Broken Arrows oF Dreams Dance
SMiLes.. my friend..
gigoid.. oh the sleep..
totally can relate.. when in school.. i did not
sleep nights.. in fact.. in my crib my mother tales me..
i stayed up all night doing spirals around and around
until i rubbed a callous on my right.. toe.. callous back..
by the way.. as i spiral so much more now.. day and night..
but thank goodness not in bed.. hehe.. and the evidence
of course is in my backyard in the white sands foot prints
oF i..
ugh.. and after
my pain went away
and my mood went.. oh
so high.. back in July
of 2013.. 2 hours of sleep
every night until November
with the extended high
of what truly can
be described
as the
mania
of Bi-Polar
i guess.. or perhaps
the high is what made
the pain go away.. and part
of the reason.. i am still high
all the time.. with the addition
of 2 to 4 hours of sleep
now over 2.. sometimes
6.. of that
year.. too
high..
out of
balance..
balance is it for me..
and the dance of life that
thank goodness my health
allows me to still do in number
of miles close to 166 on average
per month.. exhausts me to
lullabies of sweat
and yes..
literal
physical exhaustion
with still unlimited mental
energy.. down to the
last drop of
eyelid
for the
night.. the mind
and body is an amazing
machine oF aRt.. learning to
make the most of iT.. truly
did take me a full 53 years
of practice.. and the practice
goes on.. as it were.. as
in fur.. an innate
practice of
ancestors
long before
in Lore of Pan
of the Forest
and his
and
her friends..:)
gigoid.. oh the sleep..
totally can relate.. when in school.. i did not
sleep nights.. in fact.. in my crib my mother tales me..
i stayed up all night doing spirals around and around
until i rubbed a callous on my right.. toe.. callous back..
by the way.. as i spiral so much more now.. day and night..
but thank goodness not in bed.. hehe.. and the evidence
of course is in my backyard in the white sands foot prints
oF i..
ugh.. and after
my pain went away
and my mood went.. oh
so high.. back in July
of 2013.. 2 hours of sleep
every night until November
with the extended high
of what truly can
be described
as the
mania
of Bi-Polar
i guess.. or perhaps
the high is what made
the pain go away.. and part
of the reason.. i am still high
all the time.. with the addition
of 2 to 4 hours of sleep
now over 2.. sometimes
6.. of that
year.. too
high..
out of
balance..
balance is it for me..
and the dance of life that
thank goodness my health
allows me to still do in number
of miles close to 166 on average
per month.. exhausts me to
lullabies of sweat
and yes..
literal
physical exhaustion
with still unlimited mental
energy.. down to the
last drop of
eyelid
for the
night.. the mind
and body is an amazing
machine oF aRt.. learning to
make the most of iT.. truly
did take me a full 53 years
of practice.. and the practice
goes on.. as it were.. as
in fur.. an innate
practice of
ancestors
long before
in Lore of Pan
of the Forest
and his
and
her friends..:)
281
And yes.. here.. i’ll have to say..
Pan of the Forest is precisely
and generAlly what i feel
like when end of February
days come.. and the enhancing
Sun oF briGhter days glow..
yes.. so do i..
SpRinG iS me..
a smeLL that iS
me shining brighter
and briGhter as the
days grow longer
in synch
with
rising hiGhs
and greater
creatiVitY.. no
matter what the art
of i comes next..
and for the
nomads
among
us.. the
dopamine
variant folks..
the rovers.. obviously
a dance hall with drink
is a place they will be..
and the dance of Pan
spreads.. among
frisky males
and nymphs
as well..
and sure there
are sirens here and
theRe as well.. and i
suppose from the results
of dance.. last night empirically
measured.. in sMiles of photos..
Spring is SpRinging as
dance.. briGht
eYes and
smiles
do not
lie when
humans frolic
with delight
of liFe.. now..
simple true and
alive wHere the SpRing
of life can and will sTilL come
iF folks do not
forget
how
to dance
a frolic
of liFe..
Yellow Boy has
not forgotten and
he at around 8 or 9 years
old.. is no less playful
from the first
day i met
the Pan of him
coming out of the
woods for a cry
of tender
vittles
under a shed
that is ours of hope..
hmm.. anyway.. celebrating
my wife’s and i’s 26th anniversary..
2212016.. in this post.. but the thing iS..
we celebrate iT always now..
as alWays n0w iS Christmas..
New years.. the fourth of July..
our birth day.. and the
force bE
wiTh ya..
as Star Wars..
says.. alWays now..
the force iS with uS..
and the shirt Katrina bought
me.. did precisely as she’s predicted..
in that shirt that says “I Know HTML
How To Meet the Ladies”.. hehex2..
some of the happiest group photos
of my dance hall friends
yet.. iN generating
liGht and
the empirical
results are
Unchained
LiGhT..!
And truly yes..
for about Forty years
much of my liGht iN creativity
oF liFe was repressed and chained
by a patriarchal red state Christian
Fundamentalist way of card bored
box people..
i no longer
live in this place..
my backyard is free
and so am i.. it does
not matter iF ‘those’ folks
dance with me or
not ‘Pan
oF i iS FREE’..
hmm.. sounds like
a potential title.. of jUst
another epic post of words..
photos.. and the dance of i..
and the photos are so memorable in liGht..
like Adele says.. i think i’ll copy
and paste ’em.. to this post
too.. if i do not flood it
with other dance
photos of
life sTILL
to come
on this anniversary
weekend always
now..
oh yeah… and one of
my most favorite pARts of
writing.. iS when i am in the
flow.. the zOne of iT.. mY
fingers danCinG.. including
the return key
of flow
of languAge
iN SonG of Voice
the shapes are a SonG
coming with publish as the
words are centered balanCinG
as mY SouL tRuly flows now
without rUles.. SinG
SonG way of
spiRit oF HeARt..
waves now of the
ocean of it.. field
and particles
of i
with the rest
of the UnivErse
of Nature coMinG aliVe
iN the flesh of words
that iS me
alive
online
as well..
and what i see
most iS chalices
and pyramids and
other sacred shapes
and forms come alive..
the Interdependent
Relationship oF
aLL thAt iS..
is God..
so is
thiS..
when free
unchained
as Pan
oF i
and God
s O F R E E O N e..
and sadly through the ages
the sages.. the philosophers..
poets.. and priests.. not enough
attention is sIMply
paid
to MOVING
MOVING.. YES there iS
CONNECTING.. CREATING
BUT FIRST TheiR was DArk
then liGht inspiring movement
as dance.. then sound as SonG
with poeTry of human coming
late to the show..
but take movement
out of the story
of human too..
iN the greatest
never ending story
told of all that is
the Interdependent Relationship
oF ALL THAT IS.. and the death
Star that can be the bLack
wHole of human bEinG
can SinK us
down below
farther
than
above..
and HA!.. at 230 LBS..
and around 6 feet.. add
6 inches or so.. when i am
on my ballerina toes.. the
doctor has me diagnosed
as morbidly obese…
but she will
not look
at my nude
photography to
prove my point.. hehe..
just kidding i haven’t
given her the link
YET..;).. anyway
doctors
and science
rules do not
fit everyone and..
Pan of the Forest is precisely
and generAlly what i feel
like when end of February
days come.. and the enhancing
Sun oF briGhter days glow..
yes.. so do i..
SpRinG iS me..
a smeLL that iS
me shining brighter
and briGhter as the
days grow longer
in synch
with
rising hiGhs
and greater
creatiVitY.. no
matter what the art
of i comes next..
and for the
nomads
among
us.. the
dopamine
variant folks..
the rovers.. obviously
a dance hall with drink
is a place they will be..
and the dance of Pan
spreads.. among
frisky males
and nymphs
as well..
and sure there
are sirens here and
theRe as well.. and i
suppose from the results
of dance.. last night empirically
measured.. in sMiles of photos..
Spring is SpRinging as
dance.. briGht
eYes and
smiles
do not
lie when
humans frolic
with delight
of liFe.. now..
simple true and
alive wHere the SpRing
of life can and will sTilL come
iF folks do not
forget
how
to dance
a frolic
of liFe..
Yellow Boy has
not forgotten and
he at around 8 or 9 years
old.. is no less playful
from the first
day i met
the Pan of him
coming out of the
woods for a cry
of tender
vittles
under a shed
that is ours of hope..
hmm.. anyway.. celebrating
my wife’s and i’s 26th anniversary..
2212016.. in this post.. but the thing iS..
we celebrate iT always now..
as alWays n0w iS Christmas..
New years.. the fourth of July..
our birth day.. and the
force bE
wiTh ya..
as Star Wars..
says.. alWays now..
the force iS with uS..
and the shirt Katrina bought
me.. did precisely as she’s predicted..
in that shirt that says “I Know HTML
How To Meet the Ladies”.. hehex2..
some of the happiest group photos
of my dance hall friends
yet.. iN generating
liGht and
the empirical
results are
Unchained
LiGhT..!
And truly yes..
for about Forty years
much of my liGht iN creativity
oF liFe was repressed and chained
by a patriarchal red state Christian
Fundamentalist way of card bored
box people..
i no longer
live in this place..
my backyard is free
and so am i.. it does
not matter iF ‘those’ folks
dance with me or
not ‘Pan
oF i iS FREE’..
hmm.. sounds like
a potential title.. of jUst
another epic post of words..
photos.. and the dance of i..
and the photos are so memorable in liGht..
like Adele says.. i think i’ll copy
and paste ’em.. to this post
too.. if i do not flood it
with other dance
photos of
life sTILL
to come
on this anniversary
weekend always
now..
oh yeah… and one of
my most favorite pARts of
writing.. iS when i am in the
flow.. the zOne of iT.. mY
fingers danCinG.. including
the return key
of flow
of languAge
iN SonG of Voice
the shapes are a SonG
coming with publish as the
words are centered balanCinG
as mY SouL tRuly flows now
without rUles.. SinG
SonG way of
spiRit oF HeARt..
waves now of the
ocean of it.. field
and particles
of i
with the rest
of the UnivErse
of Nature coMinG aliVe
iN the flesh of words
that iS me
alive
online
as well..
and what i see
most iS chalices
and pyramids and
other sacred shapes
and forms come alive..
the Interdependent
Relationship oF
aLL thAt iS..
is God..
so is
thiS..
when free
unchained
as Pan
oF i
and God
s O F R E E O N e..
and sadly through the ages
the sages.. the philosophers..
poets.. and priests.. not enough
attention is sIMply
paid
to MOVING
MOVING.. YES there iS
CONNECTING.. CREATING
BUT FIRST TheiR was DArk
then liGht inspiring movement
as dance.. then sound as SonG
with poeTry of human coming
late to the show..
but take movement
out of the story
of human too..
iN the greatest
never ending story
told of all that is
the Interdependent Relationship
oF ALL THAT IS.. and the death
Star that can be the bLack
wHole of human bEinG
can SinK us
down below
farther
than
above..
and HA!.. at 230 LBS..
and around 6 feet.. add
6 inches or so.. when i am
on my ballerina toes.. the
doctor has me diagnosed
as morbidly obese…
but she will
not look
at my nude
photography to
prove my point.. hehe..
just kidding i haven’t
given her the link
YET..;).. anyway
doctors
and science
rules do not
fit everyone and..
no.. she does not leg
press close to half
a ton now.. juSt
with her arms
raised in the
air like
no other
human on
Youtube on
Parallel leg
press machine
14 times there
and 25 times now..
as nicely illustrated
here.. with accompaniment
going wildin’ by Paul McCartney..
