It’s true Maria.. God determines ‘this’.. through eyes of human.. never limited to parents as children of God and not when parents are made as God’s voice of future couple alone.. Funny how much people try to chain God and put God in boxes of 3 or more letters.. God is bigger and so is the human heart.. spirit.. and soul.. over cultural and religious chains of human made prisons of faux rules in attempts to rule God.. God spits those humans out into real hell now of human’s own self fulfilling prophecy.. Yes.. I am sorry too.. ‘This’ is true and few will listen who are ruled by human instead of God who lives within without any culture or religion…
PS.. Hi Maria.. and thank you for your beautiful poem.. Right and Wrong is human.. GOD is Real and human can be too.. simply by escaping humans in cultural and religious ways of illusions.. GOD IS FREE and so are WE when God lives in out up and down and all around US FREE..:)
Listen to the music and Dance God.. sMiLes.. most of all Be YOU BE FREE.. sorry i missed the call here before.. but i always try to lend a voice to one who speaks Truth and Light my friend..:)
First a quick joke.. can you imagine me with writer’s block.. joke ends.. now back to catching up to the rest of what dVerse open link Night has to offer in the way of poetic responses from me.. hehe..;)
True.. many folks spend their life running away with cultures and religions when the them is one and true with the rest of all that is.. a comfortable gLove of Truth and Light that no one owns but US as WE as liGht and TRuTH..:)
*hmm.. this is fun.. i will continue.. side note ends..;)*
Real Love is never sorry or hides.. @ALL.. IT oNly Shares and GiVES..:)
Zombie apocalypse of human cold hearts LESs here theRe is no doubt but there are great lights shining that will conquer AsLove ASummer wHere Winter only visits.. and never stays forever dark LIGHT IS HERE..:)
55.. i don’t suppose is too old but there is a now at 21 where my song ends.. re-beGins at 22.. ends again at 47.. comes roaring back like a Lion at 53.. and the rest is history now is all Heaven.. illusion for me is song ends.. it never does.. in Finity and yes.. sometimes the first note.. word.. or step is the long song and dance HOME ASHEAVEN ALWAYSNOW..:)
*WeLL.. THAT’S all dVerse has to offer.. and quite honestly.. i guess i’ve done enough for now huh.. it’s been overcast here and stormy ever since the Super Blood Moon comes last Sunday night.. and i’ve written somewhere around 27 to 47K words depending on if revised words are counted or not.. Anyway the Sun is forecast to come again.. so i will leave this pen I s for now hehe.. and now the dance of Nature comes with the flesh and blood connection of dance in many public stores and farm to come on Sunday as well.. so perhaps another blog post will come with all of this sometimes around Sunday or who feels and knows when.. as the hand of God guides me in Pen and IS..:)
Anyway.. after a lifetime of people more or less taling my existence is a joke.. i say it is real.. and i will be a joke too.. as there are two ways of life.. Victory or Vengeance and i for one will do a joke to end this as sometimes quite honestly sarcasm and smart asses rule as sacred fools.. but it’s wit and neither gold or green that truly rules with human HeArt expresSing SpiRit.. as miNd and bodY balanCinG soUl aLiVe my friend(s).. for N0W I’M HOME..:) HA! THE SUN JUST PEAkS THROUGH A SIgN FROM GOD THROUGH MY BEDROOM WiND0W.. i’LL TAKE N0W TO C0ME 0UTSIDE AND F*KinG jUst plaY!..:) 1:01 pm 10032015
i like to be unique.. before one morning i cannot separate myself from.. yes X.. a rusty chain.. rain.. stays still and same.. and that is too wet for me.. cat who sees beYond pastie eYes of others glue..:)
Hi Zee.. so good to hear from you today.. i’ve been checking back on your site in the last day or so.. to see if you are writing another post there.. as i was starting to get a little concerned as you seemed somewhat down in the last post.. so yes.. SO nice to see the smiley faces here on Saturday.. and i wish you a great and joyful Saturday along with Sunday as I know nite nite time is here now in Pakistan friend.. smiles with love and laughter for Living LIFE! PLAY AS FUN!..:)
Hi.. Zee.. I’m glad you missed ‘it’ as your word press notification provides an opportunity to read the wise and kind words of all your readers.. Yes.. Love of the unconditional KiND of ALLaH attracts the same.. You are a liGht for that my friend.. So may you always shine bright like a human diamond..:)
