i wore my new psychedilic swirling colored shirt.. with the word trippin.. spelled.. just like that and with an S.. i told Katrina.. i would either be Superman or Strippin.. hehe.. anyway.. duo of trio of Charlie’s Angels.. up for the dance of tonight.. with Maggie and Chelsea.. left to right.. and another dude who wanted to be in the photo with us.. like he knew us forever.. and sure.. friendly people frequent dance halls.. as that is what friendly people do.. they DancE and SinG.. as alWays liveNed uP folks do.. we got spiRit.. yes we do.. how ’bout yoU.. When i was in high school.. i truly had spiRit for the teAM.. a powerful voice but one that had not gRoWn poetic yet.. and no.. i had no moves of Grace to get the JOB dONe then.. but it’s safe to say.. that sure.. i AM God’s Cheerleader now.. whether you can hear and or see me or not..:)
Starting off this 700th Macro Verse of longest long form poem ever Ocean Whole Poem as SonG oF mY soUL.. with a Facebook Algorithm provided Macro-Verse memory From 3 years ago.. named KroarK.. sTiLL bRinGinG mySelF out of the ashes oF a Dark Night of the Soul that lasted 66 months total.. and sure.. a little rough around the edges as anyone might be after living in a literal Earth Hell for that long.. shut-in mostly in a four-walled Bedroom and even smaller in a computer screen with mostly text.. a few inches away without prescription lenses.. with screen turned all the way down.. as any focus or light made the dentist drill like pain in my right eye that much more intolerable than it already was with those environmental measures taken to feel the pain in another Ring of a Real Dante’s Hell then in those dead zone days and months.. yes.. all 66 that were all seconds where can i make another second became i will make another second.. and now there is no feeling of time at all.. as truly all there ever is is now.. once one escapes the illusions of culture and the pain that can come from the social stresses of doing what is expected and fitting the mold.. the cog in the machine of culture one is dutifully assigned to.. mostly from birth to death.. in a meal of culture served up on a full plate from birth as well.. as soon as one is birthed under bright and florescent lights of away from sun-lit existence.. anyway.. the documentation finally of more than words.. photos.. the beauty of Nature returns for me.. without words.. and i share them.. just ’cause i can and will then same as now.. and yes.. this journey GroWinG steadily larger then for Ocean Whole Poem in Macro-Verse way requires a few expenditures to get a message across.. including the Dance of 6,000 miles all public that will ensue as of this month too.. a purchase of Nike Shox shoes.. the first of 12 pair.. for around a RE-tire change of shoes every three months.. as every three months averages 500 miles across the terrain of all public across the way.. so sure.. over twelve hundred dollars in shoes.. over 500 tattooed shirts that change another message of metaphorical meaning everyday.. for around hmm.. four thousand dollars or so.. yeah i write it out.. ’cause that dollar symbol is kinda evil to me.. hehe.. yeah.. look whose counting.. All Apple equipment.. ’cause Micro-Soft ain’t gonna be reliable enough to keep me in a constant flow of art.. every mechanical cognition duty including crappy update waits.. crappy blue screen deaths and bloated software just to get to where i need to go.. will not be enough to get an over 3 Million word Ocean Whole Poem done in 3 years.. and adding.. 60 to 70,000 photos.. along the way and another 30,000 or so in the FlickR liNk aS WeLL.. so sure.. along the way of iMac big screen at 27 inches.. a couple of Tablets.. a Notebook and iPod.. and a couple to three iPhones too.. along the way.. if ya count the iPhone 5s that replaced the iPhone5.. as it flew out of my hand dancing and broke on the hard floor in screen way then.. yeah.. about four thousand dollars there.. and if all the labor.. i put in over a total of close to 6 years doing this now arriving at the 70th month specifically.. sure.. approaching close to Two Hundred Thousand Dollars of total effort in stuff and even minimum wage labor rates all put in for a Labor of Love iN Fearless ways that cannot be measured truly in terms of Dollar Bills as there is a very empty God WHO lives in Dollar Bills.. as an external.. illusory source of happiness still.. all in day of a life of me.. a now that goeS oN in Free Verse way.. giving is the joy.. oF liGht liFE noW.. taking is a despair and dARkness now too.. so sure.. i focus on giving.. as that is the iSREAL way to Heaven constantly NOW.. a gift of grace is to give.. the greaTeSt GiFt oF aLL.. and to suggest that humans would not give if they had their basic subsistence needs met and sure they were healthy and happy in a BaLanCinG acT oF hUman BEinG.. noW.. is perHaps never to have kNowN what hUman BeinG iS eVen isREal at core now bEinG.. a creature of God who at the hiGheST liGht iS a MoVinG.. ConNecTinG and CreaTinG ChiLd of God.. uSinG iMAginAtiOn.. to make briGht liGht dreAMs come to fruiTioN.. noW.. in heARt.. SpiRiT eXpreSsinG thAT heARt iN miNd and BoDy BaLanCinG way.. as A soUl thAT iS WhOle.. and MiCrocosm of GOD as MiCro miNi-mAcro mE.. yeah baby.. as Austin Powers or the 12 MilLioN WoRd man miGht.. wiLL say.. DO.. thiS sHiT iSReAL.. and it’s going down NoW iSREAL.. and how deliciously synchronous on Labor Day Weekend that this is the Weekend.. the earliest pARts of a 42 moNth witness for the Meaning oF LiFE would be Celebrated noW oNE.. yeah.. and this was the weekend of three years ago that i purchased the first of three Nike GPS Sports Watches that would stARt to soon meaSure what is arriving at 6,000 miles of Public Dance this month.. yep.. just another Five Hundred Dollars here and there.. to make iT iSREAL thaT much more as hey.. there are so many folks who need evidence to see that iSREAL liFE Miracles liGhT.. aRE iSREAL2.. sure.. ye of little FaiTh and more than that ye of little juST doinG iT and getting A F iN Epic Labor of Love doNe.. as i roar on.. as any lIoN of God WiLL KroarK do Now2..:)
And as promised yesterday.. Matchbox Catches Fire from a year ago… Facebook Macro-Verse memory too.. and that reminds me too.. sTiLL haven’t posted the full text version on Facebook.. on my personal page and Nature and Blog pages yet too.. of the Macro-Verse before the last Macro-Verse.. as sure.. if you are gonna do something this big.. friends.. you not only liGht the Match Box for an incredible Fire.. you back it uP in many ways.. in case anyone ever has the balls to say it did not go down for iSREAL2.. nah.. put all your eggs in one basket and you feel the archetype of that realiTy all too well too.. diVERSiFy is my Fucking middle name along with Arthur of just another fun pun name for what i FucKinG EpiC AM i.. that means strong or could mean in metaphor way author and art too as Synchronicity helped to build this city with Rock and Roll too.. so what theme song shall i use.. Katy Perry’s Roar SonG or we built this city as a Jefferson Airplane or Starship WiLL do.. hmm.. i’M FeeLinG liKe wE built this city as after all tHeRe IS A alWayS an ePiC City in aLL Synchronicity2..;)
Well.. my friEnd.. you kNow what they say about all the Lost sheep and all of that.. you have served as somewhat of a great dArk muse for me.. noW.. so as a free lance and i do mean FREE EMPLOYEE oF God.. in other words.. i don’t spRead fear and hate for you tube pennies.. if you really wanna look for the iSREAL Illuminati.. you might look in places where thieves in the night would come.. hmmm.. i really do use you for a poetic muse for the technically longest witness for God in 42 months of doing that in over 3.3 Million words now.. that just so happens to be the longest long form poem in human history.. around twice as large as the previous effort of 1.8 million words that took centuries in Sanskrit writings of India and a multi-tide of free verse poets then.. anyWay.. i really didn’t think you would ever read anything i wrote here.. but it seems like you are working that alpha male thingy.. better now with a new hair cut.. and a view with the camera lenses that makes you look more like the alpha male than the omega male.. and sure.. if you wanna really get so-called real men to listen to you.. and not those boys that live in their Mom’s Basement.. and sure my mom didn’t have a basement but i didn’t buy my first home until age 33.. so sure i can relate to that as many young men who haven’t escaped the parents apron strings yet.. these days.. as social roles have become hard to find as you well do know.. judging from the praise you give for buying your first car after the age of 30 as well.. well.. the other news is YouTube has caught on to the ruse of fear and hate based videos that folks come to first when a SonG by Kanye.. etc.. about the more extreme sensual freedoms of expression is not available in Vevo way yet.. sure.. everyone looking for ‘fade’ and and some may end up here.. to listen to your fear.. hate.. and general discontent.. coming from a book that even pastors who have been to actual Divinity schools firmly know that three to four hundred thousand scribe copied minor to major mistakes iS in that so-called good book today.. and nah.. just perhaps two letters by Paul to the Ephesians are actually by a real author in the New Testament too.. and some of the other ones being forgeries of course too.. ya know the Roman Catholic Church controlled that stuff for years too.. do you really trust the kind folks that run that church.. hmm.. well.. my friEnd.. i for one wasn’t born yesterday.. i for one live now.. and i for one am a turn of a friendly card carrying ISREAL MEMBER OF GOD’S ISREAL ILLUMINATI NOW.. we are easy to spot.. we do love fearlessly and unconditionally always now.. sure we use satire.. and other literary and eTc.. artistic devices to get the deeper meanings of God aCross to those who have been led astray by the psychopathic leaning individuals