the lengths folks will go
to attempt to force others into the mold
of what they believe is the norm of the moment..
whether that is emotion, language, science, Art, religion
or general culture; however, it is only a sign of weakness to me,
as any truly self respecting person, has no need to fear different
from others, who has more fully met their greater GOD GIVEN POTENTIAL
FOR RELATIVE HUMAN FREE WILL in IMAGINATIVE AND CREATIVE
greater physical Intelligence to regulate emotions,
integrate senses, and enhance Cognitive Executive
functioning through focus and short term working
BUT ANYWAY, at least for me every challenge of selfish
darkness from others IN ATTEMPTS TO TAKE away my freedom
of expression, is only FUEL TO LIGHT MY LOVE AND LIFE HIGHER
AND HIGHER, until one day perhaps I will disappear
with GOD and never come back with GOD ALIVE!
Just kidding.. i am staying here with GOD..;)
YES.. at least for now; I’m stuck here and LOVE IT!
‘KILLING’ EVERY SECOND WITH GOD IN AN ENDLESS BLISS
OF THE HEAVEN OF NOW.. so there is no place but
THE ONE OF GOD FOR ME FTW!
SO YEAH, SORRY, NOT EVERYONE CAN BE ME..:)
OR whatever the WTF, can go along with
And yes, as the last blog post says:
I find imagination and creativity in all flow
of arts.. ranging from martial arts
to ballet to poetry to piano
to singing.. to photography..
ALL the same in just letting all
the negativity go.. and yes moving
into theta mind wave state and feeling
the bliss of mindful awareness..of the
twilight of living life.. always in a
balance of dark and light and feminine
and masculine and all things that are
as with me in balance with
What more can i ask for.. and nah..
one person or 7 billion.. is not going
to deter anything i do.. in love of
The worst that can happen.. is every
thing.. anywhere.. I link.. from now on..
to humbly share.. is removed for whatever
reason.. and even with that.. the same best
thing will happen.. with an opportunity to be
inspired by another 30 or 40 or even 50 poems
on or other symbols of human heart.. soul.. and
spirit on my own.. as i am freelance..all ways that
in totally free expression in
Truly i love seeing the shapes
and images after the words
flow without conscious thought..
as it’s magic that can happen..
as truly.. it is not planned by
Art is such a lovely creative activity..
and truly the actual act of art is what
i treasure.. without ever a care of what
anyone else judges it by.. per technical
standards.. as truly there are no technical
standards in martial arts.. ballet.. piano..
poetry.. singing.. or photography for me…
No lessons either..
those are just words that approximate
the flow of art that i am
currently blessed with for now..
but for decades there
is none of that for a totally
computer-like robotic mind..
haha! like Sheldon Cooper
from the Big Bang TV show..
One time i check out a book on creativity in college
and try to figure out from a book.. how to be creative..
little do i know then that there is no knowing creativity..
as it is a gift or science..
and truly to me
THE ART I KNOW NOW..
is never art with rules..
aka systemizing science..
But i have no problem with people
who want to make it science..
as long as they know they
I am freely IN for
the ART only..:)
And that’s the best place..
i’ve ever known now to be..:)
Truly there is no from
for me.. only now..:)
The video is just music;
seriously, ‘you’ might like it,
if you try it; it generates feeling.
And that is the magick of
sharing musicK friend..:)
Ah, I’m in LIFe for the ART now;
you know the flow of bliss;
or maybe not;
as I sure did not
FEEL IT for decades.
Everything else, is pretty much
icing on the cake, my friend;
dark or light, as everything,
light or dark, is the same
with human nirvana
aka bliss aka
And truly it is
the feelings now
that count in LIFE.
And all arts have the
potential to generate
that truer reality in
human beings now
These words beyond
that are just empty
structures of nothing
much human being..:)
But what others call gibberish,
FEELS LIKE BLISS TO ME; HARD TO
UNDERSTAND BUT TRULY THE WORDS
ARE JUST CONSTRUCTS THAT EMOTIONS
ARE ATTACHED TO FOR ME; BEFORE I GET
THAT BACK FOR PRACTICAL INTENTS AND
purposes, i am just writing several million
words of skeletons here, with no
heart/soul; but still an attempt
at times to express a spirit
I CAN NOT FEEL at all then.