Rhianna.. and that guy who is
married to Kim Kardashian
yeah.. Kanye.. that’s his
name.. yes.. i have a
J Lo-like butt
too butt dam
it.. it is
buns of
steele
no
twerk
here.. all
ballerina
and martial
arts toes and
striking feet..
punching doors
down with ease
if need be.. now..
anyway.. here’s the point..
when it comes to spirituality
it ain’t something just that is
an out of body experience or
mind alone thingy.. every
cell of the body and
atom that comprises
each cell and
all the
subatomic
particles smaller
than that are an infinite
number of Chakra connections from head
to toe.. that sure.. generate
out in energetic flow beyond..
as sure.. we are now mobile
suns/UniVerses with creative
relative free will
aS WeLL.. and one
of my favorite backyard
videos.. to swirl around in..
press close to half
a ton now.. juSt
with her arms
raised in the
air like
no other
human on
Youtube on
Parallel leg
press machine
14 times there
and 25 times now..
as nicely illustrated
here.. with accompaniment
going wildin’ by Paul McCartney..
Rhianna.. and that guy who is
married to Kim Kardashian
yeah.. Kanye.. that’s his
name.. yes.. i have a
J Lo-like butt
too butt dam
it.. it is
buns of
steele
no
twerk
here.. all
ballerina
and martial
arts toes and
striking feet..
punching doors
down with ease
if need be.. now..
anyway.. here’s the point..
when it comes to spirituality
it ain’t something just that is
an out of body experience or
mind alone thingy.. every
cell of the body and
atom that comprises
each cell and
all the
subatomic
particles smaller
than that are an infinite
number of Chakra connections from head
to toe.. that sure.. generate
out in energetic flow beyond..
as sure.. we are now mobile
suns/UniVerses with creative
relative free will
aS WeLL.. and one
of my favorite backyard
videos.. to swirl around in..
sand.. trance feat with feet of i..
iS Kundalini meditation.. but thanks
God.. i don’t speak the language as dam
it.. i’m escaping words and instructions
when i trance dance back to God ALLONE
of Nature.. yes that interdependent
relationship of ALL THAT IS.. oF
WHICH i am BOTH PaRt and WHOLE..
anyway.. what makes it trance
music too.. in way
of Kundalini
rising iS..
the musical scale
riSinG frequencies
oF sound of SonG
iN hums of female
human being now..
but hell no.. i do
not F in sit StILL..
i do NOT concentrate
on 7 mythical chakras..
i aM A CHAKra as Whole
and infinite connections
oF ALL pARts.. OnE.. yes..
ONE CHAKRA WITH PaRTS
AS WHOLE connecTinG
JUsT now..
NOT JUST
ONE AT BASE
OF SPINE..
ONE IN
GROIN
AREA..
ONE AT
BELLY..
ANOTHER
AT CHEST..
THEN
THROAT..
AND BROW..
AND CROWN
OF HEAD..
i AM the
ThrOne oF
CrOwn that
iS GOD
and
wE
sAMe
when
FREE FLOWING
as planEts
around Suns..
Suns
around
Black Holes
and GOD
as uS
NOW
FREE
WE FLOW
iN ZoNe
OF
GOD uniVerseS
moving.. yes..
moving.. never
standing sTill
as sitting
until
the
Star
of us
fades
away
to
black
whOle
once again
and comes now
back as star
duSt and uS
aGaIn in the
cycle of dArk
and liGht and
Dance and SonG
wE stay WE mOVe
wE liVE
NOW..
anyway.. for
anyone brave
enough.. i highly
recommend nude art now
in photos.. not necessarily
shared.. with all.. but the artist
that makes the body ART
as the greAtest ArtiSt
of GOD we kNoW and
FeeL iS US..
as temple
oF GOD
with
no senses
no emotions
and hell no..
no seNsuaLiTies
repressed bY uS
or oppressed
by others..
one of the
major reaSonS i
am fearless as i am is i
AM comfortable enough noW
to dance as passionately
as any male has done any
now of any age of human
being.. totAlly naked
dancing before
the world.. and
dancing.. clothed yes..
NOwiN front of a village
size crowd at Old Seville
Quarter.. every Thursday
niGht iN
the holiest
houses of churches
that iS the Human
dance of liFe set
FREE iN eYes of
emotions..
senses..
and yes
once more
SENSUALIties..
SET FREE.. noW..
so as i dance wilDly
i excite the freest female
crowd enough where totAlly
strange females breeze by
and stroke the torso that
iS my free flowing body
in G rated terms
of free.. but
the thing iS
they are
not
strangers..
at that point
iN N0W wE
aLL are ONE
FORCE OF HUMAN
BEING.. WITH
NO ONE
OWNING
NO ONE
BUT uS..
and sure.. drinking
likely has something
to do with that as
it eases repressing
and oppressing iN
hiBiTioNs.. i am
drink and drug
free as a
practice now of
dancing free now..
it’s the way our
ancestors lived
and we will
never know/
F E E L
true
human
happiness until
we share a village
hug like free
hands roaming
bodies
of Love..
and to be clear
this leads no wheRe
but
LOVE..
when TrUly
F R E E..
and sure..
it’s clothed..
but sadly it
scares the
LIVING
HELL INTO
FOLKS WHO
HAVE NEVER
EVER FELT
HUMAN
FREEDOM
THIS WAY..
SO ALIVE.. SO
FREE WHEN
GOD
iS
FREE
aS
WE..
‘Love
Deeper
alWays Now’..
and potential
titles of
liFe
keep
coming
again
and again
iN the REAL of i..
in juSt another
after Thursday
niGht Dance
manifestive
i..
“Apes Stronger
Together”
-Caesar..
from..
‘Dawn of the
Planet of
the Apes’..
Now
again..
iS Kundalini meditation.. but thanks
God.. i don’t speak the language as dam
it.. i’m escaping words and instructions
when i trance dance back to God ALLONE
of Nature.. yes that interdependent
relationship of ALL THAT IS.. oF
WHICH i am BOTH PaRt and WHOLE..
anyway.. what makes it trance
music too.. in way
of Kundalini
rising iS..
the musical scale
riSinG frequencies
oF sound of SonG
iN hums of female
human being now..
but hell no.. i do
not F in sit StILL..
i do NOT concentrate
on 7 mythical chakras..
i aM A CHAKra as Whole
and infinite connections
oF ALL pARts.. OnE.. yes..
ONE CHAKRA WITH PaRTS
AS WHOLE connecTinG
JUsT now..
NOT JUST
ONE AT BASE
OF SPINE..
ONE IN
GROIN
AREA..
ONE AT
BELLY..
ANOTHER
AT CHEST..
THEN
THROAT..
AND BROW..
AND CROWN
OF HEAD..
i AM the
ThrOne oF
CrOwn that
iS GOD
and
wE
sAMe
when
FREE FLOWING
as planEts
around Suns..
Suns
around
Black Holes
and GOD
as uS
NOW
FREE
WE FLOW
iN ZoNe
OF
GOD uniVerseS
moving.. yes..
moving.. never
standing sTill
as sitting
until
the
Star
of us
fades
away
to
black
whOle
once again
and comes now
back as star
duSt and uS
aGaIn in the
cycle of dArk
and liGht and
Dance and SonG
wE stay WE mOVe
wE liVE
NOW..
anyway.. for
anyone brave
enough.. i highly
recommend nude art now
in photos.. not necessarily
shared.. with all.. but the artist
that makes the body ART
as the greAtest ArtiSt
of GOD we kNoW and
FeeL iS US..
as temple
oF GOD
with
no senses
no emotions
and hell no..
no seNsuaLiTies
repressed bY uS
or oppressed
by others..
one of the
major reaSonS i
am fearless as i am is i
AM comfortable enough noW
to dance as passionately
as any male has done any
now of any age of human
being.. totAlly naked
dancing before
the world.. and
dancing.. clothed yes..
NOwiN front of a village
size crowd at Old Seville
Quarter.. every Thursday
niGht iN
the holiest
houses of churches
that iS the Human
dance of liFe set
FREE iN eYes of
emotions..
senses..
and yes
once more
SENSUALIties..
SET FREE.. noW..
so as i dance wilDly
i excite the freest female
crowd enough where totAlly
strange females breeze by
and stroke the torso that
iS my free flowing body
in G rated terms
of free.. but
the thing iS
they are
not
strangers..
at that point
iN N0W wE
aLL are ONE
FORCE OF HUMAN
BEING.. WITH
NO ONE
OWNING
NO ONE
BUT uS..
and sure.. drinking
likely has something
to do with that as
it eases repressing
and oppressing iN
hiBiTioNs.. i am
drink and drug
free as a
practice now of
dancing free now..
it’s the way our
ancestors lived
and we will
never know/
F E E L
true
human
happiness until
we share a village
hug like free
hands roaming
bodies
of Love..
and to be clear
this leads no wheRe
but
LOVE..
when TrUly
F R E E..
and sure..
it’s clothed..
but sadly it
scares the
LIVING
HELL INTO
FOLKS WHO
HAVE NEVER
EVER FELT
HUMAN
FREEDOM
THIS WAY..
SO ALIVE.. SO
FREE WHEN
GOD
iS
FREE
aS
WE..
‘Love
Deeper
alWays Now’..
and potential
titles of
liFe
keep
coming
again
and again
iN the REAL of i..
in juSt another
after Thursday
niGht Dance
manifestive
i..
“Apes Stronger
Together”
-Caesar..
from..
‘Dawn of the
Planet of
the Apes’..
Now
again..
i iN
SinG
SonG
SouL
DanCeNow..
SinG
SonG
SouL
DanCeNow..
wiTh L for Love..:)
1824
SMiLes.. gigoid.. freedom is not
worth the money it is now
written on.. blackgreen..
Hmm.. the American
way.. the western
way.. a symbol..
whether dollar
bill.. car.. or
diamond
ring.. symbols
reign.. life on
back burner..
hell fire of
greenblack
dollars bills
now of politics..
clothed we are
early in diapers
that disguise
the Nature
of us now sTill
sKin that desires
Sun more than
clothes.. clothes
that cover
all
from
ALLuSt
freer now
connecting
rest oF Nature iN
Free we are as born
away from spoon FED
dollar
biLL
dreams…
of blackest
darkest green…
Every animal that
wanders through the
woods now
N A K E D
iS freer
than
dollar
biLL humans..
Slaves to the
black
green
way..
Tree am i
Life aGaiN..
ps.. written
while on hold F
iN hours with the
Office of Personnel
Management trying
to get a frigging form signed
so my wife will not have to
pay a 100% penalty on
her health nsurance
for not
signing
up soon
enough..
after that is
over.. maybe i
won’t have to talk
to those
Fers
for
another
4 or 5 years..
hehe.. F’ers
FEDERAL
employee
retirement
system..
yeah.. F**kers
too.. didn’t think
that not being able
to use one’s eyes was
a disability.. unless one is blind.. only depression and Bi-
polar rings their bells of going postal nightmares.. i’ll stay crazy
and
clear
of hells
bells in
red tape hell..
shut the F uP robot
and that oN hold song
is boring me to frigging
write
poetry
MORE
ah.. the liGht
alWays silver
sliver
burning
in darkest
dam
dest
idiotic
human experiment
on hairless apes
gone
insane..
in robot
song
of
Zombie
Apocalypse..
okay.. i’m done
with the poem..
pick up Fers..
and they did
at this last
line now..
hasta la
vista.. ‘you
s**k’.. golden hand cuffs
of government slave service..
and i’m back baby.. finAlly FreENowDAnce
ALIVE..:)
worth the money it is now
written on.. blackgreen..
Hmm.. the American
way.. the western
way.. a symbol..
whether dollar
bill.. car.. or
diamond
ring.. symbols
reign.. life on
back burner..
hell fire of
greenblack
dollars bills
now of politics..
clothed we are
early in diapers
that disguise
the Nature
of us now sTill
sKin that desires
Sun more than
clothes.. clothes
that cover
all
from
ALLuSt
freer now
connecting
rest oF Nature iN
Free we are as born
away from spoon FED
dollar
biLL
dreams…
of blackest
darkest green…
Every animal that
wanders through the
woods now
N A K E D
iS freer
than
dollar
biLL humans..
Slaves to the
black
green
way..
