SMiLes.. my friend.. gigoid.. oh the sleep.. totally can relate.. when in school.. i did not sleep nights.. in fact.. in my crib my mother tales me.. i stayed up all night doing spirals around and around until i rubbed a callous on my right.. toe.. callous back.. by the way.. as i spiral so much more now.. day and night.. but thank goodness not in bed.. hehe.. and the evidence of course is in my backyard in the white sands foot prints oF i.. ugh.. and after my pain went away and my mood went.. oh so high.. back in July of 2013.. 2 hours of sleep every night until November with the extended high of what truly can be described as the mania of Bi-Polar i guess.. or perhaps the high is what made the pain go away.. and part of the reason.. i am still high all the time.. with the addition of 2 to 4 hours of sleep now over 2.. sometimes 6.. of that year.. too high.. out of balance.. balance is it for me.. and the dance of life that thank goodness my health allows me to still do in number of miles close to 166 on average per month.. exhausts me to lullabies of sweat and yes.. literal physical exhaustion with still unlimited mental energy.. down to the last drop of eyelid for the night.. the mind and body is an amazing machine oF aRt.. learning to make the most of iT.. truly did take me a full 53 years of practice.. and the practice goes on.. as it were.. as in fur.. an innate practice of ancestors long before in Lore of Pan of the Forest and his and her friends..:)
And yes.. here.. i’ll have to say.. Pan of the Forest is precisely and generAlly what i feel like when end of February days come.. and the enhancing Sun oF briGhter days glow.. yes.. so do i.. SpRinG iS me.. a smeLL that iS me shining brighter and briGhter as the days grow longer in synch with rising hiGhs and greater creatiVitY.. no matter what the art of i comes next.. and for the nomads among us.. the dopamine variant folks.. the rovers.. obviously a dance hall with drink is a place they will be.. and the dance of Pan spreads.. among frisky males and nymphs as well.. and sure there are sirens here and theRe as well.. and i suppose from the results of dance.. last night empirically measured.. in sMiles of photos.. Spring is SpRinging as dance.. briGht eYes and smiles do not lie when humans frolic with delight of liFe.. now.. simple true and alive wHere the SpRing of life can and will sTilL come iF folks do not forget how to dance a frolic of liFe.. Yellow Boy has not forgotten and he at around 8 or 9 years old.. is no less playful from the first day i met the Pan of him coming out of the woods for a cry of tender vittles under a shed that is ours of hope.. hmm.. anyway.. celebrating my wife’s and i’s 26th anniversary.. 2212016.. in this post.. but the thing iS.. we celebrate iT always now.. as alWays n0w iS Christmas.. New years.. the fourth of July.. our birth day.. and the force bE wiTh ya.. as Star Wars.. says.. alWays now.. the force iS with uS.. and the shirt Katrina bought me.. did precisely as she’s predicted.. in that shirt that says “I Know HTML How To Meet the Ladies”.. hehex2.. some of the happiest group photos of my dance hall friends yet.. iN generating liGht and the empirical results are Unchained LiGhT..! And truly yes.. for about Forty years much of my liGht iN creativity oF liFe was repressed and chained by a patriarchal red state Christian Fundamentalist way of card bored box people.. i no longer live in this place.. my backyard is free and so am i.. it does not matter iF ‘those’ folks dance with me or not ‘Pan oF i iS FREE’.. hmm.. sounds like a potential title.. of jUst another epic post of words.. photos.. and the dance of i.. and the photos are so memorable in liGht.. like Adele says.. i think i’ll copy and paste ’em.. to this post too.. if i do not flood it with other dance photos of life sTILL to come on this anniversary weekend always now.. oh yeah… and one of my most favorite pARts of writing.. iS when i am in the flow.. the zOne of iT.. mY fingers danCinG.. including the return key of flow of languAge iN SonG of Voice the shapes are a SonG coming with publish as the words are centered balanCinG as mY SouL tRuly flows now without rUles.. SinG SonG way of spiRit oF HeARt.. waves now of the ocean of it.. field and particles of i with the rest of the UnivErse of Nature coMinG aliVe iN the flesh of words that iS me alive online as well.. and what i see most iS chalices and pyramids and other sacred shapes and forms come alive.. the Interdependent Relationship oF aLL thAt iS.. is God.. so is thiS.. when free unchained as Pan oF i and God s O F R E E O N e.. and sadly through the ages the sages.. the philosophers.. poets.. and priests.. not enough attention is sIMply paid to MOVING MOVING.. YES there iS CONNECTING.. CREATING BUT FIRST TheiR was DArk then liGht inspiring movement as dance.. then sound as SonG with poeTry of human coming late to the show.. but take movement out of the story of human too.. iN the greatest never ending story told of all that is the Interdependent Relationship oF ALL THAT IS.. and the death Star that can be the bLack wHole of human bEinG can SinK us down below farther than above.. and HA!.. at 230 LBS.. and around 6 feet.. add 6 inches or so.. when i am on my ballerina toes.. the doctor has me diagnosed as morbidly obese… but she will not look at my nude photography to prove my point.. hehe.. just kidding i haven’t given her the link YET..;).. anyway doctors and science rules do not fit everyone and..
