StaRTinG the process of reviewing the last year’s worth of poeTry in response to all the dVerse Online Poet’s Pub prompts and links.. and in the midst of last April i was also busy in many logical.. philosophical.. religious and political discussions.. on the Wrong Planet site.. the last ‘resort’ of sorts.. for the outcasts of this world.. also known and felt as neurodiverse.. as certainly i am sTiLL.. hehe.. rogue maverick i am now.. sTiLL.. but flourishing flower of creativity more than ever before simply from empirical and artful analysis of where i was in the realm of creativity last year at this now.. and Facebook provides those memory prompts as i record all i do tHere as i do here.. as well on two Facebook pages and additionally my personal Facebook Page Katie Mia.. named and originated in wife Katrina Mia’s real name.. as well as acronym for Kind Autistics Taking in Everything Mindful in Awareness.. as yes.. there are the strange among us who sTiLL have incredible amounts of human empathy.. whether iT is expresSinG THAT appropriately iN A way externally.. with the common sense requirements of the culture or not.. as it can be.. will be.. were.. or is.. Love grows wITh now.. when real and practiCinG Love as aRt over science.. so yes.. my therapist from way back in 2011.. uses me as an example.. to her other clients that yes.. it is possible to adapt to Autism.. ADHD.. and even Bi-Polar and be a super empathic.. moving.. connecting.. and creating human being.. and i started off with all my professionals who were attempting to help me get out of the dead zone of 66 months… with now.. me providing them advice in helping other folks get out of their deadzones now.. iN being human.. as practice of art and science in the growing.. giving.. sharing.. moving.. connecting.. creating oF now iN real.. anyway.. iN looking over the month of April of 2015.. iT is sweet and sour.. as i was responding to almost every dVErse prompt and most all links and doing my best to help the folks at the Wrong Planet out of their deadzones.. but the cynicism of both the liGht and the new of making art in the 21st century using all of multi media in poetic expressions.. was a change that the rigid minds of the past.. were not willing to allow.. and the brow beating started around the middle of April.. with one of the dVerse administrators basically brow beating me into cutting my shit short.. to another administrator deleting one of my links for missing one required word.. instead of simply allowing me to correct it.. to that same administrator suggesting she could not find an 8 lined Octet poem.. when i already completed 18 in a row in the comments section ‘write’ where she made the complaint.. the real problem was it was too much trouble to open up my links and get to the end of them.. which truly there was never a requirement for any of them to do.. but anal retentive minds will wanna make everyone be like them.. as that is as big as they wanna see in the narrow of life that yes.. i too can relate.. too.. after being trapped in work and school of life.. i grew out of it.. thanks God.. so i cannot judge another person who is still stuck in the narrow sidewalks of what truly can be limiting creativity in this life now.. so anyway… the sweet pArt of last April.. was with me.. this kind of intellectual bullying.. is nothing new to me.. in general.. per the art of folks attempting to thin the different fish in the Aquarium.. something i am well acquainted with.. particularly as a very androgynous looking boy from middle school… in a very fundamentalist.. red state.. patriarchal restrictive ‘Christian’ culture.. that said back then.. in the 70’s.. boys cannot even smile.. ’cause smiling is queer.. and dance.. ha..! ya gotta be kidding.. so-called ‘real men’ didn’t do that back then.. well.. nows have changed but those who would trap us into yesternows.. of how it was done then.. continue on as does the conservative vs liberal mind in closed vs open minded ways of thinking that influences everything in life from the God of Nature to the God of Books.. and Words.. to the Republicans and Trump and Hillary’s and Bill’s freedom road.. but the bottom line is this.. when the bully boys tried to tale me i was weak and didn’t deserve to live ’cause i was a Loving Boy then.. they made me stronger than ever and eventually more Loving than ever before.. and when the folks at the Wrong Planet kicked me off there.. hehe.. i became even more poetic than ever before.. and when the folks from dVerse basically said you are talking too much Fred.. shut the F up.. i became louder and louder than ever before.. and now excluded from both places as being free.. i am F iN Freer than ever before.. ’cause ya see and feel folks.. noW iS aLL theRe iS.. and not to make the most out of your human being iN the now that is all that is.. is pure idiocy in binding one’s potential to the ideas of someone else.. i giggle at tHeir rules now.. ’cause i live in a world that allows the greaTest frEe of human potential that ever exists before.. but the thing iS.. one has to wanna be FReED.. AND YES.. BABY i aM frEE iN Now wITh God of Nature.. and no one stops me now.. they continue to spread the TsunAmi of who i am by attempting then.. to prune the limbs of a tree that grows stronger and taller every now someone attempts to cut me back.. and that is what the Dandelions of God wiLL alWays do.. come back more colorful like the Sun than ever before.. but anyway.. after reviewing last April.. i find that my solid response to all dVerse links did not come until around the middle of April.. with my Octet.. 8 line.. poetic responses and around the Earth Day frame of now then.. so it will be a few more weeks before i catch up with that.. to get the full year in.. so looks like my taxes in form of words.. as “GodsUniverseNovel3.. will be a little later than April 15.. but nah.. no deadlines for me.. what lives.. lives in flOURishing Now as FREE.. no group thINk for me.. THANK GOD..;)
Oh yeah.. no windows seats either.. and that reminds me.. got another link of photos to complete celebrating ChaSinG Tales oF i in restricted lInks as such.. but freer as Jesus WiLL ever be treading on the clothes of culture’s past aka vs 37 from here..:)
37) His disciples said to him, “When will you be visible to us, and when shall we behold you?” He said, “When you strip naked without being ashamed, and take your garments and put them under your feet like little children and tread upon them, then you will see the child of the Living, and you will not be afraid.”
