Empirically assessed as the best dance shirt yet.. by numbers of selfies with the opposite sex tallying in at 31.. soon to be added to my current blog post.. Yes.. this shirt.. was a Father’s Day gift from Katrina.. and she guaranteed.. it would Bring surrogate age 18 to 21 year old daughters in kind my way to dance tonight.. and hmm.. one really wild one too.. who kinda was exploring me with her hands and bootie dance as such.. but anyway.. didn’t get a selfie with her. it was like a hit and run or something like that.. really tall.. dark hair.. with lots of tattoos all over what was exposed of her natural body.. such is liFe in the dAnce Halls of Youth.. with older folks like me..;)
And original duo of trio of Charlie’s Angels ‘here’.. dancing for two years now with Chelsea.. recently A UWF Biology Graduate noW and Facebook Friend.. Cortney.. a newly Minted Federal Employee at the Beach as Park Ranger.. saving the Turtles and other wildlife free.. like me.. hehe.. anyway.. good to see them always.. such upstanding young female citizens are they of the free world now..;)
Haha! And wife Katrina.. referring to my 31 selfie autographed photos of my smiling tender college aged dancing surrogate daughters close to Father’s day now says.. Fred you are cheating.. you are taking two to three photos of each group of dancing girls and i say then and now.. well.. you know and feel iT is the power of the human face in expressing SpiRiTuaL joy in non-verbal way.. noW recorded tHere is dopamine energy of joy heRE and pleasure to relate to others too.. here in my longest long Form poem.. in this newest noW coming 678th Macro VersE Now.. and true it’s kinda hard to open on Word Press and truly impossible unless ya have a Work horse computer and super Broad Band access like i do.. as it is one huge flowing monolithic super epic long form River noW going fast still now toward 4,000,000 words of ocean whole looonnnggg.. and my other blogs just do one post per hit on http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com and http://katiemiafrederick.blogspot.com and after all is said and done and photographed and all of that including my Adult restricted blogs three of which two are set to private as such.. and another more obscure one that is where my 1.4 million views from Google Plus are coming from.. as WordPress for me is like my Art Palette workshop.. a place wHere the draft is always in progress in the comments section there and yes.. i am happy to say that once again.. i can open up my website whole as http://www.katiemiafrederick.com.. on my iPhone6s mobile smartphone again.. as for a while that wasn’t working for me where i had to go to individual links to open up anything at all on Word Press then.. anyway.. it’s all for LovEarT..H.. and truly as noted in the last blog post iF it wasn’t for getting kicked off the Wrong Planet last year as well as from directly lInking to dVerse too.. for my otherworldly super human epic art in photos.. videos.. and a word hurricane too.. tHere is no way i would have accomplished the three Novels including one of those that was a third of a million words in MacroVerse whole Singular Verse here.. as i am a person who takes each human interaction holy and sacred and gives it all my focus and attention in poetic response way.. even if it is someone just saying how is your day Fred.. as that is my science and art of happiness.. giving all i can be to the other person too.. celebrating that person as the most important person in the Universe no matter who they are at the point of our reciprocal social interaction now.. as i believe too every new and continuing human relationship is another creation of God’s MulTivERse UniVerse way too Now/then.. and sure.. not many folks live by a science and art of Kindology like i do now.. so they wonder somenows why is he being so nice to me.. does he want something from me or something like that.. and hell no.. this wasn’t just a science of online way for me.. when i was in school.. including Kindergarten it is the natural way i treated each social human interaction then.. even if i got too excited and my words came out in what they thought was all retarded way then too.. slow.. not really though.. my mouth just couldn’t keep up with my mind in focus.. and the same is true now but nearly as much.. i just talk really fast and coherent now.. and somenows more than other folks can process in a lightening second before the thunder noW of understanding comes second after the liGht of My Mind released as verbal vocal energy to rely all the human and nature insights i have gained.. but anyway.. when i write it is like the natural rhythm of the Ocean and UniVerse wHolE noW.. like the voice of hUman can be when FloWinG iN ZonE of SonG.. as trUly when we get in touch so deep with our HeARts.. ExpresSinG SpiRit of EmoTioNal energy oF our miNd and Body BalanCinG SoUL.. wE are the Voice of God hUmanifest in sign language of we humanS noW as form.. and WOmaNifest of God mini-me’s we are aLiVe and FReED Essence Waves oF Ocean wHOle.. Galaxies.. and UniVerse of Stars we are.. inside.. outside.. above.. so below.. all around we are the tongues.. the nose.. the eYes.. the ears.. the touch in Fingers and yes down to the nitty gritty of reproducing organs of Penis and Vagina too.. all sacRed.. all wHoly paRts of GoDonE wE are SaCred Instruments of the Great Spirit.. the God.. the Allah.. the Dao.. the Chi.. the Force.. the Qi.. Ki.. KA.. Holy SpiRit.. etc.. and forevermorenoW.. iNfiNitY of potential abstract constructs that approximate in signS noW thE aLL essence of allthatis that too.. is aLL just another collection of letters as terms that relates what can be seen and unseen.. fELt and unFeLt as same.. problem is when folks think they own God with their own cultural and personal housings of vehicles and vessels of symbols that hold the essence oF all.. and when that happens sAdly as so when folks become selfish and say their words are the only symbols that are real.. symbols become God and God dies as God oF aLL.. yes the same God that creates and lives in all oF us.. From Lesbians to Gays.. to folks of all colors to Yellow Boy and the flower of the so-called Weed we are all children of God.. the Force oF aLL that is from inside.. to outside.. above.. so below and aLL’ARound.. it doesn’t matter what you then/noW use as vehicle.. vessel.. or houSinG of theTruTH and LiGht as the TruTh and LiGht WiLL be as real when every hUman BeinG and Book is erased from the Earth Forevermore nOW.. and some now then other eYes and eArs.. NoSe.. FinGers…eTc.. toes.. ToNgue.. or whatever they use to get the creation job co-created WiTh God as wHole too noWThen.. tHe Essence iS TruTh and liGht too tHere wHeREver tHeRe coMes forevermorE noW iN Truth and liGht!..:)
Himali.. Facebook Dubai Friend.. shares a Lovely Friday morning greeting with me as she says..
He he he. .. Having a lazy weekend here in dubai
And i say..
Hehe.. my feet are propped up after all night dance.. and i am writing a thousand words or so every 5 minutes or so as usual as i really get creative and poetic after i dance all night.. it really helps focus and remembering everything at once without even rally thinking about it hehe.. but yes.. i am totally relaxed like a bowl of marmalade jelly too… slightsmile emoticon..
Yes.. and i really mean that not rally mean that.. wink emoticon
And Himali says..
You are truly blessed to have such a musical life Amidst nature Singing and dancing
And i say then..
Yes.. and you know i thInk/FeeL it all works together… PoEtry.. SinGinG.. DanCinG.. as when we open uP noW our hEArts..SpiRit and SouL in MiNd and BoDy BaLance iT is like magic as it all comes to fruition one and sAMe.. and there have been whole eras in my life of problem solving at work wHere i was a valued commodity then for work but inside i was dYinG sLowLY iN Now all the MoVinG CoNnecTinG and CreaTinG a smiLinG young boy was once meant to do.. seriously i lived whole decades like that and it was dead as compared to now so alive my Friend.. Himali.. slightsmile emoticon
And finally HImali says..
You give me such deep insights about life Fred ! We often go chasing material success but that never gives true happiness..
And in summary of that discussion i say..
So true and i too was like that always worried about money.. and afraid i would lose my possessions.. until i got so depressed and ill i learned that all of that means absolutely nothing.. and happiness is something we can dance and sing inside.. that keeps growing.. and groWinG.. and we shine bright and share that joy with others like true human quantum subatomic energy shared with others and the liGht of the World grows bRighter with smiles instead of misery and suffering dark.. i have so much joy to share to keep it inside would be the greatest sin.. somewhere on a beach not giving what i can do as greatest gift i can for others too.. hmm.. and now i say the way word press describes that icon as slightsmile emoticon is so dam funny.. as i wasn’t smiling slight at all.. big grins oF Kindness and Love inside.. giving.. sharing.. moving.. connecting creating WitH aLL otHeRs 2.. Big smilemoticon liKe HUman InFinity wide..:)
And later Himali adds..
You have a treasure of wisdom I am amazed by how you over came your depression You are so powerful
And i interject..
SMiLes my FriEnd Himali..
And Himali responds..
Smiles to you tooooo
And i then say..
And you are equally powerful my friEnd as you have inspired so much iN me since we met that i have been able to give and share with others too..:)
You are too generous with compliments
And then i say..