who only want power and status in life.. and stuff like the next best car.. and bigger 10 Million dollar Osteen homes that take the trUth and liGht and use it for the almighty God that can be the dollar bill.. the car as lover.. and the god as home the same.. God is bigger my friEnd.. much bigger and there is no human who can Judge the God oF ALL eYes for anyone greater than the lesser of a gRain of Sand that is God too.. so sure.. just another poetic muse.. but you seem a little lost still trying still to be a trUe and liGht iLLuminati member of the God allthatis teAM now.. so sure.. i have the pity of Archangel Human Archetype of Uriel.. the Healing of Rafael.. and am protector Mike of the TrUth and liGht with DancE and WorDS instead of violence and swords now.. mY Friend.. and there is another Archangel that is Gabriel as Messenger of HUman Archetype too.. but no my friend.. i AM not just a messenger i am God’s Cheerleader2.. if you can read between the trUth and liGht of that wiTh seeing and hearing eYes my friEnd.. anyWay this is like the 6th Invitation i’ve provided you as way out of all this dArk.. fear.. hate and discontent you continue to spread here piggy backing on Pop Artist Songs when they first come out and are not found in Vevo way yet.. with all these truly paranoid things you are seeing as dArk that surely are as liGht as a naked woman’s hips and breasts seen as the bread and water of hUman liFE mY friEnd other than what the evil your fear and hate sees.. Some folks see Hope and Love my friend.. others see.. fear and hate.. trUly theRe IS A better way.. and when YouTube takes away the money part of what you are doing here.. as another one of your commenters just said they are doing now.. perhaps there will not be as much temptation from the real Satan in Hell and evil now my friend.. and that is fear now and hate propagated for the green black dollar bill of hell as well.. connect to God allthatis or connect to stuff.. your choice as alWays mY friEnd now and more about that here.. all for free.. AS God provides his Ravens always a bite to eat and drink for free.. have a great day.. please.. if You WiLL iN trUth and liGht noW…
Sure a little gift.. just for you.. anD anyone else jUSt for the Free of Doing liFE noW.. witH Fearless Love.. mY FriEnd.. sure.. i’LL be back later.. heHe.. i alWays come back and haven’t broke that promise yet..;)
Oh by the way.. when a Lamp appears in left Justification.. way.. in what i write alWays heRe and tHeRE.. iT’s probably A sign that it is meant juSt for you and everyone else too mY friEnd.. trUst mE Horatio.. you ain’t seen nothing yet of God until you escape your little bLack book.. noW tHeRe is some liGht2 in thAT BLack book.. as that is the way YiN and YanG and KarmA aLWays works iN thE sHades and Hues of GoD.. MyFRiEnD..;)
Oh yeah.. PS2.. WATCH for thE Trees of LIFe iN Left Justification way too.. and you can juSt call mE.. God’s Left Hand man2..;)
The state of human being.. IS A State with no boundaries of what can be Universe of FeeLinG liT ways noW.. or the darkest space gONe that Now never ends2.. the best thing oF aLL iS aLL of UniVerse eventuAlly changes.. from gRain of sand to largest Galaxy sAme.. to insame now oF uS in DArk too.. mY friEnd named Zee.. and tHeRe are addictions.. neither substance or behavioral that will replace the human heARt.. FeeLinGs SeNses aLL of what moves uS to greater liGht.. and all the rest that is dArker than liGht to come.. liGht to come liGht to come.. sure.. i pray for you for liGht to stay.. but trUly oNly thAT stays IS A liGht from Within.. and that mY friEnd IS A liGht that no outside Force WiLL GiVe but the Force oF aLL within.. creates.. given enough looking and finding and practicing iSREAL..:)
And.. yeah.. i remember when every water drop was dArkest hell of depression.. so cold inside.. and now all there is.. IS A Sparkling Rainbow oF liGht with or without colors now @ALL.. Within.. mY FriEnd.. the greAteST changes.. are alWAys wiThiN..:)
WeLL.. Hello the featheredsleep.. ain’t life grand and deep and shallow and narrow with waves that ravage now and streams that soothe.. Ain’t iT an Ocean with horizons wide and sparRow that comes with little yield and field to change when something obstructs an Ocean View outside of turbulence unsettling view oF LiFe so BrighT and Lovely ever MoVinG liGht for more.. even iN dArkness wHole..
YoU knoW aNd feeL iT’s magic.. the synchronicities oF liFe when one lets go .. oF aLL the shame and all the regret.. and all of everything and everything else is lefT and RiGht oF liGht.. and the next thing ya.. no.. ya got a Lamp now in left hand justification view way.. perhaps now it’s like the practice of taling yourself that getting uP.. aT 6 AM is the way to be.. and every morning at 1 second ’till Six.. yoUr eYes are opening wide alive.. or that special occasion when you notice a glow on your face that truly actuAlly you made by believing a special occasion is today.. weLL mY FriEnd.. as cynical of anything but fActs of liFE i was beFore.. but sure.. facing a death in life as death as life.. made me go for broke i don’t give a FucK what anyone else thInks of me anymore.. often accused of being more woman than man.. i blocked something creative inside.. and surely when i said what the FucK and posted a Frigging Facebook profile photo of me in my grandpa grey man panties per se.. truly something inside said juSt do that then.. and since then.. i’Ve been FReED to do everything.. sometimes my friEnd.. you do juSt have to be the Fool.. in the number Zero Trump.. card.. at the edge of a cliff with a little yellow tiger nipping at your calves.. and that reminds me.. as i hadn’t brushed my hair this morning.. had two different sandals on.. and had them on in reverse.. had just eaten taco salad and hadn’t even brushed the teeth yet.. took me a while to get to the door.. but an elegantly dressed insurance lady was there who was our insurance lady.. associated with investments and not really selling us anything.. i came outside in my Big Lebowski.. Jeff Bridges costume of wrinkled shorts/ undershirt.. in vagabond.. james way.. as at ease as any Yogi.. come down from uP the mountain now free.. and said.. sorry.. my wife and i are nudists and it takes us awhile to get to the door.. and said nah.. just kidding.. (in a way i waS and hmm.. in a way i wasn’t.. hehe2 then.. haha.. too).. and i said.. floating.. on the grass as dancing 6000 miles in 3 years will allow one to do.. sorry.. for my appearance.. i am still kinda drunk with dance from last night’s 125th week escapade of doing that with a bunch of folks 35 plus years my Junior.. truth be told too.. i was as sober as they come in a trip of fearless trust in all of what is is.. and that my friend is what i kNow as the Love that never goes away or can be bOught or sOld.. and from where i come.. if i can do this.. i cannot see why others can’t potentially do this too.. A tree with roots that says i just don’t give a FucK what anyone else thinks or feels about me anymore now.. and since then.. i feel more like a man.. and more folks in the flesh world show me respect and love than ever before and sure.. i write about it too.. just to give the Dancing Feet a Rest.. in short.. life is too short not to dance it naked without fear.. and life is way too long to watch it go by.. without saying FucK iT.. what else is there to lose but life free in tRust NoW2.. and sure.. easier said and done by a middle-aged law enforcement looking dude with $700 dollar sun glasses than the reality.. tHeRe are predators who prey on the freedom of others.. perceived as weaker in many ways.. but perHaps tHeRe is some mix that will work foR All.. i sure hope so.. bottom line aLL..:)
Facebook FriEnd.. Candice.. also kNown as noted Author thefeatheredsleep and Albinophoenix in blog way.. and the Candice name in published books way..
asks in regard to the photo of the blonde haired gentleman that i shared on Facebook too..
And i go on to explain who the photo is of..
The Fool From Aleister Crowley’s Thoth Tarot Cards.. my favorite.. as the cat kinda looks like Yellow Boy..;)
And then i say..
Wiki’ed Gawain.. hadn’t heard of him before.. but he actually would be sort of an opposite archetype.. as he followed the rules instead of the heARt of Spirit..:)
And then i add.. confusingly.. as such..
Oh Lord.. i spelled it different.. i couldn’t find a a photo of that character from a Video game named Thunderblade.. if that was what you are referring too.. anyway.. love myths and fantasy stuff.. really expanded my creativity by not just sticking to the fActs..;)
Nice to see you back friEnd gigoid.. and true.. Pain makes change happen.. but as long as one adapts life goeS oN.. in some semblance of essence of all that is.. hmm.. i aM lagging a little behind here myself.. and perhaps i’ll take a 42 month break after writing 3.3 million words or so.. I THINK NOT I FEEL NOT.. as pain killed all bEfoRE and sure pain and functional disability can come in any pARt of liFe so hUman poTenTial Squandered is life squandered away in aT lEAst the way i Look at liFe as a grey poupon liver of greaTest pain and pleasure too.. on the sunny side of that egg of being for now.. what else.. yes.. your pearls of wisdoms to choose from of course.. hmm.. liked the beginning one..
“It is not worth an intelligent man’s time to be in the majority. By definition, there are already enough people to do that.”
~~ G. H. Hardy ~~
as being born intelligent by that very word as definition.. means the mix besides thaT iF iT iS the majority as those who will naturAlly now fit in togeTher with most all stuff of life over the life span.. of course.. most humans are comfortable with homogenous.. even in earlier Scandinavian way where a child can be left on a side walk by their selves in a Stroller.. and nefarious actions are almost unheard of.. as sure.. naturAlly in this way the village raises the child in trust and comfort too..:)
“Practice Random Acts of Kindness and Senseless Beauty.”