Yes.. sorry.. Conservative Fundamentalist Christians and Muslims.. the TRUTH iS ouT.. Jesus was/IS a FLamInG Naked LIberal.. can you see “hi’M”yeT.. look deep.. ‘he’ lives free iN your miNd and boDy ALL BALANCinG AND NAKed AS SUCH FROM THE BOOKS AND WORDS OF CULTURAL LIES AWAY FROM FREE..:)
oh yeah.. and listen real careful to the last words of the SonG iF ya WiLL.. ‘you’ probAbly cAlled Jesus.. a ‘Fruit Cake’.. huh.. or.. perHaps you are Jesus too..:)
Oh.. Facebook.. you are an excellent secretary to me.. along with Google.. and its child Youtube.. and blogger blogs as such.. all for now..:)
Facebook Friend and really cool frolicking dance friend Cortney from Good Old Seville Quarter provides one of those.. Urban Facebook myth videos.. advertising the fake 6th season of breaking bad.. i provide the sad fActs that it is not true.. and go on to say.. thanks anyway for providing that cool video and go on to say.. i couldn’t use eyes during that period of time.. so i missed breaking bad.. but nah.. i lived it..wink emoticon.. but yeah.. seriously.. i spent 66 months.. in my bedroom iN my underwear with no.. not a lung disease.. but the worst pain known to mankind.. type two atypical trigeminal neuralgia.. and 18 other medical disorders.. in a perfect synergy of human hell.. and no i didn’t make any money off meth or words.. but i god dam sure.. wrote about 6 million through the pain.. and about 11 million words now.. as pain is an incredible motivator to liGht and when the pain goes away.. yes.. season 6 iS REborn.. iN movie fashion or not.. iT iS real when liVing FREE oF pain iN liGht oF Now..:)
oh!.. and then Cortney says..
But this was in October of last year! The video I posted was made this year.
She posted one of those remade Facebook version videos so i go on to say..
SMiLes.. same version from last year.. those rascals changed the date in the one you have.. the comments section of the 2015 Youtube version also explains it fully.. but i do wish there was a new version i think i’ll do it real.. hehe..;)
oBTw..;) i could have been a lawyer.. but it was too easy and boring..;)
oBTw2.. been missing you lately at the dance hall/mall but NTL nice to see your thoughts here.. oBTw3.. my cat is cuter than yours.. Facebook competition.. stuff.. etc.. haha.. wehappy2..wink emoticon and yes.. i’ll shut up.. now1..wink emoticon
And i didn’t notice.. but other fraudulent Facebook evidence is provided that the lie is true.. as Facebook resources often do.. for tons of likes.. and Facebook pennies on advertisement dollars..
And i go on to say..
Hmm.. didn’t see all that^^
For more proof watch the newest Godzilla movie and you will see Bryan Crayston’s character (Walter White) being zipped up in a body bag…
i saw Godzilla.. it tipped me off.. wink emoticon
Video copy and paste…
And then i say..
i’d rather be liked than correct.. but oh well..;) and i know.. i’ll really shut up now..;)
And now.. as side note here again..
And Jesus.. if you think Facebook is hard.. try convincing Atheists.. Christians.. Muslims.. etc.. etc.. etc.. etc.. etc.. alike that God is real.. Jesus is real.. but hell no.. NOT the ONLY BEGOTTEN SON.. oF GOD.. Heaven CAN alWays BE noW.. and Hell CAN TOO.. and the Bible and Quran are SORTA full of shit yes.. (the ideology of last prophet is lie too).. noW and CONSIDERABLE truth and liGht too.. in both books.. and all other religions/sacred texts too… Yeah baby.. i am a lawyer straight from heaven and hell.. and Angel and Devil too.. might not have many friends.. true.. but THE truth and liGht wILL set ya free.. and trUly alone free iS alWays better than a priSon of cultural related abstract language lies.. ’cause the essence oF living iN Truth and liGht iS ALLONE BABY.. NO SEPARATION.. FRIEND OR FOE.. or shut the fuck up fred.. ALL iS fearless Love.. And trust me.. if i had a penny for every now Katrina told me now to shut it up.. i would be richer than Facebook.. hehe.. now.. yes.. she never gets jealous as she knows.. no woman would ever put up with me but her as that is her assigned job bY God.. and yes of course i kNow iT and feel It too.. God tOld mE iN so many ways that the real God oF Nature speaks to me.. ALL FREE BABY.. AS TRULY IT’S ALL MAGIC ART WHEN REAL..:)
SMiLes.. as Synchronicity continues to brew.. and magic is as real as the observer affect in effect of you’s and i’s and we’s and me’s and uS’ of Allthatis for rEal.. Anyway.. the naked truth can hurt as fully illustrated in the video above.. but the Nature oF hUman iS beautiful as free as at least what science shows of it… in those incredible symphony of science videos we also share.. It’s hard to go naked in this world.. but God dam it’s fun.. Impulsive intuitive actions.. Bi-polar and ADHD too.. extreme focus to get the job done.. yes.. Asperger’s too.. but the bottom line is yes.. crazy than the rest works to get the job dOne.. and some nows iT takes human potential the rest of way.. the point is.. there are many other sprouts just waiting to bloom.. to find them and sprinkle them.. with sparks may just be enough to make the liGht come back baby once again.. iN Free my friend.. oh the flow.. oh the ZonE.. should i reAlly care iF anyone comes with me.. WeLL.. trUly the only way to get here iN the first place iS the liGht of Caring and that my friend is why the Devil’s among uS wILL never come.. until they too.. set themselves free iN Angel caRinG ways.. iS iT possible.. to sit for sure.. to move.. more difficult.. to connect after moving easier.. to create.. the ultimate destination for FREE Of Tree oF LiFe to spRead in liVinG words oF Nature liVinG i.. sMiLes.. just brushing waves of i.. smooth now across shores.. of what iS real.. my friend.. and yes.. crazy too.. Big Bangs don’t go off without a wild and free song or dance.. of other than group thInks..:)
