. who live the dark nights
of the soul my friend.. i am not going back to hell..
as i’ve made it an Olympic sport not to go back..
in many ways of truly hoping i can help
one person.. too.. just one person..
not go to the full
depths of
where i’ve
been.. keep writing..
keep expressing your feelings..
it took me 33 months before i could
write the first word.. and about 33 more months
before empty shells became feelings with words
my friEnd.. life is not easy.. and even the World Health
Organization.. says that Depression is the leading cause
of Disability around the world.. and that my friend is no surprise
with the First World Problems of the heart we have today..
but this gift of feeling and sensing the World that
perhaps through the power of imagination..
and creativity.. is the potential
liGhtest and dARkest
place of all
in HUman
BeinG here..
is worth it for
one thing my friend..
and that is life.. in all the
ways it comes.. down and up..
may the up come soon again for you
my friend.. and may you find what works
for you too.. to stay in balance.. no different
than my Cat Yellow Boy does.. as all he has been
able to do.. is find the answers within with God..
The answers are within.. i could
find them no where
My Friend.. Zee..:)
WeLL.. iT appears that Facebook is
on strike for letting me post
YouTube Videos.. perhaps
the Hall Monitor Algorithm
is ‘pissed’ ’cause i
shared that rather
racy “Let’s All Chant”
Video.. or perhaps
the Matrix all lovin’
Rave Video.. but
never the
less.. if
i had shared
a photo of some
chopped heads off from
an Isis ‘promotional video’
that would have probably stayed..
and that’s okay.. as hey.. this is not
something i am ever gonna FucKinG pay
for.. so i’ll take it as it comes.. as free extra
hard drive to back my shit up.. as ha!.. thought
i was doing potential ‘readers’ a favor by sharing
cool music videos that superSEED tons of words..
as after all i have been writing an average
of 120K words a month to back them all
up here2.. for several months now.. hehe..
and sure obviously that is too
much for a Twitter world
now.. anyway..
in reference
to the
i just
wrote.. in the
way we communicate today..
as i just got a like back on my
comment from my Dance Friend
Cortney.. who i rarely talk
to on Facebook..
but hey..
and that is
a friend plus thing
enough for me.. hehe..
and sure.. better words as
non-verbal language has always
been 60 to 90 percent of human
communication.. in REAL FLESH
AND BLOOD WAY.. until it became
SOCIAL LIFE NOW.. so Facebook Friend
Cortney shares a status that says in other
words of photo the reason she didn’t answer
her friend’s communication on Facebook was
’cause she was snoozing.. and hey.. rest is
paramount to having any semblance of
balance in life these days of
one of extreme stress..
so Kudos goes to
sleep no matter
what.. hehe.. unless it is
too much associated with
depression too.. so anyway..
i say in generalized response..
It’s like life..
look straight ahead
and never meet the eYes of THE stranger..;)
And yeah.. that’s kinda tongue AND cheek as
Cortney is no stranger now to the strange of me..
and sure.. i can understand why ‘strange’ folks
don’t meet eyes of the Shaded ones of the
233 LB Public Dancing Dude.. at
Public stores unless they have
a few wild and free hairs
tHeir self.. as i often
find the only
sincere smiles
that are left in humanity
this way.. in a sea of sullen
looks about the overall existence
we have these days.. in Terminator/Avatar/
Matrix Machine cognition breed of life.. anyway..
Depression.. i FucKinG find it everywhere
i go online.. from the base.. anger at life
that is only anger truly of feeling bad
inside.. as let’s face it..
haters are full of
bad feelings inside..
otherwise they would do not
hate in harming others.. and that’s
the way black flowers and colored
flowers of life work.. when all is color
all is good.. when all is black.. black comes..
black is black.. joy is white.. and purgatory ‘tween
shades of grey.. is the biggest place of all.. of apathy
too.. as modern life sucks the colors of Free EmoTioNs..
as FeeLinGs and SeNses and SexuaLiTy too.. until
all is left is i hate you.. i hate you.. and i hate
them and even us some more as i..