Tree am i
Life aGaiN..
ps.. written
while on hold F
iN hours with the
Office of Personnel
Management trying
to get a frigging form signed
so my wife will not have to
pay a 100% penalty on
her health nsurance
for not
signing
up soon
enough..
after that is
over.. maybe i
won’t have to talk
to those
Fers
for
another
4 or 5 years..
hehe.. F’ers
FEDERAL
employee
retirement
system..
yeah.. F**kers
too.. didn’t think
that not being able
to use one’s eyes was
a disability.. unless one is blind.. only depression and Bi-
polar rings their bells of going postal nightmares.. i’ll stay crazy
and
clear
of hells
bells in
red tape hell..
shut the F uP robot
and that oN hold song
is boring me to frigging
write
poetry
MORE
ah.. the liGht
alWays silver
sliver
burning
in darkest
dam
dest
idiotic
human experiment
on hairless apes
gone
insane..
in robot
song
of
Zombie
Apocalypse..
okay.. i’m done
with the poem..
pick up Fers..
and they did
at this last
line now..
hasta la
vista.. ‘you
s**k’.. golden hand cuffs
of government slave service..
and i’m back baby.. finAlly FreENowDAnce
ALIVE..:)
Thanks.. my friend.. gigoid..
it can be tiring doing the
job of other folks.. rarely
patient enough to wait..
i most often
finished
the sentences
of most others..
until the very end..
WHEN the ‘higher’ ups
at OPM.. then.. didn’t even
understand the portability
act that ensured i would
still be eligible for civil
service retirement
after transferring
over to what
is named
non-appropriated
funds for about two
years.. to end it all
out at one month
shy of 25 years..
sick leave
term
counted
in too..
about a year
and a half worth..
including annual leave..
as i almost never took
sick leave during those
close to 25 years..
a model
employee
with a whistle
blowing nose clean..
i’ve since learned to
break every rule that
is not in the law
books..
and truly
most of it
was just
government
regulations gone insane..
Anyway.. i had to find the law
and email it to the director
of the OPM’s
office to
prove my
eligibility with
no cost to them..
as usual.. for my lawyer’s
fee.. yeah.. i would have become
a lawyer.. if i didn’t want a
heARt.. SpiRit
and soUl..
and i chose
the better
latter letter
of the heARt..
finAlly then..
@end of the road..
and beginning back too.. @now..:)
it can be tiring doing the
job of other folks.. rarely
patient enough to wait..
i most often
finished
the sentences
of most others..
until the very end..
WHEN the ‘higher’ ups
at OPM.. then.. didn’t even
understand the portability
act that ensured i would
still be eligible for civil
service retirement
after transferring
over to what
is named
non-appropriated
funds for about two
years.. to end it all
out at one month
shy of 25 years..
sick leave
term
counted
in too..
about a year
and a half worth..
including annual leave..
as i almost never took
sick leave during those
close to 25 years..
a model
employee
with a whistle
blowing nose clean..
i’ve since learned to
break every rule that
is not in the law
books..
and truly
most of it
was just
government
regulations gone insane..
Anyway.. i had to find the law
and email it to the director
of the OPM’s
office to
prove my
eligibility with
no cost to them..
as usual.. for my lawyer’s
fee.. yeah.. i would have become
a lawyer.. if i didn’t want a
heARt.. SpiRit
and soUl..
and i chose
the better
latter letter
of the heARt..
finAlly then..
@end of the road..
and beginning back too.. @now..:)
2347
And here’s to our 26th anniversary..
this Sunday.. February 21st 2016..
my after dance partner..
waiting for
her stray
cat
to
come home..
yeah.. looks like
i married Katrina at
minus 0 years old..
‘The Age of Adaline’
ain’t got nothin’ on her..
yeah.. now.. it’s kinda like
Beauty and the BeAST2..wink emoticon
this Sunday.. February 21st 2016..
my after dance partner..
waiting for
her stray
cat
to
come home..
yeah.. looks like
i married Katrina at
minus 0 years old..
‘The Age of Adaline’
ain’t got nothin’ on her..
yeah.. now.. it’s kinda like
Beauty and the BeAST2..wink emoticon
Ha..! i am-
use myself
so dam easy..
with or without
likes from other
cats..wink emoticon
use myself
so dam easy..
with or without
likes from other
cats..wink emoticon
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sreeja.. says..
Beautiful nature snaps! great spirit!
i say..
Thanks so
much for
visiting with
me here on..
much for
visiting with
me here on..
where access is faster to my
wordy and photo intensive ways..
yes.. accessibility is a real
possibility.. here.. hehe..
and so glad you could
feel the meaning of the
words and photos..
both beautiful
Nature.. and
inspiRing
SpiRit too..
hope your
nows are
going beautifully
and inspiring as
WeLL.. my friend..:)
wordy and photo intensive ways..
yes.. accessibility is a real
possibility.. here.. hehe..
and so glad you could
feel the meaning of the
words and photos..
both beautiful
Nature.. and
inspiRing
SpiRit too..
hope your
nows are
going beautifully
and inspiring as
WeLL.. my friend..:)
2484
Facebook Friend
Ashe.. states she
never wants to be
called by the
name
Ashley
again..
(a past
co-worker
from Gov.
days..
Ashe
sTill
now is)
Ashe.. states she
never wants to be
called by the
name
Ashley
again..
(a past
co-worker
from Gov.
days..
Ashe
sTill
now is)
i say..
Ashe what..;)
And ha! i’ve got the
opposite problem
now.. no more
911 Fred..
wherever i go
now most everyone
knows me by face..
and almost no
one knows
my
real
name..
hehE..
but that
in a sense..
and or feeling..
never changes..;)
opposite problem
now.. no more
911 Fred..
wherever i go
now most everyone
knows me by face..
and almost no
one knows
my
real
name..
hehE..
but that
in a sense..
and or feeling..
never changes..;)
2553
What i reAlly need
is a short nap..
but first i’ll
finish the last
added Haibun
in response
to the dVerse
Monday
prompt..
in Fred
bun style
of course..
some lines
of narrative poetry
and prose followed
by a Fredku wRiTe
oN course.. short
or LonG
from
HaikuS
passed..
and pasSinG..:)
is a short nap..
but first i’ll
finish the last
added Haibun
in response
to the dVerse
Monday
prompt..
in Fred
bun style
of course..
some lines
of narrative poetry
and prose followed
by a Fredku wRiTe
oN course.. short
or LonG
from
HaikuS
passed..
and pasSinG..:)
SmiLes.. trimMer oF sidewalks..
bushes.. and trees of
undesirables.. once
i am.. too..
now.. weeds
and wild vines
are the greaTest
of Life.. i for one
see/feEL.. now..
set FREE by i…
bushes.. and trees of
undesirables.. once
i am.. too..
now.. weeds
and wild vines
are the greaTest
of Life.. i for one
see/feEL.. now..
set FREE by i…
DandeLion
lives free..
fiEld oF i..:)
lives free..
fiEld oF i..:)
4:42 pm..
2192016…
got 66 more
poetic expressions
to go.. in the two
prompts still
behind on..
minus
the
extra one
caught up
with
Shawna
in my last blog post..
per Thursday
Open Link
prompt
at
dVerse
poet’s
pub..
but
yeah..
nap first..
and work-out
soon to come..
religiously
as
sorts..
all togEtheR
aS oNE..:)
2192016…
got 66 more
poetic expressions
to go.. in the two
prompts still
behind on..
minus
the
extra one
caught up
with
Shawna
in my last blog post..
per Thursday
Open Link
prompt
at
dVerse
poet’s
pub..
but
yeah..
nap first..
and work-out
soon to come..
religiously
as
sorts..
all togEtheR
aS oNE..:)
2694
Connection.. ah yes.. connection to humanity..
one can take it for granted.. but lose
it as a shut-in with disability..
and online is a life
saving grace
that has never
been provided before
for the shut-ins among
us in dark caves of lonely..
and when i was shut-in for
66 months.. my only literal
places of escape was the
Parking Lot of Walmart
while i sat there in
my routine
white
T-shirt..
cold or hot..
rain.. or sun..
for 66 months..
as Walmart was
a necessity for gaining
subsistence.. for Katrina no
matter how much that dentist drill
in my right eye and ear..
precluded the effective
use of my eyes..
other than
point and
guide a car
with shades on
and withstand the
pain.. take those
shades off that still
hurt like hell.. as any
focus of eyes with prescription
lenses is like the drill of dentist
getting wider and wider into
a smaller hole
of larger
pain..
and 8:30 pm..
gym closes at
9:00 pm.. the hunch
back of Notre Dame
with his tattered
jacket..
shades..
and ear plugs
tries to withstand
the stereo and bright
florescent lights
that are
as bright
as previous
Sun.. eYes to Sun
before the pain erased
all humanity away from me..
ha!.. if i thought i was an
outcast before..
now i was living
in a metal garbage
bin.. all pain
no human feelings
at all.. but more pain
and all pain more..
from the core
of every cell
of my body
with the worst pain
known to mankind..
wake to sleep for
66 months.. type
two Trigeminal
Neuralgia..
Fibromyalgia..
severe degenerative
arthritis of the spine..
Dysautonomia..
and associated
coat hanger
pain around
the shoulders
and neck..
also partially
precipitated early
in life by a congenitally
fused vertebra in my neck.
a total of 19 medical disorders..
including Severe Anxiety.. Alexithymia…
Sjogren’s Syndrome.. where my eyes
quit making tears.. Depression and
associated Anhedonia.. and
overall no emotions
at all.. except
for fear
associated anxiety..
oh yeah.. the Asperger’s
thingy on the Autism Spectrum
diagnosed in middle age..
and Bi-Polar disorder..
but ha.. that’s just
my everynow
normal
from
birth.. as strange
as it can get here..
too.. of course.. way
outside the cultural box
of human being norm.. whatever
the hell culture says norm is.. anyway..
i have much to celebrate.. and when i was
shut-in.. i used to look at people’s faces on
facebook.. as i was way too out of human
functionality to interact act
with so called normal
folks.. but when i got
my first iPhone
in March of 2013..
something about the
retina display allowed
me to actually look at colored
photos.. tolerably at least.. for the
first time in 5 years.. Nerve pain
can be incredibly strange.. all
there for 66 months.. and
disappearing like a
miracle on
July 22nd.. or so
of 2013.. anyway..
i didn’t take a nap..
i decided to celebrate
my humanity on Facebook
once again.. as i occasionally
take photos of my profile pictures
that illustrate a moving life of play
iN Humanity again..
this now a year’s
worth since last
February to the
13th iN 2015..
and sure what
better way to
celebrate an
anniversary than to
remind one’s wife that
she is no longer married
to a creature from the
dark
darkest
abyss of
life imaginable
now to most folks..
NAMED Human
Hell.. glad
i made it
back from
the underworld
and sure.. i can
prove it online..
and if i ever get that
pain again.. which i have
no choice but to have 100% FAITH
i will not.. at least there is proof
now if emotions go away again..
where there is no connection
back to memories
of emotions
as memories
of emotions
are of course
emotions and
without emotions
there are NO MEMORY
OF EMOTIONS.. YEAH
YOU’LL PROBABLY HAVE
TO EXPERIENCE THAT
ZERO BEING TO UNDERSTAND
HOW MANY RINGS ARE TRULY
IN THE BANDS AND STINGS
OF DANTE’S
HELL.. i will
never be anything
other than humble..
as i have already been on
a level of existence lower than
a grain of sand.. however i will
F-iN celebrate life.. every
which way
but loose
and LOOSE…
if for no
one but
my soUL
alive
and
Kicking free again
greater than ever
before.. the reward
of JOB lives on now as WeLL..
anyway.. celebration photos
in this next blog
post named “Broken
Arrows oF Dreams Dance”
whenever it comes now..
as there is more
celebrating to
do in this
alWays
anniversary
of living Free NOW!..
