i always find my freedom in nature.. from the time i am three looking across Allah’s rivers before i can speak.. until the time i am middle-aged and hear so many human voices that it makes my head hurt.. and i only wanna be ONE.. with Gulf of beaches.. in white sands.. flowing sea oats.. and emerald green waters whEre pure WHITE colored seagulls.. rise above.. and below again and again.. in waves.. like i become.. in just doing it.. in my mid-teens.. in bliss of now.. wHere i become a wave and INStruMENt of Allah..
AsWELL human being WitH AllahONEnow…
i Love humans.. but not culture/religion.. or even language.. overall.. as much as connecting with feelings in touch wITh SouL
in skeyes of spIRit..
WHO need no word..
ONly whole spirIt
In just letting GO
in flow of Allah
Golden spiral uN CON DITiONAL LOVEasONe…
i suppose the first clue..
is at birth..
i come out into the bright world of lights
in birthing room unassuming
and FREE to connect
Trust me.. it’s not always as easy as i make it look
as I have proven time and time again on this forum.
So, there is NO MATHEMATICAL EQUATION THAT IS ME.
I AM A FREE ‘UNI-VERSE’ HUMAN BEING..;)
But seriously, folks who never seek, find, employ, develop, utilize and PRACTICE the IMAGINATIVE AND CREATIVE physical intelligence THROUGH THE OVERALL COGNITIVE EXECUTIVE FUNCTIONING OF REASONING AND CREATIVE HUMAN RELATIVE FREE WILL TO REGULATE emotions and integrate senses, and INCREASE cognitive executive functioning through greater focus and short term working memory, are often very rigid in their thinking, and very easy to predict as they tend to think in black and white ways and do the same dam thing over and over again, to get the same results.
And if they expect a different result in life, like love or happiness, it will never ever happen according to another extremely imaginative and creative individual, Einstein, who states in words more or less that THAT IS THE DEFINITION OF FRIGGING INSANITY.
AND HONESTLY, FOR ANYONE who is ‘half-alive’, they INTUIT that the SYNERGY, of the materialistic reductionist details that the scientific method breaks down as the ‘bones/trees’ of the details of human beings, is much GREATER AS IS THE FULL FLESH AND BLOOD FOREST THAT CAN BE THE WORK OF ART IN/OF FULLER HUMAN POTENTIAL OF/IN ‘QUANTUM HUMAN MIND UNLEASHED’ FOR MUCH greater human experience, including the ability to self-heal and become as strong as a frigging ‘WOOKIEE’, WITH THE ‘FORCE’ OF THE ENTIRE FRIGGING UNIVERSE MORE FULLY IN TOW AND FLOW AS one with ONE UNI-VERSAL FLOW IN AND AS IS NOW JUST LETTING IT GO BABY, RELEASING THE FULLER QUANTUM HUMAN MIND
Yes, I AM UNLEASHED AND FREE, AND NO FRIGGING MATH EQUATION; BUT I DO COME ACROSS ‘THEM’ at times here; easy to figure out and predict as I go; I can only hope that they too get to be free as well, one now, like my nows, always now..:)
Being a ‘math equation’ s**S; been there done it, big time, as a robot human being more AND LESS.
For me, NOW IS better than ever before;
however, I have a huge advantage; and THAT is financial independence with never a worry on how I am going to gain and retain subsistence.
Living in this world, intelligent enough to navigate the positive and negative aspects of it, retaining and continuing to develop fuller body and mind balance with ever growing physical intelligence, life is amazing fun to me, and never better, NOW.
I honestly feel healthier, stronger, and more passionate ABOUT life, THAN I EVER HAVE; simply, AS I have got the ‘LIFE, LIBERTY AND HAPPINESS’ PART OF THE ‘DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE’, FIGURED OUT ON MY OWN; and yeah,
with the help of SOME of ‘my friends’.
To be clear, what I mean by some of my friends is,
I seek the truth and light from all sources; light AND DARK.
MASLOW’S hierarchy OF NEEDS move from Physiological; to Safety; to Love/Belonging; to Esteem; to Self-Actualization; to Transcendence, a 6th level of altruistically sharing to help others as the ultimate expression of human being beyond what is required for self-actualization in gaining fuller human potential.