sMiLes.. my friend.. gigoid.. one of favorite movies.. “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest”.. says it real.. truly a culture that imposes routine over reality of change.. is insane.. or in Einstein’s definition of Insanity.. doing it over and over again.. is truly insane.. as Nature doesn’t work that way.. and the quickest way to Kill the God of nature is to trap her now in words or books.. of hidden lies to control others who wanna store more grain than tHeir brethren or sistren to insure the beaks of children and theiR children get thEir fill and more for the offspring of they.. oh God.. a Labyrinth of cultural hell.. storing grain has become.. wHere now the tools.. books.. words and other.. are human and God too.. in idols of other than God of Nature true… But of course.. like Jack.. one must find a way to escape the camel of culture first.. to arrive at thiS destination as free.. and to escape the Nurse RatchED.. as Church and State and big bLack Legal books.. including Bibles and also rans.. iS quite.. yes.. the eye of the Needle noW.. sTiLL.. no different reAlly than the stories oF 2K years ago.. sTiLL trapped iN gRaiNs Of yesternows.. some 10K or so.. years before that.. so.. yes.. when you first indicated your postulates of truth and liGht.. per main too.. was aLL iS change and thou art God.. let’s do lunch.. that is the real God.. including all of the rest of Nature.. that has been put down to dominating and excluding tHis truth and liGht of REAL.. and that labyrinth of words.. politics.. as state and religion.. hides the God of Nature In clothes aS idols oF tools iN heLL now.. i avoided the lobotomy.. and still remain free.. oh.. yes.. now.. give me Liberty or give me death.. onLY frEE iS life.. REAL.. sADly.. so many others have accepted the lobotomy at hand in culture.. in state.. in church.. as they shuffle by with eYes and hands and feat oF feet.. as iLL gOne dArk… LiGht reMaiNs.. and that’s the good news.. now.. mY friend.. iT’s a heLL oF an anchor iN truth for Tree Of LiFeNow LiGht..:)
Hmm.. 11:11 pm.. now.. and quick note.. i’m thInking here.. no road to dVerse tRails of poetry yet.. as other stuff comes up.. but never the less theRe iS alWays poetic prompts wherever i go.. thInk.. or feel.. but i am considering again.. the blesSinG of being the last kid picked on teams in school.. and the bullying for being androgynous and weak looking too.. and getting out of college.. with three degrees but little writing or oral skills in social cognition or creativity.. leading to about 18 years working at a Bowling Center.. passing out shoes and collecting dirty rental shoes back from the customers day in and out.. thousands and thousands of feet and eyes of folks i see.. but the humility.. empathy.. sympathy.. and compassion that becomes me after all of that.. WiLL eventually come back.. even after living in deadzone pain.. and numb heArt.. Spirit ..and SoUL HeLL for 66 months.. riSinG like a phoenix in the cooling fires of waves at beach at the end of July of 2013.. so now.. i adhere to the Neo school of no rules martial arts and dance.. the Robin Williams Dead Poet’s society of tear the FiN rules out of the how to do poetry book.. for the snob hobs who WiLL onLY adhere to Queen Victoria rules in words and tight panty hose and such as those sidewalks so narrow and false one cannot even breathe out of breast free iN Life.. So sure.. an ode to free this iS iN aLL mY style.. as there is no copyright worry for me.. as no one can copy tRuLy FREE..:)
“Earthmen like Ramses, Alexander, Caesar, Napoleon, Hitler, Lee Kuan. Your whole Earth history is made up of men seeking absolute power.”
~~ Spock ~~
Patterns of Force, stardate 2534.7.
“He that feareth is a slave, were he never so rich, were he never so powerful. But he that is without fear is king of all the world.” ~~ E. R. Eddison, The Worm Ouroboros ~~
QFTA.. Quoted For Truth.. Again.. SMiLes.. an interesting Juxtaposition and one i must say Rules and Loves the world in terms of bEinG Force oF human dArk and liGht.. and when i look to the difference of myself and my father.. so similar iN many ways now but so different in the choice for status.. power and money.. and truly it starts iN a nursery of mothers where his mother told my mother.. don’t pick up that child who is crying in the Nursery.. my Grandmother owned.. OR that child will come to think the world owes ‘it’ something and never learn independence.. hmm.. yes.. that part of my father was never filled up as a child.. apparently.. at least not from the mother as his grand parents did most of the raising.. i hear.. but as they say this is most often a cycle of one refrigerator parent to the next.. where my grandmother used lots of words that said Love.. but the loving touch that my mother owned so well.. was missing to the point where instead of being where the grown-ups were a step-up in her home.. when we stayed in the afternoon.. living in her city for a year.. in child rearing duties.. we were relegated to cots with the tiny tots.. and i remember feeling like i was in prison.. and she was the warden locking us in a cot.. me.. an old soul at age 7.. wITh and where my loving mother alWays alloWinG copious amounts of Loving freedom.. bottom line was.. no matter how fearless my father was he was missing that certain something named expresSinG Love.. truLY.. yes.. to rule one’s world iN peace.. iT does take Fearless Love.. as it’s true.. i trusted the world completely and found out it was far away from true.. the gift of Fearless and Love iS what makes a so-called perfect storm of Love.. and i think that has to come later in life when the Yin of Love and the fearless of Yang come toGeTheR finAlly and shake hands with a Willow Olive Branch that WiLL bend yet not break.. true i was too Loving and soft.. and was missing the other side that my father had without the best pARt that iS Love.. but the bottom line iS i have all i need in the Fearless Love of Life and trUly when one has that one iS the King of Real who truly iS the servant of aLL ’cause they have iT aLL to give.. and nothing iN return as necessary to fiLL up a space that was never satisfied iN the young hugs or school hugs of liFe.. Love lives.. Fearless Lives.. both thrive iN Now.. And the truth iS we need aLL kinds of humans to make whaT iS work.. as there are so many kinds of humans that make the world what iT is.. now.. and no.. i wasn’t willing to have the chairs broke against my back In breaking up bar room brawls like my father was.. knowing he was asking for that in his 46 years of Law Enforcement.. So.. sure.. Nature provides many kinds of temperaments to get the jobs all doNe.. but aGaiN.. as i