And yeah.. my Love iS
as deep as the bLACKest
ocean that i was before..
and now.. yes.. iT
iS Nirvana..
iN the
Kingdom
oF Heaven Nature
Now wiTh GOD FREE aS sAMe..:)
one can take it for granted.. but lose
it as a shut-in with disability..
and online is a life
saving grace
that has never
been provided before
for the shut-ins among
us in dark caves of lonely..
and when i was shut-in for
66 months.. my only literal
places of escape was the
Parking Lot of Walmart
while i sat there in
my routine
white
T-shirt..
cold or hot..
rain.. or sun..
for 66 months..
as Walmart was
a necessity for gaining
subsistence.. for Katrina no
matter how much that dentist drill
in my right eye and ear..
precluded the effective
use of my eyes..
other than
point and
guide a car
with shades on
and withstand the
pain.. take those
shades off that still
hurt like hell.. as any
focus of eyes with prescription
lenses is like the drill of dentist
getting wider and wider into
a smaller hole
of larger
pain..
and 8:30 pm..
gym closes at
9:00 pm.. the hunch
back of Notre Dame
with his tattered
jacket..
shades..
and ear plugs
tries to withstand
the stereo and bright
florescent lights
that are
as bright
as previous
Sun.. eYes to Sun
before the pain erased
all humanity away from me..
ha!.. if i thought i was an
outcast before..
now i was living
in a metal garbage
bin.. all pain
no human feelings
at all.. but more pain
and all pain more..
from the core
of every cell
of my body
with the worst pain
known to mankind..
wake to sleep for
66 months.. type
two Trigeminal
Neuralgia..
Fibromyalgia..
severe degenerative
arthritis of the spine..
Dysautonomia..
and associated
coat hanger
pain around
the shoulders
and neck..
also partially
precipitated early
in life by a congenitally
fused vertebra in my neck.
a total of 19 medical disorders..
including Severe Anxiety.. Alexithymia…
Sjogren’s Syndrome.. where my eyes
quit making tears.. Depression and
associated Anhedonia.. and
overall no emotions
at all.. except
for fear
associated anxiety..
oh yeah.. the Asperger’s
thingy on the Autism Spectrum
diagnosed in middle age..
and Bi-Polar disorder..
but ha.. that’s just
my everynow
normal
from
birth.. as strange
as it can get here..
too.. of course.. way
outside the cultural box
of human being norm.. whatever
the hell culture says norm is.. anyway..
i have much to celebrate.. and when i was
shut-in.. i used to look at people’s faces on
facebook.. as i was way too out of human
functionality to interact act
with so called normal
folks.. but when i got
my first iPhone
in March of 2013..
something about the
retina display allowed
me to actually look at colored
photos.. tolerably at least.. for the
first time in 5 years.. Nerve pain
can be incredibly strange.. all
there for 66 months.. and
disappearing like a
miracle on
July 22nd.. or so
of 2013.. anyway..
i didn’t take a nap..
i decided to celebrate
my humanity on Facebook
once again.. as i occasionally
take photos of my profile pictures
that illustrate a moving life of play
iN Humanity again..
this now a year’s
worth since last
February to the
13th iN 2015..
and sure what
better way to
celebrate an
anniversary than to
remind one’s wife that
she is no longer married
to a creature from the
dark
darkest
abyss of
life imaginable
now to most folks..
NAMED Human
Hell.. glad
i made it
back from
the underworld
and sure.. i can
prove it online..
and if i ever get that
pain again.. which i have
no choice but to have 100% FAITH
i will not.. at least there is proof
now if emotions go away again..
where there is no connection
back to memories
of emotions
as memories
of emotions
are of course
emotions and
without emotions
there are NO MEMORY
OF EMOTIONS.. YEAH
YOU’LL PROBABLY HAVE
TO EXPERIENCE THAT
ZERO BEING TO UNDERSTAND
HOW MANY RINGS ARE TRULY
IN THE BANDS AND STINGS
OF DANTE’S
HELL.. i will
never be anything
other than humble..
as i have already been on
a level of existence lower than
a grain of sand.. however i will
F-iN celebrate life.. every
which way
but loose
and LOOSE…
if for no
one but
my soUL
alive
and
Kicking free again
greater than ever
before.. the reward
of JOB lives on now as WeLL..
anyway.. celebration photos
in this next blog
post named “Broken
Arrows oF Dreams Dance”
whenever it comes now..
as there is more
celebrating to
do in this
alWays
anniversary
of living Free NOW!..
And yeah.. my Love iS
as deep as the bLACKest
ocean that i was before..
and now.. yes.. iT
iS Nirvana..
iN the
Kingdom
oF Heaven Nature
Now wiTh GOD FREE aS sAMe..:)
3471
Ah.. that was so sweet of you..
restoring your blog for me..
my friend.. Shawna..
yes.. i have fast eyes
and if i get here..
i don’t miss
not even
one
tiny detail..
Love your
creativity always..
keeps me guessing..
not many people
do.. hehe..;)
restoring your blog for me..
my friend.. Shawna..
yes.. i have fast eyes
and if i get here..
i don’t miss
not even
one
tiny detail..
Love your
creativity always..
keeps me guessing..
not many people
do.. hehe..;)
This is one of my favorites.. Shawna…
and reminds me just now.. of an old
girl friend.. well not really
old.. about 21.. hmm..
their still 21.. hehe..
AND ALL PLATONIC NOW..
anyway.. back
in hmm.. ‘EM..
’87.. or so..
her name was
Deena and she
was a sailor.. and
they called ’em waves
then.. ah.. a woman in
Uniform.. all those rules
and stuff.. with the hair
let down.. and all around..
well yeah.. i’m sure
you can imagine..
AND she was like
a double Z and
all that too..
but anyway..
we went to
the 2001 disco
club.. and she did this
thing with a beer
bottle
and said
that the
beat of this
Song would
give her
close
to the
big Oh.. oh yes.. yes… YEs..
she was most definitely
a wild thing.. oh the
things she
could do..
kinda like
that Jimmy
Hendrix song..
but no.. NOT me..
then.. i wasn’t THAT
EXPERIENCED..
enjoy church..
WAIT
this
is Friday..
NOT
Saturday..
means i have
another day
to catch
up on
2 prompts
behind.. just
for fun..
okay..
later
Shawna Baby..;)
and reminds me just now.. of an old
girl friend.. well not really
old.. about 21.. hmm..
their still 21.. hehe..
AND ALL PLATONIC NOW..
anyway.. back
in hmm.. ‘EM..
’87.. or so..
her name was
Deena and she
was a sailor.. and
they called ’em waves
then.. ah.. a woman in
Uniform.. all those rules
and stuff.. with the hair
let down.. and all around..
well yeah.. i’m sure
you can imagine..
AND she was like
a double Z and
all that too..
but anyway..
we went to
the 2001 disco
club.. and she did this
thing with a beer
bottle
and said
that the
beat of this
Song would
give her
close
to the
big Oh.. oh yes.. yes… YEs..
she was most definitely
a wild thing.. oh the
things she
could do..
kinda like
that Jimmy
Hendrix song..
but no.. NOT me..
then.. i wasn’t THAT
EXPERIENCED..
enjoy church..
WAIT
this
is Friday..
NOT
Saturday..
means i have
another day
to catch
up on
2 prompts
behind.. just
for fun..
okay..
later
Shawna Baby..;)
Hi.. thanks again.. S.. now for
sharing “Whip My Hair”.. i’m kinda
gun shy in a good way.. as i’ll comment here
as yes.. you might disappear
any second
now..
hehex2..
Anyway.. you
seem like
Spock
like me too..
i swear.. i can
mind meld with
almost anyone..
and the funniest thing
is.. just standing next
to ’em sometimes in
my selfies.. it
looks like
i kinda
morph into
’em.. in even
sometimes spooky
ways.. ah.. the magic
of life.. unbridled
as me..
and you
of course
too.. Shawna
Baby.. anyway.. off
to hear that song
now.. as not
much of a
word person..
Ripley or not..
am i still now..
as far as concrete
labels go sTiLL..
and name that
tune in one note
or less is more of
my game
in auditory
empath
Spock
way2..
oh yeah..
and i can do that
neck pinch thingy..
but really all i have to
do is take my shades
off and
show ’em
my yellow
Sun Wolf
eYes..
with
pretend..
evil too..
as mind melding
with the dEvil can
be super spooky
too.. but sure
Angels are
more fun..
so see ya
in a few..
Angel baby2..;)
sharing “Whip My Hair”.. i’m kinda
gun shy in a good way.. as i’ll comment here
as yes.. you might disappear
any second
now..
hehex2..
Anyway.. you
seem like
Spock
like me too..
i swear.. i can
mind meld with
almost anyone..
and the funniest thing
is.. just standing next
to ’em sometimes in
my selfies.. it
looks like
i kinda
morph into
’em.. in even
sometimes spooky
ways.. ah.. the magic
of life.. unbridled
as me..
and you
of course
too.. Shawna
Baby.. anyway.. off
to hear that song
now.. as not
much of a
word person..
Ripley or not..
am i still now..
as far as concrete
labels go sTiLL..
and name that
tune in one note
or less is more of
my game
in auditory
empath
Spock
way2..
oh yeah..
and i can do that
neck pinch thingy..
but really all i have to
do is take my shades
off and
show ’em
my yellow
Sun Wolf
eYes..
with
pretend..
evil too..
as mind melding
with the dEvil can
be super spooky
too.. but sure
Angels are
more fun..
so see ya
in a few..
Angel baby2..;)
One thing really cool i’ve noticed
after visiting all those
‘highly functioning’ folks
in the Autism online
community.. is..
often the
women
who have
this edgy masculine
side inside.. have
these double
ZZ’s and
it’s really
surprising
how cocky
they can be
with double
ZZ’s and i just
think it’s fabulous..
hehe.. as i swear there
is an Exotic Egyptian
Belly dancer2 living
in me.. it’s
F in
hilarious
’cause at
first look before
i start moving
the whole
thing.. now..
people often
mistake me
for law enforcement..
FBI.. undercover..
special forces..
whatever
James
Bond
says..
anyway..
i’m not seeing
“Whip My Hair”..
anywhere on your
new play list here..
but sure i youtubed
it and yes.. i spread
my colors everywhere
i go too.. getting
everyone
all wet
with ’em..
whether
they like it
or not.. as Jesus
sometimes ya have
to do mouth
to mouth
from afar
to bring
’em
back
to life
like you
‘EM now..
my friend S..
i think it’s extra
cute how you always
look down in your
selfies..
all
shy and
innocent
when i know/feel
all about your
edge2..
and ps.. what
i Love to do.. on
the big dance floor
is when some dull
you know the ‘type’
from the south dude comes
up to me and starts mocking
me.. i stand totally motionless
like the eye of a Hurricane..
and look them calmy
directly in their
eYes..
through
shades of
course that
makes it
even more
spooky..
and they
high tale
it back to the farm..
anyway.. i have a hidden
bomb always ready to explode
if
necessary..
and it ain’t
soft..;)
after visiting all those
‘highly functioning’ folks
in the Autism online
community.. is..
often the
women
who have
this edgy masculine
side inside.. have
these double
ZZ’s and
it’s really
surprising
how cocky
they can be
with double
ZZ’s and i just
think it’s fabulous..
hehe.. as i swear there
is an Exotic Egyptian
Belly dancer2 living
in me.. it’s
F in
hilarious
’cause at
first look before
i start moving
the whole
thing.. now..
people often
mistake me
for law enforcement..
