Pain is an interesting thing.. Even Breathing.. Even Living.. And there are nows for some where life is not interesting at all.. perhaps they are working.. working.. just a part of a machine for another.. day.. starving or even starved for emotions.. moving.. connections.. and creating.. yes.. i’ve been without all this.. except for the food part.. as i always had something to eat.. but something to eat is rather empty too if one cannot enjoy the food.. i’ve been there too.. hmm.. i took a nap on my mother’s recliner and what i learned long ago.. is the best way NOT to aggravate Severe Degenerative Arthritis in the neck is to keep one’s head straight ahead.. and never ever get tense.. stay loose so muscles do not constrict the degenerating parts to come greater inflamed.. anyway.. i am reminded clearly of the side of the head that feels a little like a big toothache on the left side of my entire head.. as those nerves and muscles in neck are connected all around the head too.. anyway.. i have the will to make the pain go away.. i would explain how i could do it.. if it wasn’t entirely a non-verbal process of power inside.. and i can bring the pain on at will as well.. but of course i choose the former.. and get my head straight and continue zero tension.. fears.. anxieties of life as comfort comes and stays again.. my friend.. The Body keeps score.. it really does.. as science shows there are receptors for happy neuro-chemicals/ hormones in peptide way in every cell from head to toe.. as vagal nerve equivalent of Kundalini rising or falling from Brain to gut spreads the good news positive feelings… or bad news negative feelings.. inside.. outside.. above.. so below and all around in almost infinite connections from neurons to cells all around a human now.. lots of self healing as the body remembers positive or negative feelings as a way of future life.. now.. more for those who can escape the almost unavoidable constant sometimes fight or flight stress that spells the insanity of modern society.. away from moving.. connecting.. and creating.. in touchy feely human way.. Sure.. just more evidence that some folks live in heaven.. and hell can be very difficult to escape.. glad your pain is subsiding friend.. and sleep is certainly a recovery way for that too.. and with more sleep means sometimes less dopamine the creativity chemical but the trade off for less pain.. is fair enough.. overall.. i guess.. Emotions motivate me for creativity from sadness to joy and more than that.. Pain forced me to write for 33 months.. can’t say most of it was creative.. but lots of facts explored in 5 plus million words to that point.. and before that for 33 months i could not write.. or read.. or look at TV.. a computer screen without intolerable pain.. and nature or even colored photos too.. or even anything.. bottom line.. yeah.. those were the hardest months of all in Fibromyalgia.. Severe Arthritis.. Sjogren’s Syndrome.. Dysautonomia Coat Hanger pain.. and sure some more odds and ends of extreme pain.. including the worse pain known to mankind from wake to sleep.. aka Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia that i’ve oft talked to here too.. before of course.. and no.. no drug of any kind.. not even opiate associated drugs would touch that pain AT ALL.. AND I suppose i could HAVE gotten MAD at Nature.. but nah.. i just whined and couldn’t cry with no tear of relief.. for two years.. until everyone got tired of hearing it.. never understanding how much i needed a gun to end it all.. and i remember how frantic i was one morning when i couldn’t find our Cat Arthur as he was kinda my only nuance of any kind back to emotions and i couldn’t help but to have the kind of human empathy.. of just how bad my wife.. sister and mother would feel if i ended my pain for good.. and bad the same.. Catch 22 from hell and back and hell all around my friend.. Perspective.. and i suppose i am just as joyful as hell in heaven that i can make this FUCKING PAIN GO AWAY.. WITH WILL MY FRIEND.. AND WILL.. OF THE RELATIVE HUMAN FREE TYPE IS THE MOST POWERFUL FUCKING MEDICINE IN THE WORLD.. sure.. the higher power of God and or nature in us same.. for those of we who find a way to tap it.. make it real.. and practice a healing way of life that has no equal in the world of medicine.. or whatever that is weaker than the power.. the potential of human will.. Free Will is the Will to control how one feels and senses in mastery and integration of that whole.. And with that.. Heaven is now.. as it ends and begins in how we feel and sense the world at hand now.. with no one really who can add anything to that but challenge and a Win again.. for those who master life.. my friend.. Anyway.. again.. there is always hope even if one can never feel that emotion when there is WILL that NEVER EVER GIVES UP.. AND TO END HERE.. my great aunt Jettie at 94.. as crooked and crippled as any old person one might see.. with arthritis from head to toe.. could make her pain go away at 94 without any drugs either.. she gave me a hope of that potential umbrella of life to me then.. and now it’s open wide my friend and the rain of pain never stays now.. as Joy Lives with Human Relative Free WiLL..:)
Well.. my friend after reading the entire blog post beyond what was on your Facebook page.. i can certainly see your truth here of how hard it can be to connect to other human beings in this brave new world we live in.. but nah.. i think you are far from alone.. alone.. in this problem of not having any intimate friends in flesh and blood life who you can share anything with and be all of who you are without personal judgements against you once you be you.. and after working eventually 25 years at the same place.. generally speaking with the same folks.. generally speaking.. with the last year and a half spent in a leave status.. as i rarely ever did a sick day.. and barely used my vacation days.. as workaholics real is what i was then.. working almost every Holiday for years.. all my friends i ever had were at work.. working at a Cheers like Military Bowling Center for almost two decades was a delight for real.. as a person on the Autism Spectrum who wanted to connect oh so bad.. but as soon as what ran like a freight train out of my mouth in flights of thoughts from A to Z.. that was that.. and sure it was hard to find friends for many years.. but at work i could smile with my contact lens eyes and pearly white teeth.. and that was enough for folks to smile back at me and that was enough even if we never did anything outside of work together.. sure.. my wife.. alWays my saving grace from being oh so.. all alone too.. at home my friend.. And when i left work.. sure.. i was the commodity that lots of folks looked to.. to help get the job done.. but close to zero contact to the rest of humanity was what i had then for 66 months to come.. and i was too ill to really connect to anyone anyway.. even if they took the first step my way.. my friend.. Anyway.. this ain’t gonna help your flesh and blood loneliness at home.. and you don’t really know me in flesh.. but it is fair enough to say you touched my heart with this story.. and i cared enough to leave you this long note.. and sure.. i’m even named a legend by the general dancing audience in public now after 5555 miles of doing that in the growing on 34 months now at the end of this month since i got well.. and my 101th month celebration now since i died as life.. but i still miss the eye to eye connection that i no longer have with shades my friend.. of Bowling Life then.. so i made up for it with words and steps the best i can.. best wishes to you.. just know that i can relate and care about your Feelings.. mY online FriEnD..:)
Dance Shirt for the 115th week of Dancing at Old Seville Quarter fUn on Thursday night is ‘LOL NOW CRY L8R’ and generAlly speaking.. Laughing out Loud and Crying.. both.. are beneficial to the hUman condiTioN..:)
Well.. yeah.. i guess i should use a selfie flash.. as all that’s left in ‘this’ photo of me and A dancing friend is the Cheshire Cat Smile.. and Jesus F. iN Christ.. the place was almost crowded enough.. not to be able to dance.. but i did.. of course..;)
And i suppose one might ask.. where Does the Cheshire Cat get a smile that never leaves.. even after he or she dies.. if he or she cares enough to leave a record of Love that can be freely shared for perhaps a thousand or more years to come in server way.. well for one thing.. to do it for free these days with no expectation of materialistic reward.. including followers.. likes and shares in mega epic way.. one must have and be the liGht of Fearless Altruistic Red Hot Unconditional Love NEVER EVER JUST LUKE WARM.. O R C O L D AS COLD CAN BE… and yes.. overall with a few written exceptions in the New Testament per swords for peace and even thinking lusty thoughts is a sin.. the Jesus is a very good role model for most folks to walk in his shoes.. So when i say Jesus F. In Christ or FucKinGod.. per me in Christ as F for Fred.. or sure Fred yoU seeK iN GoD.. yes that is the eXtra cool word play of turning old lemons that should be sacred and holy anyway in terms of lust and love.. to yes.. Sacred and Holy words of i.. as i make it all holy and sacred in liGht and dArk.. wHere no human is excluded gentile.. Jew.. Mexican or Muslim.. male/servants/ female no more excluded all are FReED toGeTheR OnE.. yes Fred is Freed too.. in case ya ain’t got the nows or propensity to wanna or will and can figure out my Word Play that is eXxXtreme at nows.. so sure.. i’LL title this next Macro Verse of the Longest Long Form Poem eva of personal SonG oF mY soUL.. aka mY personal bible that is 4 times as long at least than the entire old and new testament bible and 40 times longer than the Kuran.. ‘Jesus F iN Christ2 noW2’ as yes.. when i was a young man.. FeeLinG outcast from society and down in the dumps and afraid of stuff too.. including being oh.. oh.. so lonely without Friends.. i could always find that friend in Jesus.. who was reported as an outcast too.. as sure there are lots of outcast priests in the Catholic Church who did overall hone in and scribe and sure in someways create the role model Jesus.. and they still do.. as every Sunday the Gospel that i have been sharing here regularly for months now and will continue to do.. they pick out the best parts of the bible.. old and new.. and leave the violence.. raping.. and killing little children of other tribes out.. and sure it’s the same way the nice Muslims do too.. they pick and choose the good parts and ignore the bad parts of killing.. raping.. and such as that of the opposing non-believer tribes they war against out in day to day smiles of what one of my best online Friends.. Muslim from Pakistan Rafiah says as i WiLL quote here from Facebook now with my response.. as Rafiah says
23 feels like 364675576… unsure emoticon.. yes in reference to her birthday on September 23.. where she will be 23 born in ’93.. then..
And i say..
It gets better.. wink emoticon
And she says.. Inshaa Allah smile emoticon
And i say..
Yes.. God WiLLinG WitH You My FriEnD.. Rafiah.. noW..:)
And we continue to live happily ever after.. as i go to Catholic Church every Sunday and she now celebrates Ramazan as a Muslim for 30 days or so from June to July of 2016.. our common bond is Love and Rafiah is one of the best examples of someone one could say walks in the shoes of Jesus that i have ever ever come across in my life.. including Himali who was raised with Jainism.. and that is why we are three best friends as in practice we really walk in the shoes of Jesus.. except me as older fearless man who has already faced death.. i am the one out of the group who expresses much dissent over what i believe is harming folks all over the world.. and in my eYeS noW the sword of Jesus is powerful authoritative learnED words and the not the metal of steel that folks live and die by now.. as is clearly the case still all around the world in continuing wars that are unjustified and terrorist attacks Jihad style in response as protecting territory for subsistence and common cultural ways of bonding as is what humans do of course as pARt of tHeir God Given Nature as WeLL.. i seek in God to understand WHY FOLKS DO THE THINGS THEY DO.. SO I CAN BETTER TOLERATE AND ACCEPT THEM NO MATTER WHAT THEIR DIFFERENCES MAY BE FROM MINE.. AND TO UNDERSTAND AS WHAT I ALWAYS SAY IS THE ANSWER TO THE WORLDS PROBLEMS IN MOVING.. CONNECTING.. AND CREATING WAYS.. particularly touchy.. feely.. warm creative parental and child play like the child who is carried to the breast in carrier as the indigenous peoples did/do when they do/did gather the berries of the wild.. science proves this out too.. in the following linked study as shared by Facebook Friend Suzanne.. as linked here again.. with the most important paragraphs highlighted here.. in quoted way.. now..:)
The title says new study indicates extravagant affection in infancy leads to healthier happier.. more relational moral adults.. and sure i’m thinking no shit Sherlock ya had to have a study to kNow this.. what the FucK… aren’t humans.. human anymore.. and here are the most important findings of all..