AH, TO TRULY BE FULLY ALIVE,
IN BOTH SENSES AND EMOTIONS
IS SIMPLY THE ONENESS ONE CAN
BE WITH THE GOD OF NATURE now.
And truly, if one never experiences
that it is beyond sadness, as without
it, tHere is no life, I for one ‘see’ for
now. It’s nice to be human and
THAT’S ENOUGH FOR ME,
as one with
Well; that explains a lot;
obviously ‘you’ are an ’empath’
aka ‘Angel’ archetype;
and truly there are two fairly distinct forms
of so-called Higher Functioning Autism;
and one is folks who are ’empaths’,
AND, the other are folks
who are cold-hearted and truly
do not give a crap how others feel.
The easiest way to tell the difference
is an empath
directly personally attack another person
for the pleasure of seeing that person in pain…
Empaths cannot do that; however, they are strongly
opposed to others when others are harming others.
Sometimes, affective empathy can be so strong;
that the pain of others is unbearable; so the empath withdraws and becomes somewhat of a social isolate; even repressing emotions, at times, and even potentially losing them when the brain becomes worn-out from literally caring too much to the point of constant fight or flight stress response, and accompanying physical illness associated with this chronic stress response.
Many empaths become heroes by gaining greater physical intelligence to regulate these intense emotions and sensitive senses to the environment; additionally gaining hero type focus and short term working memory in greater executive ‘superman-like’ functioning;
However, out of balance for an empath by way of emotions and senses is a chaotic way of being. To either leave the stressful situation or gather much greater physical intelligence for mind and body balance, appears to be two natural answers to avoid depression or anxiety over the whole emotional and sensory mix of issues.
It really comes down to a question of demographics and math.
The black demographic, per socio-economic issues, greater
percentages of broken families, and other correlated variables
with crime, comprise a greater statistical percentage of crimes
over other ethnic demographics, per example of white.
So obviously, it is more likely that these folks are going
to get shot in the act of a crime, whether or not there
is a mistake or foul play by a fallible human being
named as a police officer, or other named law
enforcement official. TRULY, THERE IS no
evidence that changing the ethnic
demographic of what is known
as law enforcement will reduce
the number of incidents of mistakes
or potential foul play by the named
occupation of law-enforcement, overall.
So in other words, the idea is neither logical
or realistic, as it would be admitting foul play;
and that is never something that is going to happen;
as it would incriminate the whole structure of law enforcement
as is. And additionally, it most definitely would be discrimination
AGAINST WHITES GETTING jobs. WE ALREADY HAVE affirmative
action IN PLACE. REQUIRING a mandate for percentage based on the
ethnic demographic of crimes, is discrimination based on race; and that
is NOT EVER GOING TO HOLD UP TO LEGAL SCRUTINY IN A LAW
Anyway, perhaps you are playing the role of devil’s advocate here; and that’s
cool as I most definitely love to do that too; when other folks are afraid to be
controversial; AS that is where where learning takes place
in OUT OF THE BOX
BUT NAH; these days out of the box is way out of THE LEAGUE OF MORE FOLKS
IN A TWITTER WORLD OF THINKING EVERYDAY; where science now shows that
the average human being has the attention span of a gold fish; and gold fish do
NOT SWIM VERY DEEP..;)
MORE THAN two lines joined together is AN OH NO I CAN’T DO IT; for many folks
now days. PATIENCE IS VIRTUE LOST; NO DOUBT, IN PART THAT IS CORRELATED
AS WELL WITH TRIGGER HAPPY COPS. PATIENCE REQUIRES PRACTICE PATIENCE PRACTICE.
And that is part of what I do here; practice for me; whether others learn from THAT OR NOT..;)
LIKE BRUCE LEE SAYS; I DO NOT EXPECT ONE TO MEET OR EXCEED THE EXPECTATIONS FOR MYSELF.