often now say.. i for one.. hit the jackpot oF Fearless Love.. now.. to be a humble servant and truly kNow and feel when one iS tHe King of fuLLness instead oF empty.. tHiS tRuLY iS NoW THE priZe oF the sages of the ages iN bliSS.. nirVana… yeS.. heaVen noW.. SMiLes but i do get carried away iN the out put Of liFe n0w.. and loss count of the date.. forgetting today was the 9th of April.. my wife’s 46th birthday.. just reminding me now that no King is perfect except the Queen who serves him well iN Love.. my Friend.. So today iS “Isis” day for the Queen who never ages.. and one who worships his wife.. iS one who has a happy liFe.. Sadly that iS likely why Spock stayed single.. wITh WinKs.. Imagination and Creativity iS King and Queen iN MoVinG ConNecTaRion.. wiNninG planEt for mE..et..aL… And yes.. my father was like Spock.. married three times.. and truly mY financial independence in terms of money in the bank.. was not needing it and keeping the same dam wife.. for 26 years.. the best bank account of aLL.. he left my mother ’cause she wanted to stay home and raise the kids.. she stayed until age three.. where the cut-off date for the brain in pruning the window for a liFe aS Love ends.. as scientists now say.. so his gift to me.. was leaving me with Love and his future dream of money too.. Human Life is ironic and magical too.. as dARk leads to liFe in so many curses and gifts iN real LiGhT2..:)
Ah.. emotions.. feelings that run from BRain to Gut through vagal nerve and spread out to receptors in cells all over one’s body and sure before science the limited but sure scribe of God carefully maps out in someways HOW wE FeeL.. and sense.. there are infinite connections as uS iN Moving FeeLinG.. connecting creating.. no different as above so below inside.. outside all around.. and that’s the thing.. Science measures repeatable observable phenomena and we humans are highly restricted from what we can be when set free.. in terms of all potential emotions.. senses and sensuality as the cAll of the WiLd that StiLL lives iN uS yes.. sAMe as cALL oF God REAL.. when iN balance and Free heaven.. when out of balance and prisoned hell on this terrestrial plane.. Frequencies of vocal chords express human moving emotions to connect and create.. Instruments as same.. copy and expand human emotions.. the tools of human Love and all other potential emotions grow beyond the human head alone.. allone.. and more creates the UniVErse within more.. and more.. as we humans cooperate and expand our potential moving.. connecting creating ways oF liGht as Life WiLL LiVe when FREE now.. and hmm.. or humm.. the frequencies of humming meditation to fiRe and un-repress human emotions from lower frequency growls for the fight of life.. to soprano song of Love in Romance for comforting connections of neurochemicals neurohormones.. namely dopamine.. serotonin oxytocin and yes.. even aLL natural DMT when set free higher and higher as body and mind balance.. and no for me.. no rules.. just move like wind and water free.. and in the video above.. it’s full of rules and points here and there on the body for focus.. but when moving free in every which way the mind and body balanCinG WiLL.. iN terms of freeing senses.. emotions.. and sensuality.. the best way i know iS in sUn and sAnd.. and sUre.. water too.. but with rules come the mechanical cognition mind.. and reaSon.. wHere the free animal moves iN balance to conserve energy and be invisible to both predator and prey.. a prayer is trUly free in moving dancing humming singing.. the way to bliss.. nirvana.. and heaven now.. to feel the naked sun and be the wind and water.. Is to Live free.. no rules reAlly.. balance and free expresSinG oF wHo wE are when tHe cALL of the WiLd that God SinGs true as SonG oF SoUL back once aGain.. for Free.. and this SonG is dedicated to Yellow Boy.. feline leukemia restricts him. in a cave of dead things.. where his paws are glued to the only thing that lives inside that iS uS.. his refuge.. the smells and sights of a screened in back patio.. but escaping today twice.. just to roll around in the warm sands free.. immediately wild and free again.. in the fiGht and Love for the real purpose oF liFe that iS FeeLing iT aLL as God’s eYes and sKin wE are.. wHere we are the arms of God that hugs each other and Nature true iN sands of eYes thaT truth iN liGht.. and yes.. Yellow Boy cAMe back with kind and soothing.. words.. me crawling at his level on the sand slowly and quietly toward him.. as one force oF SUn.. WiNd and Sand true liGht.. And here’s the thing God lives as Nature.. and do you really thInk… feel.. or say.. that God iS happy as astronaut coming back from Satellite view to planet that is cancer in destruction of cultural out of balance human tools.. God iS REAL and GOD LIVES real iN aLL of Creation noW.. to harm any hAir out of balance.. iS to bE God dARk and deVil way.. and is tHeir a price for doing this.. do you see the misery and suffering iN faces of God everywHere you Go.. WeLL.. Karma iS action consequence noW.. and people are paying for out of balance everywHere God’s eYes of dARk are liVing less that liGht of positive flow in ZonE of Balance now Truth.. to pay the piper iS simple.. to live in balance of liGht or out of balance in dArk.. the way back is simple.. but culture is complex.. there is no purpose of dancing iN the sand.. sun.. and Winds of balance free moving connecting creating anew.. but Life.. Just Living as God WiLL do when FREE.. So dance.. So Sing So Move.. connect and Create.. it’s no one’s choice reALLy fRee but me.. we.. us.. you.. and i now FReED..:)
Celebrating Goddess Isis.. i mean Katrina’s.. 46th birthday.. and as usual.. ever since her 19 birthday.. the gift of never aging.. from being Loved by me.. and Kool Aid of course.. in form oF mE.. one and sAMe..;)
SMiLes.. mY friend.. All liGht would bE blinding without DARk.. as dArk iS bOat to liGht.. iT’s juSt way iT is.. considering aLL dArkness iN UniVerse.. thAt yes.. iS viSible.. iT’s overAll a nice place to be heRe.. iN azUre etheReal spHere REal.. it’s kinda hilarious.. reAlly to go without lesSons and intuiT fRUiT NaTure TrUe through moVinG.. connecting.. creating.. farther oNe gOes closer one gEts back and forward to Natajara..