Parents should hold, touch and rock their babies and children and be responsive to their needs. “What parents do in those early months and years are really affecting the way the brain is going to grow the rest of their lives,” explains Narvaez, “so lots of holding, touching and rocking. that is what babies expect. They grow better that way. And keep them calm, because all sorts of systems are establishing the way they are going to work. If you let them cry a lot, those systems are going to be easily triggered into stress. We can see that in adult hood — that people that are not cared for well, tend to be more stress reactive and they have a hard time self calming.” Narvaez say free play inside and outside is important. It is also important that children have a positive, warm environment inside the home.
“That they feel like they belong — they are part of the family unit or the neighborhood community and part of that is to have a lot of activities that you do together,” says Narvaez, who recommends going to the park or playing a game rather than spending time on a smartphone or in front of a TV.
And for those parents that need a break, Narvaez says a community of caregivers is important. That means grandparents, aunts and uncles and friends should play an active role. “We need to, as a community support families so they can give children what they need,” says Narvaez, “we really didn’t evolve to parent alone. Our history is to have a community of caregivers to help — the village, so that when mom or dad needs a break, there is someone there who is ready to step in.”
“The research also showed that when children weren’t given things like affection, free play and a warm home environment, they turned into adults with decreased social and moral capacities.”
So sure the start of real Good Cop Jesus walking in the shoes of altruism starts with touchy feely Loving parents.. who make life one of moving.. connecting creating warm and fuzzy play.. from wake to sleep.. and when my Grandmother on the paternal side told my mother in the nursery that my Grandmother.. ugh.. actually ran as her money making business.. Helen.. you cannot pick up that crying child and hold him.. if you expect that child not to grow to be a spoiled brat.. as sure the estrogen dripped off my mother’s fair and lovely face.. where she was disgusted that my Grandmother could feel no more love than that for a crying child in warm and holding touchy feely loving ways.. and sure the vicious cycle obviously goes on.. as while my father was dam sure fearless enough with a mom raising him like her.. sure this one of the reasons he told my mother she would have to get a job to make some big bucks if he was gonna stay.. as money was more FucKinG important than raising a child at home.. and okay.. this is where Muslim/Indian cultures are still better in some ways than American cultures as they do promote the Mother staying home with the child at ages 0 to 3.. and hopefully they are treated with Love in their marriage so they will be able to do the same for their child as Rafiah says Inshaa Allah that means God Willing.. as God Willing does mean God Willing as Nature evolves as God in us and not just an external Force somewhere else not directly connected to us.. so yeah.. while terrorist activities in Jihad way are a dirty dark part of their culture no less than unjustified wars from the US side that kills over 100K innocent Muslim folks.. and there are lots of other human rights issues.. it is a big plus that social roles are as they are too now in gender way.. where usually the mother gets to raise the child with touchy feely ways of being.. in play as well.. with less technology than we have today.. and sure that is changing.. it does explain why Rafiah.. and yes Himali.. and sure as for decades folks referred to me.. at work and such with the general church public saying.. Fred.. you are the best example of a Christian i have ever seen… weLL.. the truth is.. my mother when she raised me was then the best example of the good cop Jesus who ever walked the earth too.. with a tear in my eye now.. nah.. it is not the bully boys in church and mosques that make the difference or the husbands who beat their wives here or over there.. it is as alWays the Mother mostly and the way the culture raises the child as a village that says whether or not another Good Cop altruistic Jesus will come again into the world.. so in Catholic Church when i see the remaining M O T H E R’s L O V E.. glowing estrogen fair/dark sKin more giving Loving hugs to five.. six children more.. who are stay at home mom’s i always kNew this to be true that this was/is the best way to create a new Jesus now.. and since the 60’s and the pill.. no matter how hard a pill of Nature it is to swallow now.. our culture is at least as FucKeD uP as Muslim cultures and in some ways more.. in producing adults who don’t give a FucK about other adults.. and with the exception of the ignorance about why people are different.. including homosexuals in Muslim cultures.. and all the discrimination.. and killing in suicide bombings and such as that.. there are those Rafiah Jesus’ that still do walk the earth over there too.. and the HImali’s of India.. where gender roles allow more women to stay at home with children.. but sure that is changing too.. the best thing my mother did for me.. like it or not.. is stay home with me from ages 0 to 3.. as that my friends.. is why you and yours may see a smile from me online as Cheshire does in dark of death.. when altruism comes alive in Jesus online F. iN Christ2 NoW..:)
But yes.. as alWays there IS A dArk and liGht side.. sHades of grey.. and hues of colors in all philosophy and science too.. if all human cultures continued to BE able to reproduce like this.. we would destroy the earth species.. as we simply consume too much.. so.. as strange as it may seem all the suffering and misery we see around the world in ways of cold hearted selfish people are leading to fewer human beings overall.. where science even shows that in a few decades the earth’s population will peak out.. and perhaps fewer species will continue to go extinct as the footprint of human in numbers at least becomes somewhat stabilized on the earth.. when one looks at the biggest picture of earth coming back from space it is clear as Mother Nature God Pie that human cultures as whole are cancer upon the Earth as living God whole here.. and you know what.. my life would surely be more warm and fuzzy in an extended village raising a family as i am a very nurturing person like my mother too.. as learnEd man from birth too.. but nah.. God has other plans for me.. as humans have a responsibility to God oF aLL in altruistic way of not just ensuring our comfortable survival but the comfortable survival in empathy of all of God’s evolving continuing creation now.. jUsT now.. and that is the complicated pArts of Pie iN GOD existence.. orchestrating the entire symphony oF whole God Play to work in as GOD little pARts of Play in adding Verses of Help to God’s WHOLE PLAY.. SO I WORK.. I CONTINUE TO WORK FOR GOD WHOLE.. as just another Jesus F. iN Christ2 noW.. oNline2..:)
“He who possesses art and science has religion; he who does not possess them, needs religion.”
~~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe ~~
“Nature is not cruel, it is, pitilessly, indifferent. This is one of the hardest lessons for humans to learn. We cannot admit that things might be neither good nor evil, neither cruel nor kind, but simply callous — indifferent to all suffering, lacking all purpose.”
~~ Richard Dawkins ~~
Patently False for humans who are fully human and not missing half of the Altruistic pie of Unconditional Love that make humans the most successful primate of reproducing a primate species.. as science shows now.. as WeLL..
Supporting evidence that Richard Dawkins has no real soul as Nature provides a human being with Altruistic Love as science also shows now.. fails when the scientist is born with two high powered working parents with not much time for touchy feely warm Love play.. and the little lover becomes a little professor.. instead.. too.. Yes.. science has finally provided evidence that the Refrigerator parent theory is real and ever present.. also truly associated with the rise of so many people who fail in full flesh and blood reciprocal social communication.. in Loving.. Caring.. ways of the altruistic human at its best iN totally caring ways of Nature best as manifest in human with yes.. Loving caring.. touchy feely.. moving.. connecting creating arms of a village raising that child from birth..
And here’s Richard’s other famous Twitter Quote in response to his young parent Twitter question…
And i quote..
“nYourFaceNewYorker @InYourFaceNYer @RichardDawkins @AidanMcCourt.. I honestly don’t know what I would do if I were pregnant with a kid with Down Syndrome. Real ethical dilemma.”
Richard says in Twitter response..
“Abort it and try again. It would be immoral to bring it into the world if you have the choice.”
Richard.. truly one of many impoverished humans with less than half a soul to suggest that a smile on a Down’s Syndrome Child is not as FucKinG important as getting rid of religions that do support the golden rule of Love.. there’s a lot of dirty water in religions.. some that kill.. some that discriminate.. some that torture.. and many that fear and hate.. but the problem there is the same as always.. a select few who were not provided touchy feely Love from birth as the village at best raises a child.. and that still is reflected everywhere.. in big black books and scientists who fall far short from having a full and Loving.. caring altruistic soul that is real as a Mother’s hug for a child who is not her own but is all’s own.. as altruistic Love does.. when watered as Garden from Birth..:)
Every day of my mother’s Life of Caring Love makes Richard a FucKinG ignorant Liar as Nature is only as cold and indifferent like Richard in Humans now STiLL or Rich in Love.. Truth iN LiGht in human beings.. as not watering a Garden of Love.. will make.. vs.. human relative free will of GroWinG that Love so tall.. that not even Nature.. God or whatever one may call that Force.. at its greatest challenge can make that child give up.. And that my friend is real magic.. Human Natural Love GroWN.. that is never ever indifferent NoW@allREALitY..:)
Humans are part of Nature.. some of them care with meaning and purpose alWays now.. it is not illusion or a God delusion.. it is real.. so noW in common logical terms with common sense too.. Richard IS A FucKinG idiot.. but we will let him live.. as we can tolerate him.. with sMiLes.. grins and giggles against humanity’s ignorance of what Love can be when nourished from Birth.. on the continuing Unconditional Love OF A Smile of a Down’s adult who pays it forward noW SPreading with Love of THAT smile that grows to potentially as butterfly affect of real effect saves the FucKinG human species whole WITH LOVE.. iN pARt… as grains of sand.. all oF it counts to hold uP a potential Mountain of Human LoVE.. i can feel this sTiLL around the World.. and that my friend is why i have hope.. ’cause Love is real.. and never ever indifferent WHEN REAL.. AS HUMANS CAN AND WILL DO BEST.. IF THAT GARDEN IS WATERED FROM BIRTH AND THEN ON.. in smiles of a Down’s child too.. my FriEnD.. IN my mind Richard is not much different than Adolph Hitler.. he just doesn’t have any political pull… to enforce his Eugenics Rule.. except for those who he can convince that are FucKinG noT human enough to figure it out on tHeir own..:)
I have a cousin who was destined to have a healthy child but her God fearing parents forced her into a heavy handed decision to abort the child.. truly sad as my cousin wanted the baby.. but mom and dad had the TRUMP card then.. as it didn’t fit the overall family plan..
Then my cousin had a child who was profoundly disabled.. not much different than a Down’s child and my cousin Loved that child just as much as my mother loved me from birth as well.. and that child is a young woman now who is a happy blessing to all who she meets in the world now.. helping her father in his business the best she can too.. Love is REAL WHEN PRACTICED.. BOTTOM LINE MY FRIEND.. FEARLESS AND UNCONDITIONAL.. NEVER INDIFFERENT IN THE HUMAN BEING WHO IS NATURALLY GROWN THIS WAY..