~~ Ancient Hippie proverb ~~
Yes.. and Hippies are not the only ones who say and do/be this.. in proverb way… hehe.. of course.. noW/then noW and when i first recovered and could use my eYes and eArs aGAin.. this reminds me of a Seafood Festival.. where i was randomly shooting photos of limbs of trees above and so below me.. for the intense pleasure of capturing the beauty oF aLL thAT iS by iPhone5.. smArt phone camera then… and a woman asked someone beside her.. what is that guy doing.. sure.. with the pretense of he’s craaaazzzy don’t you know and feel as nooooo one just takes pictures of limbs on a tree.. HEr problem waS i saw and fELt God as then/now that tree.. and iT was likely juSt only sHade and not that iNtense liGht for her iN TrUth.. yes.. beFore that i missed God for 66 months.. and this was just a gift card of sorts to share.. alWays sTiLL noW.. FReED..;)
Aint that the truth noW.. my FriEnd.. i did my best to put a nail in the heARt of my intelligence and break through to the other side of luCid waKing dreAms come to Fruition.. as miNd and Body bALance SoUl through imaGination and beLieF.. same as EmoTioNs noW and seNses run free aNew.. and neVer insame agAin.. Now yes.. the first one is true.. now the.. second one iS spoken by a man with a coldEr heARt.. no different than the priests/ religions/churches/politics wHo/ tHAt killed/kill God oF Nature sAMe.. but only in their iMagiNations sTiLL..
HUmans look to understand and change for sAMe and diffeRent.. otHeRs look one way and mostly one way only..:);
I always enjoy whatever response my posts stimulate in you, my friend, even if I am not currently able to answer them all, or even read them all these days…. But, I am still here, & still your friend….
And i say..
SMiLes My FriEnd.. There is No need of Take in the Word FriEnd Whatever Gives is Enough..:)
My Love is aLiVe and it’S onLine.. haHa.. My soUl is like a wheel that’s tUrning and it’s sWirling in lines of words.. my drift if you catch iT.. iS miracles are real and you are iSREAL too.. with aLL A Miracle oF LoVe and no.. not juSt puppy LoVe A Love that sPrinGs aLiVe even hiGher than the Sun comes back on December 21st and stAlls in hemisphere death way for three days and continues to return iN alive again way on December 25th.. reborn as liGht until the SpRinG Equinox of Pan Flowers come born Easter Fresh Eggs and Teats of Mammals will say too in first birth and reoccurring births too.. until the Summer Solstice through Sirius Dog Days of August and now cloSing FaLL Equinox BaLanCinG uS for death of Winter and rebirth oF SuN as WiNter is Born.. ya see.. iF you look much deeper one will see that Miracles are dead and alive all around uS noW sTiLL.. and worth celebrating always noW aS a Love of Allthatis sacred and Holy of Theist of all one can see and feel and sensualize too.. inside.. outside.. above.. so below and all around the beat goeS oN and we co-create the SonG and DancE oF God sAMe and different in DiVerRsiTy of God all thAT iS.. as wE as uS.. wHo go farther and farther than father and mother BeFore.. giving thanks now giving alWays noW foR this GiFt oF Love.. CoMinG bacK Now alWays foR nOW.. my love iSreaL is alive.. yeah.. ooh.. Baby.. mY LoVe is alive noW.. sure.. yeah.. let me take you tHeRe like Led Zeppelin says sTiLL2.. mY LoVE oN line iSREAL noW aLiVe oNline..:)
Ah.. the 70’s Songs of mysticK.. Songs of hope.. Songs of Sad.. and Songs of what seemed like more slow dances than ever before or would be after those days of Romance eYes.. in school dances.. where face to face of Loving eYes are now replaced by bootie dances where eYes need never meet.. wHeRe breast never meets fur of man’s chest.. things have changed.. and i must say.. i’M glad i lived in heArtland.. where Families ruled with Love.. and couches talked more than electronic screens beyond a world NoW.. of talk and touch.. a twilight zone show.. so many folks live in now.. and are not even aware of what went down before.. more imagination.. more emotions.. more creativity.. more magic when humans reached out and touched each other in the flesh more than text of LoL.. a smiLiE Con.. or and a carnival of never ending cold likes and shares and followers2.. without any blood to feel living organs of Love.. playing a Song that says we are Still human.. we FeeL.. A Dream Weaver Lamp STiLL aLiVe as i..:)
Bottom line is this though.. God remembers and acts as Nature’s eYes.. we humans have abused this Earth’s Nature rather than being stewards who never take more than they give in BaLanCinG waY noW.. the Karma has come around as the snake of human swallows its tales whole.. THeRe IS A pleAsuRE and HOldinG arms and hands in a Village of flesh and blood that a smart phone cannot possibly replace as even science shows now.. as hUman Nature and Nature at core sTiLL rules our happiness.. either art and free as LoVe fearlessly or fear and doubt.. and hate and cold hard screens without the smells.. the human touch.. of flesh.. the tastes of human skin as sweet as cheeks as lips WiLL taste.. as kisses trUe and liGht.. bottom line.. all this means less human children.. population reduction.. NaTuRe fights back as any Godzilla wHole WiLL2.. wE become God oF Nature’s answer by no longer doing humanity of what once was before.. in both love and destruction of the rest of Nature then and now.. as the Piper is beinG pAiD the PiPeR’s due oF BaLanCinG waY2..:)
Alive and kicking she comes back.. and i kinda made you into a moon maiden of sorts of lost the other day.. as hey.. muse comes and goes and comes again.. and this reminds me how hilarious it is when the young women folks put their hand on my shoulder at the dance club.. not realizing how soak sweaty i am in fully male way.. in smiley selfies.. spider fingers just touching my shoulder with the tips of their fingers.. to quickly get rid of the wetter of me from head to toe.. this has really been a hot summer for that.. looking forward to the fall and palm shoulder touches.. more than spider finger places.. anyway.. i was just about to fall asleep before i saw that girl from frozen wake me up.. Shawna baby.. hi lo i hi..;)
All i kNow.. and FeeL mostly of this.. hehe.. is anything associated with sixes and nines is super sixy and niney to me.. and three quarters of that Train Station from Hogwarts too.. as magic number 9 and three quarter station 2.. and 3 for 93..2.. it’s all M A G i C K.. as every number is sacred.. particularly Holy 96.. as truly no way to get into trouble by doing 96 noW2.. bOnes and Tramposexalines.. it’s all in the watchtower as a window to secret woRlds now tOld.. nite nite.. Shawna baby.. i’M in one of those moods.. yeah.. good thing there ain’t 41 more poems to do this with now.. i reAlly can use some beddy bYes now42..;)
sMiLes.. my FriEnd Lala Rukh.. i was truly exhausted and just about to go to bed.. when i got your call.. in Word Press notification way.. and so strange it is.. as sure it’s been a little over three years since i met you.. but i was looking today.. at one of my Facebook memories.. of one of my Macro Verses of what i name as an Ocean whole Poem started with you on Word Press three years ago.. that you suggested i start in new way then.. that has now exceeded 3.3 million words.. since the first.. of my blogging all together 42 months ago.. too.. anyWay.. i saw your face on a like on that Macro-Verse there.. in what i call 700 total of those for the current one i am working on now.. wHere this will be jusT another Micro-Verse of that Macro-verse of Ocean whole poem there and yeah.. i was even thinking about you and just for fun looked to see if i could find a Lala Rukh like you on Facebook.. just to know you are okay friend.. as it is the Love that gives that is truly alWays the Love that makes our soUl.. and as you say the uniVerse Created for this gift now of Love.. makes us reflections of God when we Give Love Free.. your writings helped inspire me to Love like this my FriEnd through the Love you gave freely to so many folks that i witnessed too and that my friEnd is something i WiLL never be able to repay you for as it IS A forwarding now to otHers sAMe as you did then.. you seem well.. and that makes me happy.. and all i wish for you FriEnd.. iS Love is Love that you alWays give now2..:)
Lala returns with..
I am truly, truly honored. Keep spreading love and smiles like that forever. Honestly, you are the most positive person I’ve known so far. Love xx
SMiLes my friEnd.. Lala.. Love Is My Olympic Sport But never Competition… Never Land Of Never Ending Story As Practice Of the Medicine Love.. Love you..:)
Lala additionally says in response to another comment of mine.. per the Firework Song by Katy Perry i shared for your inspiration..
Love this Ketty Perry song. So motivational plus the music is amazing.
Her new Song Rise.. Is My New theme Song too..:)
And additionally Lala responds to another comment..
Facebook Friend Rafiah shares a Dr. Who Parody that is OMG.. her current favorite TV show and source of online social talk on FB..
And i say..