And there we come back full circle to gnosticism; human potential in reflecting GOD; and whether
or not we should allow others to hold us back in shining our TRUTH AND Light of GOD no matter how
BRIGHT OR WORDY; or LOUD A ‘LiON’ MAY BE; in both feats of strength, intellect, AND ART;
smiles of course..:)
Well; while that might be a moral/ethical imperative from you and others; that’s all
it is, as the United States is run on legal imperatives; NOT moral/ethical imperatives,
Redress for moral/ethical imperatives is above the law.
And that is a slippery slope that the founding fathers
know will be a place to drown.
So therefore; even if what you are suggesting,
per replacing white law enforcement with
black law enforcement
is ethically and morally
correct, which it
truly is not; as the issue is ‘bad
apples’ in law enforcement,
and yes, poor training;
BUT NOT the entire
FAR; THE LAWS IN
THE U.S. WILL NEVER
UNLESS, you have actually walked in the shoes of law enforcement, firemen,
emergency medical technicians, combat soldiers or anyone else who lives
in life or death situations; you, my friend, are in NO way, shape or fashion,
qualified to even understand what the life of a law enforcement officer
even is, in the real trenches of years and years of service, where sadly
mistakes do happen, as law enforcement officers, both good and
bad apples, do make mistakes as they are only human; and
life or death situations are not a level of challenge YOU
CAN POSSIBLY understand unless you are subject to
THOSE CONDITIONS, DAY IN DAY OUT, DAY IN
AND DAY OUT; FOR YEARS AND YEARS
OF POTENTIALLY SELFLESS SERVICE,
TO SERVE AND PROTECT OTHERS.
MY FATHER SERVES FAITHFULLY IN
LAW ENFORCEMENT FOR 46 YEARS
ON THE GROUND LEVEL OF POLICE
MAN, ATF AGENT, AND
DEPUTY SHERIFF, AND
NEVER MAKES A
MISTAKE IN HIS
than getting kidnapped by a fugitive
he IS guarding; and among those he guards
is Ted Bundy; one of the most infamous Serial
Killers alive. Personally, I think your opinion
is misinformed, and maligned as you
simply have no CLUE WHAT THE REAL
WORLD OF LAW ENFORCEMENT IS.
IT IS MOSTLY A WORLD OF HEROES;
AND NOT BAD APPLES; THE HEROES
JUST DON’T get WORLDWIDE ADVERTISEMENTS
LIKE THE VILLAINS DO; AND I JUST PROVIDE
ONE OF A HERO; MY FATHER,
HIS LIFE TO DO
IN A JUST
I did not say the laws of the land are not based on morals and ethics.
I state the laws of the land are not based on morals and ethics, alone.
There is careful consideration and decisions made to make those laws, and publish them;
so ‘anarchy’ will not be the example and result of so-called ‘bibles’ with morals that are not ethical.
Ethics and Morals, in part, are innate; and in part, are fabricated by cultures of humankind.
In some countries, for a simple example that I often use, the practice of female
genital mutilation is considered both ethical and moral; but obviously not in the
‘eyes’ of Nature aka GOD, as GOD aka Nature provides the pleasure of a clitoris
for reproductive success;
The gnostic Jesus uses almost an identical example in the Gospel of Thomas
to show how foolish male circumcision is as a religious
practice when it is a gift from the ‘father'; where in
‘that time’ the ‘father’ is simply a metaphor
for Nature; often termed in other ways
of culture as Mother Nature;
instead of the Father;
in those patriarchal
days; of what
“53) His disciples said to Him, “Is circumcision beneficial or
He said to them, “If it were beneficial, their father would
beget them already circumcised from their mother. Rather, the
true circumcision in spirit has become completely profitable.”
The gnostic Jesus finds most all his
answers from the GOD of Nature,
through innate instinct and
intuition; same as Buddha,
Lao Tzu, and
THE ESSENCE OF THE TRUTH
THERE IS NO NEED FOR TEACHERS
when one can truly see the
WITH EYES of innate
instinct and intuition.
It’s so simple that ‘Jesus’ IS
likely crucified for his innate
instinct AND INTUITION
through the same
kind of metaphors I
use here, in abstract ways.
