with or without words, in the sense of what folks describe as the English Language.
But AGAIN, IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO PROVE ME INCORRECT UNLESS one lives in my mind at age 3 THAT perceives the world much differently than a mind stuck in abstract concepts of letters and words.
My cat may understand GOD better than most humans simply as he is not cursed with ABSTRACT CONSTRUCTS OF words AND BYPRODUCTS OF CULTURE, and the usual constant illusion of past and present that a so-called advanced neocortical mind brings to little scaredy cat humans who are most of the time TOO afraid to even MORE FULLY LIVE NOW IN SIMPLE, YET BLISSFUL MIND AND BODY BALANCE.
I do not need
religion or culture,
As I live now, simply now,
with the FORCE OF GOD that IS
ALWAYS VERB OF FORCE NOW,
AN ILLUSION OF HUMAN MINDS
IN ABSTRACT CONCEPTS NAMED
WORDS, PER THREE
LETTERS OF A TINY PRISON FOR SOMETHING
AS LARGE AND SMALL AS ‘GOD’ AS IS IS NOW IS.
…….Thanks ‘AngelRho’, I appreciate that.
And truly, as I often post in actual International poetic circles with criticism there offered, there are some folks even there who can only write poetry with previously designed form who cannot make sense out of my metaphors.
And there are others who laud it as out-of-the box and interesting as a new form of poetry.
It is a long time before I can move out of dry human language to do this, and I continue to perfect it here, as the darkness of cynicism is truly a muse for me here, to go to even higher levels of human creativity.
And the girls where I rave dance provide
another interesting muse for some
of the ‘physical poetry’ I do, too.
I AM free,
with relative human
I live in prison most of my life, in conforming to what other folks THINK I SHOULD DO.
AND IN THE bigGER world of the Internet here THERE is always A LARGER READING AUDIENCE TO ACCESS, as my close to 1.1 million views do attest to, ON my Google Plus ‘clearinghouse’ site for my unique form of Free Verse Poetry with Multi-Media mixed in.
And by the way, it’s much easier to decode on my blog, as truly the way I write here is not designed for horizontal flow of restricted left justification ways of typing…
Unfortunately, though, IT IS Multimedia Intensive, and takes a fast computer and Internet connection to even load but yeah, there are fast enough connections and computers out there even now, to keep up with what I do, haha!
Art is the highest level of human intelligence.
Standard IQ, is just grade school stuff.
It takes me 53 years to GRADUATE
IN THE REAL SCHOOL OF HUMAN LIFE, AND advance to the highER intelligence ARTstuff, and it is a pleasure to live where I do now, with much FULLER human intelligence(S) than school or CULTURE can do FOR HUMANS ALONE…
GOD, the verb of FORCE, IS NOT LOGICAL.
And truly humans are not logical either.
THAT, in our modern
cultures, is perhaps
the greaTEST illusion of ALL.
And OH MY GOD, even science lends evidence for that now for folks who are interested
in what does exist, per the real science of human nature, per how human emotion is
at the base of all so-called rational decisions, before
THOSE SO CALLED RATIONAL DECISIONS
are even illusory made in words,
and such as that.
However, when a person masters the ability for human relative free
WILL AND accesses MORE of theIR RELATIVE human free will in greater
human potential they WILL find a much bigger world out there
IN HERE IN SUB-CONSCIOUS FLOW OF ABILITIES
RISING TO CONSCIOUS LEVELS than school
and or culture or and religion can
Some folks can understand this but truly until one goes tHere it is
next to impossible to understand, as I’ve lived in the other
place.. most of my life too….
But yeah, tHere is ‘THIS place’
if one is speaking to me
one can refer back to my post above..
But in shortER,
GOD is not logical.
It is only illogical humans
THAT attribute that
ATTRIBUTE TO GOD.
SCIENCE, A TOOL OF HUMANS,
ATTEMPTS TO DESCRIBE GOD.
IT’S AN ATTEMPT.
BUT THAT’S NOT
‘ALL THAT IS’ AKA GOD.
THAT’S JUST LITERaLLY
FOR THOSE WHO
I offer one irrefutable evidence that I AM OK here, OK…
WHY Michael Jackson, and Miley Cyrus
AND OTHER ‘STARS’,
grab their crotch with their left
hand on STAGE FOR ALL TO VIEW;
well, it’s not just a coincidence that
‘THEY ALL USE THEIR LEFT HAND’,
GOD MIN AKA
PAN in GREEK
CIRCLES OR AKA
peTer Pan TODAY.