FBI.. undercover..
special forces..
whatever
James
Bond
says..
anyway..
i’m not seeing
“Whip My Hair”..
anywhere on your
new play list here..
but sure i youtubed
it and yes.. i spread
my colors everywhere
i go too.. getting
everyone
all wet
with ’em..
whether
they like it
or not.. as Jesus
sometimes ya have
to do mouth
to mouth
from afar
to bring
’em
back
to life
like you
‘EM now..
my friend S..
i think it’s extra
cute how you always
look down in your
selfies..
all
shy and
innocent
when i know/feel
all about your
edge2..
and ps.. what
i Love to do.. on
the big dance floor
is when some dull
you know the ‘type’
from the south dude comes
up to me and starts mocking
me.. i stand totally motionless
like the eye of a Hurricane..
and look them calmy
directly in their
eYes..
through
shades of
course that
makes it
even more
spooky..
and they
high tale
it back to the farm..
anyway.. i have a hidden
bomb always ready to explode
if
necessary..
and it ain’t
soft..;)
Ha! i missed this one..S..
the ‘eye in the sun’
but never the lesS
iT reminds me of
my last
comment
here.. now
the best
thing in the
world is to be complete..WhOLE
aLL balanCinG.. feminine and
masculine.. liGht and Dark..
yeah.. the hard and soft
edges..
as when a
person iS A wHole.
there is zero to
fear
AND
ALL TO LOVE..
the way humans
were.. by
Barbara
StreiSand
now iN the
desSert Rose
of mythological TRUTH
and liGht iN statues
NoW aLiVE..
with flesh
more
of
being
human
now.. jUsT now..
hmm.. the places
i can go free..
juSt iN
mY
imaGiNaTioN..
oh.. yes.. oh GOD yes..!
iF more folks NOW
could go to a place
like that/this.. there would
be zero/hero of greenest
blackest
dollar
biLLs
of
heLL..
no.. YES!
iNHeaven
STiLL
now
alWays
reigns
reins
rains
dRip
drip oF
human being..
ever heard of a full
body orgasm.. yeah
it’s real and
not messy
@all.. oh yeah..
and that reminds
me.. back earlier in
last century.. and i am
alive serious about this..
yeah.. back in the ‘Victorian
Age’.. when women were all
guilt tripped about tHeir pleaSures..
and were labeled up having Hysteria..
the way Doctor’s treated this frustration..
was by manually masturbating them
to orgasm.. seriously
i did
not..
make this up..
and here is
the proof
here.. no
graphic photos
in the video.. promise
it is all science now.. then..
the ‘eye in the sun’
but never the lesS
iT reminds me of
my last
comment
here.. now
the best
thing in the
world is to be complete..WhOLE
aLL balanCinG.. feminine and
masculine.. liGht and Dark..
yeah.. the hard and soft
edges..
as when a
person iS A wHole.
there is zero to
fear
AND
ALL TO LOVE..
the way humans
were.. by
Barbara
StreiSand
now iN the
desSert Rose
of mythological TRUTH
and liGht iN statues
NoW aLiVE..
with flesh
more
of
being
human
now.. jUsT now..
hmm.. the places
i can go free..
juSt iN
mY
imaGiNaTioN..
oh.. yes.. oh GOD yes..!
iF more folks NOW
could go to a place
like that/this.. there would
be zero/hero of greenest
blackest
dollar
biLLs
of
heLL..
no.. YES!
iNHeaven
STiLL
now
alWays
reigns
reins
rains
dRip
drip oF
human being..
ever heard of a full
body orgasm.. yeah
it’s real and
not messy
@all.. oh yeah..
and that reminds
me.. back earlier in
last century.. and i am
alive serious about this..
yeah.. back in the ‘Victorian
Age’.. when women were all
guilt tripped about tHeir pleaSures..
and were labeled up having Hysteria..
the way Doctor’s treated this frustration..
was by manually masturbating them
to orgasm.. seriously
i did
not..
make this up..
and here is
the proof
here.. no
graphic photos
in the video.. promise
it is all science now.. then..
And here is the most
hilarious fun fact
associated
with that
in the
REAL
SCIENCE
VIDEO.. now..
hilarious fun fact
associated
with that
in the
REAL
SCIENCE
VIDEO.. now..
“Many Doctors’ complained that
‘it’ was a laborious and time
consuming procedure, so
the vibrator was invented
as a form of
self
medication”
‘it’ was a laborious and time
consuming procedure, so
the vibrator was invented
as a form of
self
medication”
OMG.. what a fun
fAct that I never
knew before..
and i juSt
kNow
you WiLL
appreciate IT
even if it makes
you erase your bLog
so those church
peers
will not
find the
dEvil
heRe..
aGaiN..;)
fAct that I never
knew before..
and i juSt
kNow
you WiLL
appreciate IT
even if it makes
you erase your bLog
so those church
peers
will not
find the
dEvil
heRe..
aGaiN..;)
Ha! and as long
as i keep
this
up..
i may never
get back to my
long lost prompts
on
dVerse
but who
gives an F
i’ve got
less
messy
stuff to
do now..
see ya..
and yes.. my wife
and i’s 26th anniversary..
and she knows and feels
all i do.. every letter and
word.. and
ain’t
scared
at all..
i her taught
what free is..
even if she does
not fully practice it like i do now..
sadly
enough
i feel….
but life goes
on for
fun
anyway..
there is no
other solution
i know
to solve
the worlds
ills..
as is..
for now..:)
as i keep
this
up..
i may never
get back to my
long lost prompts
on
dVerse
but who
gives an F
i’ve got
less
messy
stuff to
do now..
see ya..
and yes.. my wife
and i’s 26th anniversary..
and she knows and feels
all i do.. every letter and
word.. and
ain’t
scared
at all..
i her taught
what free is..
even if she does
not fully practice it like i do now..
sadly
enough
i feel….
but life goes
on for
fun
anyway..
there is no
other solution
i know
to solve
the worlds
ills..
as is..
for now..:)
em for me for
you for now and
nnamhel.. S..
iS a backwards
me.. wInks..
figures..
8 standing
tALL inFiniTy
too.. now..
hehe.l..
born on
6660 and
all of THAT
Hellboy2..
he did not
fully
mature
until
age 53
either..
and my
mother’s
name
iS Helen..
i kid you
not..
wiTh
goats
and
rAms
and stuff..
as and ’cause
i kNow/feel you
now like spooky
stuff2.. so i WiLL
truth and liGht
iN DArk aS WeLL
a
long
long
way
from
hell now..
and Lord KnoWs..
i sTiLL haven’t got
stArted on those
two prompts
yEt.. juSt
getting
back from
the tRain
of
R and R..
aGaiN..
stopping here
at waystation
Shawna..
hmm..
reminds
me of
waystation
1.. i don’t
thInk that
dude WiLL
ever
come
back..
sAdly
enough
but wE mUst
go on.. yes..
as iS.. now..
and haha..
i just said i have
a J LO butt iN the
newest blog post
i am writing now..
gREAt butts feel alike..;)
you for now and
nnamhel.. S..
iS a backwards
me.. wInks..
figures..
8 standing
tALL inFiniTy
too.. now..
hehe.l..
born on
6660 and
all of THAT
Hellboy2..
he did not
fully
mature
until
age 53
either..
and my
mother’s
name
iS Helen..
i kid you
not..
wiTh
goats
and
rAms
and stuff..
as and ’cause
i kNow/feel you
now like spooky
stuff2.. so i WiLL
truth and liGht
iN DArk aS WeLL
a
long
long
way
from
hell now..
and Lord KnoWs..
i sTiLL haven’t got
stArted on those
two prompts
yEt.. juSt
getting
back from
the tRain
of
R and R..
aGaiN..
stopping here
at waystation
Shawna..
hmm..
reminds
me of
waystation
1.. i don’t
thInk that
dude WiLL
ever
come
back..
sAdly
enough
but wE mUst
go on.. yes..
as iS.. now..
and haha..
i just said i have
a J LO butt iN the
newest blog post
i am writing now..
gREAt butts feel alike..;)
SMiLes.. my friend.. Shawna i can feel your
true emotions coming through in this beautiful prose/poetry
you write here.. oh the Love.. oh the FeeLinGs.. to be loved
and to love.. like that song.. ‘Come What May’.. that i needed
so much from ‘Moulin Rouge’.. to get the grief out for losing
my cat friend Moby.. is all worth it.. in the end and beginning
of now.. sMiLes.. my goal iN liFe iS to Love and bE A Love oF as
many people’s lives as i can before i die.. that’s all i now
want or
need iS
Love.. and
the dance.. is
what has paved the
way the most for that
iN the flesh world now..
and finAlly i am connecting..
after trying so hard to make
the emotion and words
get gluED.. online..
seriously.. both
in real life
and online
when i first
started writing
people said i was
a computer and not
a real human being..
that has
changed..
TG..!
Happy
SUN
DAY..
and i’ve really
enjoyed hanging
out with you the last
couple of days.. and yeah..
sure.. i needed a break away
from my current year long
milestone of making a poem
out of every poem on dVerse
for an entire
year..
just
’cause
i can..
F.. competitions..
and goals.. i just
wanna
do iT..
like the
Goddess
of Victory..
Nike says..
now in
bare
feet
of me..
Love ya..
Shawna Baby..
hope you girls had
a great night out!..:)
true emotions coming through in this beautiful prose/poetry
you write here.. oh the Love.. oh the FeeLinGs.. to be loved
and to love.. like that song.. ‘Come What May’.. that i needed
so much from ‘Moulin Rouge’.. to get the grief out for losing
my cat friend Moby.. is all worth it.. in the end and beginning
of now.. sMiLes.. my goal iN liFe iS to Love and bE A Love oF as
many people’s lives as i can before i die.. that’s all i now
want or
need iS
Love.. and
the dance.. is
what has paved the
way the most for that
iN the flesh world now..
and finAlly i am connecting..
after trying so hard to make
the emotion and words
get gluED.. online..
seriously.. both
in real life
and online
when i first
started writing
people said i was
a computer and not
a real human being..
that has
changed..
TG..!
Happy
SUN
DAY..
and i’ve really
enjoyed hanging
out with you the last
couple of days.. and yeah..
sure.. i needed a break away
from my current year long
milestone of making a poem
out of every poem on dVerse
for an entire
year..
just
’cause
i can..
F.. competitions..
and goals.. i just
wanna
do iT..
like the
Goddess
of Victory..
Nike says..
now in
bare
feet
of me..
Love ya..
Shawna Baby..
hope you girls had
a great night out!..:)
4983
Ah.. humans.. not unlike fleas.. sucking the blood out
of an animal they cannot fully see.. gigoid..
yes.. if the dog dies.. weE
humans who culturAlly
have removed ourselves
from our kiNd and courAge
ape ways.. WiLL suffer
the way
of bees
without
a hive..
the insects
we are now.. poisoned
slowly now as well by the
same cultural ways iroNically
that are killing the
truly
winged
and buzzing
ones.. free too…
Anyway.. i’ve being
seeing/feeling more of THE DOG
lately.. and pretty sure ALL THAT
IS THAT DOG HaS iT aLL LAID OUT
AS iS AS ALwAYS NOW..
what we do not see
can both save us
or kill uS.. now..
better to come
back home
than..
to lose
the dog forever..
at least
now..
i respect the blood..
i respect the dog..
particularly.. when
the dog is real
and the dog
most people
worship does
not even give them blood.. ironic isn’t it.. the
Native Americans who sTiLL exist.. live peacefully
with the dog as those who before did too..
i don’t wanna
be a cowboy..
so i return
NOW as
INDIAN..
LOVEnow
THE REAL
AMERICAN
OLD
New
World
STYLE..:)
of an animal they cannot fully see.. gigoid..
yes.. if the dog dies.. weE
humans who culturAlly
have removed ourselves
from our kiNd and courAge
ape ways.. WiLL suffer
the way
of bees
without
a hive..
the insects
we are now.. poisoned
slowly now as well by the
same cultural ways iroNically
that are killing the
truly
winged
and buzzing
ones.. free too…
Anyway.. i’ve being
seeing/feeling more of THE DOG
lately.. and pretty sure ALL THAT
IS THAT DOG HaS iT aLL LAID OUT
AS iS AS ALwAYS NOW..
what we do not see
can both save us
or kill uS.. now..
better to come
back home
than..
to lose
the dog forever..
at least
now..
i respect the blood..
i respect the dog..
particularly.. when
the dog is real
and the dog
most people
worship does
not even give them blood.. ironic isn’t it.. the
Native Americans who sTiLL exist.. live peacefully
with the dog as those who before did too..
i don’t wanna
be a cowboy..
so i return
NOW as
INDIAN..