Rock Horror Picture Show Parody too..:)
And ugh.. Dr. Who is not on in the U.S.. on PBS Tonight.. But I’m Understanding this Better as Archetype for The Real Human Experience For The Dark night of the Soul.. When one is sure they are now going to die and they transform and are born again in life.. And This comes From the most extreme struggles in Life.. Cross cultures there are many examples of this including the Who who transforms many Times Across Series here… Superman And Neo Use a phone Booth too as Metaphor Potentially Borrowed From Dr. Who.. Small world.. Mate.. and the Rocky Horror Picture Show has artful elements of this.. Similarly2.. And Yes.. This artful human archetype in literature has deep roots.. even in the Jesus Story2.. And the Sun that dies for 3 days on December 21st in stalled ‘movement’ and comes back to life on December 25th.. reaching for Spring and reneWED liFe on Earth around Easter2.. Science.. Rafiah Baby.. Science now lives iN Art.. alWays including religion2.. as the rabbit hole grows deeper and continues to make common sense.. for those with eyes and ears to see it..:)
And now i say.. the Hans Selye.. General Adaptation Syndrome.. otherwise known as animal exhaustion from never ending physical and or emotional stress is also similar across cultures.. of course.. and particularly in modern days of non-ending real and illusory fears in every day life.. and the more intelligent a person is in terms of remembering.. feeling emotions and senses the more likely they are going to experience one day.. life like a cat caught in a never ending lightening storm in a cage in the middle of a F iN never ending wind of a life threatening Hurricane.. ultimately Tornado of Jesus F.. in Christ.. even potentially worse than crucifixion pain for 66 months from wake to sleep like me with type two Trigeminal Neuralgia.. the Dark night of the soul is a real deal and for those who have gone to the darkest places of General Adaptation Syndrome.. they have most definitely seen this place up close and personal in devastating human disordered way.. and when my legs started getting cold in the Summer.. and a breeze chilled me in 100 degree Temperatures of July.. it was my body taling me to escape never ending stress.. but i had lost contact with mind and body balance.. years before.. and now i was lost then in a head of stress and empty of dreAMs of imagination.. and creativity renewing in RE-cReATioN way naturally in personally guided within activities to achieve continued animal homeostasis in miNd and BoDy BaLanCe and hears the deal.. there is weakness always in fear.. there are stress chemicals within produced.. over the long term that act like battery acid on the brain and body kinda like drinking a very slow burn of drano.. Stress kills.. yes.. even science shows stress in these ways of acid like stress hormones.. will break down all parts of the human vital bodily systems.. from nervous.. to respiratory.. to endocrine.. to cardio-vascular.. yes.. the list goes on and on.. and no.. ‘they’ have no idea what causes or what stops the Trigeminal Neuralgia.. worse than crucifixion pain that in my case was like a dentist drill in my right eye and ear.. beyond FucKinG what most people understand as possible for human pain.. unless the Dentist forgets to numb your FucKinG mouth first before he starts to drill deep.. deep down to the roots of the pain receptors of your teeth.. worst thing of all is like me.. even with a huge team of doctors.. this worst of most all human functional disabilities is totally invisible except for the grimace one may make on face.. when any light at all is shined in their face.. and some folks are perhaps luckier as most folks don’t experience this in their eye and ear.. so sure.. my task of JOB.. was met by pull up your boot straps my chap.. even by the ass whole neurologist who told me basically get out of hear.. you are just anxious.. not even thinking that what i have could be the worst pain known to mankind then.. before a pain specialist two years later diagnosed it by process of elimination.. sticking some lidocaine way up my sinuses.. that made the pain go away for a FucKinG split second where some folks got relief for frigging hours or more from this procedure then.. and now still.. anyway.. that wasn’t all that came from two years of flight or fight stress.. there was Sjogren’s Syndrome that a full two years before this started attacking the blood vessels in my feet.. where about the time i watched the movie happy feet in ’06 or so.. having no idea i would one day be the human version of that blue eyed penguin then.. my feet hurt so bad even touching something with them.. was incredible nerve pain.. and i was so hard headed.. i didn’t even go to the Doctor then.. but it took a rheumatologist to finally figure out what that was years later.. when my eyes quit making tears per Sjogren’s autoimmune system disorder too.. and yes.. all autoimmune system disorders can be associated with chronic high levels of human social/emotional/ physical stress over extended periods of time.. along with Fibromyalgia.. and Dysautonomia that it took a Rheumatologist to diagnose as well.. Severe Degenerative Arthritis and Stenosis of Spine where these are structural issues but the extreme pain internal management of pain is disrupted by long term chronic stress as i have the same issues with almost zero pain now.. per MRI’s and other measuring ways of structural infirmities as such that the body finds a way to compensate for in both pain management and collateral strengths when mind and body animal homeostasis also named as balance is the natural way of life to survive and thrive alive.. like most animals do in every day life.. without all the FucKinG inSane illusory and real fears that modern so- called Advanced technological societies bring in first world fucking problems… where in third worlds in terrestrial way.. folks can at least fucking smile with so much less to stress them out in FucKinG culture and TV made.. etc.. illusory fears.. sure and even religious too.. some folks are thinking the end of the world is always around the corner.. FucKinG American Indians were so much FucKinG smArter in the most important intelligence of Emotional.. Physical and Existential Intelligences over what we currently define Standard IQ as a measure of how well you will perform in school to be good little non-human robots.. as cogs in a machine to keep the creature comforts coming.. overall that are shooting ourselves in the human animal foot for balance in life in the same Twilight Zone show of human in a never ending nightmare of hell on earth for many folks as the World Health Organization suggests the greatest cause of human disability world-wide is depression and depression is just another symptom of general adaptation syndrome of the burnt out human in emotional and physical way.. we are FucKinG hUmans.. we are not machines and the Terminator metaphor is an excellent metaphor for we as human beings made more into machines than flesh and blood hooked up to a terminal of a flat box screen for hours on end.. and on my KATiE MiA Aghogday Blog.. perhaps the most important blog post is the one on Autism Spectrum Burn-Out.. a very simple post but a vital one to understand.. even if a person is not a Canary in a coal mine of who i was then.. with super empath-like feelings and spidey senses.. that made me an almost perfect human candidate.. to go to the dark place of the soul and come transformed back out to help teach the world to get back in balance.. rise.. and once again thrive as human being animal.. in what truly can be a metaphor of a peaceful harmonious place of heaven on this terrestrial plane like the five year old.. before screens of screams came along to take the five year old away from nature to a place of lifelong nature deficit disorder as is common now and a Global Spreading iSREAL Disease that continues to lead to much misery and suffering.. folks.. this is real deal.. this ain’t no potential path to a metaphor of hell.. this is the highway to hell.. the iSreal highway to hell now.. straight to the slow burn that never ends the pit and potential rise again from Tardis phone booth of life in transformations light to a free and wild child of God once again.. literature and all of art has been ahead of science on these real human hardships at root of problem of many centuries where folks scoffed at terms like Neurasthenia and Nervous Break Downs as all psychological without the real physical breakdown of the human mind and body.. live and learn.. do preventative medicine measures for lifestyle balance.. or suffer the consequences of action in iSREAL Karmic misery in life.. fortunately.. there are ways out.. but to do that one may have to give up the dollar bill as God and replace aN iSREAL God of Nature for that to truly be a success in God’s Balance of Nature in uS.. in thriving alive survive.. now on this terrestrial plane of Heaven iSREAL..:)
Religion, philosophy, science, arts and other disciples of knowledge make the life of mankind worthwhile in so many ways..:)
And i say in return aGain..