Same, as other so called wild
animals and indigenous peoples,
named as wild savages, dancing
around a moon-lit fire, in the physical
intelligence of mind and body balance;
connecting IN THE rhythms OF THE
DRUMS OF night in MAGICK MUSICK
to each other naked, and of course
WITH the NATURE OF GOD MANIFEST
IN HUMAN BEING and the rest of GOD
The price of being free like this, in a
world of TRULY INSANE HUMANS,
CAN BE SOCIAL ISOLATION,
PRISON, OR DEATH, THEN
on where and
who one still
Truth AND LIGHT is in
innate instinct and intuition.
Abstract Language, Collective Intelligence,
Culture, and Religion is THE REAL ANTI-CHRIST
HIGHWAY TO THE DARK OF HELL, OVERALL,
OF COURSE, AS
‘IT’ HAS ‘ITS’ TRUTH
I see a great deal of truth in the New Testament; but not as much truth as I do in the Gnostic Gospels.
And no, I do not agree, with everything in the Gnostic Gospels; including the one I usually link here
that does promote wars among humans to enforce new ideas; rather than peaceful resolutions. That
is not surprising though, as it is part of the tribal human instinct to gain subsistence; and in those
days, culture did not provide nearly the advantages of subsistence that we see in the U.S.; that
generally speaking, is the promise of ‘Israel’ for the free of Nature, manifest as such, as GOD in
Human being FREE. One Nation under GOD per Nature, is the promise
of THAT STILL FOR the Pursuit of Life, Liberty and Happiness,
and that works perfect for me, as practice
of perfect in real life now.
At this point, it’s kind of like splitting hairs to me.
It does seem that humans, where we live, are one
of the greatest creatures, manifest from the entire
GOD of Nature, of a fractal of Nature manifest, as such;
However, the Universe is a very big place;
and there are likely much greater manifestations that
reflect the entire GOD of nature, as a fractal of THAT;
AS it is certain that some humans better reflect GOD than others; however that is a subjective
judgement at best, as well. I tend to see humans who are in balance with the rest of nature
in all the peaceful harmonious stuff they do; as revolving in peace around the biggest
‘SUN’ that is GOD, as metaphor of course, as brighter reflections of the GOD of Nature.
One will not understand GOD through any science alone, as the metaphor
of ART is always counterpart of true knowledge of wisdom in innate
instinct and intuition, in addition to reasoned ways of
thinking. Senses and Feeling are here in human
ways of life, long before the
written stuff is even imagined
and created, as it exists, and
hopefully continues to evolve
as a communication tool
of natural wisdom for
those who move
BOX, as is
Ah.. life.. a magnificent mix of sensing.. feeling..
and now abstract constructs of thought..
a product of socially cooperative humans..
who scratch symbols in the sand..
reflecting the angles of imaginary
and creative connections of stars in the sky..
and next thing ya know.. ya got Sanskrit..
and the beginning of the recording of collective intelligence..
along with the development of tools… as extension of the human body..
like an exoskeleton that provides more protection.. and advantages in life..
from clothes to sadly.. nuclear weapons.. capable of destroying most life on earth.
All that starts with a hand.. four fingers.. and a prehensile thumb that becomes all of culture now.. through a digit of that art then.. and now digit of art in bits and bytes of digital science and art.. with human.. as the wizard of that OZ come true for NOW…
Weak and Powerful creatures we are.. through our abstract constructs and other human tools; but now incredibly and most ironically WEAK, OVERALL, IN ability to control our own minds and bodies in balance, including ego of ‘I’.. through the seat of the soul that is ‘i’ of ‘US’.. expressed as emotional and sensory spirit.. as exclamation point ‘!’… as metaphors of symbols.. of course..
for the trinity of human being as
ONE FORCE WITH GOD…
A mind and body in balance.. preparing to gain subsistence.. is what every healthy wild animal does now.. except for domesticated ones.. like human beings who are spoon fed-life through a regimen of abstract language.. collective intelligence.. culture.. and religion.. and all the other external byproducts of so-called smart human beings now.
Truly though.. this written language stuff..
is very new in animal life; an experiment really..
and in someways truly an abstract construct of cultural virus.
To be stuck in words and never truly to go to the imaginative and creative physical intelligence that drives emotional regulation and sensory integration.. as well as greater cognitive executive functioning through enhancing focus and short term memory.. is truly self-inflicted cultural disease.