Maslow, suggests that one cannot move farther up the LADDER OF HUMAN POTENTIAL, UNLESS THE SO-CALLED LOWER RUNGS ARE SATISFIED AND MAINTAINED FIRST.
AND truly his insights ring true for me, as I’ve moved from the top to the bottom and back in life, several times, depending on environmental circumstances.
The last bottom part, per chronic stress, not allowing me to stay and get past level one, almost literally kills me.
And truly, most people, these days, live in an environmentally produced ‘level one’, ‘teetering’ existence in chronic STRESS, and that IS sad, and even more unfortunate, is that it CAN BE, almost impossible to avoid in the prison that can be school, work, and even ‘home life’, NOW.
The BIGGEST PROBEM, IS THE TOOLS OF HUMAN BEINGS; THAT AT FIRST MAKE LIFE EASIER FOR CREATURE COMFORTS, ARE NOW BECOMING THE MACHINE OF INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY AND THE INDUSTRIAL REVOLUTION BEFORE THAT; THAT IS MAKING FINDING basic subsistence generating activities
in LEVEL ONE PHYSICAL EXISTENCE ALMOST
impossible for some folks in a world where:
‘HUMANS NEED NOT APPLY';
AS THE SOCIAL ROLES ARE NOW RELEGATED TO MACHINES, MOREOVER, AS TIME GOES BY THAN THE HUMANS WHO USED TO RULE THE ‘ROOST’.
Historically speaking, ThERE are many metaphors of WARNING FOR THE HUMAN RACE in literary, theater, and even religious ARTS, from the ‘APPLE OF THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE’ TO THE ‘TERMINATOR’ AND ‘MATRIX’ SERIES OF MOVIES;
BUT THE TRUTH IS:
‘1984’, IS here now for many folks,
and much of that is the microcosm ‘we’ have ‘here’
more fully related by those who do live in
I am free, to transcend NOW, in the ‘6th hierarchy’ of human existence,
as I am innately instinctually and intuitively ‘smart’ enough in mind and
body balance, and fortunate enough in environmental experience to get
here NOW. But truly, for more people who live on ‘this’ InterwebZ
of vicarious virtual life, ‘1984’ is here, NOW.
The social roles are GONE,
FOR MANY FOLKS,
and there does
not seem to even be
A way ‘HOME’
to even get the most
basic of physiological human needs met. So yes; that is a major part of why there are sky-rocketing rates of Autism and other human disorders, like a third of all school age children assessed now, as pre-type-2-diabetic; around 50-percent, or so, of adults on types of pain medication for chronic stress related pain; AND sky rocketing rates of psycho- tropic drugs for mental disorders, as an indirect and direct result of a culture where ‘humans
NEED NOT APPLY’.
AND FOR THE FACTS
ASSOCIATED WITH THIS EMOTIONAL POETIC EXPRESSION OF MINE, THE VIDEO BELOW, ‘SPEAKS’ TO THOSE DETAILS OF FACT,
AND YES, I can tell ya what’s wrong;
but I cannot fix a culture that truly is an insane ‘Clown EXPERIMENT’, NEVER TRAVELED
I WATCH THE CHAOS FROM MY ‘SAFE’ PERCH OF ‘BRANCH’ ON THE
TRULY, THE FIRST STEP IS GAINING THE PHYSICAL INTELLIGENCE TO GET TO STEP
AND SADLY, SOME FOLKS LIVE AND DIE, AND NEVER EVEN TRULY LIVE ONE NOW; THE BLISS, OF WHAT CAN EVEN BE,
After recovering/remission of 19 documented medical
disorders.. starting in March or so of 2008
a little over 7 years ago
One thing i know for sure..
CHRONIC STRESS IS THE PROGENITOR OF MOST
ALL THOSE DISORDERS THEN.. THAT ARE
a little side-trip today on
the highways of my town..
while my wife has her yearly
‘maintenance’ down at the
local doctor’s office..
i end up at the
AL’s Pawn shop where under the influence of
the worst pain known to medical literature..
named type-two Trigeminal Neuralgia.. in
some medical circles.. like someone
drilling teeth without novocaine..
if YOU CAN IMAGINE
FROM WAKE TO SLEEP
FOR FIVE WHOLE YEARS..