iN both dance and static form.. ah yes.. just some bronze statues from a few centuries ago.. to express Indian Lore.. but those Indian folks are some of the greatest poets and dancers theRe are.. both sides of the pond as iT were and sTiLL iS.. subatomic world UniVerse outside inside above so below and all around flows.. and to becoMe UniVerse iS becoMinG liGht and dArk sAMe thReading HaLLs Of SaniTy and iNsanitY REAL.. so here’s to TwiLiGht mY Friend and real.. pLace noW tapEstry wheRe iT aLL makes inSane pUre REAsON.. NeWBronze aGe statue(s) iS laughing hystericAlly iN blood sweat and tEars.. can ONE her he.. heRe.. iT’s REAL..;)
“I’m living at a peak of clarity.. and beauty I never Knew existed.. Every part of me is attuned to the work… i soak it up into my pores during the day.. and at night.. in the moments before i pass off into sleep.. ideas explode into my head like fireworks.. There is no greater joy than the burst of solution to a problem.. Incredible that anything could happen to take away this bubbling energy.. the zest that fills everything i do.. it’s as if all the knowledge i’ve soaked in during the past months has coalesced and lifted me to a peak of light and understanding.. This is beauty.. love… and truth.. all rolled into one.. This is Joy..
-Daniel Keyes, Flowers for Algernon..
Excerpt taken from the New John Elder Robison Book titled.. Switched ON… A Memoir of Brain Change and Emotional Awakening.. a 28 dollar or so.. book for purchase at Barnes and Nobles.. about how Mr. Robison.. a man diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome in middle age.. turns on his emotions in connecting to other human beings finAlly in full.. through therapy of Trans-Cranial Magnetic Stimulation.. In other words.. magnets lead the way to neurons making new connections in the brain firing it all up in emotional way.. better than before.. and hmm.. i fixed my heArt too.. but it was through the SonG and Dance of Poetry and Feet.. that yes.. stimulates neurons in holding hands together in new neuroplastic ways of change along with some mighty interesting epigenetics.. considering i went from a 44 to 45 on the Autism Quotient Quiz as general scan for the potential of Autism.. down to 11.. additionally 55 to 95 on the Emotional Quotient test.. and from INTJ personality to ENFP.. And on the non medical tested quiz for Asperger’s.. titled.. the Aspie Quiz.. from 195 to 92.. like a polar opposite change all from the period of June 2013 through August 2013.. in.. yes.. just a two month period of time.. a major change in brain and body balance all together eventually allowing me a freedom in social and physical change at the age of 53 that i had no idea was possible before then.. other than a fairly temporal stint of social disinhibition at age 21.. also that could be termed as Bi-Polar in someways as it can for now.. but the question is or better put the answer is.. this free way of moving connecting and creating that i experience now.. is infinitely better as heaven in now wheRe there is no time but now.. in yes.. heaven now.. whereas before time drags on.. yes dragon of time was me lost in space and distance out of emotional regulation and sensory integration of a miNd and boDy balanCinG soUl.. with heaRt pumping exquisite emotions true.. iN SpiRit expresSinG sAMe with others as any finely tuned ferarri.. soUl… spiRit.. and heARt WiLL do N0W in quantum fashion expanse and form of unleashing and releasing now much higher potential iN the intelligence of human moving.. connecting.. and creating now.. and of course what i did iS relatively free whereas TMS.. Trans-cranial Magnetic Stimulation that my insurance wouldn’t cover when the doctors gave up on helping me in others ways.. is still a very expensive therapy that definitely helps Mr. Robison.. and possibly can help others.. but yes.. there are other exercises that are all natural to increase all associated with human empathy and emotions that are relatively free that i feel are likely of the same process basically in stimulating the neurons and new developing pathways in connections of all the neural journey in potential for now.. And yes.. i understand that this is very deep stuff for those who can take tHeir emotional health in mind and body balance including integration of senses in balance for granted but some of us are basically lost iN heARt oF liFE and can sure dam use some help in literally saving our heARt.. SpiRit and yes.. balancing miNd and boDy soUl.. now.. juSt now.. school doesn’t do the job.. church tries.. and now we have TMS.. but as always from the day of GreeK Gods like Apollo and the God of the forest Pan.. there is the SonG and Dance oF feet and PoeTry that serves that same general purpose of humanity’s savior since practically day one of the revised alphabet flavor of the day as it were then and now for PERSONAL GROWTH COME BACK AGAIN.. any questions and i’d be happy to answer them.. but yes.. as i’ve been told.. i blow the brains of most people up.. with aLL i put out but the truth iS.. mY solutions have worked miracles for mE with the Innate.. Instinctual.. Intuitive gifts provided all free noW from the God oF Nature.. the potential iS certainly tHere iN coPious amounts.. the answer tales the truth in FruiT oF Saviors YOU.. and me.. and we.. and uS.. and i for sure for N0W..:)
One of my favorite pArts of my 30 or so months excluding ‘banning periods’ on the Wrong Planet website is the poetry and question and answer session between me and a young Muslim male on this website.. as to proof for the existence of God.. and this is just the conclusion as the linked full Q and A session lasted over the course of a week or so.. thousands of words that i copied on my blog posts as well.. as i better find ways to express what i know and feel of the God of Nature True now sTill.. but to write a parable here.. consider this.. there is a desolate beach.. where the only human tools without even footprints are the bible and kuran that fell out of a plane.. for only purposes of information here.. sMiles.. the two books are laying on the beach.. and a very healthy seagull who has been flying higher and higher lately.. let’s just call him Jonathan for now.. for cultural connections purposes.. lands a healthy load of bird stuff on both books.. so then a Muslim and Christian person are walking hands in hands in Love on that beach.. they come to the two books and give the seagull and his response to the books a curse to hell for defacing the idol of the book that represents God to them.. well.. the bottom and top line is this.. what the Seagull landed is pArt of God too.. a necessary requirement for God who lives in and as the Seagull too.. and as the Sea Gull named Jonathan spirals the Sun of God higher and higher.. the Seagull continues to live in the kingdom of God as God forever now higher and higher with and as God’s Sun One Force of the living