Some people suck but sure there is usually a reason for that somewhere in the garden of Love that wasn’t watered with love sAMe..:)
LOVE OVERCOMES.. TRUMP’S OVERCOMB..;)
Ah.. the rises and pitfalls of being a social animal with an opposable prehensile thumb capable of writing a written language.. thereby.. recording collective intelligence.. and creating culture in all its heterogenous and homogenous ways of sames and differences noW in one melting pot of what is.. hmm.. well.. science shows that some folks are more liberal and not afraid of change.. the nomads as it were and is still for some.. and there are others who are more closed minded and tend to love more the cautious ways of staying same.. excellent Video in Ted talk YouTube way by Jonathan Haidt:
‘The moral roots of liberals and conservatives’ that provides evidence that these differences among humans are innate and Universal across species.. and this of course means there are some very unhappy folks in both San Francisco and Center of Saudia Arabia.. where these innate differences do not match the culture at hand and sometimes forced at the hand of culture that is… hmm.. nice to have a choice to move at least.. and sometimes much easier said than done.. even in the Paradise wHere i live in overall Nature way.. my friend.. anyWay.. it’s kinda predictable that ‘this vote’ was almost split down the middle.. and while i generally understand that it is somewhat of a conservative vs liberal issue.. it gets complicated like it does in the U.S. as of course there are concrete reasons why some people are more afraid of others than others are.. for example i am not afraid of the weathered black man who walks the parking lot of bars.. as i too.. walk like the weathered Tiger who has fought tooth and nail to live.. there is a non-spoken respect in male way of that that some folks have no idea exists if they haven’t been on both sides of the coin.. my friend.. it’s called privilege.. both innate now and earned.. in yes.. nature.. nurture including challenge too.. and sure.. the outcast understands better once he or her is secure in his fate.. the other outcasts who are lost and alone where her or he were before.. the fact is as evolution shows.. generally.. primates like humans who are social live best in generally speaking homogenous groups where most everyone looks and behaves the same.. and that can range from a Bonobo free for all love in.. to a covered mosque from head to toe.. but yes.. it is part of the social animal nature to adhere to social rules as generally speaking too.. in all the history of humankind now too.. to be outcast historically meant to frigging literally starve to death.. be beaten.. tortured and killed and that remains the solid truth still in some countries now.. i stand on the side of freedom wherever she blows.. however.. i live in a nice homogenous neighborhood where generally speaking everyone fears hell.. has guns.. and generally speaking will not kill their neighbor over fear of both God and State.. and then there are others who kill for God over both fear of God and state as same.. a strange brew we humans are when we live in big countries and are no longer same.. but the truth is.. deep down we never were.. some of us must conform and now.. some of us no longer have to.. and we go it alone with strong dissent as the same infrastructure of society that causes wars.. is the same infrastructure of society that allows freedom.. as always a mix of dArk and liGht but sure if God came to Earth he or her would have to be a Devil’s advocate for all ’causes as to be the advocate of humankind whole is never to be the same.. in either what the other considers as daRk and ligHt.. i have full freedoms in life.. there is nothing that i desire that i do not have.. and for the rest there really is no choice but live and let live or die as is.. but sure.. i dissent as any Epic Devil’s Advocate Will do my friend.. as these days we can get away with it and even smile.. on and on and on..with a Devil’s secret grin.. the fAct NoW thAT we can is worth a smile in my way.. my friend.. to smile for standing tall for who and what you are and to be able to fully express that IS A rather new and exciting way of Being human different.. wHeRe this human experiment goes next.. will never ever be the same for that reason and that reason allone.. D I S S E N T is POSSIBLE.. wHere all humans revel free.. long live the dissenters on both sides as they be who they be now.. same as different… Living on the ‘Wrong Planet’ online where there were very few dogs and most all cats who thought and felt different.. WAS the most excellent place to stARt to be a most epic Devil’s advocate my friEnd.. oh the dissent.. oh the beauty of dissent.. and mostly moreover all the change that comes WITH DISSENT.. MY FRIEND.. ON BOTH SIDES NOW OF INNATE HUMAN NATURE/NUTURE.. and YES2..The full spectrum of ‘tween beyond Rainbow sHades too..:)
i just came here to say hi.. i Love you friEnd.. juSt ’cause i can.. and i want to.. SMiLes..:)
AS i continue to write this 680th Macro Verse of the Longest Long Form noW poem ‘eva.. approaching 4 million words totaL Now.. as SonG oF mY soUl that iS also my own personal bible.. as i kinda know what the other one says by heArt and have heard it God.. so many times beFore but true the esoteric hidden teachings of the New Testament in conjunction with hidden Gnostic found Gospel Text.. like the Gospel of Thomas in ’59.. makes a story that makes much more hidden occult and esoteric sense.. with mystery revealed on how to attain heaven now.. not just the fAct that it is possible to attain now but like a camel going through A eye of needle tHeRe is work to do to get there.. but as is the case in cultures of old to go this way of the different instead of same.. means deep metaphor with hidden meanings that the literal minds that do not interpret right hemisphere brain ways of being.. will not get too offended about iT and FucKinG literally kill you for doing something new and so exciting in finding and practicing heaven now.. for example.. in studying the thousands of years hidden text of Gospel of Thomas it is plain to see that sacred marriage is the combining of the above so below in duality of opposites.. including the divine feminine and masculine marriage within each human being.. nah.. Jesus wasn’t even about some paper of marriage.. he was about becoming balanced as human being.. in all aspects of Yin and Yang existence as the Easterners further than the middle east in South Desi way did say then as well.. in Asia fuller ways of being then… yes.. it does look like overall.. Jesus was more of a humble esoteric occult teaching Yogi.. of the mysteries of human existence in balance one.. with Nature whole.. however.. of course he did not write a God dam thing in his life.. so after 40 years of oral tradition whether we have any words of the myth and legend of what Constantine and the Catholic Cohorts and Roman Empire whole to expand with Mithra Sun god religion as Soldier Sun God of Universe whole.. so Constantine could erect a Sun-God-like monolithic statue himself and be worshipped in megalomaniac way then.. as folks like TRUMP DO LOVE TO DO FOR THOSE WHO SWALLOW THE SAME HOOK.. LINE AND SINKER OF SNAKE OIL SAME SAME SAME SAME.. SOMETHINGS DONT’ CHANGE THAT MUCH BUT THEY STILL DO.. WHO WHO WHO.. YES.. everyone too… nah.. if THAT JESUS CAME TODAY.. NO ONE IN SO-CALLED NEW CHRISTIAN CHURCHES WOULD GIVE HIM MUCH RESPECT.. AND NOT REALLY LIKELY EVEN A SECOND LOOK BUT DISGUST OF WELL.. YOUR ARE HERE.. BUT WE ARE NOT GOING TO HOLD YOUR WEIRD AND DIFFERENT HAND.. OR GIVE YOU HUGS OR NOTHING LIKE that so Jesus would have to shake that sand off his bare feet/sandals or ignore tHeir outcasting looks.. and other ways of non-verbal language from head to toe.. of dissent for change still.. as same as way way back then.. per the Legend of what could potentially be as myth as well as the original dude named Yeshua.. Jesus or whatever who simply moreover supported the same Golden Rule as Buddha unknown apparently to him.. or perhaps that is the way it eventually got in the big black book somehow.. still attributed to a man named Jesus now whoever he fully was then.. anyway.. bottom line is back in those days you didn’t dissent from the norm without actually SUFFERING SERIOUS CONSEQUENCES UP TO TORTURING DEATH.. and that is the reason Christianity continued to grow as whole.. as it was enforced by consequence where it stayed and grew.. no different than still the Muslim way that on the one hand says there is no compulsion for religion but on the other hand will cut off your hands and more if you dissent in some cases and go another religion n0w or non-religious way.. of simple human God given inherent rights of Freedom.. for Independence day now.. and not two thousand years later on a Theater screen still.. where so many humanS in reaLITy StiLL NoW are impriSoNed for who and what they reAlly could be in much fuller human potential if set free from the chains of same of Centuries old still… ugh. God dam.. i’M glad i AM an American.. as i can be free and just do it in SUPER EPIC WAY.. WITH THE SUPPORT OF GOOGLE TOOLS like Blogger Blogs and youTube Free.. Search Engines that help peruse the real continuing.. ETc.. unabridGinG gRoWinG bible of human eYes and eaRs.. FeelinGs.. Senses.. aLL eTc.. all around we now forevermorenow.. oh.. so cool.. OUTSTANDING NOW TO LIVE REAL IN THIS LITTLE SLIVER OF HEAVEN IN FULL DARK AND LIGHT UNIVERSE AND BEYOND NOW JUST NOW.. yes.. free iN TrUth and liGht.. and sure if we have altruistic love REAL AS OUR HEART.. OUR SPIRIT EXPRESSING HEART REAL AS MIND AND BODY SOUL IN BALANCE WE WILL DO WHATEVER WE CAN TO HELP ALL OTHER HUMANS REACH THEIR GOD GIVEN HUMAN FREE POTENTIALS ONE AND SAME AS ALL IN GLOBAL MANIFEST GOD EYES AS WE AND THE REST OF NATURE TOO..:)
Oh art.. from the beGiNinG.. so LonG… of hUman noW.. you SinG so sweet Now thE dreAMs of God within.. ah.. SonG.. DancE.. and poeTry of HeARt sAMe iN Words oF spiRit eXpreSsinG iNner EmoTions Free.. seNses aLL otHeR FeeLinGs oF BeinG uNleashed and reLeased NoW iN metaphor oF Quantum noW…NeW yeS.. head gAMes too.. as somE of wE aRe arT FeeLeRs more than system thinKers.. as science scribes observable realiTy in systemizing way.. but Art SinGs.. aLL art froM MusicK to SonG to literature to theater and yes MTV2… A SonG.. A DancE.. iN PoeTry oF MorE..:)
Anyway.. born as a Hyperlexic late speaker precious reading child interpreting all symbols of the Environment in input morEover out put way for close to 5 decades too.. IT’S NICE TO GET IT ALL OUT.. as behind these eYes a UniVersE oF a Life Experience of input potential and realized possibilities from birth to now.. iN total synergistic human individual affect and effect IS A Brand New experiment iN those of us just old enough and just young enough to tale it aLL as givers WiLL do like no other Aeon of Humankind to date.. as the input.. simply was NOT AVAILABLE back then.. and there are ways to SUPER GET IT OUT.. TOOLS OF THE MODERN AGE OF TRANSHUMANISM WAY.. wHere the machines become our slaves and humans are no longer slaves in a singularity of giving sharing way.. also kNown and feLt wHole as online GroWinG more as unaBridGinG hUmAN Bible as seconds synergistically become forevernow.. iN server way.. THerE is noThing to be afraid of Free.. iN.. uNless one enJoys a priSonPlaneT of Ignorance in fear of dArk and cynicism of new ways of HUman Freedom’s LiGht And TrUth oNly dreAmed oF beFore iN Chains..:)
Yeah.. after experiencing 9 on the list and 10 more.. some that are so rare spell checker cannot spell.. i can relate.. And sure i’ll copy and paste this from Friend Glenn’s page even though he was not the originator of the message alone.. Yes.. Invisible illnesses.. disorders.. and the such are among the hardest challenges of life to deal with as the empathy of others is often invisible as well.. for those who do not live in invisible HELL…
“Coming from personal experience. To those who don’t know the whole story. Until you have walked in our shoes and have felt the pain we feel, keep your cruel comments and opinions to yourself. Ignorant people can be so cruel!! I’m posting to stop people from mocking and laughing at people for things beyond their control… Not one of my Facebook friends will copy and paste (but I am counting on a true family member or friend to do it). If you would be there for me no matter what then copy and paste this. I’m doing this to prove a friend wrong that someone is always listening. I care. Hard to explain to someone who has no clue. It’s a daily struggle being in pain or feeling sick on the inside while you look fine on the outside. Please put this as your status for at least 1 hour if you or someone you know has an invisible illness (IBS, Crohn’s, PTSD, Addiction, Alzheimer, Anxiety, Arthritis, Cancer, Heart Disease, Bipolar, Depression, Diabetes, Lupus, Fibromyalgia, MS, AS, ME, , Epilepsy, hereditary angioedema , Migraines, Hashimotos, AUTISM, Borderline personality disorder, M.D., D.D.D., CFS, Histiocytosis, O.D.D, A.D.H.D, RSD, RA (rheumatoid arthritis ) PBC, RLS ,COPD, MCAS, EDS etc.) Never judge. For those who don’t know how to copy and paste on FB… hold your finger on this post until you see copy, hit copy then go to status, hit status a new page comes up, hit into the white part and paste will show up and you’re done.”