And no this is nothing new; perhaps the closest current true science of human health and well being is the science of TAI-CHI in specific moves for this same goal in the philosophy of TAI-CHI that can be for peace of mind or defense.. as well..
However, for me; I am fortunate as I go without lessons;
and truly a life separated from culture through the fall of extreme illness
is what allows me to move away from an instruction/lesson/GUIDELINE oriented MECHANICAL SCIENCE COGNITION MIND..
to innate instinct and intuition oriented SOCIAL ART COGNITION flowing MIND..
where truly the balance of being invisible to prey or predator by moving
without a sound WITH gravity instead of against it;
is built into our innate genetics now..
in genetic memory.. just like other animals;
but sadly our domesticated culture inhibits children
from this natural way of golden spiral movement..
rather than the robotic moves of a sidewalk life of order..
that humans generate to make the art of nature
a science of angles and lines..
rather than moves
of golden spiral swirling
peace with GOD and gravity..
instead of AGAINST.
BOTH my father
and his twin brother go
straight into the military..
and after that law enforcement;
and truly there
ARE GENETICS associated with folks
who most often go into these ‘HERO’ TYPE professions
that require both warrior genes and strong selfless empathy.
It is a recipe for emotional disorders in personal lives matching the career life of heroes; obviously, with broken and often cold marriages and family life that come with the stress of life saving work.
If my father has the patience for raising children AND LAW enforcement perhaps he will stay.. but he did not.. and I understand the stresses of that.. not right away.. but later in life.. where my work stresses go up.. and I get emotionally cold in my home life as well…
Humanas are humans.. fallible to mistakes.. and humans do not come with instruction books.. for emotional regulation and sensory integration.. it takes innate.. instinctual and intuitive practice..
and we live in a culture that most often does not include time for fully practicing the art itself.. of even being an animal alive.. in balance.. comfortable in that animal’s own skin.
That’s sad.. and the reason for much human misery and suffering and certainly premature death from chronic stress.. as emotional disorders are the main progenitor of chronic stress.. per all social related emotional stresses…
and somatic disorders.. ranging from headaches
to cardiovascular disease..
and yes again..
even premature death.
IN a way.. i am fortunate
to be abandoned by my father like this..
at age three… as my path.. no doubt will be a similar one..
with his guidance in a similar profession of protecting and serving..
But my mother is mostly social cognition with art and unconditional love..as a poet herself.. and so the law enforcement potential destiny becomes one of piano.. dance.. poetry.. photography..
and the martial arts that takes me to the soul from my father of strength.. along with powerlifting to gain the strength.. that in part.. allows me to innately.. instinctually.. and intuitively FEEL FEARLESS.. and relatively speaking.. invincible…
So yeah.. the FEARLESS THINGY..
IS A GIFT FROM MY FATHER..
THAT NO MATTER
IF HE IS IN
MY LIFE TO GIVE IT;
IT IS STILL A GIFT OF HIS GENETICS..
AND THAT COMES from many lives of heroes same..
to provide that genetic.. gift to me.. with their life and death struggles…
To see deeper in life.. is to gain peace of mind.. when the deep goes in the light ways of life…
To see deeper in the dark of life.. and not come out.. is the pitfall of the hero turned villain.. that is a
common human archetype too.. but the more i learn about life.. the more i learn that the things.. that may not seem like logical analytical sense before are artfully creatively sensible in life now..
in the flow of
the art of human being
in emotions and senses.. rather than just
the analytical side of reason as systemizing science…
So yeah.. to be both scientist and artist..
is the balance of Yang and Yin..
and masculine and feminine.. and all the dualities of life balanced to be one
AsONe FORCE WITH THE GOD OF NATURE.. THAT TOGETHER CREATES THE GREATEST TAPESTRY
ART OF ALL
Truly it is a bright and lighting way to find
that love inside us.. Sense it.. feel it and
give it freely as ‘you’ do here in words
To keep a gift like this.. Chalice
is grace I pray
for you friend.. as
your free spirit in glowing
flowing words.. inspire for all..
With smiles.. To reach out..
Shall be to receive