It’s just another way of STICKING ThEIR
‘TONGUE OUT’ AT THE IGNORANT MASSES OF FOLKS STUCK
IN ABSTRACT CONCEPT LAND OF restricted mind and body balance.
And yeah, I am doing the same thing ‘WrITE’ now..
‘fresher than one’…. reference 711.
OH GOD ‘HORATIO’,
THERE IS SO MUCH
MUCH MORE IN THIS LIFE
THAN one ‘THINKs’ ThERE IS.
IF YA LIKE, ya can call me MINderELla
or peTer PAN too..;)..aghogday is just
i AM F***KING
Thanks again, AngelRho; truly the only folks WhO can come close
to understanding me here, IS, aRtistic folks like yourself.
And haha! NAH, I’m not changing for anyone, anywHere, no matter who they are.
In fact, part of the reason I spend so much time online is that in REAL LIFE, I GIVE PEOPLE MUCH GREATER HEADACHES, AS I TEND TO GET LOUD, AND SPEAK EXTREMELY fast, with never anything but peace AND BLISS, inside of me.
Yeah, wife KATRINA has MANY STORIES
AND HEADACHES ABOUT THAT..SMILES..:)
I have a really big head and am extremely strong.
I mean, DUH, ‘Mice and Lions’ sound different when they ‘talk’ in ‘real life’ for good reason.
It doesn’t mean that one is crazy and one is not, JUST ‘CAUSE ONE IS QUIET AND ONE IS LOUD, and BOTH speak different.
I am different in a Superman-like way, NOW, and for me THAT so-called ‘aUtistic Super Power’, ‘SPELLS’ both incredible grace in Love/KINDNESS and STRENGTH IN COURAGE.
I ALWAYS HAVE THE LOVE/KINDNESS,
IT IS JUST THE GRACE AND STRENGTH IN COURAGE
THAT I NEED FOR THE EXTRA PUNCH IN LIFE, NOW..;)
I LITERaLLY NEVER RUN OUT OF ENERGY;
I AM THE REAL ‘ENERGIZER BUNNY’..
just in time NOW for
…Thanks, one IS correct.
The human ENGLISH language provides only an approximation of what humans can come to know AND EXPRESS TO EACH OTHER of FULLER reality, including FULLER human potential.
This support site for Autism allows me to do this, in real time, TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY WITH THE LIMITED TOOL OF THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE, AS IS, IN NEW CREATIVE WAYS.
THIS SITE DID not, when the ‘other’ moderators ARE here, as they attempt to conform folks to their ideas of normality, PER THE USE OF THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE.
It IS possible, IF freedom of expression is truly allowed here, as it continues to be now WHERE HUMAN insights may evolve here either by me or someone else that have never ever been thought of before.
I suppose that’s
and why I more or less,
currently AM taking the lead on
THAT in expanding the comfort zone for
JUST THAT TO MAKE
IT IS POSSIBLE,
WITH fullER REASONABLE freedom of expression.
I am extremely careful to follow the technical rules that exist here, as I value this environment as one for potential greatness in creative minds
EXPRESSED IN SYNERGY, again, IF ALLOWED AS CURRENTLY IS, BY THE NEUTRAL MODERATION, WE HAVE HERE, NOW, WITHOUT PERSONAL AGENDA,
AS is THE CASE before.
“Wait so you are not form there?”
Well NO, I AM NOT THE FORMS THERE,
PER the forms most people use in life, tHere or heRe,
NOT in writing a Unique style of FREE VERSE POETRY;
A BALLET AND MARTIAL ARTS MIX OF DANCE WALK
THAT I NOW do, closing in on 3300 miles in 19 months
in all public stores, with my ‘shopaholic’ wife;
AND certainly NOT in NEWER AGE
male nude renaissance ‘FREE verse
nude POETRY’ ART that literally no other
middle 50’s straight male does in the entire blogging world of Google, as such.