And per last note/Facebook status thingie.. The photo collage below that wife Katrina made me for Father’s day.. included a couple of blog posts ago.. without specific mention made per the photo.. is from the Fall of 2009.. where my Uncle took me to see my Father and his twin brother.. as there was no way in hell i could drive to Tallahassee.. so we had a quick lunch.. and nah.. no real indication i have 19 invisible disorders in this photo.. including the experience of the worst pain known to humankind.. with a grin pasted on.. baring my teeth.. without shades.. tolerating light long enough to look like a ‘normal’ person without shades in a family photo.. that yes.. i’m using here as case study evidence for what was said in the previous Facebook status.. and this was actually technically a few months after i officially retired disabled from Government Federal Service with 25 years of actual paid active service.. of which the last year and a half.. was in a paid sick leave and annual leave status.. as i rarely ever took a sick day in the 23 years before i got sick.. or even visited a Doctor once.. as i was the epitome of health before never ending chronic two years then of flight or fight work related stress almost took my life totally away and made 66 months of Living invisible hell as real as hell can get.. even technically one can say on the scale of pain worse than what can be burning fire.. Anyway.. i Loved to work.. and used to have dreams that i could do any kind of work as for the first 33 months.. i could not use my eyes and ears effectively for anything without intolerable pain.. and finally tolerating extreme pain looking at a computer screen with light turned all the way down in brightness and contrast.. a few inches from the screen as prescription lens focus only intensified the pain.. to intolerable levels.. so yeah.. i did that in writing millions of words for pain escape.. yes.. for 33 more months then in a total of 66 months before the God of Nature took all the pain away at the end of July 2013.. on or about the 22nd of that month as is still complete in written blog record of course too.. everything in remission for Doctor’s purposes except for the Autism in Asperger’s way and Bi-Polar Disorder that went undiagnosed most of my life that i have dealt with mostly in extreme lows and a few periods of uncomfortable highs after long periods of flight or fight stress in school and work.. i work like an Olympic Athlete to stay balanced.. and can do it as long as i am the one in control of my life.. and not many folks can understand this challenge unless you have walked in shoes as incredible as mine.. in both liGht and DArk of LiFe.. Seriously.. not likely that many folks have survived the invisible hell.. i for one did for 66 months.. as i could not find even one person online who even had experienced type two Trigeminal Neuralgia from wake to sleep at any time at all.. it’s really lonely when you are the only one who can relate to your own living hell as death as life.. But i never gave up.. AND I’M HERE.. iN SUPER EPIC FucKinG Style.. for the REAsON OF REAL HELL AND HEAVENow..:)
Hi Leah.. first of all.. like to say i received both of your emails.. a day late from Germany.. but never the less received them.. this time on the first try.. with sMiLes.. and ah.. you’ve brought to my attention several of my special interests.. the weather and how that affects happiness and overall distress… as well as work and politics which of course are all interconnected in ways.. as where the weather is mild and comfortable in general of course people are happier with less distress.. more likely to socially cooperate.. and if they are so-called ‘savage enough’.. they will even dance naked freely around a comfortable fire and sea breeze at night.. ah the potential bliss of the human condition.. all covered up in some places too.. But the human condition as nicely illustrated in a Ted talk by Jonathan Haidt on YouTube that i will share with you again.. if i haven’t already shared it before.. says it all in terms of human internal conservative and liberal weather in nature way.. of open vs closed minded thinking and doing life in exploring the liberal new or staying the same conservative way of life..
And then add in the difficulty that modern global economics continues to bring of Machine and Information Technology doing what humans used to do as comfy life-long social roles in jobs that are now done by the machines that replace human ways of body and mind by Information technology where humans no longer need apply as nicely addressed in this video that i may have shared with you before.. too.. at least if you saw it on my blogs..
Anyway.. these dreams and fears some folks have of a New World global order.. are not a part of human nature at core.. and the UK exit from the European Union phenomenon mostly as polls show still over fears of migration of African American and now Syrian Muslims.. same as the fears of conservative leaning folks here in the U.S. about Mexicans and Muslims in a change that is too much for them to handle in ways of fears that their social roles and freedoms of same may now have to change.. change.. change.. oh lots of change.. so hard on conservative leaning ways of nature and nurture of human beings.. and that increases with age.. but not necessarily as the mind and body that continues to adapt to challenge now and change in the environment over a lifetime doesn’t stagnate as much into a closed minded and body way of being.. Einstein.. a great organic specimen.. as well as study of his organic brain after death showed no visible signs of so-called aging.. and of course the physical effects of exercising an entire life accommodating much challenge like swimming across a bay towing 60 boats behind a person in age decade of the 60’s is well documented in case studies like Jack LaLanne.. the father of the gym rat age in the United States.. an incredible individual for case study.. who died at age 96 from basically refusing to go to the doctor early enough with pneumonia.. sure a life of feeling bullet proof as the regular pasty middle-aged football watching mall sitting pot-bellied 50 year-old can be ran around circles by a 70 year old man who keeps the wild side up to speed as nature will have with all wild things.. who must work to eat in sTiLL.. both mind and body balance way.. across the life span.. and yeah.. in my personal experience.. a lead life guard i managed from behind a computer at work with my belly leaning more and more over my belt then.. as Athletic Director in Federal service way at the Navy Station.. much more than now me at close to 30 Lbs heavier than then.. as Ape vs.. domesticated human me then.. more yes.. MORE Now.. anyWay.. this lead life guard at 65 years of age.. did ballet and construction work.. a Vietnam Vet.. and retired Parole Officer after 30 years at that and no.. not a body builder dude.. but he could dam sure out swim and outrun every dam college sitting student life guard out of the late teens to early twenties group.. and this guy was the most balanced and smiley happy guy i had ever seen for a 65 year old dude.. and it reminds me of his fellow 65 year old maintenance worker who was a retired master chief in the Navy.. who used to say he needs to act like a 65 year old man.. he acts like he’s still a God Dam teen.. but the fact was he had more energy than a ‘normal’ teen today.. and a secret i was yet to earn.. in doing the same without lessons in ballet and martial arts like dance.. where Gravity is now my best friend.. and i Fucking float on land like a bird out of a cage.. and i have the advantage.. as i ain’t doing this for a competition like the lead life guard did in theatrical position of ballet.. just for fun.. just for Jonathan Seagull joy to see just how much higher i can fly than the now before.. as everyday i innately.. instinctually.. and intuitively.. earn and learn a new move.. i never FELT BEFORE.. and that is key.. FelT.. AS FEELINGS THAT ARE ALWAYS SENSORY IN NATURE AS WE FEEL THE SENSE OF IT.. ARE EMOTIONS SAME.. WHERE MOST FOLKS THINK EMOTIONS ARE IN THE HEAD AND NOT FROM HEAD TO TOE.. and the truth and light is Emotions and Senses swim from head to toe.. and can be like the water and the air.. of bird and fish in human same.. AND YES.. this is where only poetry can describe the bliss i feel.. my friend Leah.. out of a cage and aquarium into air and water same.. so yes.. in just 34 months of doing this.. i have attained a state of happiness.. that only Yogi’s and such as that have worked for in instruction way and lessons all their life.. my advantage is leaving all mechanical cognition away.. and getting in touch with the source.. the force.. that is all God inside.. outside.. above.. so below and all around.. AND NOW after chilling in a 100 degree day.. back in ’07 with Dysautonomia.. which is the ‘anti-christ’ way of being of a modern Yogi today.. as my central nervous system was shot.. and could no longer even flow the blood around my body in heart rate.. and blood pressure balanCinG SteAM so oh my God.. i hated all weather then ’cause i could not integrate any senses or regulate emotions or even experience hardly any emotions at all.. MORE THAN JUST A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN.. A HUMANITY BREAKDOWN ONE AND SAME AS A DIRECT RESULT OF A FUCKING SOCIETY AND JOB GONE INSANE WHERE i was slave to both the mechanical cognition of computers and the social requirements to supervise anywhere from 30 to 130 employees.. depending on if i was filling in for the Department head too.. or helping him do the fine details of his job too.. the same administrative office.. use to have 40 or so employees down to 4 or 5.. and the big square brain with screen of extension of me sitting on my desk 24 inches from my eyes.. 8 hours a day.. of sitting human hell.. where there was no Fucking escape from all the stresses coming from all directions everyday.. anyway.. i wasn’t cut out for that and i really don’t think most any human iS in terms of social and mechanical cognition multi-tasking every work day all day long.. so yes.. as you relate about a book talking to happiness being a vocation.. Happiness is my way of life now.. and i find it in moving.. connecting and creating.. just the way i like to do it.. no more and no less than the sweet spot of now.. and you know there are two extremes of human personalities the schizoid type that one could see in that guy ‘Fnord’ on the Wrong Planet that expressed little to no human emotion or magical thinking on the Wrong Planet.. and that Woman ‘Cockney Rebel’ who literally/figuratively imagined that she was actually Cockney Rebel.. but she could express emotions and emotionally connect to people where that was totAlly out of Fnord’s Ball park of human being.. AND OF COURSE HE BELITTLED anyone with imaginary beliefs.. but the difference and bottom line is.. they were..
happy in their life.. MUCH MUCH MUCH MORE THAN HE WAS BOTTOM LINE.. for people who scoff at human creativity.. they must have never experienced the joy that human imagination and creativity can bring in moving.. connecting and overall creative ways of being human.. i remember still clearly when i lost all my emotions but fear and constant adrenaline response to stresses of life that eventually made life one big stress of death as life.. Baker acted after close to 40 days with no sleep on suicide watch.. so Fucking exhausted and dead inside beyond what i could ever humanly imagine was possible.. and watching the schizophrenics in there with their imaginary lives and grins from ear to ear.. and being so fucking jealous that i wasn’t fucking crazy like that too.. and so fucking logical in fucking hell then that i had to find someway to kill myself to escape all the pain.. Well.. with great effort i’ve earned my way to crazy with exquisite logical control.. and i’ll never go back to sane as long as i am the one in mastery of regulations of my emotions and integration of my senses.. as i always feel like i’m on top of the world.. never wear anything but shorts in 18 degree weather and can stand any temperature extreme where some folks say Florida is one of the hottest uncomfortable feeling places of all in combination of humidity and heat together around 100 degrees mostly in Summer heat index too.. BOTTOM LINE MY FRIEND IS HUMAN POTENTIAL IS CRAZY GOOD FOR THOSE BRAVE ENOUGH TO PURSUE IT AND BECOME SUPERMEN AND WOMEN TOO.. no different than Jack LaLanne.. or the lead life guard where i worked.. Too Fucking amazing for other folks to see genius from head to toe.. and that’s the thing.. almost everyone on the Wrong Planet thought they were so fucking smart.. ’cause they had one type of IQ overall that was verbal.. with no idea that Standard IQ is mostly a cultural invention over the last century or so.. and before that life was fucking magicK from head to toe.. in a dreamtime of real among our smart head to toe ancestors.. per the American Indians.. and still the folks in South American Rain Forests today.. who are named as the Invisible People as they and Nature sAMe as God ARE ONE ARE ONE and SO ALIVE.. AND FREE.. NEO IS REAL.. WHEN HE OR SHE EARNS HIS WAY FREE FROM A PLACE WHERE HUMANS NO LONGER NEED APPLY WHERE THE LEFT AND RIGHT FIGHT FOR WHAT’S LEFT OF SOCIAL roles today.. two-spirit Sacred Clown/Warrior/Shaman IS Always open to apply but one must earn/APPLY tHeir individual way in a vision quest that’s real from head to toe in this social role of the ages of the sages.. in human archetype as real as ever now when come to magic fruition in a kind of intelligence that defies all stand IQ.. and modern science/medical averages that sadly apply to the human condition across the lifespan now.. wHere Heaven and Neo are as real as FucKinG Jesus2.. my friend.. come back ’cause he or she never had to leave.. as Heaven and Hell and oh God never ending Purgatory here are different dimensions REAL OF THE HUMAN CONDITION STILL NOW.. anyway.. very inspiring Email from you today.. Leah.. in almost everyway.. and seriously my friend.. every God Dam thing.. from bLackest dArk to BrighTest liGht inspires the hell out of me sTill iN Heaven now.. So Cheers.. From Fred iN FReED and FRiEnD.. wHeRe Independence Day iS every FucKinG Day inside.. outside.. above.. so below and ALL AROUND NOW.. Haha.. i could name all of this the modern online ‘Jesus Journals’.. but someone might take me serious and shoot me with an assault rifle so i think i’ll stay all comfy.. wITh KATiE MiA FredericK!iI.. as the Jesus meme carries too much fear and hate still.. sAdly enough.. no way FucKinG real Jesus could make a long life identifying himself as the real YOGI-LIKE dude he was then.. And FucKinG survive with all the imbalance of humanity that exists more than ever with the aid of killing tools now.. Only the clever fox or thief in the night survives in this way of being.. my FRiEnD.. yeah.. ya have to wonder WHAT WOULD THE FOX SAY.. WITH wINks.. or the Happy Squirrel with the nuts who escapes all the predators with clever ease.. calling A pursuing cat on a cell phone.. saying nananana.. just nanana hehe haha.. i got all the N U T S now.. see ya later.. Princess Leah baby.. in online style.. And i must remember that your vocation is editor.. ha.. imagine the headache i could give an editor.. with my style of writing if it was actually to be presented for print of publication.. NoW.. hehe.. ain’t.. online fine..:)
SMiLes some great advice in this 2 year old now poetic Expression as yes the cultural meme of Zombie Apocalypse is real and groWinG iN colder human emotional ways of empathy of heARt.. SpiRit FeeLinG and exPreSsinG thaT heArt and the potential for mINd and BoDy BalanCinG Yogi-like soUl as the real Terminator age of hUmans becoming more like machines and less human in ways of mechanical cognition over social empathic cognition is a science proven phenomenon now.. where BRains are no longer heArts.. and liFe is more a less shoot ’em uP Video gAMe as science experiment where the shooter is unwitting subject and scientist one in a brave new experiment that can be as cold as ice in mechanical cognition over social empathic Humanity that once made the human race the greaTest race on earth in ways of Love in social cooperation.. Independence day comes with love and never shoot ’em ups alone.. Society is sick as a self-fulfilling experiment that has never been done before… a common bond of Love over alien terminator life.. and yes.. i think there IS A movie associated with that coming soon to a theater near a seat of me.. with WiNks and grins of human FReED..:)
And as the title does suggest a year ago memory of one of the most emotional poetic expressions i ever wrote…
“He who controls others may be powerful, but he who has mastered himself is mightier still.”