HI X.. i like the metaphor of shipmate to describe the fix the world is in.. In my local area.. yes.. fundamentalist Christian dominated by the most churches per square mile in past Record books.. like the New Jerusalem in both dark and light ways of the Old ways.. is haven to discriminate against the different past whitie tightie pastie.. skin.. and Southern Baptist church pews.. yes.. some stUFF rarely changes and as mentioned.. per science mind before.. science has a handle on this too.. as science shows.. that humans innately can be liberal or conservative with the super liberal folks like me totally open to the different.. yes.. like the real historical man Jesus.. Buddha.. and several million and or billion others like us.. sMiLEs yes.. miles of liberals and conservatives make the world go around as is.. by the way.. here’s that cool science video again for any new comers.. smiles again..;)
So yes.. as long as humans are flesh and blood thingies we are gonna have much different ideas among folks innately and environmentally liberal as open minds.. OR as conservative closed minds.. about the new and the different of life..:)
So yes.. what the hell does all of that have to do with shipmates.. when folks become shipmates they are much more likely to tolerate and even at times accept differences.. the Navy station i work at for over two decades is a respite from the prejudice in my local area.. particularly specific to Black Americans.. and this can be true in football too.. as folks find out that we all sweat and bleed the same color.. great example of that in the Forrest Gump movie as well of course.. where smart becomes as smart does.. instead of iQ frigging points on a test.. or a graded paper for some straight A’s.. Just DOING IT IS ALL OF WHAT IT IS ABOUT.. AND WITH ALL STUFF HUMAN IN MOVING CONNECTING AND CREATING USE IT OR LOSE IT DOES MOST DEFINITELY APPLY!..;) I PROVIDE tHe proof of what can happen when a human USES ALL OF IT HERE.. YES.. IT WORKS AND WE CAN BECOME WILD AND FREE LOVING SOCIALLY COOPERATING ANIMALS WHO CAN DANCE AND SING.. RATHER THAN ROBOTS OR ZOMBIES BEHIND AN ICE COLD SCREEN.. SCREAM!..
BUTT.. OH.. there is a paradox of light and dark with technology too.. as with the shipmate example.. to get to know your shipmate in intimate detail is to realize ya got stuff in common and not just the different of the seeing eye.. the feeling eye learns to rule by pumping the LOVE MUSCLE HARDER FASTER PLEASE.. LIKE THE 6 million dollar man we can rise and LOVE AGAIN! FASTER AND HARDER WITH EACH OTHER IN FLESH AND BLOOD.. THE BEST ParTs of Living HUMAN BEING AFRIGGINGALIVE! AND YES.. expressing E M O T i O n S AND human sensuality in grace and strength for the divine masculine and feminine is the excellent example of the big tough dude in the multi-colored Richard Simmons sweaties.. with the sweetie dance partners too! WoMEN are much more balancing these days in ways of feminine and expressing their assertive masculine will of side.. they beat the F out of men most every time.. in culture now.. where men will continue to die earlier with more suffering and misery.. by repressing their human beings of feminine E M O T i O N a L and SENsualiTY side!.. And these screaming screens of technologies new age way.. is just the virtual ticket.. yes.. the truly only virtual ticket to get A BIG WORLD HIVE.. CONNECTING BUZZING.. AND BEING ONE AS WHOLE LOVE OF SOCIALLY COOPERATING HUMAN LIVES!
IT AIN’T PERFECT BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS.. AND WE CAN USE IT AS A TOOL TO CONNECT BETTER.. PERHAPS MOTIVATE OURSELVES TO MOVE.. AND PARTICULARLY GAIN SOME ASSISTANCE TO CREATE IN BLOGGER LIKE WAYS! YES.. AND LOSE IT OR LOSE IT ALSO APPLIES TO UNDERSTANDING METAPHORS.. WRITING.. MOVING CREATING.. CONNECTING AND EVERYTHING ELSE IN LIFE.. THE BIGGEST SECRET IS TO NEVER EVER LEAVE BOOTCAMP OR PRE-SEASON PRACTICE.. EVEN IF ONE HAS NEVER BEEN THERE.. GOD IS A GOD OF CHALLENGE ADAPTATION AND CHANGE TO BECOME A FAT CAT OF INSTANT GRATIFICATION IS NOT TO LIVE LIKE A FERAL YELLOW BOY.. in lightning fast.. strong and smArt cat! WHO HEARS THE CALL OF THE WILD AKA THE CALL OF GOD AND SAYS IT’S TIME TO GO OUT AND HUNT LIFE INSTEAD OF WAITING FOR IT TO COME!..:)
Katrina.. in the background saying get the F off that Keyboard and let’s go PLAY.. HUNTING FOR SUBSISTENCE STUFF FOR HER.. AND DANCING LEGS AND CONNECTING FOR ME.. sMILEs of F in FUN!..:)
PS.. i never cover my naked legs in the last two years.. so i cannot wear sweats or tights.. even in the F in SnOW..;)
Hi X.. thanks for stopping by again..