SMILes aGAin my FriEnd Love is never too generous.. the men folks used to say my mother spoiled me.. but she gave me something they could never give me that would withstand REAL HUMAN HELL.. what a gift a mother’s L O V E n o W aLL iS and i for one am sure that you will give the same to your child if that time comes for you as well.. my Friend..:)
That’s such a lovely wish But still long way to go Need to find my place in this huge world Hopefully 2017 will be States and CPA..:)
SMiLes again.. and am i reading you correct that you wish to live in the U.SA as soon as 2017..:)
Yesss. . Wanna clear my CPA and live the American dream..:)
That is wonderful.. maybe one day.. you.. Katrina and i.. will have a dance on the sugar white Emerald coast of panhandle Sun.. and sure we will adopt you as daughter friend too.. it would be Lovely to see you with your Lovely smile..:)
I’d love to dance freely.. its just such a pure bliss. I loved the beaches in Mumbai and also here in dubai
Yes.. in viewing them they look somewhat like the beaches here..:)
How is the coast in your city ?
And i say..
Actually i live a little west of Pensacola in the panhandle of Florida and East of Milton.. the River is near in Milton that i grew up on that was Lovely then and now as well.. i often still photo that place in my blogs.. the beach is about 20 miles due south.. and we used to have many tall dunes with sea oats that were so beautiful but it is flat now like Dubai.. from what i’ve seen there.. but there are still Lovely Dunes to the East of us near Destin Florida where my Uncle lives on Shalimar point there in a Lovely home on the bay.. what i like most is the sugar white sand.. and the Seagulls and other wildlife of Nature on the Beach.. so peaceful it is and you can still walk far enough where all there is is Nature and no footprints of culture.. The dunes are flat because Hurricane Ivan washed them away.. by the way…slightsmile emoticon
Wowwww… love the beautiful scenic place.. I guess it’s nature which inspires creativity in you
SMiLes my Friend.. Himali.. i may have mentioned it before.. but for 66 months i could not use my eyes and ears to enjoy Nature at all.. as a issue of the type two trigeminal Neuralgia i had from wake to sleep.. it even affected my sense of smell as smells actually caused additional pain.. and with the Dysautonomia that i also suffered from greatly then.. the nervous system no longer properly controlled heart rate and blood pressure meaning it was difficult for the blood to get to my brain and circulate through my body.. where i was chilled in 100 degree temperatures with a breeze and stifled at the same time hardly able to breathe.. so then.. my only inspiration was dimly lit text after the first 3 years shut in.. in a dark bedroom more than any other way of being stuck in my head like Helen Keller and worse in many ways as i could no longer feel emotions and one point so dead inside i could not feel senses.. really separation from God and Nature same that was.. being in Hell for real.. so i will say now my friend that it is people like you who inspire the greatest creativity in me.. as you are open minded Loving.. and a conduit for Loving.. Moving.. Connecting Creating Human Energy.. just your presence in visual symbols on the Internet including words and that is truly amazing that your soul is that powerful in expressing who you are in soulful energy online.. and sure that can be as simple as your bright face and smile my friend.. it really makes me most sad never to see some of the faces i have known in text online..slightsmile emoticon
And Himali exclaims as well..
Oh my god! I didn’t know that it was due to blogging that you over came all the odds and your depression. It is so nice talking with you. Please feel free to message me anytime you feel like wanting to talk
And i say..
Yes.. it seems that connecting Language and emotion in my firsts poetic breakthrough at the end of February 2013.. was the road back home to recovery and happiness my Friend.. preceded with around 5 million words or so of analytical discussions online in Autism Communities.. before poetry set me free.. the two years and a few months before that in words of purgatory i guess.. and now there is no pain.. just happiness and freedom.. hope you have a Lovely Weekend my friend.. and sure. we will talk again..:)
Himali says in conclusion..
Sureeeeeee Take care Happy weekend to you
And i end for now with.. smile emoticon..:)
And another poetic comment inspired by Himali in another Facebook discussion form last last night after i return from dance..
Hey Himali.. back from an all night of dance.. and yes.. this is so true.. to connect spiritually noW with soUl is something to me that lastS forevernow.. wHere a friend will always be a friend now.. even if separated by distance or even over the course of time.. a friend is truly the best thing.. My friend.. and blesSinGs to you my friend who i also believe IS A BlesSinG from the Lord.. as God sends us just the friEnds we need.. i believe and feel to help us to make God’s dreams in and as us come to Fruition REAL.. and yes.. Love to your family as well WitH Great wishes..:)
And i say now here in summary.. tHere was a day in World Market.. a store in the metro Mall complex iN Pensacola that has sells cultural items from around the world.. it is my favorite among open minded stores like the Earth Store and Spencer Gifts too.. and in work decades of cog in a machine then.. i used to see folks from different cultures coming to that store.. and i had this dream that one day i could meet these wonderful people from around the world and now with a tear in my eYes and i CAN say i DO.. streAMinG down to wash my feet from the fear and hate i too was raised in here in New Jerusalem in the IS ra EL..U.S.A too the Internet can make Unconditional Fearless Love possible for anyone no matter wHere they Live in potential fear and hate.. NoW. So God Bless Steve Jobs and Bill Gates and all the other New World Nerds.. Geeks.. and real Life Sages in science and art for mAkIng mY dream come true iN Fearless moVing..ConnecTing CreATing LovE noW.. wHere i am never lonely noW in the real God’s KinGdom of World Wide Global New age fRiendS noW.. and i suppose if the real dudes Jesus or Buddha.. Zoroaster or Lao Tzu.. and even Edgar Cayce wHere to come back again now too.. they noW would feel.. sense.. and say the sAMe too.. tHere may never be a Kingdom of God’s Heaven in most localities of this Earth now.. but truly iT iS aLL around us Now oNline TrUe iN pLaces wHeRE hoPe and LovE liVe through and away from hate and fear in GiVing ShaRinG waY Now.. iN MoVinG.. ConnEcTinG Co-Creating WiTh GOD NoW FReED..:)
And you know/feel what.. that first somewhat of a manifesto that is on the right side of all my blogger blogs.. was just a response to a Facebook PM discussion similar to the one above.. yes it’s true.. when two friEnds come toGeTHer another Verse oF UniVerse can be created pArt and WHoLe to generate LoVinG Energy in others for years to come.. truly it Defeats the laws of Entropy whole iN Nature True iT is God’s tRue and liGht MaGic uNleashed and released iN uS FReED as a hiGher cAlLinG of God wHere we Become Allah’s Instrument of Hope and Love instead of Fear and Hate.. and that is what i wish for all my sweet Friends around the world no matter what they may believe or fear and hate now.. just Hope and Love iN God’s greatest gift to uS noW thAT iS Sacred Holy Fearless LovEnoW..:)
i AM so excited.. finAlly.. Rihanna’s new SonG.. WeLL.. actuAlly Calvin Harris’ new SonG featuring Rihanna is out and as expected filled with new age symbolism in esoteric ancient wisdom symbolism2 noW iN cube way for the perfection of humankind OnE wITh God each individual riSinG to the occasion of this way of being eventually with practice of life.. and yes.. the SonG noW named.. ‘This Is What You Came For’.. is followed uP with lightening over and over and it is safe to say that this 678th Macro Verse of the Longest Long form poem ever x2 at least.. sTill pushing 4 million words.. WiLL now be named ‘i cAMe for ENliGteNinG2′.. to additionally answer Rihanna’s SinGinG voice noW iN this Song2 also named.. “This Is What You Came For’..1 and sure we all come for enlightening as all religions at mystical and esoteric core do relate.. if one looks a little deeper than anything more shallow than being connecting with God oF aLL ONE and SAME.. TO EMPOWER HUMAN GREATER WITH GOD AND TO DO GREATER DEEDS OF FEARLESS LOVE WITH ONE’S FELLOW HUMAN BEING IS THE STILL STANDING MESSAGE OF NEW TESTAMENT WAY.. when the dude Jesus said folks will come to do more than he.. as this God thingy and us continues to evolve toGeTHeR and not stuck in card board box symbols.. like books and even cubes too.. the cube is a pretty cool symbol but still it is only a symbol and not the essence of TrUth and liGht in human Abstract concept alone.. as form as essence is pure energy as Force.. inside.. outside.. above.. so below and all around.. yeah the Grand old new always NOW SPiRiT oF GoD aLL and yes the liGht of Pandora’s Box is now open.. as Rihanna and Calvin finALLy release tHeir 61616 full Song after holding out to this obvious esoteric symbolizing date with all the sixes and ones too.. in perfection of human being greater one with God.. anyway.. like the previous preview song said so many dam times wHere i used it before.. ‘who knows why it has to be this way’.. before it went off carefully planned as such as well.. weLL.. here’s the deal noW iT’s just anoTheR new age now and old age ancient way of wisdom come to modern art no different really than new age revised and printed versions of Bibles that only change a little.. and other workS iN art oF Human EnLiGteNing way that continues to evolve as God does iN uS and With uS.. noW.. and sure.. much mystery here in Synchronicity heRe2 but i was looking for a 678th title and what better way to headline my newest coming post with Rihanna’s and Calvin’s super cool song that by the way hit number one on iHeArt Radio in Synchronicity way too.. when it was released on 6162016 yesterday too.. yeah.. radio play and a YouTube preview was enough to get it theRe and make everyone hungry to hear it more more more.. almost like a magic trick it was for the artists to do this.. MATTER OF FACT IT WAS A REAL MAGICK TRICK FOR THOSE WHO UNDERSTAND IN INTUITIVE WAY HOW THAT WORKS.. YEAH.. HORATIO THERE IS MORE GOING ON IN THIS WORLD FOR REAL.. THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW AND HELL NO THIS AIN’T NO DEVIL SHIT AS THERE IS ONLY ONE GOD AND NOT ONE ALL SPLIT UP AS SUCH LIKE AN INSANE CLOWN.. GOD IS MORE LIKE A LAUGHING CLOWN FOR THOSE IN THE GREATER KNOW AND FEEL OF GOD2..1 so in that way i totAlly expected Rihanna/Cal to release the SonG yesterday and i AM.. so happy to use it for just another poetry prompt to keep my Ocean GroWinG just for shits and giggles huh.. as God WiLL surely approve in all seeing eYe way of hUman Wisdom real too.. anywaY as alWays i just watch as such and scribe it down.. a little birdie told me so anyway.. and sure.. i’m insane my mother really had me tested but it took ’em decades later to get the Vincent Van.. Gogh-like diagnoses all straightened out in hell no.. no cube or sidewalk way.. just a spiral.. a wave.. a drop of water that never ends in Golden Ocean full waY noW..;)
“Real generosity toward the future lies in giving all to the present.”