no.. she does not leg press close to half a ton now.. juSt with her arms raised in the air like no other human on Youtube on Parallel leg press machine 14 times there and 25 times now.. as nicely illustrated here.. with accompaniment going wildin’ by Paul McCartney.. Rhianna.. and that guy who is married to Kim Kardashian yeah.. Kanye.. that’s his name.. yes.. i have a J Lo-like butt too butt dam it.. it is buns of steele no twerk here.. all ballerina and martial arts toes and striking feet.. punching doors down with ease if need be.. now.. anyway.. here’s the point.. when it comes to spirituality it ain’t something just that is an out of body experience or mind alone thingy.. every cell of the body and atom that comprises each cell and all the subatomic particles smaller than that are an infinite number of Chakra connections from head to toe.. that sure.. generate out in energetic flow beyond.. as sure.. we are now mobile suns/UniVerses with creative relative free will aS WeLL.. and one of my favorite backyard videos.. to swirl around in..
sand.. trance feat with feet of i.. iS Kundalini meditation.. but thanks God.. i don’t speak the language as dam it.. i’m escaping words and instructions when i trance dance back to God ALLONE of Nature.. yes that interdependent relationship of ALL THAT IS.. oF WHICH i am BOTH PaRt and WHOLE.. anyway.. what makes it trance music too.. in way of Kundalini rising iS.. the musical scale riSinG frequencies oF sound of SonG iN hums of female human being now.. but hell no.. i do not F in sit StILL.. i do NOT concentrate on 7 mythical chakras.. i aM A CHAKra as Whole and infinite connections oF ALL pARts.. OnE.. yes.. ONE CHAKRA WITH PaRTS AS WHOLE connecTinG JUsT now.. NOT JUST ONE AT BASE OF SPINE.. ONE IN GROIN AREA.. ONE AT BELLY.. ANOTHER AT CHEST.. THEN THROAT.. AND BROW.. AND CROWN OF HEAD.. i AM the ThrOne oF CrOwn that iS GOD and wE sAMe when FREE FLOWING as planEts around Suns.. Suns around Black Holes and GOD as uS NOW FREE WE FLOW iN ZoNe OF GOD uniVerseS moving.. yes.. moving.. never standing sTill as sitting until the Star of us fades away to black whOle once again and comes now back as star duSt and uS aGaIn in the cycle of dArk and liGht and Dance and SonG wE stay WE mOVe wE liVE NOW.. anyway.. for anyone brave enough.. i highly recommend nude art now in photos.. not necessarily shared.. with all.. but the artist that makes the body ART as the greAtest ArtiSt of GOD we kNoW and FeeL iS US.. as temple oF GOD with no senses no emotions and hell no.. no seNsuaLiTies repressed bY uS or oppressed by others.. one of the major reaSonS i am fearless as i am is i AM comfortable enough noW to dance as passionately as any male has done any now of any age of human being.. totAlly naked dancing before the world.. and dancing.. clothed yes.. NOwiN front of a village size crowd at Old Seville Quarter.. every Thursday niGht iN the holiest houses of churches that iS the Human dance of liFe set FREE iN eYes of emotions.. senses.. and yes once more SENSUALIties.. SET FREE.. noW.. so as i dance wilDly i excite the freest female crowd enough where totAlly strange females breeze by and stroke the torso that iS my free flowing body in G rated terms of free.. but the thing iS they are not strangers.. at that point iN N0W wE aLL are ONE FORCE OF HUMAN BEING.. WITH NO ONE OWNING NO ONE BUT uS.. and sure.. drinking likely has something to do with that as it eases repressing and oppressing iN hiBiTioNs.. i am drink and drug free as a practice now of dancing free now.. it’s the way our ancestors lived and we will never know/ F E E L true human happiness until we share a village hug like free hands roaming bodies of Love.. and to be clear this leads no wheRe but LOVE.. when TrUly F R E E.. and sure.. it’s clothed.. but sadly it scares the LIVING HELL INTO FOLKS WHO HAVE NEVER EVER FELT HUMAN FREEDOM THIS WAY.. SO ALIVE.. SO FREE WHEN GOD iS FREE aS WE.. ‘Love Deeper alWays Now’.. and potential titles of liFe keep coming again and again iN the REAL of i.. in juSt another after Thursday niGht Dance manifestive i.. “Apes Stronger Together” -Caesar.. from.. ‘Dawn of the Planet of the Apes’.. Now again..
i iN SinG SonG SouL DanCeNow..