Yes.. mY DEar friEnd.. Rafiah.. put iT aLL toGetHer and you geT Dr. wHo2 iN yoUr bacKyard2.. plus Fearless LoVe..;)
So.. what would the call of God Be.. Wild and Free with human same as with any other domesticated animal.. Jack London taught this lesson long ago.. so did the reported Gnostic Jesus.. at least.. in Verse 37 of the Gnostic Gospel of Thomas where he says to find the living God within one must shed tHeRe clothes of culture and tread on them without shame.. done it.. how about you.. shame is fear of rejection from other human beings.. regret should only be in harming other human beings at core of what it means to be humans with relative free will.. to do as their God given Natures in True WiLL intimates within to do.. without consuming others with harm.. other than the food and drink.. that is necessary of life.. and sure it’s true that in many ways sex is consuming others.. ask a spider about that and sure the Penis is at core a weapon for the domination of reproductive success.. as a spear to go inside and leave something behind to make life.. however humans and other primates like Bonobos have something greater named empathy and compassion for each other that shines in eyes.. and iT says i’ll share your pleasure i feel your pain and i do not want to harm you in anyway.. so sure any religion that does not condemn human slavery in all the forms that comes from no matter war or rape that comes from non-conSenSuaL Dowry institutionalized religion.. is no religion oF God aT all.. it is only a religion of human that wants to control other humans through fear to advance tHeRe own selfish and social causes like expanding territories for truly subsistence and reproductive resources required.. just to continue to survive now in life.. yes.. religions are made for borders of control and illusory fears to make those borders of control expand for more material success to gain subsistence then still and now.. and sure that is part of God given Nature in Dark of fear too.. but where tHeRe is abundance of resources where share and give is the rule there are no needs for illusory fears that we still see in desert lands of barren still today far and wide.. around global reality still.. but truly the only way humans will survive and thrive in balance.. is if all the illusory fears that are human made beyond.. the only two innate fears of falling and loud noises from birth that when per example if someone with a large enough in decibel growl like i can make now into a roar to let that go in a dark parking lot to spark the genetic memories in others of the sound of the jaws with teeth that could spell tHeRe IS A predator that can eat you from close or thunder and coming lightening that can strike you dead if you do not seek shelter soon.. illusory fears kill what Maslow names as the ascent to higher pyramid rise of human now.. bottom line.. there is no heaven now with illusory fears.. and those illusory fears most definitely as even Jesus reports are the real highway to hell now and never finding heaven in the only place that is in this generation always now juST noW.. the RX is simple.. Fearless Love.. cultures and religions are still the camel.. and the Call of the Wild and Free is Gods’ Voice still pleading.. come through an eye of a needle of Fearless Love now.. sure there is plenty of water and bread… but only you can drink/eat it with trUe and relative Free WiLL..:)
As Bang Bang Bang.. big Bang way still in “700 MacroVerse dreAM” that is the new name of this 700th verse of Ocean Whole Poem and pre-blog way too in 74 Verses there that just so happens will start 777 after 911 hits.. yes.. total for public God blog witness.. 42 months then.. three small but powerful Macro Verse memories from two years ago.. very much inspired by one of my first heARt and sPiRit and soUL forever friends online whether i ever hear back from a couple of them ever again.. they were the muse.. the fuel that started the match of all of this.. a very logical girl.. a very heart lost girl.. and a very soulful girl.. Lala.. too three muses of iSREAL from stART.. with many thouSands more that came from all walks of life now.. as the paths of journeys whole and the Rabbit hole goes deeper and deeper sTiLL isREaL.. a Wonder Land in never ever ending story of never land OZ now.. hidden from plain view in a rather simple looking blog face still now.. but oh so deep as 3.3 Million plus words and around 100 thousand photos and thousands of videos and music can go.. go go go.. sTiLL.. hahahahahe.. and sure i’ve made it so a never ending story goeS oN iSREaLtime now on Facebook too.. where over 100K words in every month comes now.. and so many visual illustrations come2 almost 24 FucKinG hours a day.. hehe.. like a Storm alert of PoeTry goeS oN iN somewhat perfect practice of Storm noW.. oN..;)
Short story here of video expanded in words.. Nature has balance until humans FucKeD the balance uP by running over it with a tractor of culture now.. the chicken has always been here.. it’s only humans stupid enough to ask about the egg that is now.. duh.. life is living now.. lose it by living in either the past or future of this most beautiful blue.. green.. brown.. and white snow capped diamond of liFe.. can you see the liGht yeT.. Jesus F. iN Christ.. it’s everyWheReNOw..:)
Perfect storm of Love.. the practice oF it continues to repeat as hiStory says so too.. in all the dARk and liGht and hUes and sHades of colors and bLack and whitE too.. bEyond the human rainbow oF iMaGinAtioN and creativity sAMe.. and sure.. the prophetess Katy Perry and her cohorts get it Deep as the same mythologies of past and PreSent tale the sAME Jesus F iN Christ human archetypes as God within continues to break free and rise to the top of the pyramid in self actualization of human all seeing eYes of what they see for noW iSREaL.. and if you do not understand that this Love will make you flOat with Gravity now.. perHaps you haven’t danced with mE yET.. as thiS sHit iSrEaL..:)
So sure.. in terms of Neo.. Buddha.. Jesus.. sure.. in someways Muhammad too.. myths of Krishna.. Krishnamurti.. Lao Tzu.. and many millions of others more who are soldiers of God as a horse with no name.. we all seek to help the human race progress in total harmony and peace.. i mean.. Jesus F. In Christ.. even coke Gets that.. Fearless Love.. MoVinG.. CoNecTinG CreATinG an iSREAL Heaven noW thaT is no wHere but now.. as now is all tHeRe is as even science shows now.. and yes.. with iMaGiNation as DreAms of inventions like Dragon Wings of Leonardo become helicopters iSREAL now Fruition too.. tHeRE are no limits or expectations noW that cannot be exceeded iN hUman poTenTial as LonG as wE hOld hands iN Balance WiTh GoD aLL of NatURE too.. but as always the first step is eliminating all illusory fears as all illusory fears are one path only and that my friEnds IS THE ISREAL HIGHWAY TO HELL AS HISTORY HAS ALWAYS SHOWN FOR NOW TOO.. WITHOUT FEAR WE ARE STRONG FOR LIGHT TOGetHEr.. WITH FEAR WE ARE WEAK IN WIMPER DARK.. i choose Fearless Love.. we got spirit.. how ’bout you.. GO.. GO GO GO.. GO.. GO.. TEaM LIGHT NOW.. AS JUsT ANOTheR CHEERLEADER OF GOD ALL SAYS NOW iN iSREAL2..:)
OKAy.. quick commercial break of smAll talk heRe..
AS the EN name test thingy provides a very nice video summary of fun profile pics over the course of years.. i continue on here by saying2..
WeLL.. the EN name test thingy.. now is not nearly as cool as the Facebook Algorithm Robot Video Slide Show Production Assistant.. as the EN name test thingy people.. i mean.. Computer Robot Algorithm.. doesn’t let you store the Video.. for later use.. surely.. they will improve though.. as technology continues to expand in transhumanist way..;)
Okay.. back to the regularly scheduLed proGram oF DeeP sHiT noW PHD’s piled higher deeper sTiLL.. a hit parade aS SOMeThiNG..;)
sMiles.. thanks Marilyn.. most every time someone compares what i do here to someone else in the poetry world.. i get my trusty Wiki tool.. out to see who they are and what they do in the poetry world.. poetry.. ha.. i am diagnosed on the Autism Spectrum.. with Asperger’s syndrome in middle age.. and my style of thinking and speaking was often metaphorRed as computer.. mY Friend.. wHere my social butterfly friends flew circles around the analytical miNd oF Y i.. and truly from a young man with three college degrees and little ability to creatively express my self in social success ways.. from writing to even speaking.. my greatest desire in life was to create original art.. and in college ha.. burdened with ADHD too.. until the light of dopamine producing screens made the focus of reading 10 to 15 times faster than the average human possible with the super focus of light required for me to expand my word view then.. hehe.. the piano lifetime hobby helped too.. to bring speeds of 130 words a minute or about as fast as the mechanical limits of a keyboard can go and yes here i go in sometimes painful detail of analytical details.. that can make headaches for many folks who do not go as fast as i can go now.. anyway.. truth be told.. i never saw the value in poetry earlier in life.. totally retarded in poetic knowledge.. i was then.. except for a strange breakthrough in middle school one time where emotions and language suddenly glued to win a Christmas Story in two homerooms then. a short stint.. in a philosophy class early on in college but later after.. my brain was already further drown in analytical years of making A’s to restrict my brain that way.. anyway later in college i checked out a book on creativity in hopes of learning it in book way analysis then.. and i checked that dam book out more than 20 times.. but my brain was so worn out by analytical activity.. that i had no emotions and senses left in what could have been miNd and BoDy BalaNce to even read that book then.. when i shed school and culture for enough years.. in the heavy regulations of law like culture of 25 years of Government work too.. there was that spark deep within.. just waiting to come back.. at age 53.. true.. but first i had to escape the heavy drown of the analytical mind.. my friend.. i free associate it all now.. and the more i go in different paths the more i do and the more i change.. and sure.. after reading about Blake that is a nicest compliment.. too my friend.. i didn’t like being a cardboard box.. i am so FucKinG proud to be crazy now.. most everyone in the DanCinG world think i do drugs or something to dance as free verse as i do too.. oh.. the wild and free my friEnd there is no label for this but free.. but free mY FriEnd..;)
