Talking.. Shh.. wITh GOD2

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When i think of GOD i think of life..
all of life.. and all of inanimate life…
When i think of GOD
i experience life in emotion
and senses that connect me to the environment of Nature…
In fact.. i do not have to think of GOD to experience GOD…@ALL.
How fortunate am i to walk so many miles of desolate beaches in youth away
from all of human culture.. just
me and sun.. sand.. waves.. sea oats.. seagulls and emerald green gulf…
And somewhere along the line i no longer need
a rocket scientist or priest
to understand that this GOD that is all around me..
above and so below is inside me and outside me too..
and when i go and when all humans go off this earth..
if that beach or desert or mountain is still here.. or even those stars or even darkness.. GOD still lives in all of that with or without breath.. atoms.. light.. or even darkness….
So whenever I hear folks imagining a dead GOD
that has no being that one can reach out..
touch and feel in the quartz of sand or the breast of woman..
or heat or blizzard winter of night or day.. i only think
of THAT three letter word as idol.. and precisely
what the myth of Jesus and Moses
did not find in the
40 days of
desert
that is the same as beach to me….
i have my 40 days of ‘Lent’.. almost 7 years ago..
starting in the beginning of March
and ending before Easter
when i give myself up for dead
after 40 almost totally sleepless days
and nights with 1 hour of sleep the first 35 of 40
that no sleeping pill will bring and only an alpha blocker
will put me down for that 1 hour of each day sleep..
and then there is the last 5 of 40
with no sleep relief at all..
and the letting go of life
for dead finally..
at the hospital….
Even through
5 long years of
suffering after that..
after coming back to life
at the hospital.. in metaphor
of heavy Ativan injections
that make sleep
a possibility..
as well as life again..
in all the other illness suffering..
to live today.. for me NOW..
is to wonder still..
if i did die
and go
to heaven..
as i can not imagine
any heaven better than now..
just to have the gift of life… AS IS NOW.
i understand why folks try to escape
the real GOD and make an
imaginary IDOL
GOD in their mind…
i understand why folks
who suffer in this world
imagine another life
in another world
of heaven
someday other than now…
But i hope these people one day will just open their ‘eyes’ and ‘see’ the GOD of Mother Nature TRUE above.. so below.. all around.. inside and outside of their being too… and then maybe they too will know and live heaven now… like the myth of Jesus and Moses do…. in their beach of desert.. as well….
But until then.. imagination is real too.. and imagination is better than greater suffering.. any now of now…..
-whatever it takes.. the human motto for survival.. does still apply….always now…..
That was just a play on words and a coincidence that my insomnia happened during the period of Lent for exactly 40 days from the MARCH PERIOD OF 2008 and OH MY GOD my wife and I were counting everyday, minute, and second of that real literal human hell.
There are few tortures worse than THAT MUCH LACK OF SLEEP, if any at all. The record for going without sleep at all is 264 hours or 11 days.
I couldn’t sleep for several reasons. One was Chronic Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia PAIN LIKE A Dentist drilling my right eye and ear during all waking hours; Two was Dysautonomia where my autonomic nervous system was all out of whack to the point where if I fell asleep I would stop breathing; and three was Sjogren’s Syndrome, where my eyes quit making tears almost all the way.
For the first 35 days no sleeping pills would put me down, and the doctor prescribed an Alpha blocker to slow my heart down as my adrenal glands were stuck in the on position, as part of the Dysautonomia, and with the drug I went into only a shallow sleep for less than an hour a day. For the last 5 days of 40, even the Alpha Blocker quit working.
A trip to the emergency room, and a heavy injection of Ativan was the only thing that finally brought relief of sleep, and according to my doctor I was close to having a potential life ending seizure, as that is what CAN AND DOES HAPPEN WHEN FOLKS GO anywhere close to that extreme of no sleep. The state of being at the end was an ice cold body with no perceptible feelings at all except for a burning indescribable pain all over my body worse than fire that increased every second of the last 5 days of no sleep like Dante’s rings of hell, as it was like GOD showing me if you think this is bad just wait for the next second and you will see what REAL PAIN IS….