~~ Albert Camus ~~
“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.”
~~ Plato ~~
With those two.. ya just about can’t go wrong.. but i would switch around the second one a bit to say.. fear of the dArk and cynicism of the liGht are equAlly miNd and BoDy Limiting as our flesh and blood soUl.. iN BaLanCinG oF course.. and i love mischief as it inspires new EmoTiOns as it is the unexpected come real to make folks look around and see a surprise they were not expecting.. and it’s alWays fun to carry my driver’s license around with me in wallet way on the dance floor.. as by the point where i’Ve danced 2 hours straight and almost exhausted folks just by looking at me.. and i am surrounded by two.. three.. five or ten.. much younger folk than i.. yes.. even as young as 18 which is getting very close to 40 years younger or two generations away from 56.. which means i could be tHeir GranD DaddY as i somenows gently whisper in the ear of the wild bootie dancing girls to see if that will inspire them to grind a little softer.. and of course i mention my wife too and show ’em that great bathing suit photo i recently shared on Facebook.. to let ’em know and feel my beauty thingy is fully filled up.. at least.. hehe.. anyway.. small talk here of course but what i really love to do is play with imagination and creativity.. and ask ’em how old do you think i am first.. and the average is around 38 in the dark.. as my grey hairs don’t shine as much and nah.. no 56 year old dude could move like Bruce Lee huh.. hehex2.. so then i do say i am 56 and they kinda look at me like nah.. dude you are on drugs.. and i then say.. no i am actually the Devil/Lucifer.. that’s why i am not aging here and can dance all night.. see here.. look.. at my Driver’s License.. see that 6660.. didn’t you see that movie the Omen yet.. WeLL here i am.. you know that Lucifer show on Fox about the Dancing Bar owning Devil in LA.. well this is Lower Alabama and once again i AM FOR REAL.. here’s the thing.. i am no longer afraid of the dArk.. fearless after getting through all the demons.. and no longer cynical of the liGht.. and sure i wish the same for you my friend and everyone else as i sure hope it is not a privilege that only THE DEVIL/LUCIFER CAN RECEIVE iN Now.. anyway.. tHere has to be a path out of this box.. this cube.. an open door.. to a clear blue sky like ELO might say.. yeah… Mr. Blue Sky is here.. why not Love the liGht and the dARk as same.. pretend it’s REAL AND MAKE IT REAL.. i did THAT.. it worked.. BOTTOM LINE… oh yeah.. and another thing i did to some of the good ‘ole southern boys who don’t really have any idea what the fuck free VERSE martial arts iS when they are watching me.. so i EXCLAIM! you know that Bar killing that went down in Orlando.. if i was there ‘he’ would have never seen me coming and i would have chopped him to pieces with my Bruce Lee Kicks.. and on top of that can you imagine him trying to shoot me the way i move.. hehe.. and then i show ’em how i Leg Press.. close to half a ton on YouTube.. and the Legend grows and grows.. as ya need HOOKS to eventually light a fire behind a story.. tHere is nothing in LiFE Random my Friend.. at least not in this one now.. the way it is for me.. And that my Friend is the LIGht of Magic REAL..:)
Ah.. Facebook Memories again.. more more more.. each year a memento of what came before.. And a sample of my Mother’s published poetry but sadly this one published in the local news paper in memorial of our Son who would have turned 19 on June the 4th.. yes.. this is ‘real poetry’.. the stuff that has predictable numbers of lines.. and overall general form.. hmm.. i never really liked poetry most of my life.. never really liked text.. couldn’t stay focused until it became lit up on a computer screen of stimulation.. Things change.. they really do and more about that reaLiTy oF LiGht and LiFe in a few…:)
And of additional note here.. this photo was actually taken on Father’s day ’97.. the first and last one for me with a live child.. and the only Family photo of Wife and Child and Son.. and sure.. sorry if that is weeping sad but sure it is and this child lives on in these words that as promised to him would make some kind of difference in the world in honor of 51 days of pain and suffering as imposed by modern medicine when God the Creator would just fold a baby back into the Creator’s arms as Star dust to Star dust as now goes on.. hmm.. God is merciful.. THE ONLY GOD OF NATURE.. humans NO.. not always so much.. with their fancy medicine and religions that make God into one who would kill God’s own for sport of Big bLack Book Lies.. sorry.. it’s just the truth as history continues to show still in African Christian church ways and all over the Muslim World.. as such in Killing.. Raping.. ways in statutory marriage.. acid face baths.. STOVE TOP WIFE BURNINGS.. BURYING LESBIANS TO THEIR CHEST IN DIRT SO THEY CANNOT COVER ThEIR EYES FROM STONES OF HATE AND FEAR.. YES.. really deep down God is pissed off in so many ways.. IN AND AS US NOW JUST NOW2.. perhaps you can’t feel it but i can and the only answer is FEARLESS Love and yes now.. more about that in a few2.. iN BACK AGAIN AS ALWAYS2.. And yeah the slow torture is also very quiet at times in church pews of Catholic and Muslim Churches where the young gay child born that way with sure.. environmental factors too.. will listen as the polished and robed priest says well.. it’s secular society that supports your rights to a sacred sacrament of Love otherwise as marriage in a church.. you are not quite good enough yet to meet our standards of children of God.. so it’s just more fodder for the fuel that they are not good enough just as they are to enjoy the feasts and joy of all other humans too.. i watched my priest do this in what he thought was the softest manner possible saying well it’s not just you.. folks.. who are homo’s too.. who cannot get married it is us priests too so don’t feel alone.. of course this particular priest already spotted by one of my so-called outcast from Catholic Church relatives.. in one of ‘those’ ‘bars’.. and perhaps he was just following the Jesus golden rule of exclude no other in the social life world of wherever humans tread with the other.. but sure i can sense stuff.. after all i am a real empath with every kind of human radar that most people have no clue about still now.. anyway.. there are lots of ways to slowly torture and kill a human being in life.. while they sit quietly in the pews of church by demands of their virile and fertile mommies and daddies.. and any person with the sacred and Unconditional Fearless Love of the Good Cop Jesus over the Bad Cop end of days Jesus will know and feel this for sure that everyone deserves respect.. acceptance.. and tolerance to have the same benefits of others free as God WiLL Be iN us too.. And THAT day my child died in just misery and suffering for 51 days of pain as imposed by modern medicine driving the long road home from Shand’s Hospital after my son Ryan died in my arms finally free from death’s fire continuing as life.. i reflected on the paths of my journey too.. all the smiles.. all the trials and tribulations to that point then.. all the nows the bully boys in school threatened me to NOT SMILE.. or called me the F word and not Fred word.. as the McDonald’s cashier mistook my long blonde hair.. bright blue eyes.. and tall slender frame as Ms. can i help you please.. to my finally realizing what the problem was other kids were seeing too.. as i Loved girls then too.. romantically from Kindergarten as precocious Lover then too.. and sure.. the kid picked last on the sports teams.. Straight A’s always.. not able to find a real intimate girl friend until age 18.. three college degrees and named as Superman for that but without the ability to output all i knew/felt then.. ending up working at A Bowling Alley.. making close to minimum wage.. called a skank by the turned up nose girls as ugly in middle school too.. but yes.. stuff changed.. i got some contact lenses.. started working out with Nautilus machines.. that would compensate.. for the delicate future writer.. super typer hands.. and make me finally hunky dory enough to meet the never aging female Storm Katrina.. the most beautiful.. then and now.. girl in the world…my wife as nicely illustrated lately in Facebook Bikini photo recently too.. and yeah.. somehow after only having a grand to my name in 1999.. we managed to get up to close to half a millionaire in total assets by the time.. i fell to human hell in illness in 2007.. and sure i figured out that money and stuff don’t mean crap then.. so i let loose of it all and the wife helped spend and give a lot of that away.. to needy relatives and such as that too.. So many potential lives i have lived in just one now then and now.. and yeah.. before i met my wife.. i dated lots of women who had daddy problems.. who were looking for someone with Loving Lights in their eYes as well.. even living off and on with a girl with two kids in the ‘projects’ as visitor back in ’86 or so about the time that ‘the way it is’ song came out.. but now i came to the Elvis Presley old AdAGE come real that i’m doing it my way now.. i’ve been to those other places and this is my path now.. to direct with God’s help all big time.. with the help oF aLL God as the rest of Nature too.. as the words go on… in all essence of Free verse LiFe Now..:)
And in response to this Facebook Status and continuing Free Verse poEtry in BLog way..