SMiLes.. my Friend as you share yoUr Love in all the artful ways that comes.. its true no one will ever forget you.. i just have lots of time on my hands to tale you these things.. and photography.. haha.. the capture of the now.. the moment wHeRe we capture beauty as practice all of more life as existence becomes deeper beauty.. as trUly mY friEnd.. wE are only as alive as the moment is full of deep admiration and thanks for all the beauty of life that is possible now.. expanding heaven now is through the art of life.. in all ways that hUman MoVinG.. ConNecTinG and creAtinG coMes now.. i love visual images as truly after even 12 million words since November Thanks Giving Day since 2010.. online now created as such.. i was never a word person.. until i lost effective use of eYes and ears.. from my pain disorder of type two Trigeminal Neuralgia that started in 2008 with other autoimmune issue foot pain in 2006 that has evaporated with DancE and SonG noW iN many ways.. including art of photography.. noW mY FriEnd.. a picture tales an iNfinite number of words of beauty.. dArkness and liGht the sAme.. and even fLaws mY friEnd can bRing hidden meaning Rise to the top of the parachute of dArkness for ascension of huMan heARt.. SpiRit oF expreSsinG EmoTiOns raw and trUe.. and BaLanCinG miNd and BoDy soUL isReAL noW for aLL who lose illusionary fears.. and sure the mesSages of liGht and dARk.. and aLL hUes and sHades oF colors bLack and wHitE.. can be found in the reflections of even jUst one photo my friEnd or even the solitary number one that can bE aLL oF liFe aLL too.. i have a powerful computer and Broad Band Internet access.. show me a thousand pictures and i will make 12 million more words to tale you anoTher lalaby sTory of Life noW mY FriEnd.. Lala Rukh.. WiNks or perHaps i already did.. as life iS alWays worth SavinG and LIVinG foR noW no matter wait in reflections pain.. iN shadows of the Divine.. shall i say i love you.. sure.. i will paint that picture for you.. and all otHers with words and photos sAMe and.. if you could dance with me as many otHeRs do… surely you could feel it more too.. as love is white and briGht wHeRe even shadows now no longer hide.. riSinG as LiGht..:)
SMILes my friend.. gigoid.. i Now have 100% faith and hope and belief in Love oF noW.. FEARLESS.. tHeRe is never any waiting or time in Heaven now.. iSREAL iT iS but only of course for my style now.. can anyone prove me wrong with empirical analysis.. sure.. if they can meaSure a sMiLe of INfiniTy NoW juSt now.. heaven is not a book.. not a page.. nor a word or number too.. Heaven iS FeeLinG iS A SeNSatiOn oF Real Eternity noW.. How to put Eternity into a word.. sure A Dog’s SMiLe.. T h R E E… mY friEnd.. i kNow.. no thing but iSREaL NoW2.. IT doesn’t take a rocket scientist NOW to understand this.. just a dog that now sMiLes And humans NOW who are too stupid to realize thaT DOG is reAlly sMiLinG noW iN Heaven Now.. onLY folks who live iN Heaven truLY understand this mY FriEnd AFAIK.. and for anYone who calls dog less than God.. they live in at least a broad spectrum of HeLL noW.. hmm.. Heaven is rather narrow in terms of no time NOW..:)
WeLL.. according to Microsoft Word.. i’ve written over 10K words in a 26 hour period of one day.. now it’s a go for a Marathon now of public store dance for 26 miles iN two days.. for a half a marathon or so each day.. and sure 5 or 6+ thousand more words somewhere between now and when i publish this next 700th Macro-Verse oF Ocean Whole Poem then.. on Monday the 5th of September 2016.. how do i do it.. simple.. Fearless Love.. With 100% Faith.. Hope and BeliEf in alWays thE experience of FeeLinG Now And SenSinG Heaven noW..Now.. iN MoVinG.. Connecting.. CreaTinG ways.. the Sistine Chapel.. Leonardo sketches.. the theory of relatively and Einstein iMagiNary Flow as 100% laser focus in cognitive executive functioning now.. with 6000 miles.. or so of dance for me to go along with 3.3 million words in 3 years of Witnessing for God of Nature allone noW iN 42.. months approaching 777 total pre and after Ocean whole view poem on 9112016.. more to come then.. as longest long form poem ever.. hmm.. so wHo am i but me noW juST mE… F iN FReED Now noW2..:)
Ah.. the Nostalgia.. of the Facebook Algorithm.. video slide show-maker.. a full pre-store dance nature display free.. with a pre-lude to a Sith inspiRinG store dance.. in all of Katrina’s Favorite stores..;)
Yeah.. i guess ‘you’ are correct.. better to vote for the devil you know vs.. the one you don’t kNow.. And speaKinG of thAT someone has taken down the liFe size card-board cut-out of the Hillary at the Toy Store in the Mall.. can you believe that.. the only choice left to vote for is this Devil.. hehe.. hmm.. at least the other guy could make an original pose.. after all this is the funny age.. Don’t Ya kNow and feeL for aLLs aGEs2..;)
So.. i’m dancing in Starbucks.. ya kNow.. with fancy foot work and really slow leg turns.. Katrina says.. they are all watching your legs and feet.. and next thing ya kNow.. the nice Starbucks Lady tales ’em who owns me.. hehe.. with my all caffeine free totally over priced Star multi-bucks drink.. marked as Katrina’s Fred hmm.. that we get free as we use our credit card interest free just to get free Starbucks points.. haha.. trust me.. if you were as cheap a date as me.. you would get rich no matter what.. in terms of legs and feats.. too..;)
Only one Facebook Algorithm Memory from two years ago.. per look at you and remember me.. provided by the hmm.. mostly trusty robot of Facebook.. but not always and as any free service.. one cannot really complain too much in how that free service changes freely as well.. to keep it free.. and for some reason my muse of profile pics are no longer embedding on Word Press.. and if there are faces in the profile pics the embed function is no longer working properly.. so i’m getting the error message in the comments section on my blog for the photos that say.. this post pic not available anymore.. but as i recently said.. for one who massively creates.. don’t put all your eggs in line basket iN free platform of sharing.. as sure.. they are not always reliable.. and those photos are shared on my blog in the main post on a website i pay for.. in terms of Word Press dollars at 299 of them per year.. to ensure i can download a zillion photos.. and too much is never enough hehe.. anyway this has happened to me before.. too.. the speed and massive volume of information i put out as well as word play style has been confused in the past.. by both the Google Search Engine Algorithm and the Google Blogger Algorithm Policeman and the Facebook Hall Automatic Monitor as a bot Fred instead of A real iFred.. and that is the price of human potential.. being confused as something beyond human in transhumanist way these days as hey.. i’m moving forward not backwards and technology is certainly an assistant in that way.. and as far as the paths and journey i go as a social animal in a nature reality that says you must belong and conform to the social group to survive.. this ‘normal’ nature requirement is somewhat replaced by they online world.. in at least text and photo and video human interface for social support that can be found in nooks and crannies all around the global place now.. so a person can still fill and feel a part of a somewhat cyber space society now.. as created along the way.. for those who see somewhat eye to eye and face to face with ya.. so in other words.. one must understand human nature as God of Nature given Nature.. to accommodate the challenges of life.. adapt and move on for greatest Neuroplastic and Epigenetic human potential.. or nah.. they don’t have to do it.. per relative free will.. they can do what everyone else does and everyone else tales them to do for the traditions of culture no matter how illusory and truly insane they become even away from basic human nature in animal homeostasis way.. we create our realties as actors in plays that other folks have created long in the past or continuing now.. some of us follow the scripts closely and never vary hardly at all.. but others of us figure more of the play and actors and production of it.. and go our own way.. not forgetting our human nature but using it to our greatest advantage along with technology in the positive aspects of that now.. so i am as i the director of my own play.. and producer same.. the capital I of i is the actor that i direct to be and do whatever i wanna do and be now.. and the exclamation point! is the SpiRit oF i as expressed by I.. all the nows i create now.. as my own dam acted.. produced and directed play of liFE noW.. and the narrative you read is the reaLiTy thAT iS.. and sure in the modern day of Heaven is now.. we can make this place iSREAL or not.. aGain the eye of the needle and the camel of the other place.. i is the needle now..:)
So.. today.. we have the other polar opposite Jesus.. at Catholic Church.. in Luke 14:25-33.. you know.. the one that says “If anyone comes to me without hating his father and mother, wife and children, brothers, and sisters, and even his own life, he cannot be my disciple.”
And yes.. full stop.. this is where the Bad Cop Jesus.. and me at least.. totally separate paths like a fork in the road..
Sure.. turn the other cheek is a mighty noble suggestion for not harming others after one is harmed by others.. but sure.. a little much.. as this great gift of life is worth defending.. and to suggest that life is to be hated.. is truly insane.. bottom line.. and sure.. this is quite honestly what cult leaders do to indoctrinate folks.. make them hate their loved ones before the brain washing starts.. and it was quite amusing to see the priest today in church side step the FOUR LETTER WORD HATE.. AS HATE IS HATE IS HATE IS HATE IS THE HIGHWAY TO HELL in a world that is diverse.. where there are solid reasons why folks have different opinions about life.. and that is where understanding comes into play.. sure dissension and standing up for your beliefs even if that means being hated by those who used to love you.. before you stand up for folks not in their ‘social circles’.. like the slaves as black folks before.. the right for a woman to vote.. and now homosexual folks and transgender folks too.. who are finally getting their rights to be human as God makes them different.. yes.. the God of Nature of course.. and science even proves the innate factors of this now too.. now.. hmm.. oh yeah.. and there is that other Bad Cop Jesus.. part that says i did not come to bring Peace.. i come with a sword.. anyway.. it’s a well known fact.. from most all the current biblical scholars that most all the books in the new testament except for two now.. are written by someone else yes.. other than the so-called labeled apostles there.. including Luke as well.. too… Whoever the real Jesus Dude was.. where nothing was written down about his life until around 4 decades after his life.. was over.. after many different sects and some ideas about 12 Gods and other Christianity sects that said one God.. the Educated Greeks decided what to include of what was orally transmitted or not.. and scholarly studies show from then on.. scribes that copied the