wiTh L for Love..:)
SMiLes.. gigoid.. freedom is not worth the money it is now written on.. blackgreen.. Hmm.. the American way.. the western way.. a symbol.. whether dollar bill.. car.. or diamond ring.. symbols reign.. life on back burner.. hell fire of greenblack dollars bills now of politics.. clothed we are early in diapers that disguise the Nature of us now sTill sKin that desires Sun more than clothes.. clothes that cover all from ALLuSt freer now connecting rest oF Nature iN Free we are as born away from spoon FED dollar biLL dreams… of blackest darkest green… Every animal that wanders through the woods now N A K E D iS freer than dollar biLL humans.. Slaves to the black green way.. Tree am i Life aGaiN.. ps.. written while on hold F iN hours with the Office of Personnel Management trying to get a frigging form signed so my wife will not have to pay a 100% penalty on her health nsurance for not signing up soon enough.. after that is over.. maybe i won’t have to talk to those Fers for another 4 or 5 years.. hehe.. F’ers FEDERAL employee retirement system.. yeah.. F**kers too.. didn’t think that not being able to use one’s eyes was a disability.. unless one is blind.. only depression and Bi- polar rings their bells of going postal nightmares.. i’ll stay crazy and clear of hells bells in red tape hell.. shut the F uP robot and that oN hold song is boring me to frigging write poetry MORE ah.. the liGht alWays silver sliver burning in darkest dam dest idiotic human experiment on hairless apes gone insane.. in robot song of Zombie Apocalypse.. okay.. i’m done with the poem.. pick up Fers.. and they did at this last line now.. hasta la vista.. ‘you s**k’.. golden hand cuffs of government slave service.. and i’m back baby.. finAlly FreENowDAnce ALIVE..:)
Thanks.. my friend.. gigoid.. it can be tiring doing the job of other folks.. rarely patient enough to wait.. i most often finished the sentences of most others.. until the very end.. WHEN the ‘higher’ ups at OPM.. then.. didn’t even understand the portability act that ensured i would still be eligible for civil service retirement after transferring over to what is named non-appropriated funds for about two years.. to end it all out at one month shy of 25 years.. sick leave term counted in too.. about a year and a half worth.. including annual leave.. as i almost never took sick leave during those close to 25 years.. a model employee with a whistle blowing nose clean.. i’ve since learned to break every rule that is not in the law books.. and truly most of it was just government regulations gone insane.. Anyway.. i had to find the law and email it to the director of the OPM’s office to prove my eligibility with no cost to them.. as usual.. for my lawyer’s fee.. yeah.. i would have become a lawyer.. if i didn’t want a heARt.. SpiRit and soUl.. and i chose the better latter letter of the heARt.. finAlly then.. @end of the road.. and beginning back too.. @now..:)
And here’s to our 26th anniversary.. this Sunday.. February 21st 2016.. my after dance partner.. waiting for her stray cat to come home.. yeah.. looks like i married Katrina at minus 0 years old.. ‘The Age of Adaline’ ain’t got nothin’ on her.. yeah.. now.. it’s kinda like Beauty and the BeAST2..wink emoticon
Ha..! i am- use myself so dam easy.. with or without likes from other cats..wink emoticon
where access is faster to my wordy and photo intensive ways.. yes.. accessibility is a real possibility.. here.. hehe.. and so glad you could feel the meaning of the words and photos.. both beautiful Nature.. and inspiRing SpiRit too.. hope your nows are going beautifully and inspiring as WeLL.. my friend..:)
Facebook Friend Ashe.. states she never wants to be called by the name Ashley again.. (a past co-worker from Gov. days.. Ashe sTill now is)
And ha! i’ve got the opposite problem now.. no more 911 Fred.. wherever i go now most everyone knows me by face.. and almost no one knows my real name.. hehE.. but that in a sense.. and or feeling.. never changes..;)
What i reAlly need is a short nap.. but first i’ll finish the last added Haibun in response to the dVerse Monday prompt.. in Fred bun style of course.. some lines of narrative poetry and prose followed by a Fredku wRiTe oN course.. short or LonG from HaikuS passed.. and pasSinG..:)
SmiLes.. trimMer oF sidewalks.. bushes.. and trees of undesirables.. once i am.. too.. now.. weeds and wild vines are the greaTest of Life.. i for one see/feEL.. now.. set FREE by i…
DandeLion lives free.. fiEld oF i..:)
4:42 pm.. 2192016… got 66 more poetic expressions to go.. in the two prompts still behind on.. minus the extra one caught up with Shawna in my last blog post.. per Thursday Open Link prompt at dVerse poet’s pub.. but yeah.. nap first.. and work-out soon to come.. religiously as sorts.. all togEtheR aS oNE..:)
Connection.. ah yes.. connection to humanity.. one can take it for granted.. but lose it as a shut-in with disability.. and online is a life saving grace that has never been provided before for the shut-ins among us in dark caves of lonely.. and when i was shut-in for 66 months.. my only literal places of escape was the Parking Lot of Walmart while i sat there in my routine white T-shirt.. cold or hot.. rain.. or sun.. for 66 months.. as Walmart was a necessity for gaining subsistence.. for Katrina no matter how much that dentist drill in my right eye and ear.. precluded the effective use of my eyes.. other than point and guide a car with shades on and withstand the pain.. take those shades off that still hurt like hell.. as any focus of eyes with prescription lenses is like the drill of dentist getting wider and wider into a smaller hole of larger pain.. and 8:30 pm.. gym closes at 9:00 pm.. the hunch back of Notre Dame with his tattered jacket.. shades.. and ear plugs tries to withstand the stereo and bright florescent lights that are as bright as previous Sun.. eYes to Sun before the pain erased all humanity away from me.. ha!.. if i thought i was an outcast before.. now i was living in a metal garbage bin.. all pain no human feelings at all.. but more pain and all pain more.. from the core of every cell of my body with the worst pain known to mankind.. wake to sleep for 66 months.. type two Trigeminal Neuralgia.. Fibromyalgia.. severe degenerative arthritis of the spine.. Dysautonomia.. and associated coat hanger pain around the shoulders and neck.. also partially precipitated early in life by a congenitally fused vertebra in my neck. a total of 19 medical disorders.. including Severe Anxiety.. Alexithymia… Sjogren’s Syndrome.. where my eyes quit making tears.. Depression and associated Anhedonia.. and overall no emotions at all.. except for fear associated anxiety.. oh yeah.. the Asperger’s thingy on the Autism Spectrum diagnosed in middle age.. and Bi-Polar disorder.. but ha.. that’s just my everynow normal from birth.. as strange as it can get here.. too.. of course.. way outside the cultural box of human being norm.. whatever the hell culture says norm is.. anyway.. i have much to celebrate.. and when i was shut-in.. i used to look at