Niece Candie says..
Pretty sure I just learned more about you in THIS post then I’ve ever known in my whole life. Love y’all..:)
And i say..
Thanks.. Love you too.. and i just added the photo..:)
Candie then says..
I see it. You and your ageless goddess and beautiful Ryan..:D
And i say..
Hehe.. yes.. deFiNiTelY wITh SMiLes oF Beauty..:)
Sister in-law Kim says..
I agree with Candie on this post… deep stuff here…love to you both.
In return i say..
Thanks to you too.. Kim.. and as i told Candie up there i just added the photo..:)
Kim then says..
And i mArk LikE..
Facebook Friend Sherri says..
Beautiful pic! The pic speaks volumes. Often, we forget to wish a Happy Father’s Day to those who have lost a child. I know that one day you will be reunited forever! You are such a beautiful soul and so is Katrina!
Thanks.. So much Sherri.. Very kind wishes.. God bless you and hope your husband has a wonderful Father’s Day with Love..:)
Facebook Friend Rafiah says..
I am sure your kid would have been so proud of such amazing cool parents like I feel about you guys. Happy Fathers Day Freddy. Once a father, always a father..:) I love you. I Iove the friend in you. I love the Dad in you.. heart emoticon
And i say in Loving Return..
Hi Rafiah.. Thanks so much for stopping by with these Loving words and yes.. i Love you like a friend and the daughter i never had until you.. And happy continuing Ramazan too..:)
Facebook Friend Himali says..
Fred! I never knew this part of your life before. Wish you a very very happy fathers day. You made me know the unconditional love of a parent for his child and how they can never bear to see their child in pain or agony. I am so touched by your journey. For someone who visited his father just 2 times a year to loose a child would be heart breaking. Much love to you and Katrina! You guys are my heroes..:)
i say in Loving Return..
Hi Himali.. Sitting in church with smArt phone in toe and Perhaps 10 perCent of human potential to write with one finger.. i must say the more one FeeLs.. SinGs and DanceS Love the more Life becomes art of poetry my friend and thank you as you make me FeeL additionally Cared for and Loved.. So.. Thank you dear sister.. With Poetic ArtFuLLLove..:)
Himali then asks..
Pray to Jesus on my behalf too.. I soo miss going to church
And i say..
Cousin Terri says..
Love y’all cuzzos.. That is a perfect family photo.. heart emoticon..
Hi tHeRE cousin Terri too.. Love to you and all the family over 'tHere' too.. THANKS..:)
Facebook Friend Suzanne says..
Blessings to you
And finAlly i say heRe too and wish for aLL oTheRs too..
SMiLes Suzanne.. thanks so much for the kind wish.. and the same to you.. aS WeLL.. mY FriEnd..:)
Rather fresh on the local actual bar scene in extended metro manner here in Destin Beach Florida.. 2yrs ago.. and seriously.. if you’ve never danced freely.. ReLaXinG out of your mind of thoughts with no instruction or worry about what the human cultural rules say you should or should not do.. it is very likely ‘you’ have never reAlly fELt tHe fAce oF God uP close.. perSonAl.. and REAL NOW iN yA temple oF God FReED.. And that reminds me too.. of last niGht a nice woman and her children and husband who work at the gym.. obviously with great and respectful attention paid to the authority of rules and those who master us for order of course.. as her son is doing the elliptical machine backwards instead of forwards.. and hehe.. i’m thinking feeling as he watched me twirl around backwards in my own FredFu way of martial arts perhaps that sparked the intuitive desire to do a new artful movement on the elliptical machine in his own creative way.. anyway.. the nice mama.. says.. Johnny or whatever.. son you cannot do that no.. no way.. it is against the rules to move like that And i cry inside just a little.. but it is Caesar’s Kingdom they are under rule too.. so i let it go.. and wish i was a little closer to the family to provide some verbal advice but i can tale then and now.. that the young model looking military wife might be wary of someone in the gym like me.. that rarely follows any rules at all when Caesar allows it and with my explanations of it’s a martial arts form of Tai Chi it’s all cool as hey.. it’s a place for secret and special services to train too.. little do they no though i work for God with no intermediary supervisors or Caesar Rule but nah.. ‘they’ wouldn’t likely understand that if it wasn’t in a book or whatever… and that’s kinda sad when every thing must be written down first for someone to believe something new can be now.. just innate.. instinctually and intuitively Real now as that is how God talks to us.. with no voice NoW of verbalway@ aLL necessary from all we have lEarned in genetic memory for the cycle of the continuing never ending journey of paths that branch out in the origin of the cycle never finishing.. never stARTing alWays now.. now.. now.. N O W.. And that reminds me too.. when the dude Joe.. who used to run the M.W.R. show looks at me with a duh look.. and says don’t you have to take some kind of lessons to do Tai Chi.. and i say no Joe.. just balance one foot with the other left and right and everything else from A to Z and more from head to toe falls in Balance.. above.. inside. aLL A’round yA.. anyway.. with my hearing that is like a dog sometimes i over heard him say something like well he just spends his time walking in reverse all the time.. like it might be rather foolish.. but nah.. he couldn’t feel inside me obviously and if he did something that he thought looked foolish to other folks it would prove he was as fearless as the way he carried himself might otherwise indicate. seriously i takes a lot of work to be fearless and the first step is never worrying about what other folks think about you.. but sure you can write a story about it in the longest long form poem ever but before you can do that you have to prove to GOD THAT YOU ARE 100% RED HOT AND NEVER LUKE WARM IN FEARLESS LOVE NOW IT’S TRUE.. TRUST ME OR NOT.. AND WHY THE FUCK ELSE DO YA THINK I GOT DRESSED UP IN MY UNDERWEAR DO NUDE ART STILL.. OTHER THAN FOR ART.. AND WHY KING DAVID IN THE GOOD OLD BOOK DID THE SAME GOD DAM THING.. funny how folks can get the literal meaning but what is said deeper goes right over the head of TrUth and LiGht.. Anyway i am here just as a scribe helper to REVEAL IT ALL FOR my little pARt of what i do FOR TEAM LIGHT NOW.. YEAH.. GOD’S TEAM Now FOR TRUTH AND LIGHT.. THE SAME one Rihanna.. Katy.. Gaga.. and so many others are on in big time fame way.. my job is relatively easy as compared to those as it is so God dam STRESS FREE.. HEHE.. WiNks It IS A great honor and privilege to work directly for God without any bLack book overseers in poLiTics as such..;)
Ah yeah.. and just a year ago here with more memories of Food.. Love.. and stuff.. on poEtry Lane of Free Verse words as WeLL or whatever iT aims FReELy sTiLL to bE NoW.. FloWinG iN ZonE..:)
“We Hate Joy
We Hate Love
We Love Money”
Iconic same moto from the Old iconic and often assessed worst movie in critics eyes of all time.. named.. ‘Sgt Pepper’s Lonely Heart’s Club Band’.. yes.. the Movie modeled after one of the most celebrated and critically famed Albums of all times.. including art of cover named by the same name coming out in ’67.. on the 20th anniversary of Aleister Crowley’s Death.. with him ‘up there’ with his shiny bald so called wickedest man of the world head in the top row.. on that Album Cover.. problem wuz.. then now.. he was a true genius.. and clever little old fox too.. making an impact on art culture in Rock and Roll music that WOULD MOST DEFINITELY EVENTUALLY CHANGE THE WORLD IN UN-REPRESSING AND UN-OPRESSING WAYS OF SENSUAL/SEXUAL ART FROM THE QUEEN VICTORIAN PRUDES OF YESTERYEARS WHO CHOPPED OFF THE PENISES FROM APOLLO STATUES AND HIS FRIENDS.. note to self here.. i really loved that dVerse Statue come to life poetry prompt.. wanna get back there too.. before this 678th macro verse ends on the Full Moon.. of Summer Solstice.. Father’s day on June 20th that is also my deceased father’s birthday and the original scheduled delivery day of me.. before the Doctor decided to go on Vacation and deliver me early on Omen day.. 6660.. hehex2.. anyWay.. this “i cAMe for eNliGhTeNinG’ post will come on that day too.. with statue or not as this is the REAL DEAL NOW.. SO WHAT WAS I SAYING.. OH YEAH.. the Beatle’s also took “Uncle Al’s” advice that Al said was a prophecy and direction by the ‘one’s above’.. to take all kinds of strange drugs to get higher and higher and