TO 40 DAYS
OR SO WITH
BEFORE ANYONE CAN
EVEN BELIEVE HOW BAD THIS
‘INVISIBLE’ ALL ENCOMPASSING
DISABILITY PAIN IS OR EVEN DIAGNOSED
YET.. UNTIL THE POINT OF MANY DOCTORS
AND OVER 100 DOCTOR’S APPOINTMENTS LATER
TO GET THE PAIN FIGURED OUT!
AN IMMEDIATE ESCAPE FROM LIFE IS MY ONLY
SOLUTION THEN.. AS TRUST ME THERE IS SOME PAIN
MUCH WORSE THAN DEATH OR ANY FIRE OF HUMAN BEING
AS I DAM SURE HAVE NO CLUE PAIN LIKE THAT EXISTS
IN HUMAN EXISTENCE
SO YEAH.. I DO NOT HAVE THE TIME TO WAIT FOR A REVOLVER
LICENSE.. AS MODIFIED SHOT-GUN IS THE ONLY ANSWER
OF ESCAPE FROM HELL IN LIFE OF PAIN
THEN.. AND GOING WITHOUT SLEEP
EXCEPT FOR ONE HOUR EACH NIGHT
OF MY ‘LENT TIME’ THEN
FOR THE FIRST 35 DAYS OF
1 HOUR EACH NIGHT FACILITATED
BY A POWERFUL ALPHA BLOCKER
OF EXTREMELY SHALLOW
1 HOUR SLEEP..
AND ABSOLUTELY NO
SLEEP FOR THE LAST 5 OF 40..
UNTIL A BUNCH OF ‘ATIVAN’ AT
THE HOSPITAL KNOCKS ME OUT..
IS CERTAINLY JUST ANOTHER PART
OF HUMAN HELL FOR ME THEN
But fortunately for me then.. my lack of
greater physical intelligence in mind and body
balance along with total human exhaustion
does not allow me the skills to even operate
the modified shot-gun to blow
i am alive..
BUT ONCE AGAIN..
i ATTRIBUTE ALL OF THOSE
MEDICAL DISORDERS TO LONG
TERM SEVERE CHRONIC FIGHT OR FLIGHT
STRESS AND ALL THE DAMAGING STRESS HORMONES
THAT LITERALLY BURNS THE MYELIN SHEATHS OFF MY NERVES
WHERE ALL I AM THEN.. IS AN EXPOSED NERVE OF HUMAN BEING
IN BEYOND HORRIFYING
THE PRICE OF GAINING GREATER PHYSICAL INTELLIGENCE
IN MIND AND BODY BALANCE IS NOT SOMETHING
TO SNEEZE AT.. IT COULD SAVE YOUR
LIFE ON YOUR OWN..
BLOWING A PAIN
Yes, I most definitely agree with one about music, as a language without words; and if one likes, one will ‘see’ above that the music I compose from my heart and soul, some 7 to 8 years ago, in expressing spirit, is in emotional flow, as well as what I do in flow of creating free verse poetry, in ‘free writing’, wHere I do not consciously think about the words;
they just flow off of my finger-tips same as the music of ebony and ivory keys and even the so-called ‘mistakes’ that make a pattern of what is the heart and soul of me expressed as spirit then, through a keyboard of notes, instead of letters.
It is all ‘sign language’ for and from the human heArt and soul more fully expressed to others, as well as the dance I do now, everywhere I go, now, 3444 miles in 20 months that people remark they have never seen before, as a mix of ballet and martial arts-like free style that leads me with no verbal thought in direction from me, as ‘BE water’ to Quote a hero as ‘large as REAL HISTORICAL FLESH AND BLOOD Jesus’, if he really lives, to me, as BRUCE LEE.
Human innate instinct and intuition is art and truly never equation and or science, AND in truly feeling and not just knowing THAT one truly knows the ‘face of GOD’ as a fractal expression, ‘face to face with GOD’, of what ‘we’ too, can express as ‘children of the GOD of Nature’, just as is, NOW that continues to evolve with us, every now of every now, when we move from robot mind to the mind of Unconditional Love that is synonymous with the mind of FLOW IN CREATIVITY FREE, AS TRUly HUMANS, WHO are unadulterated by culture and religion WILL DO NATURALLY WHEN letting ‘IT go';