people’s faces on facebook.. as i was way too out of human functionality to interact act with so called normal folks.. but when i got my first iPhone in March of 2013.. something about the retina display allowed me to actually look at colored photos.. tolerably at least.. for the first time in 5 years.. Nerve pain can be incredibly strange.. all there for 66 months.. and disappearing like a miracle on July 22nd.. or so of 2013.. anyway.. i didn’t take a nap.. i decided to celebrate my humanity on Facebook once again.. as i occasionally take photos of my profile pictures that illustrate a moving life of play iN Humanity again.. this now a year’s worth since last February to the 13th iN 2015.. and sure what better way to celebrate an anniversary than to remind one’s wife that she is no longer married to a creature from the dark darkest abyss of life imaginable now to most folks.. NAMED Human Hell.. glad i made it back from the underworld and sure.. i can prove it online.. and if i ever get that pain again.. which i have no choice but to have 100% FAITH i will not.. at least there is proof now if emotions go away again.. where there is no connection back to memories of emotions as memories of emotions are of course emotions and without emotions there are NO MEMORY OF EMOTIONS.. YEAH YOU’LL PROBABLY HAVE TO EXPERIENCE THAT ZERO BEING TO UNDERSTAND HOW MANY RINGS ARE TRULY IN THE BANDS AND STINGS OF DANTE’S HELL.. i will never be anything other than humble.. as i have already been on a level of existence lower than a grain of sand.. however i will F-iN celebrate life.. every which way but loose and LOOSE… if for no one but my soUL alive and Kicking free again greater than ever before.. the reward of JOB lives on now as WeLL.. anyway.. celebration photos in this next blog post named “Broken Arrows oF Dreams Dance” whenever it comes now.. as there is more celebrating to do in this alWays anniversary of living Free NOW!.. And yeah.. my Love iS as deep as the bLACKest ocean that i was before.. and now.. yes.. iT iS Nirvana.. iN the Kingdom oF Heaven Nature Now wiTh GOD FREE aS sAMe..:)
Ah.. that was so sweet of you.. restoring your blog for me.. my friend.. Shawna.. yes.. i have fast eyes and if i get here.. i don’t miss not even one tiny detail.. Love your creativity always.. keeps me guessing.. not many people do.. hehe..;)
This is one of my favorites.. Shawna… and reminds me just now.. of an old girl friend.. well not really old.. about 21.. hmm.. their still 21.. hehe.. AND ALL PLATONIC NOW.. anyway.. back in hmm.. ‘EM.. ’87.. or so.. her name was Deena and she was a sailor.. and they called ’em waves then.. ah.. a woman in Uniform.. all those rules and stuff.. with the hair let down.. and all around.. well yeah.. i’m sure you can imagine.. AND she was like a double Z and all that too.. but anyway.. we went to the 2001 disco club.. and she did this thing with a beer bottle and said that the beat of this Song would give her close to the big Oh.. oh yes.. yes… YEs.. she was most definitely a wild thing.. oh the things she could do.. kinda like that Jimmy Hendrix song.. but no.. NOT me.. then.. i wasn’t THAT EXPERIENCED.. enjoy church.. WAIT this is Friday.. NOT Saturday.. means i have another day to catch up on 2 prompts behind.. just for fun.. okay.. later Shawna Baby..;)
Hi.. thanks again.. S.. now for sharing “Whip My Hair”.. i’m kinda gun shy in a good way.. as i’ll comment here as yes.. you might disappear any second now.. hehex2.. Anyway.. you seem like Spock like me too.. i swear.. i can mind meld with almost anyone.. and the funniest thing is.. just standing next to ’em sometimes in my selfies.. it looks like i kinda morph into ’em.. in even sometimes spooky ways.. ah.. the magic of life.. unbridled as me.. and you of course too.. Shawna Baby.. anyway.. off to hear that song now.. as not much of a word person.. Ripley or not.. am i still now.. as far as concrete labels go sTiLL.. and name that tune in one note or less is more of my game in auditory empath Spock way2.. oh yeah.. and i can do that neck pinch thingy.. but really all i have to do is take my shades off and show ’em my yellow Sun Wolf eYes.. with pretend.. evil too.. as mind melding with the dEvil can be super spooky too.. but sure Angels are more fun.. so see ya in a few.. Angel baby2..;)
One thing really cool i’ve noticed after visiting all those ‘highly functioning’ folks in the Autism online community.. is.. often the women who have this edgy masculine side inside.. have these double ZZ’s and it’s really surprising how cocky they can be with double ZZ’s and i just think it’s fabulous.. hehe.. as i swear there is an Exotic Egyptian Belly dancer2 living in me.. it’s F in hilarious ’cause at first look before i start moving the whole thing.. now.. people often mistake me for law enforcement.. FBI.. undercover.. special forces.. whatever James Bond says.. anyway.. i’m not seeing “Whip My Hair”.. anywhere on your new play list here.. but sure i youtubed it and yes.. i spread my colors everywhere i go too.. getting everyone all wet with ’em.. whether they like it or not.. as Jesus sometimes ya have to do mouth to mouth from afar to bring ’em back to life like you ‘EM now.. my friend S.. i think it’s extra cute how you always look down in your selfies.. all shy and innocent when i know/feel all about your edge2.. and ps.. what i Love to do.. on the big dance floor is when some dull you know the ‘type’ from the south dude comes up to me and starts mocking me.. i stand totally motionless like the eye of a Hurricane.. and look them calmy directly in their eYes.. through shades of course that makes it even more spooky.. and they high tale it back to the farm.. anyway.. i have a hidden bomb always ready to explode if necessary.. and it ain’t soft..;)
Ha! i missed this one..S.. the ‘eye in the sun’ but never the lesS iT reminds me of my last comment here.. now the best thing in the world is to be complete..WhOLE aLL balanCinG.. feminine and masculine.. liGht and Dark.. yeah.. the hard and soft edges.. as when a person iS A wHole. there is zero to fear AND ALL TO LOVE.. the way humans were.. by Barbara StreiSand now iN the desSert Rose of mythological TRUTH and liGht iN statues NoW aLiVE.. with flesh more of being human now.. jUsT now.. hmm.. the places i can go free.. juSt iN mY imaGiNaTioN.. oh.. yes.. oh GOD yes..! iF more folks NOW could go to a place like that/this.. there would be zero/hero of greenest blackest dollar biLLs of heLL.. no.. YES! iNHeaven STiLL now alWays reigns reins rains dRip drip oF human being.. ever heard of a full body orgasm.. yeah it’s real and not messy @all.. oh yeah.. and that reminds me.. back earlier in last century.. and i am alive serious about this.. yeah.. back in the ‘Victorian Age’.. when women were all guilt tripped about tHeir pleaSures.. and were labeled up having Hysteria.. the way Doctor’s treated this frustration.. was by manually masturbating them to orgasm.. seriously i did not.. make this up.. and here is the proof here.. no graphic photos in the video.. promise it is all science now.. then..