bring some other weird news too.. so they just did it.. and while the critics hate the so-called non-sense of the movie by the name of Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Heart’s Club band.. and sure the hidden so-called ‘secret metaphor’.. is that the Sgt.. Pepper is actually a metaphor for the Devil’s Chief of Staff that Aleister said he wanted to be.. anYway.. Aleister.. was a trickster.. a clever clown too.. and somEnoWs non-sense iS what misChieF clowns like Aleister and the Beatles did then too.. to get a broader mesSaGE across too.. that even they may have no idea in Beatle Synchronicity what they may mean then2.. under the influence of LSD and those type of synthetic new age illegal drugs then.. anyway.. it’s pretty obvious to me.. that they are making and taking the piss out of fundamentalist religious folks at the time then.. oN tHeir suggestions that the Rock and Roll is the devil’s Brew of music then too.. not much different than what Aleister did in his hilarious satirical poetry that brought to focus the same God Dam human sacrifices that the old time bible still supports now.. and his hyperbole worked to keep his message going right until now as we see with ‘JZ’ and folks wearing shirts that say DO AS THOU WILT.. AND the age of the Child of the Me Generation.. as Nature is simply saying me me me.. and have less children as you you become Eternal Peter Pan’s/Princesses now.. Truly as then.. now and always iT is the God OF Nature in control.. wITH and iN uS.. what we write and what we say is just an after-affect and effect in symbols of what God does as whole to make BALANCE OF NATURE REAL.. sometimes it’s difficult to understand why all this dArk we see around uS iS an eQual paRt of God as liGht too.. but IT IS NECESSARY NO MATTER HOW ROUGH IT CAN GET FOR US HUMAN BEINGS TO ENSURE GOD WHO LIVES IN THE REST OF NATURE GETS ITS GOD OF MERCY FAIR SHARE OF THRIVING ALIVE IN THE STRUGGLE OF LIFE TOO.. IT’S JUST THE WAY IT IS.. TRUST ME OR NOT.. IT IS REAL GOD IS REAL.. HEAVEN OR HELL CAN BE NOW.. AND NOW IS ALL THAT IS GOD AND SAME AS WE US.. YOU AND ME.. i.. REALnOw.. Oh yeah.. and the 30 or so percent of American who are polled as seeing Donald TrumP A real Anti-Christ In dArk Form and Fashion.. in a FAVAORABLE WAY.. UMM.. YEAH.. pretty much NoW STiLL thAT iS tHeir motto ‘up tHere’ too.. i see it in Super-Walmart.. saw it in middle school too.. yeah that too.. iS jUst or not juSt.. THE WAY IT IS.. but WE WILL DO WHAT wE CAN TO CHANGE THAT NOW.. ACCEPT WHAT WE CAN’T CHANGE AND CONTINUE TO LIVE IN FREE FOR ALL PETER PAN AND PRINCESS NEVERLANDNOW.. JUST LIKE THEY DID IN THAT SONG UP ThEIR TITLeD FOR THE BENEFIT OF BEING MR. K.. AND ThE-story FloWs On.. iN ZonE iN TWiLiGht way wHeRe the Halls of Sanity i TreaD and ThRead softlY anD hard REAL nOW..;)
Ha! No matter how dazed and confused i might look when i alternate a ballet and martial-arts-like dance in public everywhere i go.. if i had a bottle of wine for every time someone has asked me in public what i’m drinking or ‘taking’.. my wine cellar would be at least this large.. but hehe.. nah.. no drinks or substances for me.. just high and one wITh God oF aLL.. and the rest of the UniVerse.. cool.. and what better way to celebrate the Summer Solstice than A Sun with a SMiLe oF GoD iN DanCinG ShoeS.. hmm.. i thInk tHeRe IS A SonG for that too.. that i WiLL add heRe too.. and iF i had a penny for every sMiLe i brOught to others in this now 34 months of public dance approaching 5600 miles.. i would be rich bEyOnd WitH beLiEF and yeS i AM iN terms oF SMiLes and Free Love to give and SHARE..
And for all you Fathers out there.. Here’s your Father’s Day Card from the P-cola Metro Area DancinG Man.. sorry.. the wife was too shy.. to do a ballet pose.. as such..;)
And here is the only family photo.. i have of my mother and father when they are married way back in ’59.. at the courthouse where i still live now in good old Milton.. originally named hell before it became a mill town.. when the folks came aboard the river Banks and got all bloodied up with the sharp briars of warning tHere.. and sure that is where i eventually grew up after my father left when i was three.. as my mother wouldn’t go along with his plan of making money over taking care of her kids as a stay at home mom too.. fortunately.. for me.. i already had a stay at home Mom until age three.. full of Loving estrogen with fairest skin Love.. Glowing as such.. as my Paternal Grandmother noted.. oh.. Helen’s skin is so vibrant it glows like a Saint.. in words to that affect.. but as they say and do back then.. the most masculine man was attracted to the most feminine woman before the ‘pill’ changed that general nature rule of human as now the so-called friendlier more nurturing beta males are more the rave and interesting.. even the 70’s turn on of chest hair has kinda gone the way of the do do bird too.. in western pill civilization.. as that was always one of my main selling points no matter if i talked all suave or not.. as there was bear chest of hair right under my chin.. hehe.. but now it’s more like ugh.. hairy man.. please wax it all off.. Nature is funny that way.. it changes for reasons hormonal as such.. anyway.. my father an identical twin.. seems to have gained more of the male hormone between the two.. not as verbal.. in fact.. my mother said he never really talked to her after he popped the question on the first date or so.. as he was 27 and i guess he figured it was already time to get married back then.. anyway.. after i got three.. he said goodbye.. i’LL find a wife who will make some money.. and he did in the next two marriages.. one of which he married twice in my first stepmother way.. And my mother said i idolized him when i was a toddler never leaving his side.. but i don’t remember that and i suppose it was too traumatic when he just left one day.. without really turning back and missing me.. as was his plan to move on.. i guess.. anyway.. if you are out there and are thinking about leaving your family on this father’s day.. all i can say.. is try to make it work.. as it’s not easy growing up without a father.. as my wife can tale ya too.. yeah we have that in common and even though i visited my father twice a year for decades as i’ve oft mentioned on this blog.. he wouldn’t let me in to really get to know him in any kind of emotional way.. and not sure he really could as that is an issue with Asperger’s syndrome and considering that both my sister and i were professionally diagnosed with that reciprocal social communication difficulty in our mid-40’s.. yeah.. there is a genetic component and we sure as hell didn’t get it from my mother’s side it appears for sure.. and it seems my X-Catholic Irish Priest Grand Daddy who also left early with my father being raised by his grandparents mostly more than his 18 year old mom.. might have had A touch of the Asperger2.. yeah.. odd situation my X-Catholic Priest Grandfather married this Cajun beauty out of his parish.. 16 going on 17 or something like that and he was 36.. oh the scandal back then.. anyway.. like Mohammad now then2.. they say he didn’t consummate the marriage until a year later after the marriage.. as if that was supposed to make it ethically and morally okay and stuff like that in adult and barely female adult marriage way.. anyway.. not surprising that there were some issues with the family unit for generations to come.. as life is kinda messy like that more than folks will usually admit.. anyway.. my father just wasn’t cut out to have kids.. he didn’t change the diapers and didn’t really have a nurturing bone in his body then.. as far as fathers go.. in ExpreSsinG Fatherly duties as such.. then.. and while his identical twin brother became quite the continuing nurturer it wasn’t the gift my father happened to have from birth as it seems his twin brother had more of it for sure.. and way through his old ages too.. And as sadly and honestly as i will say2.. the things i remember about my father are all the times he said he would visit.. and how he would send us through school.. and how he didn’t show up for my graduation from college.. or even my marriage too.. but again.. when my Autism got much worse as my Loving Mother.. no doubt.. all made the difference with me.. i came to better understand in middle age as i regressed with little ability for reciprocal social communication iN how hard that might have been for Daddy to do too.. without the same kind of nurturing Love i received full time from ages 0 to 