so much.. adding the important
the shipmate life..
realizing we are
all in this keeping
the ship afloat game together..
and the only way for the
ship to sail true
and brave is for us all to work together..
YES! like the metaphor of Gilligan’s Island too!..
AND of course the social role is primal and most important in using strengths
of each individual’s skills to get each individual bee job done so the hive will thrive and THE Invisible Queen of Nature will stay happy.. sMiLEs.. of sailing well.. with more metaphors.. too.. from Mother Nature.. QUEEN BEE Truth and Light.. AKA God.. of course.. write on course.. aS ALLTHATIS.. hahaheHE!..;)
Epic Mall dance.. Fred vs Darth.. Maul on Thursday Night Dancing.. and Vader.. Saturday tonight.. and stay tuned for who wins.. the dark force or the light force.. if i lose the duel.. i must wear a Darth Vader Shirt to Catholic Church tomorrow morning with a huge Darth face all across the shirt.. and then from there
i must wear the shirt to the Southern Baptist
Pastors’s home on the First Sunday get
together out in the back woods of
Santa Rosa County
close to Spring Hill..
where my kinfolks used to live too..
a very nice place to live.. on a farm..
except there ain’t no dam Internet access..wink emoticon..;)
hardest subject to discuss
and live through there is for human being..
And yes.. there is most definitely some stuff in life worse than death..
And for me.. losing first love.. losing first and only child.. and watching first and only child suffer in only misery and pain for 51 days in a hospital.. and that’s all he ever gets in life.. all the bullying in school.. where people tell me in no uncertain terms that i do not belong on this planet earth.. and off with my life.. as far as they are concerned then..
NO.. i never ever consider suicide for even one second during all of that.. but ha!.. the challenge has not even started.. then.. a life of ‘JOB’ will start with the worst pain known to mankind..at age 47.. type two Trigeminal Neuralgia.. BORing Novocaine-less dentist-like drills in my right eye and ear.. from wake to sleep for 66 months..
A pain so bad that the first 40 days of this pain.. ALONG with the challenge of Dyautonomia where my heart rate and blood pressure no longer properly synch with autonomic nervous system.. where every time i drift off to sleep my heart goes fast to pick up the slack with my blood pressure and i wake up gasping for breath..
And Fibromyalgia.. Severe Degenerative Arthritis in the Spine.. along with Spinal Stenosis.. making incredible pain in my neck.. as part of an early onset issue associated with a Congenitally Fused Vertebra in neck from birth..
Sjogren’s Syndrome.. where my eyes
almost completely stop making tears..
like swimming with
one’s eyes open in salt water..
a perfect storm of illnesses coming together
with Severe Anxiety.. PTSD/Panic Attacks..
Severe Depression… Anhedonia..
a side order of a
middle-age diagnosis on the
Autism Spectrum.. specifically..
ADHD.. and Alexithymia..
Severely closed up sinuses from
a Deviated Septum from birth.. and associated
exacerbated Inflammation of the Mucosa
in the Sinuses.. where
who reads the Cat Scan
of my Sinuses says.. dam..
how do you breathe through your nose..
and i’m thinking.. dam.. don’t you know
there is another whole named my mouth..
but yeah.. a little air goes through the nose..
but no one ever tells me lots of air
is supposed to go through there..
haha.. i guess.. ya adapt.. and survive.. YNOT.. and sure..
Coat Hanger Pain syndrome associated with Dysautonomia.. too..
Moderate Carpal syndrome in both wrists.. extreme Tactile Sensitivity..
an ongoing issue still.. where i’ve never been able to touch
manmade stuff.. not even my pants..
without severe discomfort..
