KATiE MiA FredericK 2014 A year in Review
To
BE
or
NOT
to
BE..
R
U
AuTISTIC
U
R
ArTISTIC…
The year is 1975
The boy is 15..
still skin and bones..
he doesn’t fit in
anywhere
but
THE TENNIS COURT..
AND EVEN
THERE
BOYS
TELL HIM
BOYS
DON’T
SMILE..
LIKE
THE BOYS AT MIDDLE SCHOOL DID…
WHY DOES LOVE NOT LIVE HERE FOR
BOYS..
IS WHAT THE BOY WONDERS…
My friend Jenny from around the block..
walks me down the dirt road..
on the way to
the
city park
TENNIS COURT..
AND SHE IS SO PRETTY
AND STRONG IN A TENNIS KIND OF WAY..
AND YEAH..
i
can’t help but notice she is
NOT WEARING A BRA
HA
HA!
YES..
i always LOVE GIRLS
from the time i am in Kindergarden…
They smile so pretty..
and
they LOVE
so
FREE..
not like the stiff RED necked
boys whose fathers tell them..
THAT EMOTION IS THE
DEVIL’S WAY
FOR
BOYS…
NAH.. i know nothing about sex..
EVEN PENTHOUSE DOESN’T
CLUE
ME
IN
until age 16..
and with all female family..
the exploration is like climbing
MT. EVEREST
TO
ME
!
i remember feeling so alone at school..
my only friends are teachers..
as a straight
APPLE
STUDENT
AM
i
sitting on their
desk
with eyes intent
on
learning and
nothing else…
i write a play..
and a winning Christmas
story
out of 80 students
to my great surprise
as
the words flow
from somewhere
without conscious intent..
even then..
at
age 13…
AND YEAH.. THE PIANO IS MY BEST FRIEND
THEN
AND MY
TALENT SHOW SONG..
IS
JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR..
AND IT TAKES SO MUCH OUT OF ME
IN EMOTION INSPIRING PLAY..
that i can hardly walk straight
off the stage and the
entire audience
ERUPTS
IN
laughter
for the fool they see…
The spirit IS in me..
a fool
to
them…
All i want to do IS love
all the kids
at
school..
but their mission for me..
is to tell me
i DO NOT DESERVE TO EXIST..
AS i FOR ONE
AM
TOO DIFFERENT FOR THEM…
With all the abuse i receive
i suppose i can become
a bully too..
but
nah..
that is not for me..
THEY INSPIRE ME STRONGER
AS
LOVING HUMAN STILL
THAN
THEY WILL
EVER
KNOW
NOW!
WHEN i watch Freddie Mercury’s Video
the thing that makes me mad as hell..
is even though this man is perhaps
the most versatile
human artist
ever
to
walk
the earth
INSPIRING
GOD’S ART OF CREATIVITY
IN
OTHERS
TOO..
HIS OWN COUNTRY WILL NOT HONOR HIS ACCOMPLISHMENTS
POST-HUMOUSLY
OVER A FRIGGING RELIGION THAT HATES FOLKS
WHO HAVE GOD GIVEN
DIFFERENT
SEXUAL ORIENTATIONS….
I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE
NO MATTER HOW STRONG
i
am now..
to be the outcast
WHO NO
ONE..
ANY ONE
WANTS TO LIVE
AT
ALL!
SO
i make it my mission
NOW
to be as
FUCKING
DIFFERENT AS i WILL TO BE..
As NOW I DO BALLET..
MARTIAL ARTS..
AND
LIFT 830 LBS
WITH MY LEGS THAT
CAN
KICK ANYONE’S
ASS ACROSS THE
ROOM..
BUT
NO
IT IS MY ONLY MY GOD GIVEN SKILL FOR DEFENSE
NOW AS SUPER SOLDIER
FOR
GOD…
THE HATERS WILL NEVER EVER
FUCK
WITH
ME
AGAIN
4NOW
!
AS WHEN i dance WALK..MARTIAL..ARTS..BALLET IT
EVERYWHERE I GO..
AT 2858 MILES
NOW IN 16 MONTHS..
THE FUNDAMENTALIST
SO-CALLED REDNECKS
DON’T DARE
TO
EVER LOOK ME
SQUARE IN THE EYE…
There is something about a highly muscled
232LB
BALLET MIXED MARTIAL
ARTS
DANCE WALKING
DUDE
THAT
PUTS THE TERROR OF GOD
IN
THEM FOR WHATEVER REASON
MAY
BE
!
BUT NAH.. THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY
DO AND THEY NEVER DID…
THEIR DADDIES
AND EVEN
MOMMIES
AT TIMES
TEACH
THEM
THAT BOYS
CANNOT
LOVE…
AND IF THE MAN JESUS TRULY COMES BACK
TODAY..
MY FRIEND
THE SUPERSTAR
WILL LIVE
SAFE
WITH
ME
!