writings by hand.. made three to four hundred thousand minor to major mistakes along the way.. sometimes adding in stuff they liked or taking stuff out.. Jesus F. iN Christ.. even in a 30 minute round table of passing a phrase around a table.. it will change by the time it gets to the speaker again.. human memory is fallible.. A well known scientific fact that what we think is what happened is most always different if there is a video that can show what really happened in life.. so who is to blame for something as divisive as these statements.. truth is.. we will never kNow.. could be this or could have changed in the first 40 years of oral tradition.. and after.. but surely.. with understanding in Cognitive empathy way we can agree to disagree without FucKinG hating our loved ones.. and never speaking to them again.. as that is literally what that means.. or who knows.. even using a sword against them.. instead of going the St. Francis of Assisi ways of make me a channel of your peace.. whose peace.. the peace of hating your loved ones if they don’t agree with what you believe.. nah.. that’s just plain ignorant and an ancient way of viewing the world.. and no.. there is no way to defend this.. there is great stuff in the New Testament.. particularly the part of Luke Chapter 17.. that says the Kingdom of God noW is within.. but there is a better way than hating loved ones over disagreements that are gonna happen ’cause humans are diverse in innate propensity for progressive thinking and accepting differences of others same.. and today when i was visiting some Fundamentalist Baptist folks on a farm.. the issue of Transgender bathrooms that in our county are mandatory in some elementary schools now.. came up and was blamed on Obama.. and i went on to say.. hey.. you might not believe it now by looking at me.. but i was viewed as a girl when i was in middle school.. cause i was thin.. had long eyelashes.. green changing to blue eyes.. a pretty boy yes.. and verbally abused like hell about it too.. and if you think that was my fault that God made me look like that no it wasn’t.. God made me that way.. when young.. and sure.. i am all the literal ‘rave’ still with some women.. still at age 56 now.. and stronger than any man at the military gym in at least one exercise there.. even too.. but no.. it wasn’t always that way.. but let me tell you… this is a science and physician manner not a matter of just someone’s opinion.. and the highest rates of suicide are among folks with gender identify disorder.. and then the person i talked too.. said yes.. maybe the parents don’t want their children to commit suicide.. sure that makes sense.. i’m thinking duh with a smile.. and sure we got the abortion speech today at Church as Mother Teresa was being canonized.. but what about.. the fact it’s illegal in Mexico.. and there now are still as many unsafe abortions.. resulting in permanent disability.. and even infanticide and such as that.. for even more human misery and suffering.. why the FucK don’t you support effective birth control if you want to reduce abortions.. as unwanted pregnancies never have to happen in the first FucKinG place with effective and safe birth control as educated.. as science shows abstinence just doesn’t work ’cause we are human and humans.. are one of the highest reproducing innate and instinctual as such creatures oF aLL.. common.. sense.. lifting the veil of ignorance.. as the original meaning of the Greek word Apocalypse is really defined as such too.. and here’s the thing.. it doesn’t do any good at all to hate ignorant folks.. understanding will bring about change if done face to face and in school.. in a tactful peaceful manner.. the Golden Rule rules and i have to say.. i mostly agree with the teachings of the old Kung Fu TV show.. as they do not contradict themselves like the Good Cop Bad Cop Jesus in the New Testament does.. folks will over look the biggest boards in the eYes of hate.. as sure cognitive dissonance hurts.. and the human brain will naturally see and feel what it wants to see.. but hell no.. no one is gonna make me ever hate anyone.. i am a free child of God and a member of no cult that hates.. hates.. hates.. hates.. i do not agree with a lot of what my family believes in and i do not expect them to believe in all of what i do.. even if they could.. as some folks are just not cut out for some of the freest spirited things i do and say.. thanks God for a Country with separation of church and state.. as humans are never cookie cutter pieces of God.. they change.. they grow.. and yes.. they stay stagnate too.. anyway.. i am not afraid to criticize what is evil at core.. and yes.. hating your loved ones.. over differences in beliefs is evil at core.. greAtesT change alWays comes from Love.. and sure art too.. as pARt of HEArt away from fear and hate.. oh.. yeah.. and the other thing.. the priest said love wasn’t a feeling.. sure that is what Mother Teresa Lost.. the feeling of connectedness with God and all others too.. and there are solid scientific reasons this happens too.. like doing too much and never getting any rest.. as Mother Teresa was as zealous as they come in a good way too.. we are human.. we are not robots and the TruE WiLL over Fearless Love one can feel makes the most love oF all.. all over the world now.. feelings of empathy and compassion that are part and parcel of love can be watered and grown stronger as a muscle of heArt Love.. yes.. DancE and SonG.. and even poetry and other forms of MoVinG.. conNecTing and CreaTing increases the Muscle of Love.. as heARt.. SpiRit and MINd and BoDy soUL.. Now B A L A N C i N G iN LiGht noW science even shows this as evidentiary trUe now too.. wE CAN groW iN Love.. and as Saint John was reported to say.. back then.. too.. wE CAN do greater works now than are reported from Jesus and Love more.. as of course as the original Greek text of the New Testament clearly relates.. Jesus was just a man.. a son and child of God.. suggesting he was humble.. and in the Kingdom of God.. the last would be first.. and the meek would inherit the Kingdom oF God on Earth in the current.. generation as promise with no wait after death.. that parts rings trUe and LIGht to me.. whomever made those statements that is my own personal discernment i make and everyone is allowed to make in free church and state separation countries.. now finally in the U.S.. the right to LiFe.. LiBerty And the Pursuit of Happiness.. was/iS 240 years coming Now fully for homosexual and transgender folks.. finally noW the original.. Declaration of Independence is being fulfilled for all American Citizens.. there is nothing perfect about any word or book of God.. history shows this over and over again.. but those quotes from the old Kung Fu TV show.. sure do ring TrUth and liGht to me as a practice of Fearless Love as trUe gentlemen strong as well might do and say.. but to bow.. no.. nah.. Lions don’t do that.. and no.. neither will i.. i’LL nod my head iN respect of everyone.. sure.. Y not.. and i’ll even call them yes sir and ma’am2.. Y noT.. iT FeeLs liKe Fearless Love.. to me..@lEast..:)
Hmm.. weLL.. the Algorithm Video Assistant Producer from Facebook.. left today.. now.. and went back yesterday.. to do a rehash of Saturday in longer reminiscing form.. and sure that’s okay too.. as yes.. the Robot.. giveth and taketh away and giveth different same too.. hmm.. so just wHo iS this Robot anyWay2..;)
Yeah.. so when the Monsignor says love is not something you feel.. it just goes to show.. that my X-Catholic Priest Grandaddy did the right.. yes.. the right.. thing.. getting married.. having children and experiencing this thing NoW.. cAlled Unconditional Love.. that sure IS A feeling.. a feeling greater than any other feeling ever in fearless way.. and perhaps something.. some priests.. and ‘normal’ men.. never feel until they have a child of their own.. or perhaps lose one too.. or perhaps even worse.. they could live in hell now.. either on the street or in the pulpit and and never experience the feelings and the sensing of heaven now.. heaven is in the kiss of a child’s eYes.. and if you can’t FeeL it ..you live in hell.. you live in hell.. yes.. Hell’s FucKinG BeLLs you live iN HeLL and i’Ve been tHeRe too.. for 66 months long.. wHere i couldn’t even remember what a sMiLe of Love fElt like oN mY RoBoT FucKinG zombie dead face… then.. look back at some of the photos of Popes.. the look is clear.. dead clear… and the saddest paRt of all is it is like being behind an opaque window that some may never even near.. NoW.. Love SingS uNconditional FeeLinG and SenSinG Love.. and sure.. iF you give iT and can’t FeeL iT.. give yoUr self now a healthy ’round of applause.. as sure.. even folkS iN HeLL can give Love and yes.. the Monsignor does a fine job of that no matter if he FeeLs iT or not.. giving Love without feeling iT is quite a miracle too.. that we humans can do.. now.. and oh yeah.. when My Grandaddy decided to pave a path for me to exist.. by getting ex- communicated by the Catholic Church.. the rest of his family excommunicated him too with hate.. when the price of love is hate.. the religion is insane.. bottom line.. and that’s changing as wE speak.. LOUD.. and CLEAR2.. Dogma sucks.. but not Dogs as God..;)
So.. as the second.. Katrina and Sister and Child Profile Pic Comes again now.. bottom line.. Love.. Loves..:)
And yeah.. i dreAMed of a place called hell last.. night.. true.. i literally dreamed of a place called hell last night.. just guns.. fear.. and hate.. just swords.. fear and hate.. and for some.. that story still goES oN iN heLL noW…. where sinner Now is saint and saint is sinner… Funny little Synchronicities.. and how God works toGetHer as canvas of All thaT is noW.. wHere the discernment is only A heARt beAT aWay from TrUth and liGht as LiFe.. as Fearless LovE.. wITh sUre.. WiLL over aLL that iS too..:)
BLack.. T-Shirt that says.. with an exclamation point.. i Should Have Come With A Warning.. Oh WeLL.. aS iN ElecTriCity.. LiGhTeNinG.. AC/DC.. KarMiC eYe wayS.. too.. Hells Bells.. Hells Bells.. and A store closed too..;)
Cato said, “I had rather men should ask why my statue is not set up, than why it is.”
~~ Plutarch — Political Precepts ~~
Yes.. why wait when one can do it themselves online.. hehe..;)
“I’m sitting on my SPEED QUEEN.. To me, it’s ENJOYABLE.. I’m WARM.. I’m VIBRATORY..”
~~ Zippy the Pinhead ~~
What ever works works..;)
“No excellent soul is exempt from a mixture of madness.”
~~ Aristotle ~~
Any thing other than madness is normal and normal is insane.. insame..:)
“In the carriages of the past you can’t go anywhere.”
~~ Maxim Gorky ~~
This is true.. in general.. books suck.. that’s why i write more than i read @lEASt.. now..;)
“We fear things in proportion to our ignorance of them.” ~~ Titus Livius ~~
That’s why i still read.. and ignore ignorance..:)
“Nothing is worth more than this day.”