Tachycardia.. heart always
beating close to 100 beats
per minute.. and Vasovagal Pre-Syncope..
just eat a heavy meal.. and raise your arms..
and ya almost pass out.. as the blood is just not
getting to the head.. oh yes.. hell yes.. back
to the frigging 40 days.. with all these
particulars associated with Dysautonomia..
Perhaps.. the worse case of Insomnia ever.. as the record for no sleep at all is 264 hours of precisely.. 11 days.. and i get ‘gifted’ with 40 days.. only a shallow sleep one hour each night.. the first 35 days.. with the aid of a powerful alpha blocker to get my heart to slow down for about an hour to go to sleep.. yeah.. and then for the last 5 of 40 days.. not even an hour of sleep.. no sleep at all.. where the pain burning all over my body.. is worse than any pain imaginable.. worse than any flame.. and then OMG..
ALL THE FEELING STOPS EVERYWHERE
AND i am like a piece of paper with no feelings at all..
My Brain has done something very strange..
i become the Living Dead..
where there is only time..
and a second lasts
a thousand years of hell with no end..
OMG.. it is beyond frigging anything i can imagine before.. and they cannot even describe this on the worst horror show ever.. as there are no words to feel zero point of.. Nothing Hell.. so much worse than even the worst pain known to mankind i have.. so then all that is left is the will to die.. as the last grasp resort escape for Hell in Life..
i struggle to find the keys on the 39th day..
i am going to drive as fast as i can into a tree..
and Fucking Escape Hell.. i sneak the keys past Katrina..
somehow find the strength to get to the car..
as she has been helping me even get
to a shower to take a bath..
as i am almost too weak to walk..
i get a second wind to die..
and i am gonna take it as i am
in a place no one tales me can
possibly exist in hell in life.. death is the blessing of eternity to me then..
So i drive.. and the cautious driver i always am.. for a lifetime… in muscle memory.. refuses to go over 55.. and after 40 days of little to NO sleep.. the state of mind is beyond belief.. i must get to a bridge and jump off.. as there are no high buildings and i am too weak to get a rope and hang myself.. i already make it to a store to buy a shotgun.. weeks before.. but i am too.. weak and tired.. to even figure out how to load it.. so i arrive at the Blackwater Bridge..
Yes.. the same place i am raised.. and get married on the gazebo of the boardwalk.. that i often show a photo of in my blogs.. and i sit at the bottom of the bridge in my car.. there are fisherman in boats.. and even if i can make it to the top to jump off.. they will surely save me.. there is no way to die..
My sister comes down the hill in her car.. at the red light.. somehow she knows i will be there.. she talks me into her car.. i want to go to the river walk.. and just jump off there.. as i am like a roach on his last leg of bug spray and pain.. as the pain comes back.. in stormy revenge after the NO Feeling of Hell..
and she takes me in her car to the highway up North..
the same Munson highway that takes us to the farm
we will visit on Sunday after church.. on the first Sunday of every month now..
Driving 80 miles an hour.. saying please i don’t won’t to live without a brother.. and i say no.. not you.. just me.. it is beyond the worst nightmare imaginable ever and it is real for me..
AND THE REST
OF MY FAMILY TOO..
Well.. i must tale this
story as it is true.. and
i must relate my life to all others..
including the 66 months of hell after that…
as a shut-in in my bedroom..
and i must relate the fact.. YES.. the FACT THAT GOD HEALS ME OF ALL MY DISORDERS.. at least into remission.. SUDDENLY AND MIRACULOUSLY ON OR ABOUT JULY 22ND 2013.. AND ALL THE AMAZING STUFF THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME IN THE BLISS OF HEAVEN AFTER THAT..
‘CAUSE.. I JUST WANT FOLKS
TO KNOW AND FEEL
SOMEHOW THAT GOD IS REAL.. AND MIRACLES AND ANYTHING
IS POSSIBLE WITH GOD.. EVEN THROUGH ALL THIS NIGHTMARE OF A REAL BIBLE ‘JOB’..
LIFE CAN BECOME THE BEST EVER WITH A SECOND AND THOUSANDTH WIND OF GOD AT OUR BACKS.. IF WE SET OURSELVES FREE WITH THE WILL AND COURAGE OF SURVIVAL.. EVEN IF ALL IS LOST.. iN PEACE OF MiND AND BODY BALANCE OF SOUL..