LOVEnow
THE REAL
AMERICAN
OLD
New
World
STYLE..:)
SMiLes my friend.. just getting
back from a 9 or so mile
Super-Walmart
Jaunt
in dance..
and it’s nice
to be free.. iS aLL..
ALL that crap from culture
that iS simply crap… iS so far
gone in my past now..
aLL iS left
is the
5 year
old me..
now before
Kindergarten..
and sure.. a little
more.. except
for ALL the lies
of culture… more
specifically.. politics..
religion iN fundamentalist
ways.. and All that holds
human back
from getting
back to Nature
BalanCinG now..
it’s possible
but until
people
realize they
are no more special
than the other animals
who inhabit this planet..
including trees.. plants..
and even
a gRain
of Sand
and less..
they are doomed
to a life of discontent..
misery and suffering..
Nature doesn’t
lie and neither
do humans
with they
live by
THE REAL
GOD OF NATURE
WHO WILL HAVE
HER WAY OF WHATEVER
IS
IS NOW..:)
back from a 9 or so mile
Super-Walmart
Jaunt
in dance..
and it’s nice
to be free.. iS aLL..
ALL that crap from culture
that iS simply crap… iS so far
gone in my past now..
aLL iS left
is the
5 year
old me..
now before
Kindergarten..
and sure.. a little
more.. except
for ALL the lies
of culture… more
specifically.. politics..
religion iN fundamentalist
ways.. and All that holds
human back
from getting
back to Nature
BalanCinG now..
it’s possible
but until
people
realize they
are no more special
than the other animals
who inhabit this planet..
including trees.. plants..
and even
a gRain
of Sand
and less..
they are doomed
to a life of discontent..
misery and suffering..
Nature doesn’t
lie and neither
do humans
with they
live by
THE REAL
GOD OF NATURE
WHO WILL HAVE
HER WAY OF WHATEVER
IS
IS NOW..:)
Ah.. one of my favorite efforts of one year ago..
of course.. along the lines of the
Magic Flute
as well..
with
this epic
music from
the dreams
of my DNA
Sioux
and
Cherokee
Crazy Horse
Dance and
sure.. the
rest
of me..
FREE iN
the beat of the niGht
around a campfire
moonlit night
hugging
the grass
of God at
midnight..
and the Sun
iN the mid-day
sand.. no different..
than a free cat
at night or
day..
one with
Nature..
wheRe
never
was..
is
or
will
be any
separation
from THE REAL
GOD OF NATURE
THAT IS UNDEFEATABLE
BY ANY HUMAN BEING WHETHER
LEADER OF THE WORLD.. THE CHURCH..
OR PROPHETS OF OLD OR NEW..
GOD IS FREE
and the
true and
liGht
of uS are
NOW.. and sure
the Mayans are Indians
too.. and tHeir rules rule ART
over uS aS free iN touch
with God whether
some of uS
see/feel
the reality
of change
in the air
since 2013,,
now or not..
ha.. even Justin
Bieber has that
one figured out..
never
juSt a book
by its cover..
age.. or looks..
there is always deeper
oceans in the soUl of WE
who set ourselves free though
much challenge.. dArkness
and yes.. truth and liGht…
of course.. along the lines of the
Magic Flute
as well..
with
this epic
music from
the dreams
of my DNA
Sioux
and
Cherokee
Crazy Horse
Dance and
sure.. the
rest
of me..
FREE iN
the beat of the niGht
around a campfire
moonlit night
hugging
the grass
of God at
midnight..
and the Sun
iN the mid-day
sand.. no different..
than a free cat
at night or
day..
one with
Nature..
wheRe
never
was..
is
or
will
be any
separation
from THE REAL
GOD OF NATURE
THAT IS UNDEFEATABLE
BY ANY HUMAN BEING WHETHER
LEADER OF THE WORLD.. THE CHURCH..
OR PROPHETS OF OLD OR NEW..
GOD IS FREE
and the
true and
liGht
of uS are
NOW.. and sure
the Mayans are Indians
too.. and tHeir rules rule ART
over uS aS free iN touch
with God whether
some of uS
see/feel
the reality
of change
in the air
since 2013,,
now or not..
ha.. even Justin
Bieber has that
one figured out..
never
juSt a book
by its cover..
age.. or looks..
there is always deeper
oceans in the soUl of WE
who set ourselves free though
much challenge.. dArkness
and yes.. truth and liGht…
HA.. the beat
iS coming back
and we who are iN
the Feel and know oF
IT WILL NOT BE DEFEATED..
wE are all Indigenous Indians
of God
when
we
REMember
and are
reborn
aGaiN…
don’t miss
out.. seriously
with no jest.. its
simple.. just come
back to Nature that
iS God and Human FREE..
but you have to leave first..:)
iS coming back
and we who are iN
the Feel and know oF
IT WILL NOT BE DEFEATED..
wE are all Indigenous Indians
of God
when
we
REMember
and are
reborn
aGaiN…
don’t miss
out.. seriously
with no jest.. its
simple.. just come
back to Nature that
iS God and Human FREE..
but you have to leave first..:)
5594
Okay.. crap.. i’m having a bit of an identity crisis.. issue..
i was all set to be Yoda.. doing my Super-Walmart dance..
while Katrina and her two sisters.. who are fixin’ to be
Great Aunts and a Great Grandma.. are doing all
that baby shopping.. getting ready for more
baby showers as always the case with
her side of the family it seems.. yes..
extremely reproductively fit.. anyway..
Katrina’s anniversary present was an Infinity tattoo..
that her sisters decided to get too.. and my Anniversary
present and the source of today’s identity crisis.. is.. ugh..
just what i need.. a much bigger pen.. yes.. an Incredible
Hulk pen..is just what i need to write even more..
i’m currently going back and forth from Yoda..
to something else.. could be Werewolf.. yes..
it is almost the full moon.. in a day or so..
or yes.. Incredible Hulk.. but more
likely a hybrid of
SOMETHiNG..;)
i was all set to be Yoda.. doing my Super-Walmart dance..
while Katrina and her two sisters.. who are fixin’ to be
Great Aunts and a Great Grandma.. are doing all
that baby shopping.. getting ready for more
baby showers as always the case with
her side of the family it seems.. yes..
extremely reproductively fit.. anyway..
Katrina’s anniversary present was an Infinity tattoo..
that her sisters decided to get too.. and my Anniversary
present and the source of today’s identity crisis.. is.. ugh..
just what i need.. a much bigger pen.. yes.. an Incredible
Hulk pen..is just what i need to write even more..
i’m currently going back and forth from Yoda..
to something else.. could be Werewolf.. yes..
it is almost the full moon.. in a day or so..
or yes.. Incredible Hulk.. but more
likely a hybrid of
SOMETHiNG..;)
5747
Ah.. the answers to the world’s problems are not
those of the world in essence as the God of
Nature aLL Free has already supplied those
answers when iN balance
oF human Nature..
simply by moving..
connecting.. and creating
by giving more than taking
otherwise known as Love
in its greaTest courAge
and kiNd way
as Unconditional..
i have studied this issue
as much as i can born without
a mask.. and taking the mask off
again.. as much as possible to get
all awakened and enlightened as such..
but here’s the thing.. to be born naked
without the clothes of culture does
literally mean that too..
to go back to
our prehistory
and understand
what iT iS that makes
human beings tick as flea
iN God of Nature
God given
human
Nature..
as wRite now..
culture.. iS overall..
a labyrinth of iNsane
from birth taking uS
way.. way.. way out
oF human being
Nature Balance..
to
move
connect
and create
and give more
iN sharing than
taking wiTh other
humans and the
rest of Nature..
it’s not hard
to do
when
one
iS loving
and loved
iN return..
and yes..
possible
to do by loving
much more than giving
but Love iS a balanced way
for most folks iN reciprocal
social human communication
too.. hmm.. face to face iS sure
the evolutionary way.. but sign
language like Facebook and other
social media will work somewhat
okay for both a blind person
and a semi-robot human
being in four
walls.. a ceiling
in front of a flat
screen computer
all day long and
most of the
night
too…
so how does an insanely
large population of human
beings.. only evolutionary suited
to around 150 to 200 sets of eyes
who moves.. connects.. and creates
best in small groups and villages like
this adapt again.. well.. here’s the deal..
all the tools of human ranging from
sticks to scratch alphabets
in sands to spears
to atomic bombs
are part of
Nature too..
an extension
yes.. but never the less
moving.. connecting and
creating new.. farther reach
of human eyes and hands
and bRains
as well
and not
so well too..
but alas the dArk
and liGht are ALL pARt
of the mix too.. pain
iS weakness leaving
the body.. and
it is also
muse
for
pleasure
too.. so it all
comes out in a
dark chocolate
and vanilla shake
of what is known
fully as culture
now.. from
Katy Perry’s Dark
Horse.. to that Super
Collider thingy.. trying
to find the God Particle
of God as Nature too now..
Prehistoric human beings
from the artifacts of record
shared iT aLL as
similar primitives
do now.. iN much
smaller group
cultures..
who move.. connect
and create iN giving
at least as much
as taKing..
so iN A way..
as strange as it may
seem.. that is what Social
Media does.. with increasing
nomadic pair bonding groups
with small to smaller
families searching an
entire nation for
subsistence
traveling
where
the meat
and vegetables
can still be obtained..
and OMG.. with stuff like
PORN.. there is a “Bonobo
Hand Shake” iN the reality
of the majority of humans
super sexed need for
variety in
reducing
frustration..
aggression
and violence..
and even potential
wars.. for those
more sex
charged
human
beings..
yeah.. it’s just
a keyboard
and hand
and fingers
away.. a little colder
than flesh and blood but
still way hot enough to get
the job of cooling off done..
and it doesn’t matter
what the local
or church
norm
says..
God will
have her way
with most of us..
if we do not repress
or get oppressed iN how
God creates one of God’s
sexiest creatures oF aLL
the human
horny
bEinG..
let’s not lie
to ourselves
it is the truth
and liGht from
below
to
above..
all engorged
as such.. as living
passionate human
being free as God
will have us
WHEN FREE..
and the truth is as
science is starting to show..
porn reduces the frequency
of actual intercourse.. no sHit
sheRlock.. it’s hard to do the
wild thing with
hands and
fingers
fully
employed..
and the fact of Nature iS
theRe are too many human
beings taking way more than
they give on this planet..
and a first world
reality
is
with greater
technology..
population
goes
down..
and up too but
not in and out
as much as
it were and is..
as there is more
to do than the work
of the night of the primitives
and plenty of technology to
fill iN the empty
spaces
oF what
flesh and blood
does when truly free..
in the foRest of bountiful
existence.. all balanced as such..
wheRe the experiment of human
being iS eventually going.. iS beyond
any human prophecy now.. as iT is
an experiment that has never
been tried before in the
history books yet..
and there iS
a synergy of neurons
holding hands together
and humans as well across
global borders.. that has and
will make Quantum leaps of
logic into Art oF heARt of
human being.. yes..
exciting times
wE liVe iN
and
NatUre aka
God still has her
hands fully in the
pie of human being..
change stARts at the
heARt level of human
being.. and as we hold
hands stronger togeTheR..
WeLL.. the sky iS no longer
the limit.. as
history
already
shows..
with
lunar
and other
landings.. now..
the Universe within
though.. is a largely uncharted
territory of science recorded history
and that’s the pARt.. i for one continue
to explore and enjoy most as
after all
i’m more
than a tool..
i’m a sacred
fool too.. brave
enough to step out
of the parameters
and back
into
what
came before..