Ah.. to avoid anger.. fear.. and hate.. oh.. the one who is all powerful with FEARLESS KIND HOPEFUL LOVE..
And this reminds me of Deeprak Chopra.. and how Richard Hawkins couldn’t make him Angry but Trump was the card who made him lose his cool.. recently i hear..
But what do i say when i see Trump.. i see a spoiled brat who was bullied who became a bully.. he makes me giggle sad as i know his weakness is a heart that will never feel or fill full.. with a Soul grown cold long ago that never came back or even stArted BeFore.. my Friend.. anyway.. much Wisdom delivered today.. as a Novel just waiting behind every aphorism of true my friend but back to this one in liGht.. another memory of Captain Dick.. i kid you not that was his name.. literally Captain Dick.. me a run of the mill.. civil servant serving up shoes at a Bowling Alley paid by Uncle Sam.. and a rather short red faced man comes in with his kids.. looks around and sees all the lanes are filled and says.. i need a lane now.. don’t you know who i am.. i AM THE FUCKING CAPTAIN HERE.. NOW.. and i say well yes my friend.. you are Captain Dick and my name is Fred.. let’s see what i can do.. to get you.. your lane ‘Caesar’.. and no i didn’t say Caesar.. i just looked at him like any humble servant was/is that saw him as the same kind of little scared boy that someone made fun of long long ago.. perhaps because his name was Dick.. who kNows.. anyway.. i went down to some cool teenage easy going dudes.. explained the asshole situation and they said sure Fred we will give the Dick and his family the lanes.. man you.. kNow i have about a thouSand Bowling Alley… two decades.. Cheers like stories i could share.. ranging from Bowling Leagues watching pornos then on all those electronic Bowling Screens after operating hours.. to me and the waves and such as that but anyway back to this story.. behind almost every bully is another story of where they were bullied and turn to a liFe of Vengeance of anger and hate.. with fear.. instead of kind and hope with Love.. the true master iN Victory regulates emotions.. integrates senses.. NoW and Loves with Kind and Fearless my friend.. total tolerance and acceptance in understanding why some folks live in purgatory.. hell.. or heaven.. but surely the answer comes in WHO HURT YOU.. WHO HURT YOU.. WHO HURT YOU.. AH.. FORGIVENESS AND FEARLESS KIND HOPEFuLL LOVE IS THE ANSWER iN Victory THAT ALwaYS WINS IN THE END FOR THOSE WHO NEVER EVER GIVE IT UP AS REAL LIFE JOB MIGHT INTIMATE NOW.. or who kNows Now perHapS noW some one elsENoW..;)
More dARk inspiration here from an Internet Illuminati Conspiracy Theorist.. always entertaining in the dArkest ways of course.. sadly enough..
Dude.. you kNow.. there is an old testament that supports rape and killing children of opposing tribes.. including hate over homosexuals and eating pork and then there IS A NEW TESTAMENT.. YOU KNOW THAT JESUS STUFF that says gentile or Jew.. servant or free.. woman or man no more.. hmm.. i suppose you ain’t got the new message yet huh.. cAlled the New Testament that reduces 613 old Torah commandments down to 1 that says Love your neighbor the same as you and do to him or her or whatever.. no harm that you would bring for yourself Loving all of God’s Creation same as you as child of God.. let’s just say i have the authority to paraphrase.. while you are attempting.. in this sAd anti-christ full of hate and fear video to bully this young man who is clearing defending gentile.. jew.. servant or free.. woman or man no more.. this means ‘queer’ too baby including you as you dam sure ain’t fooling me with your ‘sweet’ voice here.. and sure.. Jesus was ‘sweet’ too.. at least the way the homosexual priests and artists portray him as a female with a beard as approved in artistic way.. if you don’t support any human being YOU FAIL.. NOW.. BOTTOM LINE.. AND SURE i HAVE RIGHT A TO DISSENT.. YOU CAN DO A LITTLE RESEARCH ON WHO i REALLY AM TO DETERMINE THAT FOR YOURSELF.. have a nice day with your thousand or so views.. Love wins with 225K views or whatever the other dude is receiving.. so have a nice day with all your Google pennies for fear and hate.. without hope of kind.. iN fearless Love.. God sent me a raven that never needs to buy food or drink.. so.. i my friend have been able to write a PERSONAL NEW AGE BIBLE that is already coming AGAIN OVER 4 times the size of the whole Bible.. 40 times the size of the Kuran.. and needs no Google pennies to ever survive for perhaps a thousand years or more.. this is my only invitation.. for you to join me over tHeRe iN Heaven.. or you can stay here in purgatory ranging to hell in fear.. and hate.. or antichrist now.. or do the Christ thing that is all Hope and Love as KiND.. Have a great day my friend.. but it’s pretty obvious you live in hate and fear for Google pennies and that truly IS A sad way of Life.. IMHO and nah.. a thief in the night wouldn’t be nearly famous enough online to garner a hate video like this from some little scared boy who was verbally abused and named whatever in school.. Thus who protests the most and all.. you know.. as religious leaders have proven time and time again…. AND YEAH before you start suggesting i am strange (note: to readers of comments as the dude with the video ain’t ever now gonna be able to match wits with me.. trust me.. whole FucKinG public Interent audiences with 140 to 160 assessed IQ’s could not do it.. as i AM bullet proof in so many ways.. like T I T A N I U M NOW REAL.. out of parenthetical statement now and back to what i said).. AND all for writing like this be forewarned.. that i too am Bi-Polar.. AND diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome.. and have already been to medically assessed hell with a pain that lasted 66 months named type two Trigeminal Neuralgia that is literally assessed as worse than the pain of Crucifixion.. meanwhile.. folks like you who cannot respect the so-called Sacrifice that Jesus made in a three hour or so stint like this.. who forgave and humbled himself among thieves on other crosses.. saying they know not what they do.. i understand you know not what you do too.. and i am not here to send you to hell although i will judge you with common sense/Love and logic.. i am only here to invite you to heaven.. but tHeRe baby.. IS A place where only hope.. kindness and fearless love reigns.. and from what i’ve seen of the other dude HIGHER… you are attempting to bring down with your one or so K views that might make it to 30 if you can attract enough haters over here now in continuing fearful and actually rather disgusting ways in comparison to the Unconditional Love of the Jesus with remember.. gentile or jew.. servant or free… woman or man.. no more.. this is just a wake up call for you.. if you have eyes and ears to see.. as seriously.. if you actually know what you are doing.. the Jesus ain’t gonna be very happy with you after all is said and done.. always now my friend.. always now.. Heaven.. Hell.. or Purgatory.. your choice alWays noW iN Anger.. Hate.. and Fear or the other place of Hope.. Love and ALWAYS KIND.. AGAIN.. HAVE A NICE NOW.. WITH BIGGEST WinKs And SMiLes aS WeLL.. And oh by the way.. considering you are gonna be way to worn out by the end of this to research who i am.. i’m just a New Age FreeST Verse poet as such who IS A.. aLWays looking for A dArk to liGht prompt to add to the literAlly assessed actual longest Long Form Poem ever.. now approaching 4 million words titled ‘KATiE MiA FredericK!iI’.. yeah.. i believe in Loving folks so much until they hate me.. funny how it seems to alWays turn out that way.. and sure sAd2.. but that’s JuSt liFe iN A Play of GoD mY FRiEnD aS wHole of DArk and liGht and tween sHades of color and hues of dArkest bLack that sAdly.. i as humble servant of God see here sTiLL.. with a real tEar in thE Bare oF God..