And here is more G-RATEd STUFF on the 3000 miles of dance walking for evidence too, and no I do not directly link my adult restricted blog stuff here, as even though it is filtered out stuff FOR minors NOT TO see, like any other potentially inappropriate stuff on the Internet for minors;
THAT RESTRICTED ADULT BLOG here. BUT TRULY THAT IS THE MOST AMAZING THING I DO OUT OF THE SOCIAL-NORM-OF CONFORMING FORM, AND YES IT HAS BEEN COMPARED TO THE WORK OF MICHELANGELO’S DAVID, BY THE discerning female eye..;)
BUT MORE impressive, of course, in full blown male nude GLORY WAY, AS frigging ART with Lady Gaga’s ‘Born THIS WAY’, TO ACCOMPANY MY ‘Masterpiece’ of me
THAT way that literally takes hundreds of hours of
HARD WORK TO MAKE IT HAPPEN;
And YES, truly inspired by literally hundreds of
female dance partners who
KEEP MY CREATIVE JUICES FLOWING..
ALL THE WAY.. evidenced already in this thread,
per my blog post, “GOD’s Muse of Dance”.
And to be clear, I’m just another one
of literally millions of folks
who muse others
I just do IT FOR FREE,
AS I AM FINANCIALLY Independent,
AND money means ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO ME.
ONE CAN BURN A THOUSAND DOLLAR BILL
IN FRONT OF MY FACE,
AND I will NOT
flinch an Inch.
And that baby, is
FREEDOM IN THIS
that most people DO LIVE IN.
I AM FREE FROM many CULTURAL FORMS.
AND TRULY THAT’S A BLESSING.
HOWEVER, IF THAT WAS JUST AN IRONIC TYPO GENERATED BY THE GOD THAT IS ALL THAT IS; AND YOU MEAN FROM HERE INSTEAD OF FORMS THERE, THANK ‘you'; YES, GOD and ‘you’, for inspiring this next message..:)
Yes, I live in Florida my entire life.
I live in a frigging ‘REDNECK’ TOWN,
WITH FUNDAMENTALIST CHRISTIANS, GALORE, everywhere I go.
AND IF I am NOT PROFICIENT, AS ONE BAD A** MARTIAL ARTS DUDE, BY NOW, someone might have
metaphorically tarred and feathered me, FOR BEING TOO FRIGGING OUT OF THE Red State BOX.
Trust me, where I live, I have to become SUPERMAN TO DO WHAT I DO BABY, AND I START OFF AS WIMPY AND STRING BEAN, AS ANY MALE IN MY COMMUNITY, even after puberty, at 13 years old.
No one giggles at me IN FRONT OF MY FACE, IN REAL LIFE, NOW, NOT EVEN A WIMPER, when they see WHAT I CAN DO WITH MY LEGS OF ‘STEEL’..;)
AND QUITE HONESTLY, IN SO-CALLED
‘redneck’ ‘HOMOBPHOBE’ language
my dance is more over the top, than the ‘Gayest man alive’ CAN dream of..:)
And yeah, I’m straight as an arrow; ya can ask my girl FRIENDS about THAT ‘PART’, AND it’s pretty clear in ALL THE ART I DO, AS per additional stereotype, I LOOK MORE LIKE ‘JAMES BOND’ THAN PETER PAN, ALTHOUGH I CAN MOVE LIKE ‘PETER PAN’ or ‘Spider man’.
OR MY WIFE, at age 44, WHO IS MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN ANY 20-SOMETHING year old fast dancing girl FRIEND, at one of the top 100 rated dance clubs in America, per Old Seville Quarter IN BEACH TOWN, USA, PENSACOLA FLORIDA, where I do most of my RAVE dancing PRACTICE, 52 WEEKS, AS OF this Thursday NIGHT.
Here’s the deal, if you haven’t heard the entire story, I am almost a complete shut-in with 19 documented medical disorders, including the worst pain known to mankind, Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia that in medical literature is named a pain worse than crucifixion.
The GOD of Nature ‘blesses’ me with that PAIN that is like novocaine-LESS, drilling of my teeth for close to 66 months, with no relief other than sleep, and
the PAIN IS IN MY RIGHT EYE AND EAR, MAKING EFFECTIVE USE OF VISION OR HEARING, IMPOSSIBLE
WITHOUT INCREDIBLE NEVER ENDING Pain, other than sleep, IN WORSE THAN LITERAL HELL FIRE ETERNAL PAIN.
At the start of the SEVERE PART OF THE pain disorder, at the end of February through March and the beginning of April of 2008, I go 40 days without sleep, except for one hour of very shallow sleep each night for the first 35 of 40 days, using a powerful alpha blocker prescribed by a doctor, and absolutely no sleep for the last 5 of 40 days of truly literal human hell, where every second IS like a thousand years of hell.