Life just sucks Life just sucks..
and Yellow Boy says
you folks are full
of human
but the thing is.. the
grey creeps slowly.. perhaps
startS in Kindergarten when you are
stuck in desks.. quiet hands please..
no fidgeting.. keep your pencils and
or keyboards as it were and is now..
close to your FucKinG Face where
information and data download is
the new of contact in hell now.. my ‘FriEnd’..
and from then… on and now on.. how low
she or he or etc.. can go in dARk.. in Fear..
in anxiety.. worry.. and constant trembling
ways or numb dark nights of soul.. is perhaps
more unlimited than ever before in hell now..
of the invisible kind.. not easily seen on
the outside.. hidden in two-D screams
of screen.. where text
wilts to
death.. wHere
even YouTube Videos
fear to tread in bushy and fun
dance videos too.. where headless
Nah.. i’m too
crafty to get upset..
but hey.. it kinda hurts
me to see friEnds hurt so much..
so far out of the reach anymore..
to truly
even stand
a chance
to help
out of the
same dark place
i too.. used to live..
in Matrix.. Terminator
empty Avatar sAMe..:)
Hmm.. well.. unless the Hall Monitor
of the Facebook Algorithm Police
has gone all good cop and bad cop
mix.. it’s either a bug of filled up
Browser Cache.. or a bug
on Facebook’s end
as when i rebooted
i was able to share
my link to 6000 Miles
two times on my Personal Facebook
Page and the link and Nice Wife Bikini photo
as more than thumb nail photo fun.. worked
half the time on my Facebook pages for Blog
and Nature photos.. respectively too.. so i rebooted
again now.. just for fun.. to start out with a clean
slate cache for more liNks to potentially come
until Thursday mechanical cognition activities
come into Holy and Sacred R and R
activities.. including celebrating
my 128th Dance night at Good
OId Seville Quarter tHeir..
with all the cool college
age folks.. with
more fun dance
photos arriving around
the end of Rave Dance at
3 am in this 707th named
Macro-Verse of what’s the
title i arrived at..
hmm.. must
check iMac
to see..
in desk
top way..
no.. not there..
must be iPhone 6s notes..
yes! tHere it is.. the one i woke
up with in half sleep before i went
the route of Mary Poppins.. for whatever
innate.. instinctual.. and intuitive creative
Holy Spirit FeelinGs and SeNses thaT led
mE tHeRe in Synchronicity tapestry
canvas brush of painT in my hand
God ways of Being two..
i mean one.. well
yes.. THERE IT IS!
“WaY uP
oh.. Technology
helps me to be so
much “smArter” than
without it.. hehe.. lest i
forget how to remember in
flesh and blood way toos.. hmm..
and that bRings me to my next point
oF ConFidEnce as i will check and see
if one of my favorite artful expressions of
fearless comes out in Demi Lovato way as
i attempt to link that here as header with all
these words on Facebook too.. to see if the
temperament of Technology is setting itself
in trusty assistant way again.. yeah.. what about
confidence.. turn the other cheek and pacify.. i think NOT..
be calm sure.. be strong yes.. be stead fast and firm.. hell
yes.. without even a word necessary when body language
matches the word FucKinG Fearless.. yeah.. i know that’s
two words.. but ya know what i mean.. but question is..
do you feel and sense confidence.. do you reek it
from your body language like a Lion Walking
the savannah as a King of A Jungle with
no FucKinG Bruce Lee fear.. hmm..
that my friEnds takes movement
art of movement in regulation
of emotions and integration
of senses that flow through
the vagal nerve from brain
to gut.. and spread
and hormones to peptide
receptors throughout the body
noW in literAlly trillions of connections
between cells now.. no different than
neurons in your head.. and stars of skies
connecting with liGht Force God energy noW
as we or just me speaks Now.. hehe.. and that
my friends.. is where the East.. at least the older
East has a leg up on us westerners through
free flowing Kung Fu-like Martial arts.. NoW
wHeRe in my case my own style Fred FU
all intuitive.. instinctual and
innate driven by God within
of Nature wHOle me..
like Spiraling
electrons and
particles in
smaller Golden
PHI mean 1.618
spiral flow to the Galaxies
around Black Hole Suns
as Universe and GoD
laRger wHOle.. as every
alpha cat knows and feels
and truly senses like my old 20
year old neighborhood block Leader
the ‘fixed’ and i might mention when Arthur
Brown Tabby Cat with Golden eYes was just
a kitten he had complications with getting fixed..