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe ~~
Day is okay.. Now is Divine..:)
Have a nice day gigoid.. with pain free.. now.. just the power of suggestion.. hehe..;)
What’s A Holiday But Life.. Over Nothing @All.. A Labor oF Love..:)
sMiLes.. and Hello Himali.. Memories.. Teachers.. and i remember a similar post from you last year at this time on Teacher’s day.. i mentioned you were a Teacher then to me too and that i appreciated you.. So since i have already honored you.. i will move on to the next teacher.. hmm… some of the greatest teachers to me are those who i kNew/fELt with much smaller standard IQ’s than most of my acquaintances who had a gift of Loving everyone without regard to innate or environmental/material differences.. real Saints were they who had a smile for everyone regardless of who.. what.. where.. or how they do life.. so sure.. they are gifted greatest by God for this smile that never ends from birth to death.. in many cases too.. and sure some of these folks are Downs children.. the worst teacher i can think of now is Richard Dawkins as he said as advice to a woman considering abortion that it would be a disservice to humanity not to abort a Downs child.. as this child would not produce enough material things for society.. hmm.. not understanding the value of one smile.. this ignorant man of course.. who i also learn from that Standard IQ is weak without much real meaning in the Love of Life that feels the most and talks the least at times too.. my friend.. blessed with this so-called cultural derived and propagated Standard IQ.. i was too.. but cursed away from love off on and on in life.. for falling into this trap as labyrinth of culture more.. more.. and more.. so smiles.. i learn to love the most from those who will never stand lecturing from a class room podium at all.. just the sincere smiles of a child.. of God who has not been ravaged in school/work my friend.. a child of God who will smile from Birth to death for the only reason of feeling a smile of Love continuing with others my friend.. and sure.. the other teacher is the voice within.. the voice that speaks through my pen now these days.. my friend.. the God who lives within.. the God who Sings in Einstein Equations.. and the young woman who had a standard IQ of less than or about 70.. who was the only one who kept in touch with my wife and i.. after i fell ill at work after all my years there.. where sure.. i was as nice to everyone as i am online.. and soon as i got sick and could not help anyone anymore.. i was forgotten and erased from the earth.. as far as folks reaching out to me.. but this one woman from work who was not ‘smart enough’ to finish loving us.. then.. And sure.. that is my teacher.. the one who taught me to always call back.. And yes.. she is much greater than Jesus as Jesus said in Luke 17 that to follow me you must hate your mother and father.. your brothers and sisters and your children too.. our friend was not holy enough to do that my friend.. our friend was God incarnate in flesh and blood and only human too.. but sure i forgive Jesus for his failings and praise my friend for fulfilling the prophecy by Saint John or whomever said the words in his chapter that there will be those who do much greater works than Jesus.. sure Tina and her friends have already come back again.. to do just that.. not many folks noticed them.. but i did.. and God tOld me to write about them..NOW.. in how God speaks with no Standard IQ at all2.. as God is not trapped in human work/schools.. not then.. not now.. not ever when Free Verse..:)
Other than that my friend.. when you said your dream is to be a writer.. YOU ARE A WRITER NOW.. otherwise how could you inspire all these words by a reader.. what you do here has no price of dollars.. what you do here my friend is Love.. i highly encourage you to do it.. even if it is only you and God one speaking here as the writer within is the always NOW.. greaTest writer oF aLL.. and this God is a multi- Universe in every pen and iS i.. too precious not to share with all.. and when two humans connect in reciprocal communication.. whether that be verbal or totally non-verbal like Dance.. another multi-Universe of God is born when two or more come toGetHer like this.. and a blog.. is a global phone of many now coming togetHeR potentially aS onE in real time reciprocal social communication.. now.. the value of these connections my friend are greater than any book ever written.. including any sacred text.. So let us write the Book of Himali and the Book of Fred with everyone and share with never an expectation of anything other now than giving.. S H A r I N G.. iF we care to.. of course with WiLL.. and sure.. have the capacity to do it with the other responsibilities of life.. but you my friend have the gift of brevity.. in only a few short lines of Love.. all of that is love.. put it out there if you can and will.. and never worry if Love is smart enough or good enough as Love SMiLes.. without any words but perfect.. as practice mY FriEnd..:)
SMiLes my friEnd.. Lala.. noW as my wife could tale ya.. and most of the folks who see my joy up close and personal in real life.. i live in a dimension of Freedom of Joy that not many folks can fathom.. and i know and feel this as i lived in that other dimension before.. not just the illness and pain.. but the shallow of heARt.. spiRit and miNd and BoDy BaLanCinG SoUl.. and sure.. there IS A difference in remembering someone and reaching out when the other person is silent or ill in all the ways that comes.. and surely i realize online that i am now.. as politically incorrect as they come.. i sleep now with everyone as metaphor.. but i follow no cultural or religious rules by the book.. if one wants to have likes and shares and follows one must now follow the political rules my friend.. and i have enough support in real life.. not to have worry about that at all and the greatest support is the God who lives fully live within me.. anyWay.. now the folks who are my friends.. almost by default are the greatest Lovers of all online.. as they can over-look my freedoms.. expressed at the highest human levels that most folks can not fathom now as expressed online in F iN Epic way.. and sure.. the other person who reached out to you here when you were silent and as well to my friend Himali when she was silent.. is Zee.. in August.. as sure i catch every detail every where i go.. hehe.. without my head exploding too.. WiNks.. anyWay.. Zee reached out to me.. you did.. and Rafiah did.. and Himali did too.. and does too.. no matter the distance.. the space and the time my friend.. iSREAL NoW.. Love remembers and reaches out… and sure.. not all folks are gifted this way now or even close to it.. but in the longest of runs in God terms those who love the most by reaching out are the greAtest gifted ones oF aLL.. and i for one alWays honor them and cherish them as i Write and Dance on.. sure.. love my friend.. friend is Love.. you never owe me any words my friend.. as the gift is all in the giving S H aRinG.. bottom line.. to me.. @least.. a long bottom line.. and Smiles.. the nicest people in the world are Desi women.. perhaps.. i came here to help them all.. in some small way.. as after all is said and done now there are many dark and sad brown eyes.. still and that makes my green eYes blue.. StiLL..:)
As i just mentioned to another person.. Zee.. you know.. Lala Rukh.. who has come back from almost a year of silence online.. and similar words to Himali now.. who has also come back to blogging from months of silence.. the thing you have in common with both of them.. is you are the only other one who reached out to them in their absence just since August to see how they were doing and that my friend makes you special in the most important way.. you not only love.. you reach out to the silent ones as well.. and truly back in the ‘old days’.. there would be those who would fall away from Society but then as my Great Aunt who was 94 at the time said.. in the old days.. people would travel far to check on them to make sure they are still okay.. those were the human days my friend.. you still live in the human days.. and that my friend.. even online.. too.. is the greatest gift that God gives us.. to live the human days… aT the last breathe.. at the last rise of chest for heart beat what you and others.. will likely remember then.. is the Love you give.. and that my friend is all one will take with them at that point.. stay blessed in giving friend.. As Giving and Sharing is the higher power of God that lives as spark.. fire.. and Hurricane of WindS iN Fearless love that are fELt as Lightening to connect.. the hUman Breath oF LifE noW..:)
WeLL.. for fAiir and balanced coverage.. as iSreal news miGht like to do2.. the last song named ‘My Sweet Lord’ with George Harrison of the Beatles as oft confused by folks who do not listen carefully enough to the end of the Song.. is about the Supreme Lord of Krishna.. and not unlike the other major religions.. the sacred text attributed to Krishna does not have much to any room for laughs and lust.. hmm.. and sure.. the Jesus dude is very very zealous if hating your parents.. children.. and brothers and sisters alike to adequately become his student is any reflection of that.. it’s serious do do.. do that it is.. hmm.. Love your enemy and hate your children.. oh.. the bi-polar of the dArk and liGht of liFe.. but truly.. bottom lines are.. hells bells and shit happens.. what you do with hell and shit has a great deal more to say ’bout yA than what you have received as gifts.. the greaTEst Grace is to make hells bells and shit into good do do.. and not bad voodoo.. anything associated with harming otHeRs is bad voodoo.. and bringing happiness and pleasure in meaSure BaLanCinG is generAlly and basicAlly speaKing good do do.. and sure that meaSureS in balance of laughs and luSt sAMe.. and this more Big Lebowski Movie cool easy peaceful going Jesus Dude in the Giver Music Video here by Duke Dumont to give fuller credit where credit is due too.. provides the fAct that getting material stuff.. ain’t gonna stop the seagull shit from flying down from darker sKeYes of God too.. might aS WeLL do the best ya can with what ya got.. and enjoy now. a little stroll of liFe that includes a balance of lust and laughs and belly to belly love too.. and if you are into bootie dances.. sure that beats frOwny face any day today of now i kNow for sure2.. Give a little love if ya can.. and sUre.. Give iT aLL ya can iF yA CAN AND WiLL.. LOVE iS THE MEDICINE THAT KEEPs ON WORkING.. stuff is the stuff that sooner or later goes away.. Love lives forever within when it lives now.. and that my friEnds.. IS A end for noW.. to continue later AS ‘Macro-Verse 700 Love Labor”.. as the labELs NOW continue to change but the essence of all that is as Love REMAINS noW.. And sure.. in trying to determine the next name of the 701st Verse Of Longest Long Form Poem ever close to twice as long as that previous record holder from India that contained notes about the Krishna dude too.. if you were finishing up 42 months of witnessing for God of Nature per the Supreme Being oF all that is what would you call yoUr 701st verse of over 3.3 plus million words of Ocean whole poem.. would you make it dire and serious.. or go all casual like when we eat at the Sunday Dinner place of Ryan’s on Sunday afternoon.. i’ll go casual and come up with just anotHeR phrase of fun to eat or take out to go.. sure.. ‘Fred’s All You Can Eat Buffet of Love’ the 701st Verse of Ocean Whole Poem Long2.. to be published soon online on 9082016..2 to celebrate the whole dam thing.. that will continue on in that comments section too.. through 9112016.. with an after party of thOughts to come after that on 9122016.. as hey.. i’ll make a feast and a holiday for every now and day.. juSt cause i can and WiLL iSREAL.. juST ‘tween me and God2.. ALLNOW1..:)
Well.. i suppose i should honor at least a couple more real flesh and blood friends here.. hehe.. a Memory Facebook photo from a year ago.. before i end this 700th Macro-Verse blog post.. with a dance friend Cortney.. i really do not kNow that well.. and of course the Wife Katrina.. but hey.. all folks in life who inspire are worth honoring.. and there now ain’t too many folks who are brave enough in real life to truly to get to know me.. anyWay.. hehe.. and that’s oKAy.. the price of strange has benefits too.. that greatLY exceed any negative aspects oF liFe to mE..:)