I AM also ‘blessed’ with Dyautonomia, where my blood pressure and heart rate is no longer synched properly by my Central Nervous system orchestrating balance in my cardio-vascular and respiratory system, during that 5 years.
When I raise my arms or attempt to walk around the block, I almost pass out, then.
And through the effect of the Auto-Immune Disease of Sjogren’s syndrome, my eyes also stop making tears that is a another nail in the torture of a sensation of swimming in salt water with one’s eyes wide open.
I stay in a dark room for 8 months, at risk of losing my eyesight all together, until the immune system modulator eye drops, ‘Restasis’, saves my eyes; literally, speaking.
And yeah, there are 16 other disorders of serious note, and even more than that of lesser serious note, including spinal stenosis; severe degenerative arthritis in my spine; a congenitally fused T-6 vertebrae in my neck;
a congenitally deviated septum so severe that the ENT asks me how I can breathe at all through my nose that still is not fixed due to the potential RISK OF re-development of the Trigeminal Neuralgia PAIN, per associated anatomical features in my sinuses; and fibromyalgia.
Oh yeah, the Autism Thingy I am diagnosed with around the same time at age 47, is the least of my worries, alone, and honestly the worst part of all IS almost totally losing my emotions like a frigging walking dead zombie, associated with Alexithymia.
By the time I get well; YES, miraculously healed by the higher power of the GOD of Nature I FIND within me, I cannot remember what my face looks like, and I basically have to start life as a human all over again, IN REAL LIFE.
Quite a challenge that IS, and considering all of that; OH MY GOD,YES, MY FAITH IN GOD IS AT LEAST AS GREAT AS ANY SO-CALLED ‘JOB’ WHO EVER EXISTS.
IT IS 100%, baby; no holds barred.
And that’s a nice place to be as it allows me
to live forever, in the heaven of now, where time does NOT EVEN EXIST.
IT’S REAL, AND ALL THE AMAZING THINGS EVIDENCED HERE, I can do in REAL LIFE, IRREFUTABLY PROVIDED HERE, ARE A DIRECT RESULT OF THE HIGHER POWER OF GOD IN ME THAT I NEVER CLOSE TO FULLY DEVELOP AND PRACTICE before July 22nd or so, in the YEAR OF ‘OUR LORD’, 2013.
IT’S REAL FOR ME, and at least in my life that’s what counts.
As far as I know, GOD is THE GOD OF HUMAN NATURE MERIT.
THERE IS NO ‘MAGIC incantations’
that will work, like John 3:16,
EMOTING POWERS IN EMOTIONS OF
HUMAN RELATIVE FREE WILL, FAITH, HOPE, AND MOST
IMPORTANTLY PERSONAL BELIEF IN SELF, WITH TRUST IN MOTHER NATURE TRUE
AKA GOD AKA ILLUMINATI OR TRUTH AND LIGHT OF MUCH FULLER HUMAN POTENTIAL
IN PRACTICING MIND AND BODY BALANCE CONTINUALLY NOW, AS THERE ARE NO FREE
RIDES TO BLISS, now or then.
And none of it will work without the power of
Human Imagination and Creativity SET FREE!..:)
And the reason I go to all this trouble is
I’m NOW A VIRTUAL ‘expert’ ON Pain
and Suffering and how to heal
it and stay away from it in all natural amazing higher power of GOD ways.
I only suggest that one DEVELOPS mind and body balance, whatever way works to attain
THAT AND all the human made miracles that I currently enjoy and perhaps infinitely
MORE, ‘ROAR’, MORE.
AND with that said, have a nice now; it’s time for me to work-out 3 hours in my martial arts, ballet, and extreme strength style of getting even more graceful AND STRONG, AT my local military station, for elite military athletes..:)
Well, some of ‘em, anyway, as there are some
WHO sit around on their smart phones,
instead of sweating, hehe!..;)
MY SUCCESS IS IN BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS.
AND THE FIRST STEP BACK IN GETTING WELL IS BEING ABLE TO SHED A TEAR, AFTER 5 LONG YEARS, WHEN A BELOVED CAT DIES IN Spring of 2013. THE personal DARKNESS OF THAT CAT’S INJURY AND DEATH, PERHAPS ALLOWS ME TO EVENTUALLY CREATE HUMAN MIRACLES COME ALIVE, for me.