and had urinary issues and eventually had to
have a reconstructed cat penis.. ouch.. yes..
but he lived about 19 or so more
years.. with plastic cat
penis fully in tow..
and who kNows..
perhaps that
early life
challenge is
what made him so
strong that this FucKinG
come to be fearless cat never ever
got a scratch from an intruding territorial
cat.. whipped ’em.. all gone away.. and even a bag
of bones like he at 20 years old still had the
fearless body language.. that deterred
the then 15LB Yellow Boy muscle
bound Feral cat.. from
a challenge of
cat fight then..
but it’s worth noting
too that Yellow Boy spent
his feral stray Tom Cat years
in the woods when Arthur Boy was
still toting 15 LBS of muscle cat too..
no doubt when starving Yellow Boy at
his previous 7 or 8 LB prize fighter weight
crossed paths.. with the Golden eyed claws
and teeth champion.. the Noble cat Arthur
in all his years of neighborhood block
champion then.. nah.. no one has
ever inflicted body damage to
me either.. not even a scratch..
not even in the nerd days.. as
i suppose there could have
been something in my
eye that said..
hmm.. that
is kind of a
Karmic looking eye
that in mY last Profile
Green shirted photos speaks
words of nah.. you don’t want any part
noW of the potential dARk of my Fearless
liGht my Cat friend or foe Now.. heHE..;)
“The attacker must vanquish;
the defender need only survive.”
~~ Master Po ~~
Humans can be
so territorial.. almost
like Cats when resources
are at stake.. hmm.. and we
think we are smArt.. we are juSt animals..
bite or
not to
eat.. another
mate or not
to do.. now
with Love/Hope
or Fear/Hate to be with
the addition of now more
complex emotions guided
or not by words.. hmm..
silent defense in body
language stance
of fearless
works best
without guns..
i find in the wild
at least.. late
at night.. when subsistence
of mates is most at stake..;)
“I’m stealing back to my same old used to be.”
~~ Arlo Guthrie ~~
Yep.. lots of folks could
use more of a
“Believe me!
The secret of reaping the greatest fruitfulness
and the greatest enjoyment from life
is to live dangerously!”
~~ Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche ~~
Spoken like a true adrenaline
Junkie.. likely neglected or abused
when younger.. perhaps much younger..
or perhaps just born that way..
missing the softer
glue of
and senses
that say
fill up over flowing
with moving.. connecting..
creating with each other now
in somewhat peaceful flow..
with occasional peaks
of course..
Dangerous is stupid..
Insurance companies charge for it too..;)
Risk taking can be something
entirely different.. non-dangeorus
risk taking in terms of fucking
or not..
or severe
and potentially
disabling bodily injury..
like Diving into FucKinG
untested depth of waters..
shallow in terms of reaSon2..;)
And that reminds me of some
new song i heard in our
cold new
of young to ‘middle’ adults
now that says everything
that kills me makes me
feel alive.. hmm..
a sad song
of far from fully alive..
safe and loving free enough.. to be..:)
“The man who removes a mountain
begins by carrying away small stones.”
~~ Chinese proverb ~~
There are no pills or
drinks for happiness..
gRainS of sAnds carried
over deserts of life to make mountain
Love come iSReAL noW within.. inside..
outside.. above.. so below.. and all around noW..:)
“Far more crucial than what we know or do not know
is what we do not want to know.”
~~ Eric Hoffer ~~
The greatest challenge
i for one see/feel today
is not this
but what
we have
“These times of ours are serious and full of calamity,
but all times are essentially alike.
As soon as there is life there is danger.”
~~ Ralph Waldo Emerson ~~
It’s a dog eat whatever world..
but at the end of the day..
even the road runner
and coyote are
to R and R..:)
“Sometimes you win, sometimes
you lose, sometimes you get rained out.”
~~ Satchel Paige ~~
Yes.. Murphy…
i don’t
give a
shit are on
the same overall teAm..:)
(:..at least for me..;)
“Truth is always exciting.
Speak it, then.
Life is boring without it.”
~~ Pearl S. Buck ~~
Yeah.. life is kinda
prickly and pearly
and liGht..;)
“All go down
the hooooooole.”