ONE God inside.. outside.. as above so below.. and all around.. yes.. even that STUFF THAT the Seagull landed on those two dead books.. named as the living God.. where sure they are an expression of all that is that is God but only the stuff that the Seagull landed on the books is a requirement to live as God now.. on this terrestrial plane that is THE God of Nature’s greaTest gift to uS.. yes.. trUly it takes more work to be Jesus than to worship an idol now on a cross.. just like it takes more to be Elvis or Michael Jackson.. than to be a groupie thinker and believer in the crowd of sheep.. as Seagulls named Jonathan fly higher and higher as Seagulls wiLL.. named properly as children of the living God within who fly higher and higher in the eternal heaven that can be now… But sure.. like the following blog post asks… any questions.. as the new Testament forecasts that the meek shall inherit the earth.. heaven is all around us now.. and that folks will come to do much greater works than Jesus did then.. yet.. somehow folks continue to focus on the man of yesterday instead of becoming the human potential with God like a Seagull named Jonathan they CAN BECOME ETERNALLY NOW EVER INCREASING IN HUMAN POTENTIAL NOW.. so many paths.. so many journeys.. so many higher destinations killed by the fundamentals of yesterday that never learn to grow.. with God as God alive for now in higher and higher more blissful way.. Jesus was no dummy.. at least from what was more fully reported of him in both the New Testament and Gnostic Gospels un-covered more fully in 1959 in Egypt but the thing is.. minus the myths established in the Nicene Council in 325 AD.. by Roman Emperor Constantine and his allies in the Catholic Church to increase the size of the Roman Empire by making Jesus into a myth of a Soldier Sun God in accordance with the Mithra Religion in the surrounding area then.. and to kill anyone who opposed the idea that Jesus was THE ONLY SON OF God then.. except of course for the Sun God Monolithic statue of Constantine.. so he could become the same thing in eyes of his Roman Contemporaries.. yes.. beyond these myths and the Virgin birth and Mary.. obviously copied from the mythology of Isis suckling the Virgin birth of Horus as well.. thousands of years before the myth established by the Roman Empire to increase the size of the Roman Empire.. the same lights and truths of Jesus are expressed in recorded history through the Tao.. the Budhha.. Lao Tzu.. and so many others in liGht of Golden Rule.. that is the common thread of science.. as well now that humans have this natural propensity among the greatest propensities of any animal for all natural altruism when set free and wild as socially cooperative animals will do for survival noW.. by Moving.. Connecting.. and Creating iN aLL giving and shaRing ways.. before the gRains of agriculture were stored and hoarded.. beginning some 10 to 12 thousand years ago.. and we became more of the con-social emotions of humans that imprison our real pro-social emotions toGeThER iN cooperation for survival In giving and sharing through moving connecting and creating alWays now iN flow oF ZoNe just doing iT aLL now toGeTheR iN forAge oF hunting and gatherRing liFe for A REAL SURVIVAL GAME AS iS WiLd and Free.. weLL no.. the alphabet of Pandora has been opened.. tHere iS no going back.. but there is understanding where we have been iN the story of God.. and the potential of wHere wE can be aGaiN.. In the Heaven of n0w.. at least oN an individual basis.. as liFe iS too short to try to turn the titanic around on a lifeboat of real.. we are the very pudgy camels and the eye of the needle of culture continues to get smaller and smaller making us more machine than free and wiLd sociAlly cooperating humans to stay alive… A saving grace iS human imagination and creativity.. adaptation to challenge and change.. to make the balance of human heaven real again.. whether or not anyone wants to join uS iN Heaven or not.. Difficult.. yes.. but possible yes.. and i for one kNow and feel with 100% hope.. faith.. and belief that iT iS True for mE.. aLL i can do iS share my opinion and experiences iN how i arrive and have staYcation heaven now.. the paths are many.. the journeys are different but oh! the bliss oF iN destination oF eternal heaven noW.. Jesus was correct about that for sure.. it exists for me.. but i paid attention to all he had to say.. and discounted the same kind of psychopathic intentions in church who tried to rule me in school and work my entire life.. i rule mE wITh God now.. i for one am Free WiTH God NowONe.:)
And sadly.. the modern phenomenon of Isis and the lies of the Bush administration that led to that by dissolving the order iN Iraq are no different really than the killing order of the day back in 325 AD and after.. by Constantine and others who went as far as burning people at the stake for any kind of heretic thinking away from the myths then established.. it’s kinda sad and hilarious.. Constantine made into a saint but a ruthless ruler of killing making religion into a compulsory way of state rather than a free wiLL to joIn and Love God free as even the more pure pArts of the Kuran suggest should be free.. social scientists suggest that the Muslims of the world will at least come around to more free ways of being that western Christians do now.. by 2050.. but sadly those who are different like the Lesbians and others here still ostracized to Marry and Love by those in the church will likely still suffer at the hands of exclusions away from God instead of WiTh God.. by closed minded ways of fear.. anger/violence/wars.. and hate.. but the saving grace.. yes.. the world will no longer tolerate evil acts like cutting off the hands of thieves where the hands of God are less important than the material goods and tools of human.. and Loving Lesbians will no longer be covered up to their breasts and stoned where they cannot protect their eyes from Rocks.. and no more female genital mutilation.. and perhaps even over here less folks will mutilate through tearing the foreskin off of male reproductive organs to separate us as different than the rest oF God oF Nature.. and maybe in Florida again.. the Life of God in humans will be more valuable than insurable items in the home that are only dead things that humans make more often to store in garages higher.. the time is coming.. as the Now of Heaven gets closer and more and more humans are set free back to Wild oF Balance as Nature noW.. GoD oF natUre set free iN/As ALL oF uSnow wheRe GOlden Human Rule from God iS practiced fULLy..:)
Facebook Friend Florence.. just a casual acquaintance i met dancing at the Earth store with her.. in a fun way while wife Katrina Video taped uS.. very artistic.. involved in theater productions and refreshingly out of the box she is to me.. appreciated as such.. much..:)
And she says.. and i quote..