AS I WILL PROTECT HIM FROM THE BULLY
BOYS AND HELL
NO
THEY WILL NEVER STRING HIM
UP OR CRUCIFY HIM
AS LONG AS HE
STAYS
BEHIND MY BROAD
SHOULDERS
AND LEGS THAT CAN NOW MOVE
DANCE
AND
METAPHORICAL
MOUNTAINS
WITH
!666EASE666!
YES!
THAT
IS
PRECISELY
!666!
WORDS
WITH
LINK
TO
FREDDIE’S
VIDEO
IN
TOW…
AND YES!
MY FRIGGING
BIRTHDAY
IS
6660
PER PURVIEW
OF MY DRIVER’S
LICENSE TOO..
SO YEAH..
EVEN TO MY FORTIETH YEAR..
JUST A LOOK AT MY DRIVER’S LICENSE FROM
A CASH REGISTER TOTING BEER SELLER FOR A BEER A DAY..
WILL OFTEN SAY.. OH MY GOD 6660! NOW I’M SCARED OF YOU!
AND i think to myself what a beautiful birthday i have..
06061960
4 symbols for the GOLDEN SPIRAL MEAN of 1.618..
the pattern of GOD that can be seen
from galaxies above..
to the smallest
material
particles
existing
below
and
ABOVE!
AND 1 AND 0
FOR
ALL THAT IS
AKA
MOTHER NATURE
TRUE
AND
GOD
2
AS
GOD
IS
ONE
AND
NOTHING
AND
EVERYTHING
THAT
IS
OR
NOT
!
BUT WAIT! THIS IS A 2014
YEAR IN REVIEW..
ONE
MIGHT
SAY!
BUT WHEREVER GOD
LEADS
MY
FINGERS
AND
FEET
IS
WHERE I GO!
NOW
!
IN SHORT..
2014
IS
THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE…
MY NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION IS TO BECOME
BRAVE AS ONE..
WHICH MEANS A WILD AND FREE CHILD
OF GOD
AGAIN
AS MOTHER NATURE TRUE
MAKES
ME
FROM
BIRTH!
SO i start IT OFF in underwear
and make the leap to free
in public poetry way..
And end up in my birthday
suit
FULLY EXPOSED
IN RESTRICTED BLOG VIEWS..
APPROACHING 10K
THIS YEAR..
IN
MY OWN UNIQUE
STYLE
OF
FLESH AND BLOOD
RENAISSANCE MALE
NUDE
ART!
THE GREATEST ART OF GOD IS ALL OF GOD’S
CREATION..
AND
i
for one am not ashamed of any of my
TEMPLE OF GOD THAT
i fly free
WITH
GOD
ON
TERRESTRIAL
PLANE!
My wife’s sister is diagnosed this year..
with cancer and while my wife stays with her..
my opportunity to dance free at Seville Quarter
finally comes at end of March 2013…
All the years i bring smiles to others
working for the government and general
public for over two decades at my
my local military installations
IS BACK AGAIN..
FOR SMILES
i bring
to all
OF THE PUBLIC FOR THOSE OPEN MINDED
ONES
WHO SEE DANCE AS GOOD
AND NOT THE EVIL
THAT FOLKS
USED
TO SEE IT AS..
AND OH MY GOD WHERE
i live
some
still
do!
BELIEVE IT OR NOT
AS
RIPLEY SAYS!
AND
i
as a
FRIEND WHO LOVES
ALL GIRLS
THE SAME..
FEEL BLESSED TO BRING
THIS MANY SMILES TO GIRLS
IN
DANCEHALL
STEPS
INSPIRING
JOY
IN MY BEST FRIENDS
WHO
HAVE
ALWAYS
BEEN
GIRLS…
AND then of particular mention
there is my new friend
Rafiah from Pakistan
who i share GOD with..
and my friend Kelly from the gym..
who listens to all my long WINDING insights
when i dance and workout there
with
a smile
on her
Angelic
face…
And yes..
all the friends from
dVerse Online Poet’s Pub..
who number in the scores to hundreds..
all the folks at the Wrong Planet website for folks
on the Autism Spectrum and even the ones
who try to bully me behind faceless
avatars..
AND YES..
all my new
and old Facebook
friends..
AND
particularly
MY Facebook friend
Ashe who is somewhere
on the Broader Autism Phenotype
@least..
who is the only friend
i have at the end of my work career
who i truly feel
understands
who
i
am
at core of
human being…
And yes.. all of my family..
particularly
WIFE
KATRINA
WHO
IS
ALWAYS
THE
WIND
behind
MY
BACK!
JESUS WILL PROBABLY
LIKE
HER
AS MUCH
AS
i
do..
IN fact..
SHE MIGHT
BE
HIS
FAVORITE
OF
ALL
TIME
GIRLS..
AND YEAH i love
EVERYONE
ELSE!
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