~~ Baby Plucky. ~~
Life IS A series
of ins and outs..
and sure.. uPs and
dOwns.. alone and allone..:)
Hmm.. i muSt say.. Play IS A way to Happiness..
and i alWays encourAge.. wiFE Katrina..
also known as the modern day version
Isis incarnate of course better
than any myth of Isis
and Osiris.. as
i was really
overseeing Hades..
also known and felt as
the Wrong Planet online..
while she tried literally almost
everything to find all the pieces of
me to put me back toGeTher.. heHE..
and this is a fun photo from last year.. in
a Blog Macro-verse.. about a SuperBLOOD
Moon.. year to almost date from a year ago sure..
too that i will get to soon.. as there is a back log
of 4 Facebook Macro-Verse Provided memories
to explore.. give and share.. neXt of course as
now goeS oN until FinALly Thursday Sacred
and Holy play comes in more for me
to eXplore for FuN.. juST FucKinG
Fun in all the ways dance
comes!.. but anyway..
to be healthy in
body is
the correct
DancE step as
poEtry oF Art liFe..
with EmoTioNs better
regulating and senses
enhanced as integrating..
more than sitting FucKinG sTiLL..
forgetting that being animal means
animate and moving more than just your
eyes and fingers.. in shoulder and arm flow
oN keyboards.. hehe of digital way if you dance
ivory and ebony iMac ones like me.. that in
this case of Keyboard is white and noW
silver,, kinda like
me too.. hehe..
at age 56 with
tan still covering
most of me too.. and
sure all of me too.. haha!..
oKay.. enough talk about play
let the play come okay.. for me2.. soon..;)
Well.. first.. ANCIENT FREDDY WORDS OF WISDOM.. one of my
first Ancient Macro-Verses from ’13.. in September
to date of then.. and what is great about
that wisdom.. particularly in
Video way is that A
chant and a Song
can be enough
to set yA self free..
so i’LL go a double
route here.. again.. and
provide the Warm.. furry.. FuZZIE version of let’s
all chant and the Indian version Dance
as SonG of that too.. for 70’s vs..
so-called native
and ‘primitive’
really sAMe
ways of doing it
as uncensored as it
can get in 70’s way too..
at lEAst for now.. on YouTube
and Facebook PG audience 13 ways..:)
Once aGain.. a give and share of Super Blood Moon of Truth and Light as i will
use all days for feast days to celebrate
this greaTest GifT of liFE.. NoW..
in GiVinG and shaRinG ways
sImply ’cause i CaN
and WiLL
WiTh thE
PoWer and hiGher
Force of SmarT and Fearless
Love as Gifted by Nature AKA God
to wE who count our blesSinGs and give
and share them as such as bRiGhter liGhter ways
oF Free way
foR NoW
FucKinG aLiVe..Now..;)
So far.. i have only encouraged
what seems like two young adult
females to dance with me at Barnes
and Nobles.. to date in three years of
doing free dance there and reading and
listening to trance enhancing music from
Alan Parsons’ too.. but sure.. good book worms can dance too!..
with sure.. a mall festival dancing bear too.. in all the ways that comes2..;)
And here.. a Macro-Verse from two years ago too.. regarding
Multi-Media Poetry and TRUEST human freedom..
it ain’t easy going against the grain
of what’s been done before.. it
can be either too little too
much and never just
‘WRite’ for the
ones’ who’ve
come before
on narrow or larger
sidewalks of sAMe.. and
that is oKay.. as history shows
when anyone deviates from the norm
as Maverick.. there will always be the
extra cautious sitters who tale the Rovers..
no.. you cannot move out of the Cave art of paint..
hehe.. i know and feel the history of this.. my kind is well documented
in wild and
crazy of
refusing to
be ignored by
pushing out even further
and further in different when
the sitters tale the Super Rovers
to stay still.. Quiet hands… don’t fidget..
take a FucKinG PiLL to kill yoUr eXtra Creative
miNd and Body thaT can BALANCE as Force greater
than beFore is sET free as wIld.. with harming neither
self or otHers from their freedom to sit still and even
stay all covered up from Naked God
within if that is what they
choose with relative
free will now..
but ha!
it’s a big globe
and if no one likes what i
do here.. the modern Information
technology Globe is almost limitless
with oTheR places to Go.. and as i Love
to empirically measure my Art in Science
ways of ReAson too.. this day was the
biggest view day.. on jusT
one blog
of KaTiE
yesterday as that
one blog of five i have
that are currently active
and public.. has gone over
156K views in three years..
with 2,683 views yesterday
with a peak hour of 1,136 views
too.. nah.. it’s not an average view
day.. but with close to 1.5 million total
views.. per my Kate Mia Google Art Sources
only page.. i get around.. no matter how strange i AM..