F R E E and
BORN AGAIN..
kinda like a
perfect
storm..
if ‘you’ WiLL..
as we all feel..
in practice.. storms
are not ‘perfect’ they
kinda rave or rage on..
and are free to become
whatever iT iS they
end and begin
being
now..
climates
change.. nature
and human sAMe..:)
those of the world in essence as the God of
Nature aLL Free has already supplied those
answers when iN balance
oF human Nature..
simply by moving..
connecting.. and creating
by giving more than taking
otherwise known as Love
in its greaTest courAge
and kiNd way
as Unconditional..
i have studied this issue
as much as i can born without
a mask.. and taking the mask off
again.. as much as possible to get
all awakened and enlightened as such..
but here’s the thing.. to be born naked
without the clothes of culture does
literally mean that too..
to go back to
our prehistory
and understand
what iT iS that makes
human beings tick as flea
iN God of Nature
God given
human
Nature..
as wRite now..
culture.. iS overall..
a labyrinth of iNsane
from birth taking uS
way.. way.. way out
oF human being
Nature Balance..
to
move
connect
and create
and give more
iN sharing than
taking wiTh other
humans and the
rest of Nature..
it’s not hard
to do
when
one
iS loving
and loved
iN return..
and yes..
possible
to do by loving
much more than giving
but Love iS a balanced way
for most folks iN reciprocal
social human communication
too.. hmm.. face to face iS sure
the evolutionary way.. but sign
language like Facebook and other
social media will work somewhat
okay for both a blind person
and a semi-robot human
being in four
walls.. a ceiling
in front of a flat
screen computer
all day long and
most of the
night
too…
so how does an insanely
large population of human
beings.. only evolutionary suited
to around 150 to 200 sets of eyes
who moves.. connects.. and creates
best in small groups and villages like
this adapt again.. well.. here’s the deal..
all the tools of human ranging from
sticks to scratch alphabets
in sands to spears
to atomic bombs
are part of
Nature too..
an extension
yes.. but never the less
moving.. connecting and
creating new.. farther reach
of human eyes and hands
and bRains
as well
and not
so well too..
but alas the dArk
and liGht are ALL pARt
of the mix too.. pain
iS weakness leaving
the body.. and
it is also
muse
for
pleasure
too.. so it all
comes out in a
dark chocolate
and vanilla shake
of what is known
fully as culture
now.. from
Katy Perry’s Dark
Horse.. to that Super
Collider thingy.. trying
to find the God Particle
of God as Nature too now..
Prehistoric human beings
from the artifacts of record
shared iT aLL as
similar primitives
do now.. iN much
smaller group
cultures..
who move.. connect
and create iN giving
at least as much
as taKing..
so iN A way..
as strange as it may
seem.. that is what Social
Media does.. with increasing
nomadic pair bonding groups
with small to smaller
families searching an
entire nation for
subsistence
traveling
where
the meat
and vegetables
can still be obtained..
and OMG.. with stuff like
PORN.. there is a “Bonobo
Hand Shake” iN the reality
of the majority of humans
super sexed need for
variety in
reducing
frustration..
aggression
and violence..
and even potential
wars.. for those
more sex
charged
human
beings..
yeah.. it’s just
a keyboard
and hand
and fingers
away.. a little colder
than flesh and blood but
still way hot enough to get
the job of cooling off done..
and it doesn’t matter
what the local
or church
norm
says..
God will
have her way
with most of us..
if we do not repress
or get oppressed iN how
God creates one of God’s
sexiest creatures oF aLL
the human
horny
bEinG..
let’s not lie
to ourselves
it is the truth
and liGht from
below
to
above..
all engorged
as such.. as living
passionate human
being free as God
will have us
WHEN FREE..
and the truth is as
science is starting to show..
porn reduces the frequency
of actual intercourse.. no sHit
sheRlock.. it’s hard to do the
wild thing with
hands and
fingers
fully
employed..
and the fact of Nature iS
theRe are too many human
beings taking way more than
they give on this planet..
and a first world
reality
is
with greater
technology..
population
goes
down..
and up too but
not in and out
as much as
it were and is..
as there is more
to do than the work
of the night of the primitives
and plenty of technology to
fill iN the empty
spaces
oF what
flesh and blood
does when truly free..
in the foRest of bountiful
existence.. all balanced as such..
wheRe the experiment of human
being iS eventually going.. iS beyond
any human prophecy now.. as iT is
an experiment that has never
been tried before in the
history books yet..
and there iS
a synergy of neurons
holding hands together
and humans as well across
global borders.. that has and
will make Quantum leaps of
logic into Art oF heARt of
human being.. yes..
exciting times
wE liVe iN
and
NatUre aka
God still has her
hands fully in the
pie of human being..
change stARts at the
heARt level of human
being.. and as we hold
hands stronger togeTheR..
WeLL.. the sky iS no longer
the limit.. as
history
already
shows..
with
lunar
and other
landings.. now..
the Universe within
though.. is a largely uncharted
territory of science recorded history
and that’s the pARt.. i for one continue
to explore and enjoy most as
after all
i’m more
than a tool..
i’m a sacred
fool too.. brave
enough to step out
of the parameters
and back
into
what
came before..
F R E E and
BORN AGAIN..
kinda like a
perfect
storm..
if ‘you’ WiLL..
as we all feel..
in practice.. storms
are not ‘perfect’ they
kinda rave or rage on..
and are free to become
whatever iT iS they
end and begin
being
now..
climates
change.. nature
and human sAMe..:)
6745
Typical.. after Catholic Church..
26th Anniversary photo of husband
and wife.. and yes.. of course there is
a living doll in ‘this photo’..wink emoticon
26th Anniversary photo of husband
and wife.. and yes.. of course there is
a living doll in ‘this photo’..wink emoticon
Second Doll gift
from our friend
at church for the doll..;)
from our friend
at church for the doll..;)
Oh yeah.. and it was hilarious..
when the fill-in priest asks
who has an anniversary
or a birthday.. where i
am the only one to raise
my hand and stand up.. in
the entire Temple Church
and i say.. “My Wife Katrina
and i.. are celebrating our
26th anniversary TODAY”..
and time my comeback just
right.. in my usual echoing
booming.. voice.. NOW..
and i say.. “YES..
she is also
26 years old”
as well.. BD.. wise..;)
when the fill-in priest asks
who has an anniversary
or a birthday.. where i
am the only one to raise
my hand and stand up.. in
the entire Temple Church
and i say.. “My Wife Katrina
and i.. are celebrating our
26th anniversary TODAY”..
and time my comeback just
right.. in my usual echoing
booming.. voice.. NOW..
and i say.. “YES..
she is also
26 years old”
as well.. BD.. wise..;)
Interesting story.. the ‘RIsen’ one.. and it was
a lot like the New Star Wars movie..
per the storm trooper
human archetype
of the villain
becoming
hero..
anyway
that’s all i’ll say..
as not to be the spoiler
for the end of the show..
as the end of the show part
is in a book anyway.. but just
not the main character of the
story whose perspective the
entire story is told from..
a brand new fictional
character named
Clavius..
a Roman
Tribune for the
‘dark force’.. as
it were.. then as well..:)
a lot like the New Star Wars movie..
per the storm trooper
human archetype
of the villain
becoming
hero..
anyway
that’s all i’ll say..
as not to be the spoiler
for the end of the show..
as the end of the show part
is in a book anyway.. but just
not the main character of the
story whose perspective the
entire story is told from..
a brand new fictional
character named
Clavius..
a Roman
Tribune for the
‘dark force’.. as
it were.. then as well..:)
6949
Well.. in ‘this one’.. “Assembled Without Instructions” is inspiration
enough for me to write a Novel.. but that’s not coming ’till around
April.. for the third installment of that..
but yes.. how sad it is that human
beings are Assembled With
Instructions.. as the rest of
Nature innately.. instinctually..
and intuitively practices life
free without sidewalks
of hell
binding
them down
to concrete purgatories
of what came before..
stick to the
rules robot
or you’ll
get in
social acceptance
trouble and that means
starvation.. no mates
and stuff like
that as
social
animals innately..
need each other to
get the meat
and vegetables
of life.. all in one
soup of life
a cross
a fire..
anyway.. it’s sad
when folks become
paperback books.. or hard
covers too.. but pearls
of wisdom.. i’ll take
that pARt by
mouth
or
book.. as some
stuff is truly worth
reading again and again..
the gift of all the historic pearls
of wisdom you provide here.. my
friend.. gigoid.. in ways of life..
not just
nouns
and labels
for men to worship
and say they have the
last word of the God of
Mother Nature true and liGht now..
as well as dArk and fAiry tales too..
but alas.. myths are the hyperbole..
to market the meat
of the products
and without
that.. it would
be harder to
get the vehicles
and vessels that house
truth and liGht that have traveled
this far.. in written and oral tradition
of story taling.. dArk and liGht WhOLE..
Anyway.. yes.. may the metaphorse
be with ya.. friend gigoid.. as long
as it rides
free.. iN
ALLNOW..
wITh Love and
KiND In couraGe..
like Cindafella might say..;)
enough for me to write a Novel.. but that’s not coming ’till around
April.. for the third installment of that..
but yes.. how sad it is that human
beings are Assembled With
Instructions.. as the rest of
Nature innately.. instinctually..
and intuitively practices life
free without sidewalks
of hell
binding
them down
to concrete purgatories
of what came before..
stick to the
rules robot
or you’ll
get in
social acceptance
trouble and that means
starvation.. no mates
and stuff like
that as
social
animals innately..
need each other to
get the meat
and vegetables
of life.. all in one
soup of life
a cross
a fire..
anyway.. it’s sad
when folks become
paperback books.. or hard
covers too.. but pearls
of wisdom.. i’ll take
that pARt by
mouth
or
book.. as some
stuff is truly worth
reading again and again..
the gift of all the historic pearls
of wisdom you provide here.. my
friend.. gigoid.. in ways of life..
not just
nouns
and labels
for men to worship
and say they have the
last word of the God of
Mother Nature true and liGht now..
as well as dArk and fAiry tales too..
but alas.. myths are the hyperbole..
to market the meat
of the products
and without
that.. it would
be harder to
get the vehicles
and vessels that house
truth and liGht that have traveled
this far.. in written and oral tradition
of story taling.. dArk and liGht WhOLE..
Anyway.. yes.. may the metaphorse
be with ya.. friend gigoid.. as long
as it rides
free.. iN
ALLNOW..
wITh Love and
KiND In couraGe..
like Cindafella might say..;)
Well.. as a side note here..
even behind on two dVerse
prompts from last Tuesday
and Thursday.. ‘this post’
is becoming monstrously
long.. and i am ravageD
tiRed from now celebrating
our anniversary weekend..
including 9 or so miles of
dance walk on Saturday..
14 or so today..
and even
a movie
at the local
theater tonight..
so.. i’m gonna sleep
on it.. and try to get
this one published tomorrow
morning.. and then move on
to dVerse in the comments
section of that post..
as yes.. i do need
my cindafella
beauty sleep..
now..
and then..
and now..
aGaiN..:)
even behind on two dVerse
prompts from last Tuesday
and Thursday.. ‘this post’
is becoming monstrously
long.. and i am ravageD
tiRed from now celebrating
our anniversary weekend..
including 9 or so miles of
dance walk on Saturday..
14 or so today..
and even
a movie
at the local
theater tonight..
so.. i’m gonna sleep
on it.. and try to get
this one published tomorrow
morning.. and then move on
to dVerse in the comments
section of that post..
as yes.. i do need
my cindafella
beauty sleep..
now..
and then..
and now..
aGaiN..:)
7325
Back at 8:50 am..