Ha!.. WE SHALL OVERCOMB.. AND SpEAkinG of thaT BeYond Independence Day.. Resurgence.. and more on that later.. of course..;)
And thaT iS wife Katrina’s WTF iS he F iN Going to do next L O O K.. as yA miGht iMaGine.. i AM alWays fuLL of the surprise that comes aGaiN.. NExT!.. Oh.. so much Movie watching.. wRiTinG and Store DanCinG.. the Bed IS A SinGinG to me to come dOwn noW pleasE and getT some rest2..;)
CorNeR SToneS FloWer WitH A WeLcoMe.. BaNneR..:)
So after watching Independence Day.. you may not kNow the Resurgence but i saw it yesterday.. and what about Beyond Independence Day.. you know that day that the right to life and liberty and the pursuit of Happiness was secured for us.. of course unless you were woman and black and homosexual and in many cases suffering from an illness or enduring some other kind of human disorder or even just different genetic way of being that set you a little too far from the perceived norm of the vanilla flavor of the day.. well the truth is even the potential for Independence day was so far in terms of close to two centuries away even a potential.. depending on which weaker or perceived norm of human reality one is born into then.. ah… and finally after a common goal of good was sorta won in World War II.. other than the slaughter of over 90K innocent Japanese folks on an Island that had no choice but to die by the hand of US and newer technology then that in final assurance of mutual destruction among the big powers of killing machines left a lull of peace overall long enough with some serious skirmishes of course.. for the ‘smaller’ folks to rise up and make their desire for equal rights under the law made known.. and it worked for many.. and finally as we are moving past an African American President we are now coming into a female President.. unless the devil has his overcombing due.. which ain’t likely as even George Will is leaving that amazingly ignorant crew now.. and of course that generally speaking is all about the hate of the different and overblown anxieties over shit that ain’t gonna happen like banning all guns.. it’s just a fact and an ongoing fact.. that we have the land of the brave and the free.. and still the land of the extra cautious to down wrong paranoid among us who deep down are just plain scared but anyway.. as evidence provides for earlier in this 680th macro verse about a Jesus2.. it’s pARt of human nature and human nature is part of Nature that is God one and same.. so who ya gonna call.. nah… Ghost Busters ain’t gonna change human nature.. nature.. and or God by words of criticism or even magic incantations.. anyway the good news is the African American Dude and all his friends in low and high have paved the way now for some expanded health care albeit sure the prices continue to rise.. even for me.. with all my Gravy Train Government benefits as well.. coming from the Golden Handcuffs of Government employment and near death stress.. and yeah gay folks.. including some of my relatives have been able to get married now.. even in the overall hate state of Governor Rick Scott.. who still denies folks who make under 11K any health benefits at all.. of course along with all of his dark dark anti-christ nature fear and hate friends.. some of whom have the audacity of fear to call themselves fundamentalist Christians.. which is sadly also part of human nature.. nature and God of nature too sAMe.. so who ya gonna cry too.. ya just gotta keep trying as that is what nature does best.. never ever give up per say of reptilian brain of survival sTiLL now.. ah the common enemies/enemy of life..and or the coming love/lovers of life.. two paths to go.. wHere the open minded liberal Good Cop Jesus mind and body soul will go the way of Love your enemy.. turn the other cheek when at all possible.. gentile.. jew.. servant or free.. woman or man no more.. all with equal opportunities for life.. liberty.. and the pursuit of happiness.. yes.. Good Cop Jesus is like A founding father of the best of what the United States has to offer as greatest Good liGht cop Jesus.. but ugh.. there is the dArk Bad cop Jesus who still reigns as the daRk one of us vs them and them ain’t gonna have any of our seed or grain.. as WE WANT IT ALL AND NANANA WE AINT’ GONNA GIVE AND SHARE AND DAM SURE AIN’T GONNA BE FORCED INTO IT BY A GOOD COP JESUS GOVERNMENT EITHER.. yeah that is sad for sure in my eYes of Good Cop Jesus but let’s face it as the polls do still show for folks who undeterred still support the anti-christ fear and hate ideology of Mr. Trump Trump Trump Grinch as such sTiLL.. yes now.. the dArk and liGht of humanity is sTiLL the same.. i mean Jesus F. in Christ2.. if the actual devil with a comb over ran for president it would still be split close to down the middle for the Good Cop Jesus and the Bad Cop Jesus like it always is as metaphor of course.. and again.. Hillary ain’t perfect… she has kinda fucked up a lot it seems.. by not paying attention to the details of red tape.. but yeah.. that part of Government can kinda suck for the big picture folks who break the rules to get the job done.. or just aren’t paying attention to all the all the rules at hand that sure are necessary too.. to make it all work.. anyway.. the bottom line is.. with the passage of gay marriage in the U.S.. we have finally almost arrived at Independence day for most of the population but the fact that in Anti-Christ Red states per Bad cop Jesus.. folks who make under 11K still can’t get affordable health insurance means the anti-Christ rule still tries to gain a foothold in FreeR.. U.S. of A now.. but the best thing about the Devil per anti-christ policies of fear and hate running for PREZ.. is folks like George Will who are tough all natural God gifted conservatives.. have enough integrity and responsibility to say no to folks who are getting where they are.. simply by playing to the card of audiences who thrive over a common social bond of fear and hate and anger of course too… Hope.. Love and Kind is better in my way of seeing life.. but i am one of those Good Cop Jesus folks as that is just the way the God of Nature made me from birth.. with mother making me that way too.. moreover in nurture way too.. So as Robin Williams says the powerful play goes on.. the liberal humans vs the conservatives humans of Yin and Yang swings back and forth somewhere in a mix of dARk and LiGht.. but bottom line is at least the most folks ever have a legal right to actually do the right to life.. liberty and pursuit of happiness than ever before in the U.S. and that IS A good reaSon/FeeLinG more than ever to celebrate Independence day in the REAL SPIRIT OF OUR FOUNDING SO-CALLED FATHERS WHO WANTED TO ESCAPE A MONARCHY AND MAKE A REPUBLIC WHERE EVEN GOD COULD BE FREE IN US TO BE WHAT WE ARE ALL NATURALLY AT CORE AND BY NURTURE AS WELL AS WELL CAN BE.. YEAH.. THAT’S GOOD NEWS.. FROM THE ORIGINAL GOOD COP.. JESUS TOO.. TO FREE THE SLAVES FOR A THOUSAND YEARS TO COME.. AND EVEN BETTER IS tHeRe is still room for improvement and as always the nomad.. the open mind and body in balance the liberal way of liberty will lead the way for that as history shows.. and the conservative way for caution that is necessary for all our nicely paved sidewalks and roads too.. will have its say as well to keep balance of right to life.. liberty.. and the pursuit of happiness secure and free too.. i ain’t scared.. ’cause i’ve seen the liGht and dARk.. up close in heARt.. SpiRit and SoUL.. and taken great effort to analyze the whole situation with reaSoNinG miNd too.. but i exclude no other.. and that is what makes me neither afraid of the dARk or Cynical of the liGht with hope.. faith and belief in the power of humankind toGeTheR.. so i DancE and i SinG on in MoVinG ConnEcTinG Creating poEtry ways.. and when i’m out in the wild i open my arms and shine a light of God behind my shades for anyone who is receptive to that liGht and needs some help.. i’M just one tiny gRain of sand and small wave.. but i’ve gotta match and a FLAME THAT REFUSES TO BE PUT OUT.. NEVER EVER GIVE UP.. NEVER EVER GIVE UP.. HOPE.. LOVE AND FEARLESS KiNd always wins noW a TaLL TIDAL WAVE AND wIDe tSunAmi oF Independence War even if some small skirmishes and battles are lost along the way.. All Apes.. no matter the differences.. STRONG TOGETHER AS THE APE CAESAR with FUR OVER BOMBS IN WARM AND FUZZIES WILL STiLL SAY AND STAY.. for many years to come.. perHaps a thouSand and more iN A city with no sun and moon IS A web foR Now.. So anyway.. with all that said and SunG.. noW is the now for me to get ready for Catholic Church and celebrate the Good cop Jesus that is mostly celebrated tHeRe.. and that Good cop Jesus as me2.. trust me2 you wouldn’t wanna reAlly see/FeeL the REAL BAD COP JESUS2 ANGRY2.. AS METAPHOR2 oF SorTS2.. and trust me2 it’s safe to say2 so far.. no one2 has fELt/seen2 that2 yet.. hope2 it stays that way2..;)
Somewhat short excerpt of the very abstract… and yes strange mystical post.. ‘SEEin elEVeN’.. about a month here in journey away from recovery of the worst pain known to humankind at the end of June 2013.. here..:)
Katie Mia talking to Aghogday: (figuratively speaking)
Now… 6/26/13 4:37PM..
Remember Five Years when you were so scared, and you wanted to do anything to escape the fear.
You did it…
nothing scares you anymore…
What you wanted to achieve was feeling love again without facing your fears.
You thought you could build a ‘special place’
where others could join you and escape the Big F.
Remember those passages from the ‘Ghost in the Machine’ and ‘Synchronicity’, from those Albums ‘I’ planted in your mind 30+ years ago that have followed you in your life.
The first two have been accomplished…
You ‘felt’ like you got be the “King of Pain”,
for five years..
‘I’ allowed you take a journey to find answers to ‘key’ questions you have been asking all your life…
The last one was a little, tricky…
“Mephistopheles is not your name
I know what you’re up to just the same
I will listen hard to your tuition, You will see it come to its fruition.
I’ll be wrapped around your finger.
I’ll be wrapped around your finger
Devil and the deep blue sea behind me, Vanish in the air you’ll never find me.
I will turn your face to alabaster, When you’ll find your servant is your master.
You’ll be wrapped around my finger”
When you finished copying and pasting “A Thousand Years”, and “Silent Lucidity” back to Autism and the Nautilus
they touched a place in your ‘soul’ that you were looking for…
‘I’ provided a little ‘treat’…
When you reviewed the posts, you found a different song in the place of “A Thousand Years” in the “My Mind does not Belong to Me”…
“Thank you, for being a friend”.
It scared the scientist in you.
‘Blogger Software Bugs’ happen
this went past the expected ‘Algorithm’ of your mind…
You came here to find hope…
I brought you here to show you fear, so you could…
tell your wife you love her
it this time,
from your heart…
not just your mind…
You haven’t paid much attention to ‘pop’ culture in the last five years…
You went on a little ‘Google Journey’, to find out about all ‘those’…
and the ‘Illuminati’ Conspiracy Theories…
‘I’ provided a hint, when you found your ‘little pleasure’ of Kanye West, naming his baby ‘Khrist’,
along with all the other C and K synchronicities…
you find on this journey…
Remember that song “Frozen in Ice”, by Madonna, that you listening to over and over when you first lost your emotions…
you never saw the video before…
You saw her making the symbols of the six with her hands and you started getting scared again about your birthday like you did when you saw that ‘Omen’ Movie.
“No way; it couldn’t be you, you are just too nice…”
Don’t worry, that ‘Devil’ Guy is here for a reason…
You don’t get to be him/her,
can’t escape her either…
Fear is here for a reason…
it is here to inspire life and love…
The people who try to escape it are making a deal with the ‘Devil’…
It is the way nature works… you don’t have any control over that, no matter
You know your wife…
who is scared all the time and ‘loves’ so deeply, and has no problems
She has a gift that she does not easily escape…
Fear and Love…
You weren’t that ‘lucky’,
You found a way to escape it..
You see, when those folks in ‘Hollywood’ are making those signs, mocking ‘fear’ at the Camera, laughing in the background, because they know the masses feed off that type of ‘thing’…
They really are making a deal with the ‘devil’…
“Only, if they knew it”…
The video didn’t scare you enough in the place of ‘a thousand years’…
You found a way to interpret it as a gift instead of…
a ‘waKe uP” call…
‘I’ did not give up on you yet…
‘I’ provided another
That song by ‘Perri’ playing backwards that you rationalized as something good not to be afraid
Remember when you got to the end of the video, and you kept hearing ‘break neck’, and seeing the little smirk on the face at the end…
You couldn’t look away could you…
You had to keep playing it over and over again, to hear a positive message
to escape any chance of fear.
You woke up this morning and asked your wife what time it was.
She said “One”.
That is when you faced your fear again…
You started thinking, maybe the sign was something was going to happen to your wife…
She was going off with a friend
in a car…
maybe the message was to warn her,
not to go…
You used to worry about that all the time…
When you escaped fear, and made that deal, you stopped worrying about ‘IT’…
Remember when you told your wife you loved her when she left this afternoon…
You felt ‘IT’…
Enjoy your gift…
of Fear, Love, and Life…
Life is fleeting…
Intelligence is over-rated…
That apple with the bite out of it that you hooked
And finAlly heRe.. thE full liNked oriGinal VerSion oF sEEin elEVen.. iN mY original bLog way of KATiE MiA/ Aghogday stYle.. iN yeS aGain.. A strange and somewhat mystical way.. 2013.. on the road bacK to hUmaNitY2..:)
As i say again to Friend Rafiah on her blog..
i just came here to say hi.. i Love you friEnd.. juSt ’cause i can.. and i want to.. SMiLes..:)
Yes you can, and I know you do. And it’s a greatest blessing of Allah Almighty that one is capable of loving. I think that’s the essence of life. Life lived in loving is life worth living. You do that. You should be grateful to God that He gave you this gift abundantly.:) heart emoticon always keep loving.