SO YEAH, I GUESS I MIGHT OWE IT ALL TO
THE SON OF MY ‘YELLOW BOY’ CAT,
NAMED SUNNY BOY, who dies.
BUT, NAH, IT IS MORE LIKELY THE GIFT OF ‘OREO’,
A SIX LB, or so, SCRAPPY TABBY MIX WITH TUXEDO
NEIGHBORHOOD TOM CAT
WHO WHIPS SUNNY BOY’S BUTT,
TEARING FLESH FROM HIS HEAD,
RESULTING IN THE TEAR OF ME FROM
PUTTING ‘SUNNY BOY’ DOWN.
YEAH, IT IS LIKE THAT
MOVIE NAMED ‘OLD YELLER’,
about A dog, most likely before your ‘time’….
Life is a gift.
MOST OFTEN A very hard gift TO ENJOY.
But never-the-less, a worthwhile
one for those who persist,
adapt to challenge,
God is no wimp.
God IS ‘BAD A** FORCE’.
YEAH, THE EAST INDIAN GOD KALI,
IS A PRETTY/UGLY CLOSE TO
ACCURATE FLESH AND BLOOD METAPHORICAL
INCARNATION OF GOD, OR PERHAPS
THE EGYPTIAN GOD ‘MIN’ WHO IS ALWAYS ‘HAPPY’
TO ‘SEE’ FOLKS ‘COME’…;)
ENJOY THE WAVE,
AND TRY NOT
TO FALL OFF, IS TRULY
THE ONLY ADVICE I HAVE,
IN MIND AND BODY BALANCE,
TO OFFER FOR THE REAL POTENTIAL
OF HEAVEN NOW. AND NAH,
BY far, I am certainly not the first person to offer
YET EFFECTIVE TRUTH AND LIGHT IN ADVICE..:)
Thanks again, for the ‘muse’.
YES, ‘WE’ need ‘this’..:)
IT IS THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT AND AFFECT OF THE GOD
OF MOTHER NATURE AND HUMAN NATURE TRUTH AND LIGHT.
“Faith is the graveyard of reason and logic….”
Reason and Logic used to the exclusion of the emoting power of the ALL INNATELY, INSTINCTUALLY, INTUITIVELY INTERNALLY, DEVELOPED, UTILIZED, AND PRACTICED EMOTION FAITH, can certainly be a rather ‘shallow grave’ in life.
TG, I for one, have A MUCH
DEEPER LIFE THAN
‘that shallow grave’ IN ‘DEATH IN LIFE’.
BUT OF course that is the responsibility OF
each Unique Human BEING TO RAISE IN LIFE THROUGH the HARD and
SOFT WORK OF PHYSICAL INTELLIGENCE IN THE BALANCE OF GRACE AND STRENGTH THAT CAN BE EMOTED BY THE HUMAN EMOTIONS of Human Relative Free WILL, FAITH, HOPE, and
most IMPORTANTLY BELIEF IN ONE’S SELF, AND TRUST IN MOTHER NATURE TRUTH COME HUMAN NATURE TRUTH, AKA GOD AND THE PART THAT IS HUMAN KIND, WORKING WITH, WITHOUT, OR AGAINST, THE REST OF MOTHER NATURE TRUE and human nature true..:)
It’s only complicated as illusory complex language and cultures can make it.
My cat has absolutely no problem WITH THAT, AS HE LIVES NO COMPLEX LANGUAGE AND CULTURAL ILLUSIONS OF SILLY LITTLE SO-CALLED HUMAN FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS, GENERATED BY SO-CALLED
KNOW IT ALL HUMANS..;)
Oh yeah, and regarding ‘Sunny Boy’, for folks who do have a heart, soul, and spirit, also known as humanITy; here is MORE about Sunny Boy, who actually dies in early April 2013, around the time of Easter…
And nah, he does not come back but I FRIGGING DO,
THANKS, in part, to TO HIS LAST DYING DAY OF HELP IN my LIFE.
THIS STUFF IS NO FRIGGING JOKE; THIS STUFF IS LIFE AND DEATH HUMANitY REALiTY; DEAD OR ALIVE in LiFE.
“Scientists have the most evidence that supports their claims.”
Scientists rarely skim the emotional life of human beings
and are almost totally ignorant of it,
per the use of the very limited tool
called the scientific method.
All human rational decisions
are based on emotion,
as even science now shows.