3.. at least.. before my Mother had to go to work for decades to come to support a family as single parent.. but yeah.. my father was frigging prejudice against black folks and i heard some rather unpalatable things from some black folks much later in life as he was kinda rough about how he treated the black folks in his law enforcement duties then.. and he was homophobic as hell too.. and no doubt since i was so androgynous looking and sweet and all after being raised exclusively by mama likely2 that his biggest fear might have been that i would turn out gay as a son.. but nah.. i married a girl about as beautiful as my mother when she was young too.. when he was on his third wife and fourth marriage in a relationship that never seemed very loving at all.. and when my child.. Ryan.. was in the operating room having his open heart surgery.. the thing i remember most about my father.. sadly enough.. is when he told me.. make sure you raise him.. like a boy.. son.. yeah.. like it was my fault i never had a male role model in the home when i was a child.. i just shook my head inside in disgust.. and eventually became my own father.. and i always wanted to be fearless like my father.. like he always was with that cigarette in his hand.. law enforcement James Bond Cool.. with never a worry it seemed then even when my step-sister died of a cocaine related incident he just said that’s the way it goes.. and i guess 46 years of law enforcement can kill parts of the human soul.. just to survive.. and sure if he had stayed i might have followed in his shoes.. and quite frankly i’m glad he left with all due respect.. cause if he had stayed.. i might have never found my dancing shoes.. and become the leader of my own band.. it is just the way it goes.. but i for one can find meaning and purpose in most all lemons in life.. to keep the Lemonade stand smelling fresh.. struggle teaches more than having it made by someone else.. in my opinion at least.. and sure.. there is an ironic song for all the boys who must grow up to be men.. friends. and father’s.. and brother’s too of tHeir own.. but the lucky ones.. keep the nurturing ways of divine feminine Love too.. a greater gift of mother in this case.. finally finding the fearless father as i2..:)
And heRe iS mY Father @50 and mE @22 iN 1982..:)
i remember a Sociology class in College where my 51 year old professor and what i might have imagined i would present as in the future at that same rather grey and stoic age.. named Dr. Ray Oldenburg.. in the Sociology of the family stated.. who would want to live forever as most of my friends.. complain about boredom.. then.. WeLL.. Ray was/is smart and inspirational to me as he came up with a philosophy of how important the third place of life away from Work and home was so important to the proper socialization of human being.. in other words.. the bar.. the bowling alley.. and in someways even the church in all the church can be rather constricting too as far as LETTING IT ALL HANG OUT AS SUCH.. as sure.. sTiLL.. churches historically and politically speaking are tools to control groups of human beings for a structure of human order.. so there is plenty of subsistence.. appropriate mating rites.. shelter.. support and common bonding traditions to oil the flow of the structure of society as such to make it work well enough at least for the human family and children to survive.. across the lifespan.. in some comfort at least.. with some emotional hope.. faith and belief in the trust of what life is and can potentially be too.. but sure that can also range from Female Genital mutilation to killing innocent folks in unwarranted wars now to tossing homosexuals off the rooftops of buildings.. yet male bonding and homosexual behavior and just calling holding hands something else than male homosexual love as hands are held.. creates a loving bond and potentially even more than the penis and vagina union as such.. people have interesting and cruel ways of lying to themselves..the reality now and the fact of the matter is when ya separate males from females in affect even if the specific sexual organs never meet you create a homosexual society as sex is not just about the Bill Clinton def now of penis and vagina meeting.. as the entire human being organism now from brain to bottom of toes IS A sensual sexual being.. and Jesus F. in Christ.. when i first met some Saudia Arabian men flight training hand in hand all flushed and smiley at each other..at the Navy station.. it was no different than what you see of a gay bar on TV.. only difference really was.. they didn’t have to culturally hide their homosexual love.. and haha.. the same thing can be seen among the priesthood and monkhood and in the Muslim clerichood too.. it is a boy’s neighborworld where no one is even allowed to look at girls AND QUITE HONESTLY FROM THE VIEW OF GOD’S NATURE WAY.. THAT IS FUCKING INSANITY AND MAKING BOTH MEN AND WOMEN ‘QUEER’ AS HELL there now AND THAT IS JUST A FACT THAT ‘NORMALLY’ IN AT LEAST SOME PRIMITIVE SOCIETIES WHERE SEX FROM PUBERTY BETWEEN THE OPPOSITE ONES IS ALLOWED WITHOUT REPRESSING IT OR OPPRESSING IT THERE ARE NOT EVEN ANY WORDS FOR HOMOSEXUALITY OR MASTURBATION IN THE LANGUAGE AS SUCH.. humans are incredibly plastic in their ability to adapt to the environmental circumstances.. and to hide the opposite sex.. is really no different than prison.. and the straightest most alpha male adapting to the orifices at hand to get the human instinct of sex job done.. to satisfy the instinctual drive.. and sometimes in Muslim cultures holding hands and kisses on the check is enough until someone buys a bride for you.. Folks.. this is just human Nature and God of Nature 101 common sense.. use it or lose it applies.. hide the female goods and stay around the male goods all the time.. and folks will do what they have to thrive and survive.. and no doubt in my mind that there is actually more homosexual desires in Muslim countries either hidden or not talked about than anyone can imagine who lives there that is not a member of that same sex.. no different than the down under of the African American community over here.. and anyway.. it’s already been empirically proven to some degree over the number of Muslim folks involved in that online homosexual dating service once it got uncovered by the hacker as such.. for public display.. and yeah.. this recent American mass murder is exposing the truth as well.. in the worse way possible.. it’s just fucked up to fuck with the God of Nature and cover up the Truth and Light of the human body from head to toe to penis and vagina.. as what you get then is all about some fetish to express the Nature of Human sensuality and sexuality whole from head to toe.. anyway.. i’m wearing my somewhat pink to red shaded Lion King shirt to Catholic Church this morning with cam·ou·flage shorts.. to point out the hypocrisy of the flaming gay Catholic Church.. where there are so many obvious conflicting hypocritical folks lying to themselves and everyone else it would be hilarious if it wasn’t so flaming sad.. the Catholic Church is the largest run closeted homosexual organization that the world has ever known and crap even my horny granddad for the opposite sex as Catholic Priest talked to that homosexual Catholic way as author way back in the middle of last century too.. it’s human Nature.. the patterns do remain.. and the best thing about that i suppose is it has softened up the image now of Jesus so much more than what you find in the less flaming element of Love in the Protestant end of days hell fire churches per se.. and nah.. there ain’t much homosexual blatant in the temple Catholic bashing going on.. as there are good reasons why the priests will put a stop to that if the more so-called macho Deacons start to go down that path.. So yeah.. there’s some dirty water in the Catholic Church.. and the Muslim World of clerics and the Protestant way too.. but ya cannot toss out the baby of Love over dirty bath water no matter what.. there is room to improve.. the Catholic Church is moving slightly away from lies.. and sooner or later the rest of religion in Abrahamic way will follow suit as bottom line.. God lives best within us when free from chains of lies.. God lives best when real and true to the Nature of what will more often naturally occur when there are no more hidden lies.. AND Priests/Deacons are not afraid to say a prayer for over a hundred folks who were shot up in a bar for fear that they might be seen as sympathetic to who they