“I’ve been avoiding watching Inside Out for fear that I’d cry like a four year old, less than halfway through and I’m crying like a four year old.”
And i say..
Good movie.. And yes.. i cried too.. At this and most Disney movies.. ’cause they understand/FEEL what it means to be human..smile emoticon
And as side note here.. the fAct that i can go to Disney movies now and cry tears of joy and sadness is miracle for me as a dead soul who spent 66 months in hell.. and whenever i see one of ‘those’.. ‘so-called’ ‘rednecks’ who are ‘so-called’ modern Christians who told me when i was in middle school.. that only queers smile.. do art and dance and boys here are not allowed to do any of that both in middle school and the city park.. back in the days where i was all skin and bone.. and aLL heARt.. SpiRit and soUl.. too.. yes.. ANYWAY.. LIKE when i am in Walmart yesterday evening spinning around in my three foot sacred space like a Tai Chi feather iN bliss with/as God iN heaven now.. a ‘good old boy’ and his girl friend silently snicker in the distance.. thinking that no.. of course i would not notice in my own ‘little’ world that is larger than they could possibly imagine iN noW.. wITh my SonGs and ear buds attached reading an entire book within less than a span of an hour’s time.. i decide that teaching lessons in mischievous ways now is okay too.. so i go from point A to point B where they are in a flash down the aisle.. and at their side all 230 Lbs of me in a state of Chi where i could push my way through a concrete block.. or more.. i say.. hi.. my friend.. have you ever danced and read a book… and he says oh no.. i haven’t.. then i say.. well.. my friend that is what Navy Seals do.. weird stuff like this.. and no.. hell no.. i am not a Navy Seal but it gets the same point through where i did the same thing when a similar group of good old boys approached me then.. back at Barnes and Nobles yesterday2.. And when i’m in the Good Old Seville Quarter place.. i just show ‘those’ ‘kind’ of ‘good old boys’.. my handy dandy Youtube video of me leg pressing close to half a ton with ease on a very difficult parallel leg press machine.. and they slowly back away.. i am for Love but they come to see iT iS Fearless Love when they ask the questions as snickers iN the distance or face to fAce.. Lion Loves without fear and so do humans who fulfill ALL OF TheiR wILD AND FREE POTENTIAL.. TRuE FruiT Saviors oF Hope dO iT REAL N0W..;)
Facebook Friend Rafiah provides yet another.. almost full body selfie of her at a family BBQ tending whatever roast beast they are cooking.. probably chicken.. i’m thInking and i say..
sMiLes.. My friend.. There is nothing ordinary about you.. If i had a daughter And a choice.. She would be like you.. Angel Rafiah..smile emoticon
And then i say..
And she would also make me that BBQ.. wink emoticon
If you were near I would have definitely cooked for you. In fact I live cooking for my beloved ones. heart emoticon I like to feed them. :Dv
And i say..
SMiLes.. sounds delicious friend.. smile emoticon
And as a side note now.. as truth iN FAct of the matter i am human.. a very social and emotionally sensitive human.. no matter how strong and fearless i am.. and i have a great longing for the human connection not limited to any one place.. time or effort.. so i honor the friends who have stuck by my side.. and Rafiah.. is among the greaTest of those.. and i kNow for sure.. if back in the day of Jesus.. she would be the one standing at the cross and shedding tears along with the rest of his closest family as that is what real Angels do.. and she looks the pARt of that play even then.. in all the lies of the Nicene Council and Constantine and psychopathic.. patriarchal males.. who made Jesus’ greatest Gnostic Gospel.. as reported then apostle.. Mary Magdalene.. into a prostitute in attempts to discredit her high and exquisite status as an apostle of Jesus.. and truly a prophet too.. interestingly.. high and exquisite is what the name Rafiah means in Muslim name dictionaries.. and sure i will share that photo in blog way to honor both her beauty and innocence too.. not unlike the purity of my Wife Katrina where yes.. the name Katrina.. a form of Katherine means pure as well in dictionary definitions as such.. and her middle name Mia.. means either family or close to God.. as form of Male name Michael but tHiS is an aLL gAMe.. mY friends wHere the gRain of Sand that holds up the Mountain of Love iS as important as aLL the rest oF existence that hOlds toGeThER REaL NOW.. jUsT.. N0W..:)
As far as i kNow.. tHirst.. theRe iS spArk.. then flAMe.. and soMeNoW fiRst THAT sPark continues aS FLamE withiN uS as liGht from dArk aLive.. but wItH what price.. living liFe.. but with what mercy.. staying AlIVE.. as Dance and SonG from beginning to end iN beginning now aGaiN noW.. inNOW.. wAves oF BeInG dRops oF uS WinDinG StrEamS iN riVers oCeaN wE.. fLamE reMaiNs i nOw.. aLL and protector oF LiVinG NoW… Struggle to LIVe balance to BE noW to LiVe ONE as FreeOneNoW.. SparK for more DArk for less Black hole soUl or SuN wE to bE2 coMes aGaiN liGht truth or back iN dARK lies now Rise or FALL ALL N ALL NOW HEAVEN OR HELL DEVIL OR ANGEL REAL AND ALL OF PURGATORY ‘TWEEN Lukewarm iN lesser poTenT iaL FREE..:)
Yes.. My friend.. i understand.. As my spark was more or less Gone for 40 years.. Ugh.. Desert of creativity.. Real..;)