But yet science, STILL is not A tool
per the extremely limited scientific method
THAT CAN BE USED AS AN ACCURATE
measure the experiment of human being
THAT is almost totally emotionally based
as a reality of the human condition.
Even John Nash,
the noted schizophrenic,
AND possibly Asperger’s
LEANING MATH GENIUS
HAS little to no
cognitive empathy, DID ADMIT
later in life that WITHOUT
a full HUMAN emotional life
the emotions of others,
be held UP,
He IS BiG enough to admit he is INCORRECT.
There are not very many folks BIG enough
in this forum to admit THAT..
Sadly or with little to no complex
nuanced human emotion EXPRESSED
“Philosophy is not natural.”
Human emotions are the basis for all human actions, including what is
abstractly defined in human constructs as an action in making the tools
of abstract constructs, generated in origination by
human emotions, LABELED AND defined
as Logic and Reason.
The scientific method cannot measure what is the fullest reality
of the human condition, which is the emotional life of each
human being that is a NON-REPEATABLE EXPERIENCE AND OR
EXPERIMENT IF one WANTS TO LOOK AT THE HUMAN CONDITION
IN SCIENTIFIC METHOD TALK.
THE SCIENTIFIC METHOD IS HIGHLY OVER-RATED FOR THIS ONE
SIMPLE AND VERY COMPLEX ‘REASON’.
EMOTION IS NOT REASON.
THE ONLY WAY TO MEASURE EMOTION IS TO OBSERVE IT.
IT IS NOT A DISCRETE REPEATABLE EXPERIMENT.
THEREFORE PHILOSOPHY THAT CAN MEASURE HUMAN EMOTION
THROUGH OBSERVANCE AND GENERAL LOGIC IS THE ONLY REAL
TO EVEN FRIGGING UNDERSTAND WHAT IT
MEANS TO BE A HUMAN BEING.
AND THEN, one can get to the point of being able to figure out how to
live this frigging life without human suffering, misery, and the killing
fields of HATE, flowing with the blood GENERATED BY literal thinking
leaning minds who don’t give an F about the emotional life of their
FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS,
MAINLY ‘CAUSE THEY ARE IMPOVERISHED IN ALL THAT REALLY
COUNTS AND GENERATES UNCONDiTIONAL LOVING ACTION
AMONG HUMAN BEINGS.
AND THAT MY FRIEND
IS EMOTIONS FULLY EXPERIENCED,
AND VALUED AS SUCH,
ABOVE ALL OTHER MATERIALISTIC COLLECTING WAYS OF LIFE
EITHER IN PROVING SOMEONE IS RIGHT FOR ILLUSORY POWER,
OR THE KILLING FIELDS
HATE GENERATED IN ‘LOVE’
OF ILLUSORY POWER AND COLLECTING
This is what I look like when I ‘REALLY’ STICK ‘MY TONGUE’
OUT AT ‘FOLKS’..;) ButT ONLY THE PG-RATED VERSION…;)
NOT THE ‘MIN’ VERSION..@@@..;)
HAVE A NICE NOW.
I SURELY WILL WITH 100% FAITH IN ME AND 100% TRUST
IN THE GOD OF MOTHER NATURE TRUTH AND LIGHT
“There are no words OR HUMANS bolder than me
IN REAL LIFE”.
QUOTE BY ME,
I WILL LOVE TO SEE
‘THE FACE’ BEHIND “one’s MASK”..;)
“An even greater gift is to discover a Beautiful Heart”
There is never much question in my life that I have a beautiful
mind.. with high STANDARD IQ and all that goes along with that..
But truly.. after losing almost all my emotions FOR 5 years of
Zombie LIFE and a year later.. after nourishing those emotions
back stronger than ever.. the greatest compliment i receive
in life to date..
IS when a complete stranger.. Rafiah.. a 21 year old woman from
Pakistan.. requests to be my friend on Facebook..
telling me.. “You have a beautiful heart”
after observing me communicate
by blog way with another friend
LaLa Rukh.. AKA
White Pearl.. for
a time in Internet Land…
So anyway.. i celebrate the life of John Nash..
as i know how difficult it can be to struggle through
life with exceptionally observed intellect.. with the
absence of an emotional life.. fully experienced and
expressed with others.. But for me it IS strong in
life existing before mid-life..
so at least I have
a reference point..
to get back..
Sadly not all folks appear to be that blessed..
And honestly.. i hope there is something.. anything
i can do in life.. whether it is dancing everywhere