AND I TALE THIS STORY OVER AND OVER.. TO SOME degree when i talk to people.. IN FLESH AND BLOOD LIFE.. about why i dance in real life everywhere i go.. 4000 miles.. i tell them about the writing.. and my bravery to dance naked and free in front of the world.. if they are adults of course.. AND i tell them where i’ve been and i even show them the YouTube Video on my handy dandy iPhone 6s now.. of me pressing almost half a ton 14 times slowly on parallel leg press machine with my arms raised in the air.. and i give them the update on how i do it 25 times now..
And I TELL THEM AGAIN.. GOD IS REAL.. GOD IS GREAT AND GOD LIVES INSIDE US ALL.. NO DIFFERENT THAN JESUS… BUDDHA AND FUCKING JOE THE PLUMBER.. AS GOD IS A GIFT OF ALL TO ALL.. AND IF WE LOOK WITHIN WE CAN FIND GOD TO HELP US IN OUR OWN UNIQUE NEEDS OF HEALING SELF IN ALL OUR PAINS AND MISERIES.. YES.. i am only human but with GOD i am GOD as well.. as we are all special children of GOD with a gift that no culture or religion can take away.. for those of US WHO DO LIVE FREE NOW WITH THE HIGHER POWER OF GOD MANIFEST AS HUMAN BEING LOVE AND FREEDOM ALWAYS USAsNOW..:)
As often iPhones do.. sometimes they just start up playing a random song in one’s music library.. this song comes on.. i enjoy a whimsical dance with it.. but when i watch the Youtube video i know it is once again.. time to tale this full story.. as yes.. there are potentially many people in the reading audience now or somewhere down the road when a random person on Googles searches clicks on this link.. perhaps long after i am dead.. who will be able to see the evidence here.. of truly how happy a person can be in a real heaven now.. after going to a real hell THEN.. THANKS GOD FOR MY LIFE AND THANKS GOD.. FOR PROVIDING THOSE FISHERMEN THAT I KNOW THEN WILL NEVER LET ME DIE EITHER.. AS THERE ARE HEROES IN THIS LIFE STILL THAT LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY AND THAT TOO IS WHAT i now aim to JUST DO IN ONLINE AND OFFLINE LIFE TOO NOW..:)
And yeah.. on the 40th day.. hard headed me agrees to go to the hospital.. i am terrified to go to ‘the mental place’ as it is the place at age 21.. i almost never escape.. but there is no other option.. and thank GOD for Ativan.. as a 2MG injection puts me to sleep like a baby.. and what a relief that is after 40 days.. where the alpha blocker just makes me feel all that much worse.. after it wears off after an hour of semi-sleep wake delirium in a state of mind beyond imagination before.. as well.. i talk my way out of the mental place with the psychiatrist but the the truth still is.. then.. my only motivation of life is to end it all.. and yes.. i remain suicidal with a metal chain in my bicycle basket as the Ativan is helping somewhat.. in case the pain gets as bad as it did before or the no feeling at all.. like piece of paper existence.. in 2010 around two years or so into hell of 2010.. i am thinking about a tree on Martin road.. some distance from my home on bicycle travel.. a place far enough where no one but hungry birds will find what is left of me.. and then my wife awakes from a dream and tales me her granny who has long since passed away and she are hanging up Christmas ornaments on a tree on YES.. SPECIFICALLY WHAT SHE SAYS IS MARTIN ROAD AND SHE CAN’T FUCKING FIGURE OUT WHY SHE DREAMS THIS.. AS SHE NEVER EVEN THINKS ABOUT FUCKING MARTIN ROAD.. SO YEAH.. I NEVER TALE HER UNTIL LONG AFTER I RECOVER IN 2013.. ABOUT BEING SUICIDAL THEN.. OR THE CHAIN THAT REMAINS IN MY BICYCLE BASKET UNTIL THE PAIN GOES AWAY IN JULY OF 2013.. BUT YEAH.. I CAN’T GET ANY MORE MESSAGES FROM GOD THEN.. IN SIGNS OF SYNCHRONICITY AS THAT PART OF ME IS DEAD THEN.. BUT SHE DOES IT FOR ME.. WITH GOD.. GOD KnOWS THEN GOD HAS OTHER PLANS IN STORE FOR ME.. AND yeah.. also when i first come home from work where i can no longer do that.. extreme fight of flight stress of two years.. finally slows down for me.. all sick as