2222016.. and in reviewing
the photos from yesterday.. i see
i have surpassed the 100K photo number
since the end of August 2013.. over a course
of 30 months.. which averages out to 3333.33
photos per month.. and just coming up to 5,000
miles of Dance Walking.. of which i will provide a
celebratory post just for that number.. when it comes..
averaging 166.66 miles a month.. and yes.. i love
synchronicity of numbers.. more inspiration..
to write about milestone numbers
of which i am now averaging
in the last thirty months at 100K
words a month.. have sloWed
down iN more condensed
poeTry flow as hard as
that may be to believe
from my narrative flow..
at the Wrong Planet in
the 8 million or so words
i wrote there and other
online sites.. for around 11
million total words aLL now..
since.. November 26.. 2010..
when the numbers flow like
this.. in ones.. threes
and sixes.. sTill now..
and yes.. i’ve practicAlly
shaRed aLL the photos and
miles online since August
of 2013.. additionAlly..
since the end of
July.. 2013.. around
the 22nd.. standing
on Navarre beach
with my wife.. when
i miraculously recovered
from 19 life threatening illnesses..
in synergy that even some of the
professionals who were religious
leaning.. affirmed was an actual
miracle of the modern
day of what is seen
in the
professional
world of human
maladies.. now..
so.. sure.. i went
from not being able
to go into a store for 66 months
to solo dancing in front of a crowd
of hundreds who are my junior
by three decades or so.. then and
now at Old Seville Quarter.. for 98 weeks..
and yes.. also doing that aLL so free iN
dance iN public everywhere i go with
zero social anxiety.. whereas.. before..
i was overwhelmed with social
anxiety and agoraphobia
to the max..
and yes i have
shared scores of videos now..
as well.. that are minuscule in number..
iN comparison to the voyeur video
artists with their smart phones.. who
have captured me everywhere i go
in public in the last 30 months to
dance.. haha.. my Paparazzi..
as hell no.. there ain’t
no one else dancing
in public but
me in a metro
area of several
hundred thousand
folks in patriarchal
footloose purgatory..
more or less.. so it’s
like capturing Rare Birds
or Jaguars or something
of that crazy nature.. hehe..
to share aLL over
Facebook..
as i always
hear.. i saw
you on Facebook
man.. you are famous..
hehe.. i’m not famous..
’cause they don’t know
my name.. and that’s
the way i like iT
baby.. the dancing
guy is now enough..
the other
name they say..
Legend.. is much
better.. as Legends WiLL
not be trapped iN cAges
oF
human
bEing
culture..
iN fame hell..
i roam free now..
under the Guidance
of the God of Nature
earning no money
but free.. now2..
as inherited and
continuAlly
experienced now
and improved by
by uS.. and i’m
gonna cut that
facebook collage
that i was talking about
way earlier in this post
to only months now.. instead
of years then.. as the history
of my soUl continues
to grow iN other
paths.. as
WeLL..
oN thiS
post now
wheRe mY soUl
iS now here as no
history
@
aLL..
wheRe every
now is an
anniversary
oF
LIFe
riSinG
alWays
NOW..:)
2222016.. and in reviewing
the photos from yesterday.. i see
i have surpassed the 100K photo number
since the end of August 2013.. over a course
of 30 months.. which averages out to 3333.33
photos per month.. and just coming up to 5,000
miles of Dance Walking.. of which i will provide a
celebratory post just for that number.. when it comes..
averaging 166.66 miles a month.. and yes.. i love
synchronicity of numbers.. more inspiration..
to write about milestone numbers
of which i am now averaging
in the last thirty months at 100K
words a month.. have sloWed
down iN more condensed
poeTry flow as hard as
that may be to believe
from my narrative flow..
at the Wrong Planet in
the 8 million or so words
i wrote there and other
online sites.. for around 11
million total words aLL now..
since.. November 26.. 2010..
when the numbers flow like
this.. in ones.. threes
and sixes.. sTill now..
and yes.. i’ve practicAlly
shaRed aLL the photos and
miles online since August
of 2013.. additionAlly..
since the end of
July.. 2013.. around
the 22nd.. standing
on Navarre beach
with my wife.. when
i miraculously recovered
from 19 life threatening illnesses..
in synergy that even some of the
professionals who were religious
leaning.. affirmed was an actual
miracle of the modern
day of what is seen
in the
professional
world of human
maladies.. now..
so.. sure.. i went
from not being able
to go into a store for 66 months
to solo dancing in front of a crowd
of hundreds who are my junior
by three decades or so.. then and
now at Old Seville Quarter.. for 98 weeks..
and yes.. also doing that aLL so free iN
dance iN public everywhere i go with
zero social anxiety.. whereas.. before..
i was overwhelmed with social
anxiety and agoraphobia
to the max..
and yes i have
shared scores of videos now..
as well.. that are minuscule in number..
iN comparison to the voyeur video
artists with their smart phones.. who
have captured me everywhere i go
in public in the last 30 months to
dance.. haha.. my Paparazzi..
as hell no.. there ain’t
no one else dancing
in public but
me in a metro
area of several
hundred thousand
folks in patriarchal
footloose purgatory..
more or less.. so it’s
like capturing Rare Birds
or Jaguars or something
of that crazy nature.. hehe..
to share aLL over
Facebook..
as i always
hear.. i saw
you on Facebook
man.. you are famous..
hehe.. i’m not famous..
’cause they don’t know
my name.. and that’s
the way i like iT
baby.. the dancing
guy is now enough..
the other
name they say..
Legend.. is much
better.. as Legends WiLL
not be trapped iN cAges
oF
human
bEing
culture..
iN fame hell..
i roam free now..
under the Guidance
of the God of Nature
earning no money
but free.. now2..
as inherited and
continuAlly
experienced now
and improved by
by uS.. and i’m
gonna cut that
facebook collage
that i was talking about
way earlier in this post
to only months now.. instead
of years then.. as the history
of my soUl continues
to grow iN other
paths.. as
WeLL..
oN thiS
post now
wheRe mY soUl
iS now here as no
history
@
aLL..
wheRe every
now is an
anniversary
oF
LIFe
riSinG
alWays
NOW..:)
7872
Moving through a life of extreme challenge
as well as extreme gifts.. is very interesting..
and cold dark hell..
when not at all..
as death
iN life..
the opening video
of this post illustrates where
i live in moving photos very well..
showing the inner
walls of most
fundamentalist
Christian churches
i have visited as well..
where there is a certain
entitlement of having
access to words
that means
that one
is above
all
the rest
of humankind
where Muslims
and Buddhists
and Atheists..
and all the rest
who are not the chosen
ones of ‘us’ are gonna go
to that fiery eternal damnation
place for the rest of eternity..
but the thing is..
they.. for the
most pArt
are already
there and are totally
unaware that they are
iN hell now.. as the window
to heaven is clouded with
words.. to feel heaven just..
now in senses.. emotions..
and human sensuality is no
myth or fairy tale of a man
God or the last
prophet..
or anyone
else.. it is God..
yes.. THE God
of Nature’s gift to
those of us who find
iT aGaiN.. from birth
away from
cultural..
religious..
and political
lies that are all
truly politics as all of
these seek manmade
order.. away from the
God of Nature
free..
the thing that pisses me off most..
about cultures.. religions.. politics
and yes.. even philosophy
away from Nature
that is from
head to toe..
inside outside.. yes..
above so below and
up again.. all around..
iS that it iS aLL human slavery..
and as i remember my most favorite
part of the movie “The Ten Commandments”..
coming again in cultural TV as it has since
i was a little boy.. is Moses.. totAlly
away from culture.. politics..
religion.. and philosophy..
saying the simple statement
that if there is a God that God
would have no human slaves and
all would be free.. yet that is precisely
what both the Muslim and Christian
religions continued to do for centuries..
holding humans captive as slaves giving
them less credit for being one
of God’s children
as all creatures
are free..
Karma is real..
there is no doubt about that
to me.. now.. as i have experienced
the darKest and liGhTest pArts of Karma
from A to Z and more of me with God
of Nature together
as the force
we are
iN yes..
both dARk
and liGht..
but what i know for sure iS thiS..
any separation from God.. iN taKinG
any pArt of God as Whole as less
than the other.. is the
true highway
to HeLL for
human being..
juSt my learn-
ED oPiniOn oF
what i experience
oF GoD ALL NOW..
but what i KNow/FEeL.. iS..
the more i give in liGht the more
i receive iN liGht back from GOD..
and devolving back into dArk WiLL
surely bRinG more dArk to my liFe..
action.. consequence.. it’s the way
of Nature.. bRing another human
being down or other pARt of
Nature.. iN any way
and bRing
yourself
down
even
lower
and even
to REAL hell.. but each
human over the course of
God’s eternity now.. WiLL have
to practice that lesSon themselves
between they and God alone ALLONE..
and theRe ain’t no verse gonna save
’em now.. until
they find
the free
verse
of
GOD
WIThin
that requires
no words at all..
and it don’t matter
what they label themselves
with.. from Atheist to Priest..
God is no word
alone
God iS
ALLONE
FREE as
uS
when
we free
ourselves NOW
alive and risen as
God’s children once more
and nowforevermore as
now is the only
eternity
tHere
iS..NOW..
to put iT oFF..
iS to never
fiNd
iT..
@ALL..:)
as well as extreme gifts.. is very interesting..
and cold dark hell..
when not at all..
as death
iN life..
the opening video
of this post illustrates where
i live in moving photos very well..
showing the inner
walls of most
fundamentalist
Christian churches
i have visited as well..
where there is a certain
entitlement of having
access to words
that means
that one
is above
all
the rest
of humankind
where Muslims
and Buddhists
and Atheists..
and all the rest
who are not the chosen
ones of ‘us’ are gonna go
to that fiery eternal damnation
place for the rest of eternity..
but the thing is..
they.. for the
most pArt
are already
there and are totally
unaware that they are
iN hell now.. as the window
to heaven is clouded with
words.. to feel heaven just..
now in senses.. emotions..
and human sensuality is no
myth or fairy tale of a man
God or the last
prophet..
or anyone
else.. it is God..
yes.. THE God
of Nature’s gift to
those of us who find
iT aGaiN.. from birth
away from
cultural..
religious..
and political
lies that are all
truly politics as all of
these seek manmade
order.. away from the
God of Nature
free..
the thing that pisses me off most..
about cultures.. religions.. politics
and yes.. even philosophy
away from Nature
that is from
head to toe..
inside outside.. yes..
above so below and
up again.. all around..
iS that it iS aLL human slavery..
and as i remember my most favorite
part of the movie “The Ten Commandments”..
coming again in cultural TV as it has since
i was a little boy.. is Moses.. totAlly
away from culture.. politics..
religion.. and philosophy..
saying the simple statement
that if there is a God that God
would have no human slaves and
all would be free.. yet that is precisely
what both the Muslim and Christian
religions continued to do for centuries..
holding humans captive as slaves giving
them less credit for being one
of God’s children
as all creatures
are free..
Karma is real..
there is no doubt about that
to me.. now.. as i have experienced
the darKest and liGhTest pArts of Karma
from A to Z and more of me with God
of Nature together
as the force
we are
iN yes..
both dARk
and liGht..
but what i know for sure iS thiS..
any separation from God.. iN taKinG
any pArt of God as Whole as less
than the other.. is the
true highway
to HeLL for
human being..
juSt my learn-
ED oPiniOn oF
what i experience
oF GoD ALL NOW..
but what i KNow/FEeL.. iS..
the more i give in liGht the more
i receive iN liGht back from GOD..
and devolving back into dArk WiLL
surely bRinG more dArk to my liFe..
action.. consequence.. it’s the way
of Nature.. bRing another human
being down or other pARt of
Nature.. iN any way
and bRing
yourself
down
even
lower
and even
to REAL hell.. but each
human over the course of
God’s eternity now.. WiLL have
to practice that lesSon themselves
between they and God alone ALLONE..
and theRe ain’t no verse gonna save
’em now.. until
they find
the free
verse
of
GOD
WIThin
that requires
no words at all..
and it don’t matter
what they label themselves
with.. from Atheist to Priest..
God is no word
alone
God iS
ALLONE
FREE as
uS
when
we free
ourselves NOW
alive and risen as
God’s children once more
and nowforevermore as
now is the only
eternity
tHere
iS..NOW..
to put iT oFF..
iS to never
fiNd
iT..
@ALL..:)
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