Now.. to return to dVerse Poet’s Pub.. after a long weekend break from Friday to Sunday.. and today.. Monday.. Celebrating Katrina’s 46 birthday as of Sunday.. so wHere was i.. yes.. all the way back to March 24th.. 3 weeks ago.. on Thursday.. now 7 prompts behind.. but real life flesh and blood stuff must come first for the living among us.. and this prompt is about the Octain form of poetry that has many rules about the form to go by.. just spent some time.. just for ‘fun’ looking at now what the Wrong Planet website has to offer.. and in terms of logic and rules it is very much like the Octain route of rules and regulations to make free poetry a science of how someone else does it before.. continuing on in the realms of free rules oF Y i.. more stream of consciousness writing where like Forest Gump says.. ya never kNow/ FeeL.. what flavor ya miGht get next.. you miGht even be surprised that tHere are new beginnings and endings sAMe.. as the feather floats through the wInD of Free as the credits are real in the movie of Now.. of course that will not make a whole lot of sense to folks who haven’t watched Forrest Gump but wait! it is free poeTry and can mean anything ya like it to mean.. from A to Z and beyond iN the only thing iN life that’s is tRuly free.. iN making imagination and creativity REAL In moving connecting.. giving.. shaRing way.. ah.. 4112016.. just another way to information iN magic noW iT iS for NoW.. at 4:22 pm..;)
* HA..! main difference.. same as ever.. between big pArtY pantyantics.. yes! C O N servative Vs L I B eral.. GO! store the gRain NOW! and YOU can’t have any of OURs.. Vs.. let’S share.. itALL.. and make a new deal.. Trump has the most stored so that basically means he’s never going to heaven now.. as long as tHere will always be more grain missing now for him to want.. It’s really simple math.. more means not’ta.. no matter what Trump does now.. he loses as long as he wants more now…. Conservatives.. generally speaking are the first grain keepers.. and Liberals.. generally speaking.. are sTill hunting for new instead of saving same.. Will human Nature change.. not likely as some folks are scared and stay the same.. others are fearless and continue change.. some make rules and sure.. that’s required for huge insane ‘human’ societies for humans still only evolved to connect to 150 to 200 sets of friendly flesh and blood eyes.. so it’s a mix that works.. a human soap opera of politics.. religion.. and philosophy that never ends.. i’ll watch from a distance but keep myself Free from owning Freedom away from Living WiLL Fearless as Love LiGht doeS..noW..:)
SMiLes.. i for one cherish weeds and apples with blemishes more than any thing culture and alphaBet soup says iS better.. beauty In imperfection’s change.. insanity iN sAMe oF perfection.. even i F iT weRe possible noW..:)
SMiLes.. when i had my eyesight before the illness that took it away for 66 months.. including hearing too.. i read all the papers and did all the news on TV.. a habit fostered by 911 mentality etc.. but TG.. loss of sight and hearing truly took the illness of culture all away from me.. i’ve yet to turn hell back on away from hell.. iN real.. oh the blessing of No and off switches that can be REAL..:)
SMiLes.. my FriEnd.. ServAnts oF Fearless Love.. onLY Serve.. LesSon Of Jesus sTiLL.. when REAL.:)
One thing i Love about blogging with Facebook is it always prompts me to see wheRe i was now.. 1 year.. 2 years.. and now.. even.. 3 years ago.. and wITh me of course.. in full reality show iN autobiography as such.. like moving pictures of STiLLs and words of mY Life.. last April was one of wet and this one.. one of dry.. the only difference reAlly is the sand leaves fewer foot prints when dry.. but sTiLL.. i dance as the free dancer iS posTman who comes no matter.. the weather.. Spring iS alwayS iN wordS oF stepS.. tHe maiL iS always deliveRed iN SPring Of eYes deliGht noW..:)
Well.. SMiLes Bryan.. pushing 3 weeks behind here.. can onLY hope by now.. that snow has melted and flowers are yours as flowers never melted in Florida.. overall.. aT all.. iN the warmest WiNter ever recorded iN human warming wayS..:)
SMiLes.. a naturAlly more visual person than verbal person.. i am smitten by the statues of the male and female forms you provide.. and pleasant to say.. the best way i appreciate the softer version of the human genders is in a soft to hard dance.. of being hUman iN flesh and blood.. 11 million words.. i would trade for just one dance step i own now with fairer smiles of THAT gender now..:)
SMiLes.. Easter Egg oF NoW.. alWays resurrecting change.. Hope iN courAge Of Love Wins over fear.. anger.. and Hate..:)
Pain.. tRuly a monster that lies In wait.. and truLY miracles oF Life iN real can make monsters go aWay..:)
sMiLes.. i cannot imagine how sad iT would be.. not to grow up with Gulf.. Beach.. and sand.. so white.. but i often dreAM oF mountains.. snow.. and vALLeys deep.. Meadows Of Green.. i wiLL continue to Sing..:)
WeLL that’s 10 with 19 more to go.. but dinner and Workout first as well as other stuff too.. 5:41 pm…
WeLL.. thiS iS enough for a celebration oF “FruiT SaviorS” for now.. now to publish and continue the poetry pARt iN the comments section of ‘this’ new blog post.. later.. 11:17 pm.. 4112016..:)