hell then.. and my wife and i walk around the block me stumbling around.. and suddenly time slows down dramatically to me.. and she says that’s weird it feels like everything just slows down.. she never says that before.. and i never feel that before.. there is stuff in this life ‘HORATIO’ STRANGER THAN ANY FICTION EVER READ IN ANY BOOK AND THE STRANGEST THING OF ALL IS IT IS REAL MIRACLES ARE REAL AND GOD IS MORE STRANGE AND MYSTERIOUS THAN ANY BIBLE.. SACRED TEXT.. OR SCIENCE PROJECT WILL EVER TALE.. AND this is the best i can do.. but sure.. there is much more to it.. that i still have no words for.. and may never do GOD justice for my gift of life.. to FIND THOSE NEW METAPHORS TO DESCRIBE WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH BUT I WILL KEEP TRYING AS THIS DUDE DOES NOT GIVE UP UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES WITH A LITTLE HELP FROM MY FRIENDS..:)
And yeah.. toward the end of those 40 days.. totally incapacitated.. i vividly still then.. can imagine my end being eaten alive by wild dogs.. naked on the side of the road some where.. So yes.. HELL YES.. i value my Health and Independence AND MOREOVER FREEDOM FOR GOOD REASON AND MOST OF ALL.. FEELING.. NAMELY UNCONDITIONAL LOVE ALWAYS NOW ALIVE.. oh and one more thing speaking of pain medications and addictive prescription drugs.. Ativan is incredibly addictive and the only thing that saves my life but starting out with 4 MG that will practically put down a frigging larger animal than me.. then at a relatively shrunk down 182 LBS compared to today’s ‘Superfred’ at 234 Lbs.. Ativan will numb all stuff emotions too.. a little high at first like that first beer.. in euphoria feel.. but Zombie waves of beauty LESS life of feeling after that.. and it takes me all the way to July of 2013 and the end of pain to take the less one quarter of a pill i ever take.. a long journey from 4 to a Quarter to none.. with withdrawal symptoms along the way.. with car lights coming alive as eyes and such as that.. yes really scary stuff.. but never the less i am successful and fearless now with zero levels of anxiety where my psychiatrist at one point in time an Air Force major who deals with combat fatigue veterans says i am the worst case of human being total disrepair more and less than he has ever come across in his military shrink career.. Anything is possible with the higher power of GOD.. call it the higher power of Mother Nature or WTF FTW labels matter NOT THE ESSENCE OF THIS HIGHER POTENTIAL OF HUMAN AND THE REST OF NATURE REAL AKA GOD IS AS REAL AS ANY FLESH AND BLOOD WE FEEL AND LIVE NOW TO NOW ALIVE AS FREE..:)
Hi X.. this reminds me of the inside stories of the homeless told by Katrina’s brother during his ‘stay’ as a homeless person in California.. but there is a caring in that survival environment that sadly does NOT carry over nearly as much in our modern society.. than before.. when most everyone experiences more rigor of finding the next meal.. and even the next spigot.. or cup of water in hands as God’s chalice to feel the rain of life giving flow of blood through veins of human..
The hands are a chalice of both giving and receiving.. and sadly cell phones have replaced human hands.. overall.. glad to hear you lend a hand and a heart to remember a dog.. a loved one’s name.. where now love lives much greater in dogs overall than human hands sadly as realistic AS that is to all the miles my eyes and feel see now.. my friend…
Chaaaaaaa! a Feeling to relate.. friend Rafiah.. Words.. Letters.. Symbols HouSinG.. Vehicles.. Vessels expresSing discrete labels for stuff.. and abstract figurative metaphors for deeper FEELING LIFE.. Mechanical cognition.. the stuff of balancing checkbooks.. solving two plus two.. and yes.. Chemistry equations too.. material reductionism in black and white concrete ways of human mind cognition.. in executive functioning of focus and short term working memory prowess..