And here is the most hilarious fun fact associated with that in the REAL SCIENCE VIDEO.. now..
“Many Doctors’ complained that ‘it’ was a laborious and time consuming procedure, so the vibrator was invented as a form of self medication”
OMG.. what a fun fAct that I never knew before.. and i juSt kNow you WiLL appreciate IT even if it makes you erase your bLog so those church peers will not find the dEvil heRe.. aGaiN..;)
Ha! and as long as i keep this up.. i may never get back to my long lost prompts on dVerse but who gives an F i’ve got less messy stuff to do now.. see ya.. and yes.. my wife and i’s 26th anniversary.. and she knows and feels all i do.. every letter and word.. and ain’t scared at all.. i her taught what free is.. even if she does not fully practice it like i do now.. sadly enough i feel…. but life goes on for fun anyway.. there is no other solution i know to solve the worlds ills.. as is.. for now..:)
em for me for you for now and nnamhel.. S.. iS a backwards me.. wInks.. figures.. 8 standing tALL inFiniTy too.. now.. hehe.l.. born on 6660 and all of THAT Hellboy2.. he did not fully mature until age 53 either.. and my mother’s name iS Helen.. i kid you not.. wiTh goats and rAms and stuff.. as and ’cause i kNow/feel you now like spooky stuff2.. so i WiLL truth and liGht iN DArk aS WeLL a long long way from hell now.. and Lord KnoWs.. i sTiLL haven’t got stArted on those two prompts yEt.. juSt getting back from the tRain of R and R.. aGaiN.. stopping here at waystation Shawna.. hmm.. reminds me of waystation 1.. i don’t thInk that dude WiLL ever come back.. sAdly enough but wE mUst go on.. yes.. as iS.. now.. and haha.. i just said i have a J LO butt iN the newest blog post i am writing now.. gREAt butts feel alike..;)
SMiLes.. my friend.. Shawna i can feel your true emotions coming through in this beautiful prose/poetry you write here.. oh the Love.. oh the FeeLinGs.. to be loved and to love.. like that song.. ‘Come What May’.. that i needed so much from ‘Moulin Rouge’.. to get the grief out for losing my cat friend Moby.. is all worth it.. in the end and beginning of now.. sMiLes.. my goal iN liFe iS to Love and bE A Love oF as many people’s lives as i can before i die.. that’s all i now want or need iS Love.. and the dance.. is what has paved the way the most for that iN the flesh world now.. and finAlly i am connecting.. after trying so hard to make the emotion and words get gluED.. online.. seriously.. both in real life and online when i first started writing people said i was a computer and not a real human being.. that has changed.. TG..! Happy SUN DAY.. and i’ve really enjoyed hanging out with you the last couple of days.. and yeah.. sure.. i needed a break away from my current year long milestone of making a poem out of every poem on dVerse for an entire year.. just ’cause i can.. F.. competitions.. and goals.. i just wanna do iT.. like the Goddess of Victory.. Nike says.. now in bare feet of me.. Love ya.. Shawna Baby.. hope you girls had a great night out!..:)
Ah.. humans.. not unlike fleas.. sucking the blood out of an animal they cannot fully see.. gigoid.. yes.. if the dog dies.. weE humans who culturAlly have removed ourselves from our kiNd and courAge ape ways.. WiLL suffer the way of bees without a hive.. the insects we are now.. poisoned slowly now as well by the same cultural ways iroNically that are killing the truly winged and buzzing ones.. free too… Anyway.. i’ve being seeing/feeling more of THE DOG lately.. and pretty sure ALL THAT IS THAT DOG HaS iT aLL LAID OUT AS iS AS ALwAYS NOW.. what we do not see can both save us or kill uS.. now.. better to come back home than.. to lose the dog forever.. at least now.. i respect the blood.. i respect the dog.. particularly.. when the dog is real and the dog most people worship does not even give them blood.. ironic isn’t it.. the Native Americans who sTiLL exist.. live peacefully with the dog as those who before did too.. i don’t wanna be a cowboy.. so i return NOW as INDIAN.. LOVEnow THE REAL AMERICAN OLD New World STYLE..:)
SMiLes my friend.. just getting back from a 9 or so mile Super-Walmart Jaunt in dance.. and it’s nice to be free.. iS aLL.. ALL that crap from culture that iS simply crap… iS so far gone in my past now.. aLL iS left is the 5 year old me.. now before Kindergarten.. and sure.. a little more.. except for ALL the lies of culture… more specifically.. politics.. religion iN fundamentalist ways.. and All that holds human back from getting back to Nature BalanCinG now.. it’s possible but until people realize they are no more special than the other animals who inhabit this planet.. including trees.. plants.. and even a gRain of Sand and less.. they are doomed to a life of discontent.. misery and suffering.. Nature doesn’t lie and neither do humans with they live by THE REAL GOD OF NATURE WHO WILL HAVE HER WAY OF WHATEVER IS IS NOW..:)
Ah.. one of my favorite efforts of one year ago.. of course.. along the lines of the Magic Flute as well.. with this epic music from the dreams of my DNA Sioux and Cherokee Crazy Horse Dance and sure.. the rest of me.. FREE iN the beat of the niGht around a campfire moonlit night hugging the grass of God at midnight.. and the Sun iN the mid-day sand.. no different.. than a free cat at night or day.. one with Nature.. wheRe never was.. is or will be any separation from THE REAL GOD OF NATURE THAT IS UNDEFEATABLE BY ANY HUMAN BEING WHETHER LEADER OF THE WORLD.. THE CHURCH.. OR PROPHETS OF OLD OR NEW.. GOD IS FREE and the true and liGht of uS are NOW.. and sure the Mayans are Indians too.. and tHeir rules rule ART over uS aS free iN touch with God whether some of uS see/feel the reality of change in the air since 2013,, now or not.. ha.. even Justin Bieber has that one figured out.. never juSt a book by its cover.. age.. or looks.. there is always deeper oceans in the soUl of WE who set ourselves free though much challenge.. dArkness and yes.. truth and liGht…