We live in a world.. where the most outliers of wE get heARd..
for sure..
tHeRe ain’t
no stopping ‘WE’
for now FReED@ least for me..;)
Hi.. FriEnd.. Glenn..
i personAlly like Fowler’s Definition oF Faith
as changing/evolving across the lifespan.. not unlike
Stages of Development in
Maslow’s 6 level pyramid..
in hierarchy way too..
As taken directly heRE..
From Wiki as preSented here on the topic of Faith..
“James W. Fowler (1940-2015) proposes a series of stages of faith-development (or spiritual development) across the human life-span. His stages relate closely to the work of Piaget, Erikson, and Kohlberg regarding aspects of psychological development in children and adults. Fowler defines faith as an activity of trusting, committing, and relating to the world based on a set of assumptions of how one is related to others and the world.
Stages of faith
Intuitive-Projective: a stage of confusion and of high impressionability through stories and rituals. (Pre-school period)
Mythic-Literal: a stage where provided information is accepted in order to conform with social norms. (School-going period)
Synthetic-Conventional: In this stage the faith acquired is concreted in the belief system with the forgoing of personification
and replacement with authority in individuals or groups that represent one’s beliefs. (Early-late adolescence)
Individuative-Reflective: In this stage the individual critically analyzes adopted and accepted faith with existing systems of faith. Disillusion or strengthening of faith happens in this stage. Based on needs, experiences and paradoxes. (Early adulthood)
Conjunctive faith: In this stage people realize the limits of logic and, facing the paradoxes or transcendence of life, accept the “mystery of life” and often return to the sacred stories and symbols of the pre-acquired or re-adopted faith system. This stage is called negotiated settling in life. (Mid-life)
Universalizing faith: This is the “enlightenment” stage where the individual comes out of all the existing systems of faith and lives life with universal principles of compassion and love and in service to others for upliftment, without worries and doubt. (Middle – late adulthood (45-65yrs and plus)”
When i was ill and forced as a shut-in for 66 months in the
Home.. etc.. my car in.. A Walmart
Parking Lot while my wife shopped..
as i sometimes tolerated the eye
pain a few seconds in shades view
to watch folks go
through the
doors of consumerism
21st century style..
nary a smile
that lasted
on any adult’s
face under the age
of 60 or so.. i like to think..
that at least some of them got
up to Level 6 as Lord kNows many
in the
dead StiLL
stuck on Level three
or even no Faith at all..
Faith as trust in the existential
reaLiTy of existence.. IS A pARt of Humanity
that is sadly groWing more lost as days go by..
there is
Wiki.. hehe..
and a potential
way uP
with God
as Nature within
in BaLanCinG way full
of compassion… in loving
sharing giving fearless reAlly sMaRt
way wHeRe the only tight rope and Balloons
to use are those of kNow with SensE and FeeL
of Fearless
mY FriENd.. noW..
otHer than that.. Now
yes.. more or less Faith
can be a waste of time
if with no substance..
no essence
oF iSREaL noW2..:)
Thanks.. mY friEnd Glenn.. Hopefully i will retain.. A similar
Creative SpiRit that you have noW.. as i continue to go A way oF
Senior.. My friEnd.. SMiLes.. inSpiRaTioN
is everywHere.. A thouSand
lifetiMes iN oNe..
And i sTiLL won’t
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Love iS
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hOld mounTain
LoVe NoW..:)
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Hmm.. more and less..
A Meaning oF liFe..
After Book of Fred
And Purpose
of course too..
for mE..:)
6000 Miles of DANCE WALKING! NOW!
Documenting this Public Feat of Feet in 3 years..:)
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