People for the majority of my life describe the inner workings of me as a computer working in PERFECT SYNCH AS PROBLEM SOLVER.. FRED THE GO TO GUY.. IF YOU NEED A PROBLEM SOLVED.. YES.. FRED.. PROBLEM SOLVED.. PROBLEM IS THERE IS an entire other hemisphere of human being in ways far far beyond.. the Standard Intelligence Measures of school grades intelligence.. NO.. Standard IQ does not touch the intelligence of moving connecting and creating.. the stuff that GOD does first with Dark.. then with LIgHT.. THEN WITH MOVEMENT OR DANCE.. THEN WITH SOUND OR SonG CONNECTioNS CREATinG ALLTHATISNSIDEOUTSIDEABOVESOBELOW YESALLROUNDASONEINFINITYNOWJUSTNOW.. THAT’ S a long word but GOD is much much bigger than words and yes.. so are we.. in fact all words are idols for reality in moving connecting and creating WitH eYes of GOD manifest as human being NOW yes.. again.. JUSTNOW.. so yeah.. while some folks are solving problems others are simply moving connecting and creating and being what is truly Manifest of GOD ALL of creation as moving connecting and creating human being.. and all other animals too.. yes.. almost my entire life is one of input and solving equations.. and what is missing is the expression of non-verbal and verbal human communication.. but that takes practice.. as does the imagination and creativity of human physical and emotional intelligences.. truly THE MOVIE AVATAR.. is a great example of what mechanical cognition is doing to the human heARt iN SpiRit expresSinG.. FEELing ThAT HEaRT of EmoTiON of us and all others and NATURE TOO AKA GOD ALL.. iN balancing mind and body soUl as human eyes come in balance wITh instead of AGAINST the gravity of GOD as ONEFOrce instead of dividing mind.. body.. heart.. spirit.. and soul.. repressing human moving.. connecting and creating in any subjugating or controlling way.. either internally or externally oppressing muting human being maniFesTinG GOD on this terrestrial plane… IN THE MOVIE ‘AVATAR’ THE ‘REAL PEOPLE’ ARE ONE WITH NATURE IN A GARDEN OF EDEN.. AND A HUMAN WHO IS SOMEWHAT SEPARATE FROM THE MECHANICAL COGNITION OF HIS ‘IQ SUPERIORS’ IS ABLE TO MOVE.. CONNECT.. AND CREATE AGAIN AS MUCH FULLER HUMAN BEING.. the little creatures like fairy angel beings that fly around him is the human heArt FeeLinG tHe spiRit of GOD as Nature reflectTinG back THat as same.. hE becomes one with his new MUCH FREER FRIENDS AS NATURE ONE WITH GOD.. AND THEN HE IS MASTER OF RELATIVE HUMAN FREE WILL.. HiM TOTALLY FREE TO EXPrESS SPIRIT FEEL THE HEART AND HEART OF OTHERS AND BALANCE MIND AND BODY IN WAYS OF MOVinG CONNECTinG AND CREATinG LIVinG ALIVeNoW.. It’s hard for me to answer to the question marks fully but in just seeing your face.. just one time before you erase it.. it matters not as it is etched in my heart and soul now.. and in your eyes i see the empath you are that explains more fully why you are perhaps the only one who has stuck with me as friend this long online.. without abandoning me now and then.. but as i was before.. i have no real way to express what i am inside.. and am overwhelmed with emotions that are killing me to express outside in ways of moving connecting and creating.. and sure i need not express my path again.. as you’ve heard it all too much before.. but i do what i can friend.. when ever i hear.. you heart.. spirit and soul calling with one word or two eyes and a smile my friend just from photographic memory for eyes and smiles.. and empath souls.. we all have our unique journeys and paths with Allah GOD guidDinG us.. within all innate instinctual intuitively just doing tHiS Now.. yours may be totally different than mine to come to a similar place.. but @age 22.. you still are a young babe.. with an Infinity of potential still far ahead but always now for you my friend.. there is no doubt in my mind that you will go far.. but each moment of ALL N0Ws is worth aLL the dArk and liGht that leads one further NOWs WitH GOD..:)
Hi thefeatheredsleep.. Tribal innate instinctual intuitive way of human being true or false.. whatever sticks ’em together iSglue of humankind.. ethics matter not when gLue of social roles is staKinG deep.. ONlY FRIGgInG ANSWER iS ONe TRIBE OF SOMEtHinG ASINSTINCT ISALWAYS HERE TOSTAY.. SOYEAH.. i say a tribe of dance… but sadly theRe iS A camel of cultureS IN A way.. and a pin prick of dance to move aWay or cLose.. sMiLes.. so yeS… i readDiLY admiT i am a PENpRiCK and or Fred eRicKnow..;)