HA.. the beat iS coming back and we who are iN the Feel and know oF IT WILL NOT BE DEFEATED.. wE are all Indigenous Indians of God when we REMember and are reborn aGaiN… don’t miss out.. seriously with no jest.. its simple.. just come back to Nature that iS God and Human FREE.. but you have to leave first..:)
Okay.. crap.. i’m having a bit of an identity crisis.. issue.. i was all set to be Yoda.. doing my Super-Walmart dance.. while Katrina and her two sisters.. who are fixin’ to be Great Aunts and a Great Grandma.. are doing all that baby shopping.. getting ready for more baby showers as always the case with her side of the family it seems.. yes.. extremely reproductively fit.. anyway.. Katrina’s anniversary present was an Infinity tattoo.. that her sisters decided to get too.. and my Anniversary present and the source of today’s identity crisis.. is.. ugh.. just what i need.. a much bigger pen.. yes.. an Incredible Hulk pen..is just what i need to write even more.. i’m currently going back and forth from Yoda.. to something else.. could be Werewolf.. yes.. it is almost the full moon.. in a day or so.. or yes.. Incredible Hulk.. but more likely a hybrid of SOMETHiNG..;)
Ah.. the answers to the world’s problems are not those of the world in essence as the God of Nature aLL Free has already supplied those answers when iN balance oF human Nature.. simply by moving.. connecting.. and creating by giving more than taking otherwise known as Love in its greaTest courAge and kiNd way as Unconditional.. i have studied this issue as much as i can born without a mask.. and taking the mask off again.. as much as possible to get all awakened and enlightened as such.. but here’s the thing.. to be born naked without the clothes of culture does literally mean that too.. to go back to our prehistory and understand what iT iS that makes human beings tick as flea iN God of Nature God given human Nature.. as wRite now.. culture.. iS overall.. a labyrinth of iNsane from birth taking uS way.. way.. way out oF human being Nature Balance.. to move connect and create and give more iN sharing than taking wiTh other humans and the rest of Nature.. it’s not hard to do when one iS loving and loved iN return.. and yes.. possible to do by loving much more than giving but Love iS a balanced way for most folks iN reciprocal social human communication too.. hmm.. face to face iS sure the evolutionary way.. but sign language like Facebook and other social media will work somewhat okay for both a blind person and a semi-robot human being in four walls.. a ceiling in front of a flat screen computer all day long and most of the night too… so how does an insanely large population of human beings.. only evolutionary suited to around 150 to 200 sets of eyes who moves.. connects.. and creates best in small groups and villages like this adapt again.. well.. here’s the deal.. all the tools of human ranging from sticks to scratch alphabets in sands to spears to atomic bombs are part of Nature too.. an extension yes.. but never the less moving.. connecting and creating new.. farther reach of human eyes and hands and bRains as well and not so well too.. but alas the dArk and liGht are ALL pARt of the mix too.. pain iS weakness leaving the body.. and it is also muse for pleasure too.. so it all comes out in a dark chocolate and vanilla shake of what is known fully as culture now.. from Katy Perry’s Dark Horse.. to that Super Collider thingy.. trying to find the God Particle of God as Nature too now.. Prehistoric human beings from the artifacts of record shared iT aLL as similar primitives do now.. iN much smaller group cultures.. who move.. connect and create iN giving at least as much as taKing.. so iN A way.. as strange as it may seem.. that is what Social Media does.. with increasing nomadic pair bonding groups with small to smaller families searching an entire nation for subsistence traveling where the meat and vegetables can still be obtained.. and OMG.. with stuff like PORN.. there is a “Bonobo Hand Shake” iN the reality of the majority of humans super sexed need for variety in reducing frustration.. aggression and violence.. and even potential wars.. for those more sex charged human beings.. yeah.. it’s just a keyboard and hand and fingers away.. a little colder than flesh and blood but still way hot enough to get the job of cooling off done.. and it doesn’t matter what the local or church norm says.. God will have her way with most of us.. if we do not repress or get oppressed iN how God creates one of God’s sexiest creatures oF aLL the human horny bEinG.. let’s not lie to ourselves it is the truth and liGht from below to above.. all engorged as such.. as living passionate human being free as God will have us WHEN FREE.. and the truth is as science is starting to show.. porn reduces the frequency of actual intercourse.. no sHit sheRlock.. it’s hard to do the wild thing with hands and fingers fully employed.. and the fact of Nature iS theRe are too many human beings taking way more than they give on this planet.. and a first world reality is with greater technology.. population goes down.. and up too but not in and out as much