really are at core as human beings.. that really disgusts me the most i think out of any experience i’ve had at Catholic Church since i haven’t missed a Sunday of Singing in almost three years now.. THE FACT THAT OUT OF A CONGREGATION OF OVER A THOUSAND PEOPLE THAT DAY BY 11 AM THAT MORNING THAT NO ONE WAS BRAVE ENOUGH TO OFFER A PRAYER FOR THOSE HOMOSEXUAL FOLKS WHO WERE KILLED IN THE BIGGEST MASS MURDER IN AMERICAN HISTORY IN SHOOT ‘EM UP STYLE.. they just went by the book of what was pre-planned on the Church list to do.. and no one had the God dam human common sense then and basic humanity for a nation that is ‘supposed to be’ one Nation under God of all in a Republic and not just a monarchy of a chosen few as some spiffy suited church goers think.. they are so God dam special over someone else like a Panhandler Jesus on the side of the road that they say.. oh GOD… you look like an able bodied man not considering that mental illness can be totally invisible on the outside and say.. get a job.. you lazy bum.. not even realizing that’s just Jesus they are talking about.. of millions.. who have finally determined that it is society who is really insane and not them.. funny how what is good and what is bad can get so fucking insanely sTiLL twisted around in human misery and suffering.. but that is what human enlightenment is all about.. escaping the father of all lies.. as truly God is more like a black she.. as the astronaut said when returning to earth.. yeah.. as always dArk births LiGht.. and all of this is sImply dArk birthing more liGht.. if you can see the dARk is the liGht and the liGht is the dARk sAMe.. and it is for us each as human beings to find God in us as is to choose the path that works from birth of dArk into A liGht.. that shines briGhter out oF dARk noW.. anyWay.. it dam sure works for me.. @lEast.. oh yeah.. and back to my original point about Ray and his assessment as living forever is not worth it for the boredom like hell that would occur.. well FucK.. don’t you understand Ray that’s what the dArk is for.. as with dArk there is always creativity of liGht and that means LIFE NEVER GETS BORING AS LONG AS YOU CO-CREATE WITH GOD DARK TO LIGHT to DARK TO LIGHT FOREVERMORE NOW.. and i’m sure that Ray now who was born in ’32 like my Dad was… is.. finding a way to still noW create liGht out oF dARk as bottom line is we all do that when we are BaLanCinG aT lEast.. no need to lie about God as reaLiTy out of DArk.. Now iS tHere reAlly.. once one uncovers the dArk and liGht of God W i T H iN side.. out side.. aBove.. so beLow and aLL A’round noW.. tHe DArk Ocean now miXes wiTh the Star oF liGht and tar and oiLed birds iN LiVinG dArk of ‘Kali’.. noW do rise uP to liGht aGaiN.. and to be clear here.. Homosexuality is not just a part of Nurture created after birth.. tHere is GroWinG evidence that before birth the womb awash in androgens from stress in the environment can create the propensity of homosexuality as a natural way to decrease the future fertility of the population to better share what social stress normally means as less to eat to even be able to survive.. so the ‘best’ way to make a homosexual society like what Muslim cultures really are closeted as such.. is.. to make women marry men they don’t wanna marry and get them all stressed out.. and next you know you have a really fucked up culture.. that has adapted to life’s stresses where most everyone is living a lie in human made hell.. so sure when sociologists like Ray say.. that Muslim cultures Will eventually adapt to current U. S. of A general human freedoms that’s just common sense too.. as life is worth living when free.. and seriously who wants to die in a suicide bombing or mass shooting.. when life is worth R E a L L y.. living now.. IT’S COMMON SENSE 101 AND EASIER TO FOLLOW if someone isn’t threatening your freedom for continuing control for what is deemed as the flavor of order now.. Waking up to the God oF Nature in us as us has alWays been and is THE TRuTH AND LIgHT.. it’s innate.. instinctual.. and sTiLL intuitive.. and needs no lies for REAL..:)
Finding Dory.. moral of the story.. with perseverance and alWays trYinG new paThs when the otHeRs do not work.. stuff eventually works out.. and i must say.. that for me at least with 100% Hope.. Faith.. and Belief that i show liFE works out in both dArk and liGht.. the tween beyond rainbow color shades.. and hues of ever more EmoTioNaL moves and colors of liFE.. wHOle.. yeah.. LiFE when viewed froM WHole Canvas Painting is the most beautiful thing imaginable and more as we can imagine it and create it WhOle as pARt aS WeLL.. and the trUe and real Quantum Magic of life iN miNd and BoDy unleashed and released continues to grow aT lEast for me.. documented in all the art of blog.. in Longest.. Long Form PoeM now.. sTiLL GroWinG WitH these words.. and after writing about Jesus Panhandlers.. sure enough i met three today wHere Pigeons fly free as messengers too.. and the Raven who is fed by NaturE noW needs no stress of manmade rules to eat.. yeah.. humans are social animals and they take care of each other.. and the good news was this man and his friends who had roughed it out in life who refused to be named as homeless but domestically displaced on their way back home.. did receive enough kindness from people who are never strangers who have empathy and unconditional Love who do the right so-called good cop Jesus thing of helping their fellow humans as brothers and sisters with no personal judgements over.. mental illness.. alcoholism.. which is also a disease that is addiction.. and just FucKinG Misfortune.. Hospital bills from past and foreclosed mortgages and i was so happy to hear the homeless men say.. they’ve never been happier as they escaped the true insanity of culture as is.. as certainly of what i assessed it as bound and cuffed to the system of work for decades.. without respite until it.. by a razor’s hair edge almost ended my life.. as stress kiLLs iT REALLY DOES.. and nah.. we had already given our spare cash to another homeless person before.. and these homeless men showed the most appreciation and didn’t ask for a dime.. they were just happy to meet some more friendly human family in the ever occurring now of LiFE that Lives.. and i must say.. the FinDinG Dory movie.. IS A sAMe God dAm story.. in that parKinG lot today.. as these folks stick together who are domestically displaced no different than Dory and her friends who find that friends are truly family same as any so-called other blood that folks think separates them any less thick than unconditional Loving Friendship ways.. so yeah.. Jesus and the other Jesus’ could be found on the side of the road today.. and on the way to see Jesus.. i saw some threats of hell by bad cop Jesus that i photoed off a Van.. and one of those scary scary Pamphlets about burning in hell cooling wet on the Chinese Restaurant sink.. all distributed by folks who have so-called homes.. but sure they could have skipped all the fear and hate.. and just met Jesus and his Jesus friends in the parking lot.. as one of the men said… i AM Jesus’ personal representative and that is all i need in life.. and yeah.. the Jesus metaphor as role model created by the Catholic church well after what scholars suggest is the 18% or so words that can even be attributed most to one author alone out of the New Testament book.. live in Nature free aWay from lies of fear and hate.. And sure.. if he was one man who could get reincarnated today.. or just another man as he promised in humble way WiLL do much more than he in the future.. those men.. WiLL shake tHeir head in disgust.. and alMost disbelief that his message of Golden Rule Love and no exclusions for Gentile.. Jew.. Servant or man or woman no more separate ONE WitH aS God’s Love.. as truly nothing changed and still hasn’t changed for so many folks who continue to crucify Jesus’ REAL MESSAGE OF FEARLESS LOVE.. with hate and fear.. as ANTI-CHRIST REAL.. anyWay.. Hope and Fearless Love Heals.. Anger.. Hate.. and Fear is the equivalent in Emotional power to most human suffeRinG and miSery.. amaZinG that folks stiLL chose the second place as hell on earth instead of REAL DOMESTICALLY DISPLACED HEAVEN OF GOD’S NATURE NOW.. AS A MUCH BETTER FREEDOM TO BE WITH GOD ALL NOW.. OnE… AS Pigeons WiLL Deliver as messengers of God too.. sAdLY culture makes something so beautiful and BaLanCinG as Fearless Love into the mechanical cognition of a culture with a Labyrinth that some folks never escape through tHeir day of death.. these homeless folks could EXCLAIM.. i AM aLivE.. LiVinG and i FeeL the FULLesT.. eXTent of that wiTh God ALL ThaT iS.. oh.. Now.. tHe wIDe aWaKe and EnliGhteNinG FeeLinGs and SeNseS FReED WitH God.. tRuLY iN terms oF JuSt DoinG iT.. Zero beaTs thaT.. noW.. anYwaY2 Long LONG LoonnG.. daY oF DancE and ‘thiS Dory’ IS A jUst aBout ready to FaLL asleep like a dolphin StiLL wiTh at Least one hemisphere of bRaiN opeN.. alWays WidE awAke.. and sure.. tHerE’s a SonG for thAt too..:)