And i say in addition..
SMiLes my friend.. i am currently writing a blog post almost entirely on the subject of what Islam names as ISA.. aka Jesus over here in the Catholic West.. and the best thing i like about the Jesus is he reduced all the complexity of Laws of God into one rule of Loving God the same as we as our neighbors all of Nature one as God’s Creation Unconditionally without consuming others with harm.. and the greaTeSt thing about this reported measure of Jesus is that even science now shows that this is the all natural gift given to human by God when there IS A practice of touchY FeeLY hELd to breast of motHeR and extended village as metaphor too.. to raise the child With Love no different than the Garden with Corner Stone of Love and ISA/Jesus same aS oNE.. and i story recently this subject shortly with one of these Christians who believes in hate and fear over Love and Hope.. in BrinGinG down the rest of God’s Creation and remind him how Jesus reduces 613 commandments of Torah down to only one that yes God is Love in uS greaTesT of aLL Gifts.. and Love is the Golden rule we aLL and neighbor one including the rest of God’s nature sAME in fearless Unconditional way wHeRE our enemies are to be understood and Loved Unconditionally as well in an AGAPE kind of human Love.. And while it is trUe that Love must be expressed to all others to be real.. it is also trUe that when one becomes enlightened with the emotional Force of pure white Love.. tHeir are no boundaries or barriers that one will not break to share and give this Love Red Hot to ALL the same as the story of ISA/Jesus does show too in biblical new testament way.. and never luke warm or less as oh.. so cold.. AnyWay.. when science and religion and the philosophy of a true prophet like Jesus do come out aLL LiGht iN A miX of Fearless Kind aS Hope of Love.. tHeRe are no barriers that are too tall to be broken down by the all powerful Love that is the hiGhest power we hUmans do share at heARt of EmoTioNaL Core.. SpiRit expresSinG that EmoTioNal Core and a MiNd and BoDy Balance of moving.. connecting and creating love watered S O U L iN uS alWaYs noW.. across the lifespan of a garden of fearless Love in HopE and KiNd that never ever stops groWinG taller and taller.. TrUe iT iS a gift.. this Fearless Love is that i lost for 66 months almost completely in FeeLinG but kept in logical mind to still share online.. but iT iS an EmoTioN of pure White LIGht that is that much more powerful when it reAlly comes back online FULL STEAM iN HuMan BeinG FloWinG noW.. as stReAms to Rivers to Ocean whole in particles as drops of water.. waves iN Field Same as Ocean blUe tHeir iS never defeat iN Love NoW when iT iS reAL and ever green.. mY FriEnd.. Rafiah.. noW..:)
At Least in my experience.. my Friend.. Rafiah.. tHeRe is no time.. distance.. or space in Love Love iS oNe Force thaT iS evergreen when real.. and therE is no doubt tHeRe is that Love sTiLL between you and your Nani AliVe in YoUr eYes everlasting.. And to celebrate that Love in WRiTing IS A liGht thaT iS also everlasting to inspire otHeRs along the path oF Love’s Journey as well that iS aLwayS noW when Healthy and iN BaLanCing NatUre.. my Friend.. Rafiah.. iN my liFe.. friends that i have loved never age in heARt.. in SpiRit.. iN SoUl oF i.. nor do the troubles that come with Love last over the LoVinG pArts mY FriEnd.. a young man who witnessed my rather informal proposition of Marriage to Katrina in a causal stand on Bowling Lanes of where i worked for the government over here in almost two decades of 80’s to past the turn of the century.. passed away from complications from Diabetes last Tuesday.. his name is Raymond and even though we never saw this man for years.. we both felt some kind of emotional Force of Loss on Tuesday well before we found out about his death today.. we are all connected my friend in so many ways more than just the flesh.. Love is Forever and more than we will ever understand with words alone.. as trUly wE ARE ALL CONNECTED I N T E R D E P E N D E N T L Y FROM THE POINT OF THE NEVER ENDING.. NEVER BEGINNING ETERNITY OF ALLAH NOW.. AH.. YES.. IT IS ALL AH NOW.. MY FRIEND A LOVE WITH NO START OR ENDING.. ONLY NOW..aND can i prove that in empirical science.. i don’t even care to my friend as i alWays want it to be too deep to ever put into words.. a depth of eYeS thaT alWays SinG A LovE SonG and DancE intimatELy TRuE IN LIGHT FoR aLL.. mY Love filLED FriEnD Rafiah maY thiS liGht oF God’s Love as and in you rise to greaTesT heiGhts EVER MORE NOW..:)
So.. drumroll.. coming in the next profile status photo.. thingie.. who has the best Edit in Summer’s Blues of figure.. and legs…
It doesn’t matter WTF FTW iF i’ve danced close to 5600 miles in 34 months.. leg press close to half-a-ton of weights 33 times with my arms raised in air with yes.. free weights now.. Katrina.. can eat chips all day and only walk shop.. and she still looks like a dancer and i look like whatever i guess.. but you have to admit.. hehe.. for a 56 year old dude my legs are kinda shapelier than most of the mall Sports.. TV.. sitter watcher dudes my age..;)
As Alan Watts says.. Society IS A Hoax and sure iT iS but tHere IS A reASon2 for the insanity that one never arrives until they die.. and it’s just humans who are not evolved to live in large groups out of balance we are and lots of people pay the real PAY master Nature who is alWays the Big BosS GOD nOW.. in terms of misery and suffering real.. Yes.. that’s insane.. no other animal but one with sidewalks and books could come to that insane way of being.. anywhere but now whole with nature one AKA the inheritance of the God experience.. anyway the Good News is there IS A simple solution iF practiced early enough and that is touchy feely love in moving.. connecting and creating.. and yes that probably means homeschooling but hell if Tim Tebow can (by the way in a very strange and synchronistic and ironic too way Timmy kinda forecast me coming back from the dead in life too in a very very public way2) still be a rough boy by being home schooled.. so can other folks too.. AND lEarn to give and share taking less through mastery of moving emoTioNs and integration of seNses sAMe.. and the best news of all is this information as told by sages of the ages.. is all available online for more people than ever around the globe.. Perhaps elitists.. many elitists.. are in charge of the material stuff and and other money bill goods.. but they ARE NOT in charge of moving.. connecting.. creating.. or the faith.. belief.. and hope of the real deal of mastering emoTioNs and inTeGraTinG seNses wHoLE on the individual level as even IF THEY COULD DO IT.. THEY WOULD FIND FIND THAT ALL THIS MONEY MAKING AND MATERIALISTIC STUFF IS TOTALLY ANTITHETICAL TO FULL SATISFACTION ALWAYS BLISS NOW FROM HIGHEST HIGH TO BRIGHTEST COLORS IMAGINABLE NOW IN CREATIVE FREE LIFE THAT HARDLY COSTS ANY BIG MONEY OR MATERIAL GOODS AT ALL.. NO ONE CONTROLS me as i master and integrate all the stuff that counts in life.. which is Love in fearless.. kind and hopeful way in moving.. connecting.. creating alWays now.. and money and materialistic goods has very very little to do with that as i could be Freddy Free Loader and as happy as i am now.. as long as i have three feet and space to dance and a hand to hold that holds me back from the insanity of society that surely (yes.. i’ll need food.. water.. and shelter too) IS A overall Hoax in my mind and body Balance of SoUL.. heArt SinGinG in SpiRiT.. alWays noW oNE.. graduAlly more folks will follow suit and iF the folks at the so-called top ever get REALLY REALLY SMaRT ENOUGH TO LIVE iN HEAVEN NOW.. they will find the dollar bills and big mansions.. yachts.. super fast sports cars and other ways of Luxury are just anoTHeR way to say HELL NOW.. sure the Meek have already inherited thE Earth.. and wE rough boys and girls thrive alive for the WiN noW oF Fearless Kind iN hoPE oF LovE REAL..:)
penniewoodfall thanks me for the Alan Watts Video and i say..
You are very welcome penniewoodfall.. Alan Watts definitely shows profound genius in the area of Philosophy/Religion and the overall existential intelligence of what can make humans balance but sadly as often what happens this genius battled his own Demons out of Balance.. Namely the disease of addiction that is almost always a disease of Emotional and sensory imbalance at core.. In his case the bottle that cut his life short.. Anyway.. to me that makes what he achieved in verbal wisdom that much more impressive.. And considering if The Jesus dude actually did go on some angry tirades turning money tables over.. Obviously he didn’t get where Buddha did in actions speak louder than words.. Both should have spent more of their life dancing.. It works for me complete as balance but an athlete sage would be Apollo.. WiNks back at yA.. Yes.. THE flesh is highly underrated in Abrahamic religions and of course a substantial source of human frustration.. Aggression and mass killings.. And even Fear.. Hate and wars.. Pan is smArter2.. The soul is real and flesh and blood.. We need more naked Miley selfies to save the World as Jesus in metaphor was too scared to do the full Monty Python.. With WiNks Again.. i imagine Muhammad did but yeah.. Umm.. He had younger issues.. Oh.. the demons of a life out of balance in emotions/senses/sensualiLiTy flesh and blood way.. The real Devil of Abrahamic religious orienTated way.. And even modern Buddhist ways in at least someways with the ’97 Dali Lama announcement that Homosexuality IS A sin.. A balance of Lust and Love is integral to Homo sapiens sapiens peace of mind and body balance in moving.. connecting.. creating.. giving.. sharing ways.. The Bonobo is the greatest genius sTiLL iN Love and Peace without any FucKinG written books at all.. The body keeps the FucKinG score.. Bottom and Top line..;)
*The Body.. The real Temple Of GOD Of Nature In REAL HuMAN Terms..:)
penniewoodfall shares some spiritual guru info on ‘Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism’ CHÖGYAM TRUNGPA, BORN IN 1939 and died of alcoholism all too soon.. too like Mr. Watts.. and i continue to say..
Thanks again to you Too.. off to Google now for more Cliff Notes/Videos on this man too..:)
Oh Lord.. 10 Minutes of Research and Yeah.. Just Another Taker.. Sexual Predator With A non-consensual Predator “Holy Robe”.. For rape associated Activities”.. Naked Miley Selfies yes.. Raping Miley’s No means NO.. To quote her.. “It’s my pussy”.. Only a distant Dream for Many Muslim women.. And other so-called Treasured gifts From God too.. Oh.. when the Pecker heads Preach.. Birds Of a Dick Feather Run in Holy Packs Too..;)
And penniewoodfall goes on to say his book was good.. and i say..
but first in a response back to another response of hers in regards to Grimms Fairy tales.. and The Owl, the Raven, and the Dove in book form too.. i say..
Thanks.. Off to check The link out too..:)
Winks The Linkie Didn’t work But I’ll Work around With word search..:)
Found it.. Without art Heart IS A Heavy anchored He of patriarchy.. All Art to bring Back HeArt.. All Of Creativity to Conquer Boredom Dull.. And now there’s More to create forever Now.. For those in the real Know and Feel We really Did it and in this way Successful moderation Is heaven when Continually Practiced In Balance Of alWays A toGeTHeR Effort..:)
And then before moving back to penniewoodfall’s first note on the TRUNGPA dude.. when waking up later this morning.. i say.. in response to gigoid the post author who first inspired me to generate all these words.. associated with Alan Watts and others too.. yes.. i say..