as it were and is.. as there is more to do than the work of the night of the primitives and plenty of technology to fill iN the empty spaces oF what flesh and blood does when truly free.. in the foRest of bountiful existence.. all balanced as such.. wheRe the experiment of human being iS eventually going.. iS beyond any human prophecy now.. as iT is an experiment that has never been tried before in the history books yet.. and there iS a synergy of neurons holding hands together and humans as well across global borders.. that has and will make Quantum leaps of logic into Art oF heARt of human being.. yes.. exciting times wE liVe iN and NatUre aka God still has her hands fully in the pie of human being.. change stARts at the heARt level of human being.. and as we hold hands stronger togeTheR.. WeLL.. the sky iS no longer the limit.. as history already shows.. with lunar and other landings.. now.. the Universe within though.. is a largely uncharted territory of science recorded history and that’s the pARt.. i for one continue to explore and enjoy most as after all i’m more than a tool.. i’m a sacred fool too.. brave enough to step out of the parameters and back into what came before.. F R E E and BORN AGAIN.. kinda like a perfect storm.. if ‘you’ WiLL.. as we all feel.. in practice.. storms are not ‘perfect’ they kinda rave or rage on.. and are free to become whatever iT iS they end and begin being now.. climates change.. nature and human sAMe..:)
Typical.. after Catholic Church.. 26th Anniversary photo of husband and wife.. and yes.. of course there is a living doll in ‘this photo’..wink emoticon
Second Doll gift from our friend at church for the doll..;)
Oh yeah.. and it was hilarious.. when the fill-in priest asks who has an anniversary or a birthday.. where i am the only one to raise my hand and stand up.. in the entire Temple Church and i say.. “My Wife Katrina and i.. are celebrating our 26th anniversary TODAY”.. and time my comeback just right.. in my usual echoing booming.. voice.. NOW.. and i say.. “YES.. she is also 26 years old” as well.. BD.. wise..;)
Interesting story.. the ‘RIsen’ one.. and it was a lot like the New Star Wars movie.. per the storm trooper human archetype of the villain becoming hero.. anyway that’s all i’ll say.. as not to be the spoiler for the end of the show.. as the end of the show part is in a book anyway.. but just not the main character of the story whose perspective the entire story is told from.. a brand new fictional character named Clavius.. a Roman Tribune for the ‘dark force’.. as it were.. then as well..:)
Well.. in ‘this one’.. “Assembled Without Instructions” is inspiration enough for me to write a Novel.. but that’s not coming ’till around April.. for the third installment of that.. but yes.. how sad it is that human beings are Assembled With Instructions.. as the rest of Nature innately.. instinctually.. and intuitively practices life free without sidewalks of hell binding them down to concrete purgatories of what came before.. stick to the rules robot or you’ll get in social acceptance trouble and that means starvation.. no mates and stuff like that as social animals innately.. need each other to get the meat and vegetables of life.. all in one soup of life a cross a fire.. anyway.. it’s sad when folks become paperback books.. or hard covers too.. but pearls of wisdom.. i’ll take that pARt by mouth or book.. as some stuff is truly worth reading again and again.. the gift of all the historic pearls of wisdom you provide here.. my friend.. gigoid.. in ways of life.. not just nouns and labels for men to worship and say they have the last word of the God of Mother Nature true and liGht now.. as well as dArk and fAiry tales too.. but alas.. myths are the hyperbole.. to market the meat of the products and without that.. it would be harder to get the vehicles and vessels that house truth and liGht that have traveled this far.. in written and oral tradition of story taling.. dArk and liGht WhOLE.. Anyway.. yes.. may the metaphorse be with ya.. friend gigoid.. as long as it rides free.. iN ALLNOW.. wITh Love and KiND In couraGe.. like Cindafella might say..;)
Well.. as a side note here.. even behind on two dVerse prompts from last Tuesday and Thursday.. ‘this post’ is becoming monstrously long.. and i am ravageD tiRed from now celebrating our anniversary weekend.. including 9 or so miles of dance walk on Saturday.. 14 or so today.. and even a movie at the local theater tonight.. so.. i’m gonna sleep on it.. and try to get this one published tomorrow morning.. and then move on to dVerse in the comments section of that post.. as yes.. i do need my cindafella beauty sleep.. now.. and then.. and now.. aGaiN..:)
Back at 8:50 am.. 2222016.. and in reviewing the photos from yesterday.. i see i have surpassed the 100K photo number since the end of August 2013.. over a course of 30 months.. which averages out to 3333.33 photos per month.. and just coming up to 5,000 miles of Dance Walking.. of which i will provide a celebratory post just for that number.. when it comes.. averaging 166.66 miles a month.. and yes.. i love synchronicity of numbers.. more inspiration.. to write about milestone numbers of which i am now averaging in the last thirty months at 100K words a month.. have sloWed down iN more condensed poeTry flow as hard as that may be to believe from my narrative flow.. at the Wrong Planet in the 8 million or so words i wrote there and other online sites.. for around 11 million total words aLL now.. since.. November 26.. 