iN storE.. contTinUinG freeST stYle DancE roUtine.. alWays neW neVer enDinG.. alWaYs stArTinG.. aLwaYs noW.. DancE oF liFe’s SonG mY SoUL Now..:)
HeHE.. more inspiration heRe from online Illuminati end of days conspiracy theorist way.. and sure my.. X-Catholic Priest Grandaddy did the same last Century in his still PDeFEd.. book as authored titled .. “Behind the Dictator’s”.. easily searchable too now in online way.. so sure.. just continuing an old line family linEage way here.. from Ireland days.. of Catholic Priest then too.. in grandfatherly way on just another Celebration way of Summer Solstice 2016.. as meaning and purpose is what hUman liFe is all about.. and sure there are basicAlly two ways to go.. one in the Love and Hope of Heaven now.. and the other duality in Hell now of Hate and Fear REAL.. i choose the liGht Fearless path of Love’s LiGht others choose the dArk path oF Fear and hate.. and sure.. as any cLoudy day WiLL.. tHey inspire mE for thE SuN of God ReAL2..:)
Here’s the deal dude.. The Anti-Christ that is only fear and hate aWay from hope and love has already come.. is found out.. and is slowly being erased from the eARTh to a new age of Christ as Hope and Love.. sure.. metaphors.. if you haven’t lEarned NOT to take sacred text in literal way.. Truly it’s as simple as that the Christ way of Life is the Golden rule away from fear and hate that is Unconditional Fearless Love for aLL yoUr neighbors that is Nature God anD ONe.. anything else is anti-christ my friend.. and sAdly i see those remnants here still same as when the Roman Emperor Constantine and his Catholic Cohorts made the humble yogi-like teacher Yeshua into a Soldier Sun God of the entire beyond InFinITy oF GoD oF aLL that is.. and of course Constantine THeN folloWed suit by making a monolithic statue of himself to be worshipped as idol same as folks still do for a King of a Universe nailed to a cross of hell as King instead of last before first.. and one who would freely say still in New Testament way that giants of Fearless Love would come after him to do much more in evenTuaLiTy to spRead thiS sAMe GOlden Rule of Buddha and all his sage ages ‘friends’ 2 around the the world my friEnd sTiLL now in REAL APOCALYPSE GREEK MEANING THAT MEANS LIFTING THE VEIL OF IGNORANCE MY FRIEND AND HELL NO.. NO ANTI-CHRIST FEAR AND HATE WAY OF END days and lies like that to control and subjugate human freedoms by repressing and oppressing Free God as humaNifest in and as us as now.. and haha.. sure i can prove it with my own little bible of longest free verse long form way approaching 4 million words.. but nah.. no need to link.. my friend.. as God has already provided this Raven with enough to eat for the rest of his life.. with no need for Google likes.. shares.. and pennies along the way.. but sure.. everyone’s gotta make a living now.. huh.. the way of basic subsistence survival but sadly it’s kinda hard to spread hope and love for money.. as money is still the root of all fear same in ways of subjugation of others for control in ways of hate and evil.. generally speaking.. as human end of that means to life now.. anyway.. my friEnd.. i’m just ‘HeAR’ as many others are freely as volunteer soldiers of God who heRe thE CAll of God Within.. inside.. outside.. above.. so below.. and all around to help NoW lift oFF the veil of ignorance sure that is the REAL CHRIST apocalypse noW in other Bible translation Greek way too.. of BeForE.. So.. SuRE.. YOU CAN CALL uS THE ILLUMINATi.. NoW.. thE LIGHT BRINGERS IF YOU LIKE too2 real.. AS WE STAND TaLL.. FiRM AND UNSHAKEABLE IN AND AS THE REAL CHRIST WAY OF FEARLESS HOPE.. FAITH.. AND BELIEF IN THE POWER OF GOD OF NATURE ALL GRACE IN THE POWER OF LOVE.. you can find us domestically displaced on the side of roads.. as the Raven flies and is fed by God’s friends.. or you can find us online in places of sacrifice for toils and troubles of fame with folks like Katy Perry and others who make ‘little’ film shorts in creative Wide Awake and Dark Horse ways.. or folks like me who quietly scribe Away in creative Quantum unleashed and released force of God within.. yes.. inside.. outside and all around so above so below.. who do what Jesus said they would do in much more than he could do back when.. before the new age geeks and nerds would prepare A way for real miracles to come now to spread A Good News NOW of Fearless Love.. Golden Rule style.. in moving.. connecting.. and creating in iMagiNAtiOn.. of prepare ye a new technological way of doing that now.. almost free without even any need for fame or Google pennies for pay along the way.. wE come as thieves in the night too my friEnd.. i AM no one SPECIAL BUT THEM.. SEE YA AROUND BABY.. HOPEFULLY NoW AWAY FROM ANTI-CHRIST FEAR AND HATE.. THE LOST WAY AS SAME SINCE THE BEGINNING AND END OF NOW.. DON’T BE AFRAID AND SPREAD HATE AND FEAR.. OR DO AND LIVE IN HELL NOW.. IT’S TRULY THaT SIMPLE AND COMPLEX TOO.. HEAVEN IS NOW AND MANY OF US IN METAPHOR HAVE ALREADY BEEN WIDE AWAKE R A P T U R E D uP AND ENLIGHTENED IN THIS GIFT OF HEAVEN NOW.. IT IS GOD’S ALL NATURAL REWARD FOR THOSE OF US WHO HAVE PERSEVERED FEAR AND HATE AND COME OUT ON THE OTHER SIDE WHOLE IN HOPE AND LOVE.. AND THIS MY FRIEND WILL BE THE ONLY INVITATION I BRING HERE NOW.. take it as a grain of salt or not.. as life your choice alWays and never really any one else’s but you and God FReED who lives within.. inside.. outside.. above.. so below.. and all around now.. and thanks my friend for yoUr dArk inspiration for A New age bard way Now as this too.. WiLL be pArt of many new age mini- me bibles2 of God to fill the ocean of E-World reaLiTy that IS A unabridged NoW bible whole of the E-World all now online real.. in a kingdom for thousands years more now real that has no sun.. no moon.. as sure as synchronistic metaphor in Revelation in old good book way2.. nice to meet you here.. no matter what as that is what the Golden rule of Jesus and other sages of the ages.. like Buddha and so many others have sAGeD across the ages.. tHere is no fear and hate in my life friend.. as that is the real crOwn A N D R E A L T H R O N E N O W I N H E A V E N of Jesus.. REAL.. Hope and Love and again as ending note always of Heaven now.. A G A I N REAL.. Fear and hate is the other way to hell iN now.. noW NoW Enjoy A River wayAS wave mY friEnd NoW.. thE water iS Fearless LovENOW in whole Ocean of DArk and liGht mixed oNe as field of dreams noW REAL realized in the Kingdom of God’s heavEn noW.. no wHere ever but now.. and i Am just a noWheRe but noW man my FRiEnD and sure a watcher witness and scribe as such.. as God’s court reporter2 if ya wanna use that metaphor as WeLL.. HAVE A NiCE NOW…;) WiTH GOD WiNKS TOO.. wRite.. ON COURSE NoW..:)
WeLL.. no trip back to dVerse to bRinG more statues aLivE Now MoVinG but soMeHow noW @lEast i FeeL i did anyWAY iN pArt.. THiNk.. not so much.. NO.. but FeeL.. oH.. NoW.. YES.. So.. Happy Sumer Solstice As A Sun stArTS faDinG anD Will Rise aGaiN as alWays morE as WiNter Solstice fLies out oF Ashes iN A cYcle oF DArk aNd liGht.. thaT goes oN forevernowmorEnoW.. as Star duSt beComEs uS aS DaRK And liGht SpArKs oF FirE hoMe allone..2..1.. ending for now thiS 678th Macro verse pArt oF LonGest Long Form Poem noW titLed.. “i cAMe for eNliGhTeNinG NoW”..:)
Hi gigoid.. as penniewoodfall so elegantly quotes otHeRs wiTh similar nAMes.. i AM glad to see you back and aM continUinG to eNjoY mY pLay of VillAge iDioT2..noW1.. and didn’t see the quote heRe.. and perHaps i’LL coMe back a little later to add more but for now the one you jUst shaRed off oF Facebook WiLL end a Summer 2016 Solstice pLaY oF iT.. iN reSouNDinG noW tri-U.. TuNe2..1..2..;)
“It is an interesting question how far men would retain their relative rank if they were divested of their clothes.”
— Henry David Thoreau
And iN shorts thAT mY FRiEnD.. iS hoW i f0r 0Ne EnSuRe i WiLL neVer GaiN anY FucKinG eARThly RanK… aS iT iS A RAnk oF ulTiMaTe hUman StInK TRump STanK.. As A reForMed Grinch miGht SaYe..2..REaL..
noW So.. Yes! See yAl8r’s babY.. iF Ya don’t see mE LasT..;)