SMiLes to You FriEnD As cAlm Center Of Hurricane Fred word winds Breeze through again.. i asked Katrina off the Recliner to come back To bed and she said oh My God.. Dear.. What If we sleep to 9 or 10.. And then i sAid WTF FTW.. The REAL Modern FamiLY ISIS.. OsiRiS.. HoRuSzz.. Three iN two for OnE wHoLe2.. Only plays and never works for Pay.. So we can sleep to 11 or Even odd 13.. Wake up refreshed and Hurricane Fred and Katrina will blow again with ease of peaceful center cAlm green changing to blUe2.. and MiXinG With Brown eYes4.. Yes.. Yes!!.. too and Blow winds and rains aGaiN and say Oops.. We jUst pLayed AGaiN..;)
And now back to my final response to penniewoodfall on the TRUNGPA DUDE AND otHeRs 2..
SMiLes.. penniewoodfall.. i was gonna say ditto back to you.. on the free verse comment i just made back to gigoid but this one got me out of Bed at 10:11 am.. now 10:13 am.. and i will quote you heRe for trUe and liGht wherE you say.. “Repression does not serve well in religion… neither does following gurus… I step outside .. and observe… and there will always be suffering…” and i say yes.. so true.. and what’s truly sad is when i read about that dude’s behavior on Wiki cliff notes.. it kinda sullies the other stuff he did that i will research more later.. as what i’ve come to lEArn is ya can’t discount a philosophy per liGht over the dArk pArts oF it like an out of control pair of pants.. as generally speaking hyper-religiousity.. hyper-sexuality and potential for aggression goes hand in hand with at least a touch of hypomania.. to Bi-Polar.. as i kNow all too well2.. for the biggest injection of all natural high side of thaT i’ve ever received after this cycle removed me from the dArkest hell i’ve ever seen too.. i’Ve lEarned to control the balance of the hypersexual pARt with Art thank God in this new brave Internet world.. and i’M hyperspiritual more than ever but it doesn’t matter what age or word of humankind goes with thaT in structured religion rules or not.. and aggression.. well.. leT’s just say i’ve pushed the edge in defending myself in physical ways i’ve never done before.. and put a lid on that too.. and am probably fortunate that no one had a gun and shot me dead on the dance floor.. etc.. if i got all paranoid about that too.. which fortunately i don’t have that pArt of Bi-Polar this go around that i experienced somewhat when my last big UP EXPERIENCE HAPPENED AT AGE 21.. IN ’81.. ANYWAY.. i have empathy for the Jesus.. the Muhammad. and lots of gurus and even this dude who was feeling up the skirts of women who were not exactly really into him.. although he was never officially charged with a crime i understand.. it happens.. i don’t condone it.. i have always been able to control that and generally speaking literally fortunate as the girls have always come to me.. and still do in clothed ways of dance FREE.. and hey.. being 56 slows stuff down a little bit at least.. noW i’m not saying being a guru is an illness in spiritual way.. but it is a disorder no doubt out of the norm.. per the literal definition of what is seen in and out of order my friend.. i’m just glad i reap the positive liGht benefits.. and stay truly all of out of the negative soup.. of human misery now and suffering.. now2.. but the NoW i live and all the advantages of what culture does bring in adaptation for those who are smARt enough in science and art to navigate it.. is truly a weapon of Love in hope.. faith.. and belief.. in fearless kind ways that is like a perfect storm too.. of prepare ye a way for little old me.. Now2 Anyway.. thanks my friend.. this changes the title of my 680th epic macro verse of longest long form poem ever.. approaching 4M words now.. to “Pan at the Apollo Theater2”.. as the WhOle comes again as micro and macro join hands oF it iN streAms to River of Ocean Field of waves and particle H20 water ONCE AGaiN.. oh.. the joy of Bi-Polar reined in with reign of rains.. in liGhTED TALK wAY oF Fred.. yeah.. and i’m WorKinG like a mad scientist sTiLL to keep that ego thing in artful control2.. as Truly the grandiosity pARt of Bi-Polar has sunk an other wise long term story of many a Guru2.. sexual exploits.. roses.. and guns.. suicide bombers.. etc.. the DArk has its say too.. and sure somewhere deep down tHeRe is sTill a little bLack Spot on an otherwise white oLd sOuL.. wHolE.. but that’s the way the Yin and Yang rolls iN the diceY of Life mY Friend.. noW.. so long and as alWays i’LL be back aGaiN somenow wITh more of you.. WitH grins oF liGht.. and true for what i FeeL.. sEnse.. and KnoW iS TrUe.. SexuaLitY iN all the SeNsual ways that comeS iN and moVinG iN General has been thE miSsinG connecting LiNk of public religions and philosophy way too long.. and that’s changing in prepare ye a way of Miley Cyrus Naked selfies.. oh.. the team work.. oh.. the team work.. OF TEaM LIGHT.. THE REAL F in freeST verse ILLUMINATI cAlled by A pan of NatUre aLL as sucH AKA GOD NOW2.. oF HUmanS noW oH so brave and FucKinG CRAZY AS ME.. HEHE.. A DANCING SIOUX CRAZY HORSE COME BACK TOO2.. with a little ancestral mix of Cherokee too.. hmm.. i thInk tHeRe IS A SonG by Cher for this2.. anyWay see ya.. as the winds oF Y i wiNd dowN anD uP aGaiN.. enJoy another glass of red wine.. i StaYiN aWay from aLL of thaT even F iN coFfee or a hot toddy2.. keeps mY hiGhS iN cHecK2.. anotHeR thing.. Buddha and etc.. didn’t understand.. not every one is as high as Bi-Polar/hypomania folks as they then too.. Cognitive empathy.. a life long practice of understanding what it’s like to walk in the other shoes.. no philosophy.. no religion.. no ted or fred talk works the same for each snowflake of God.. oh so special AND REAL.. THAT’S WHY EVERYONE NEEDS TO WRITE ThEIR OWN FucKinG BIBLE OR AT LeAST MAKE iT REAL.. iN whatever way juSt FucKinG NOW gets the liFE JOB DonE.. per right to liFe.. libertY and the pursuit of hapPineSS2.. and nah.. happiness wasn’t alWays possible in joy way much of human history but iT iS noW in heaven trUe FReED.. aS liGht.. bottom onLinE.. JUsT DO iT.. ToPs iF ONE CAN1 AND WiLL2 NOW iN gOlden RULE WAY3 aS oNE…:)
Yup.. every woman Loves a sharp dressed squirrel.. anyWay.. i did seed and am harvesting the acorns at lEast.. and this dance shirt was hilarious.. oh yeah.. iN Catholic Church shirt too.. i am some nows the highlight of the little kids who are bored stiff straight ahead in their priSon pew seats.. according to Katrina.. butt i AM way too busy singing.. to notice who looks at what anYwhere in pews And the nice lady next to me says.. after i shake her hand.. after Lord’s prayer friendly now connection pARt.. yes.. Oh my.. i Love hearing you sing every Sunday.. and i ask Katrina why she doesn’t tale me this too.. and she says my head is already big enough.. and i say.. dam it.. quit making fun of my Alien.. ET size head.. anyway.. iT’s definitely worth another ZZ top SonG iN my XXL head for surE nOW2.. but i thiNk/FeeL.. i’ll juSt go WitH ET instead for a little Katy plaY noW2.. And it may be hard to see in these photos but the squirrel is taling a kit kat.. on the face of hiS/HeR smArt phone that yes.. HA! GOT ‘EEM! true the cats in my neighborhood.. are not always the squirrel’s best friEnds.. like almost never.. but that’s the way Nature goes.. in all dArk and liGht of survival real.. humans are very fortunate to be blessed with the liGht of Love.. as that IS A only BlesSinG that makes human heaven even possible now as gifted by God aLL Nature one and sAMe in and as uS FoR NoW.. TrUE LiGht LoVE.. Oh yeah.. and i came across the older man and what i believe is his son.. in Barnes and Nobles again.. who think.. i am a dancing Navy seal.. who writes longest long form poems in the history of humankind.. and they say.. well no i’m not a Navy Seal but i didn’t have the heaRt to break that pArt of bad news to ’em.. anyway.. haven’t seen ’em in about 2 months or so and they tale me they’ve been spreading my story wide around the town.. and i am a legend now.. it’s not the first now i’ve heard that for dance at least.. but yes that pArt is trUe. and trUly in all of human history that is the greaTest compliment anyone could receive.. while they are FucKinG LiVinG hehe.. yeah.. that’s what Batman’s mentor told him. Fuck the Famous be the Legend.. and in a way i was Batman’s mentor too… and that pARt IS A way too deep for me to explain in science terms.. you’ll get to know GoD wHole better iN instinctual.. innate intuitive way to figure thAT pArt out like i did one day too.. and iF ya do.. good chance you will be named Legend by the vieWinG audience for doing nothing for money and material good’s aT FucKinG all.. and that mY friends is just God dam Awesome.. end and beginning of story never finishing and starting juSt exiStinG noW ReaL.. i couldn’t imagine a greater life in the meek will inherit the earth and the last will be the first.. even iF i wasn’t a REAL Jesus F. iN Christ NOW.. have a nice day.. trUsT me Heaven if FucKinG red hot.. never Luke Warm and zero cold in ice of heARt.. SpiRit and soUl noW jUST NoW..;)
Oh.. yeah.. my friend gigoid.. and one more quick note here.. before i go publish noW A very heavy macro verse in deed.. if you remember that then post by Islam friend SOHEIR on ‘The Return of Jesus’ THAT post in the comments section alone.. per just a video post then about the return now of Jesus and that was/is all.. generated 63 comments and 14,148 words.. yeah.. it’s safe to say iN some ‘sMAll’ way.. i change the world everywHeRe i’Ve been and go2..2 hope you FeeL better.. the other two contenders iN THaT debaiT.. SOHEIR.. and IMRAN.. rarely blog any more.. like they say in the Big Lebowski Movie.. yA don’T FucK wiTh thE JesuS noW.. BowLinG or NoT.. SMiLeS noW.. i’LL do anything for A SMiLe aGaiN.. iT ain’T easy being A great White contender2.. for Hope2. but i try.. i cry.. i try2..;)
gigoid says in return..
Those who speak truth are almost always vilified, my friend. Albert noted it several times in his quotes… It’s their loss…
And as A final final Facebook Algorithm generated memory from a year ago.. it bears notice and attention again.. if one reAlly respects the Teachings of the Jesus and ain’t giving it lip service alone with way of John 3:16 for a quick trip to heaven anywhere and anynow but the one thAt iS at hand allNOW.. for those who seek.. find.. it.. and practice heaven and or Nirvana.. bliss.. eTc.. whatever yoUr linguistic flavor of the essence of TrUth and liGht may be.. Gentile.. Servant.. Slave or Free.. Woman or Man no more ALL A are free in the Golden rule of Jesus consolidating all the nit picky rules of past into one.. MEANS NO EXCLUSIONS.. BOTTOM LINE.. ‘QUEER’.. AND HUMAN OR FUCKING ACORNS.. SQUIRRELS AND SMALLER THAN A GrAin of sand too.. as only you have most to lose by Loving less.. unconditionAlly fearlessly and kind than a REAL NEW AGE JESUS COME TO LIFE WOULD DAM SURE DO AND DOES.. iN HOPE OF FEARLESS AND KIND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE NOW BOTTOM LINE AND WORD.. LOVE LOVE LOVE AND MORE LOVenOW..:)
Yeah.. thE final iS heRe noW.. maKe iT aLLa pArty oF FearLess Love.. iF noT.. onLY yoUr anG yOurs losT iN NoW… noT alWays easY buT i foR oNe PROVE IT’S POSSIBLE BOTTOM LINE POWER OF GOD HIGHER IS REAL WHEN SoUGHT.. FoUnd AND PRACTICed FOR GOD dAM REALnOW..