2010.. when the numbers flow like this.. in ones.. threes and sixes.. sTill now.. and yes.. i’ve practicAlly shaRed aLL the photos and miles online since August of 2013.. additionAlly.. since the end of July.. 2013.. around the 22nd.. standing on Navarre beach with my wife.. when i miraculously recovered from 19 life threatening illnesses.. in synergy that even some of the professionals who were religious leaning.. affirmed was an actual miracle of the modern day of what is seen in the professional world of human maladies.. now.. so.. sure.. i went from not being able to go into a store for 66 months to solo dancing in front of a crowd of hundreds who are my junior by three decades or so.. then and now at Old Seville Quarter.. for 98 weeks.. and yes.. also doing that aLL so free iN dance iN public everywhere i go with zero social anxiety.. whereas.. before.. i was overwhelmed with social anxiety and agoraphobia to the max.. and yes i have shared scores of videos now.. as well.. that are minuscule in number.. iN comparison to the voyeur video artists with their smart phones.. who have captured me everywhere i go in public in the last 30 months to dance.. haha.. my Paparazzi.. as hell no.. there ain’t no one else dancing in public but me in a metro area of several hundred thousand folks in patriarchal footloose purgatory.. more or less.. so it’s like capturing Rare Birds or Jaguars or something of that crazy nature.. hehe.. to share aLL over Facebook.. as i always hear.. i saw you on Facebook man.. you are famous.. hehe.. i’m not famous.. ’cause they don’t know my name.. and that’s the way i like iT baby.. the dancing guy is now enough.. the other name they say.. Legend.. is much better.. as Legends WiLL not be trapped iN cAges oF human bEing culture.. iN fame hell.. i roam free now.. under the Guidance of the God of Nature earning no money but free.. now2.. as inherited and continuAlly experienced now and improved by by uS.. and i’m gonna cut that facebook collage that i was talking about way earlier in this post to only months now.. instead of years then.. as the history of my soUl continues to grow iN other paths.. as WeLL.. oN thiS post now wheRe mY soUl iS now here as no history @ aLL.. wheRe every now is an anniversary oF LIFe riSinG alWays NOW..:)
Moving through a life of extreme challenge as well as extreme gifts.. is very interesting.. and cold dark hell.. when not at all.. as death iN life.. the opening video of this post illustrates where i live in moving photos very well.. showing the inner walls of most fundamentalist Christian churches i have visited as well.. where there is a certain entitlement of having access to words that means that one is above all the rest of humankind where Muslims and Buddhists and Atheists.. and all the rest who are not the chosen ones of ‘us’ are gonna go to that fiery eternal damnation place for the rest of eternity.. but the thing is.. they.. for the most pArt are already there and are totally unaware that they are iN hell now.. as the window to heaven is clouded with words.. to feel heaven just.. now in senses.. emotions.. and human sensuality is no myth or fairy tale of a man God or the last prophet.. or anyone else.. it is God.. yes.. THE God of Nature’s gift to those of us who find iT aGaiN.. from birth away from cultural.. religious.. and political lies that are all truly politics as all of these seek manmade order.. away from the God of Nature free.. the thing that pisses me off most.. about cultures.. religions.. politics and yes.. even philosophy away from Nature that is from head to toe.. inside outside.. yes.. above so below and up again.. all around.. iS that it iS aLL human slavery.. and as i remember my most favorite part of the movie “The Ten Commandments”.. coming again in cultural TV as it has since i was a little boy.. is Moses.. totAlly away from culture.. politics.. religion.. and philosophy.. saying the simple statement that if there is a God that God would have no human slaves and all would be free.. yet that is precisely what both the Muslim and Christian religions continued to do for centuries.. holding humans captive as slaves giving them less credit for being one of God’s children as all creatures are free.. Karma is real.. there is no doubt about that to me.. now.. as i have experienced the darKest and liGhTest pArts of Karma from A to Z and more of me with God of Nature together as the force we are iN yes.. both dARk and liGht.. but what i know for sure iS thiS.. any separation from God.. iN taKinG any pArt of God as Whole as less than the other.. is the true highway to HeLL for human being.. juSt my learn- ED oPiniOn oF what i experience oF GoD ALL NOW.. but what i KNow/FEeL.. iS.. the more i give in liGht the more i receive iN liGht back from GOD.. and devolving back into dArk WiLL surely bRinG more dArk to my liFe.. action.. consequence.. it’s the way of Nature.. bRing another human being down or other pARt of Nature.. iN any way and bRing yourself down even lower and even to REAL hell.. but each human over the course of God’s eternity now.. WiLL have to practice that lesSon themselves between they and God alone ALLONE.. and theRe ain’t no verse gonna save ’em now.. until they find the free verse of GOD WIThin that requires no words at all.. and it don’t matter what they label themselves with.. from Atheist to Priest.. God is no word alone God iS ALLONE FREE as uS when we free ourselves NOW alive and risen as God’s children once more and nowforevermore as now is the only eternity tHere iS..NOW.. to put iT oFF.. iS to never fiNd iT.. @ALL..:)