The PAIN was worse than anything imaginable.. even worse than the Trigeminal Neuralgia pain, burning with real fire, Fibromyalgia that I was already diagnosed with, too, and the feeling of swimming under salt water with one’s eyes wide open, per not having any tears for eyes, where even that gel stuff for dry eyes didn’t help that pain substantially. And no drug ever remediated the cranial nerve pain of Trigeminal Neuralgia.. after that…. until I naturally recovered
WITH THE HELP OF GOD,
IN JULY OF 2013.
FOR the next five years from 2008 to 2013, I had to take Ativan to have any possibility of sleep, and that in itself made me somewhat of a Zombie, after I had lost almost all my emotions to the pain, already.
Now I connect to GOD through a style of martial arts and ballet dance walk that is measured by Nike GPS sports watch at over 3000 miles, approaching 18 months now.
The dance puts me in a state of theta wave mind that is extremely connective to the holy spirit which is another metaphor for altered consciousness and greater connection to the much greater creative potential of the ‘Quantum mind’ UNLEASHED with GOD as a synergistic force, rather than the illusion of separation from GOD for humans who are in a Zoo of prison, per FUNCTIONALLY DISABLED deficits in physical intelligence, emotions, senses and all that combines in synergy to better connect WITH GOD.
Fasting works for some folks, meditation for others, and there are many others ways but ‘TRANCE’ dance is the best way for me to reach this Theta BRAIN wave between dream and awake lucid creative dreaming mind WITH GOD….ALLOWING the subconscious mind to create in an autonomous flowing way.. without the interference of logical planning thoughts…. AKA THE HOLY SPIRIT, Kundalini Awakening, CHI, QI, KI, and all the other cross cultural metaphors for THE NATURAL way of connecting to GOD, the Great Spirit of the American Indians, or whatever metaphor is used to describe the ACTION VERB OF GOD, NON-ANTHROPOMORPHIZED.
People who have not experienced this ALTERED WAY OF ‘QUANTUM MIND’ UNLEASHED TRULY HAVE no idea what they ARE MISSING IN LIFE, as this IS the same way our so-called Primitive ‘uncivilized’ ancestors connect to GOD FREE in sharing spirit with all others and the rest of Nature WITHOUT illusions of separation from GOD promoted by a mechanical cognition leaning robot ‘WESTERNIZED’ way of MATERIALISTIC COLLECTING things in an illusion of what life CAN BE IF PROPERLY PRACTICED without the ‘sin’ of away from GOD.
For those ancestors like the ones who do this now
THERE IS NEVER EVER
ANY
QUESTION ABOUT
GOD EXISTING
CAUSE WHEN
ONE DOES
THIS GOD IS REAL..
AN ACTION VERB FORCE
AND NO FRIGGING FAIRY TALE.
IT’s JUST ABOUT CONTACT.. that’s all…..WITH ALL…:)
NO WORDS EVEN NECESSARY….. OR SO-CALLED WORD.
And SURE IT’S LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE to show this to someone or truly FULLY put it into words as it is an entirely sensory emotional experience that can truly only be approximated through poetic expression
OF THE EXPERIENCE IT DOES
bring in human awakened enlightened life….
yeah the
TRUTH AND THE LIGHT.
Science can talk about it too, but science and the folks who stay in the ‘left brained’ Universe view.. simply don’t have a CLUE ABOUT WHAT ANY OF THIS IS, as One must EXPERIENCE IT FIRST TO UNDERSTAND IT FULLY, and then THE LIGHTS COME ON, AND ‘THEY’ ‘SAY’.. OH! NOW I GET IT. AHA! :idea: :idea: :idea:
YES.. THE TRUTH AND THE LIGHT AKA ‘THE ALL SEEING EYE’ OR EVEN ILLUMINATI PER THE RECORD OF JESUS’ WORDS ON THE SAME TRUTH AND LIGHT if understood in metaphor instead of literally.
AND ‘then’ ‘some material reductionist’ will come and say that’s just brain chemicals that make you FEEL LIKE YOU are connecting to GOD.
And then some ‘bird’ will come along and say that’s just wings that makes birds fly.
And then some ‘tick’ will come along and say that’s just blood that makes dogs run.
WELL, i’ve ‘GOD’ news for the naysayers.
Blood is not what makes dogs run, alone.
Wings are not what make birds fly, alone.
And brain chemicals are not what make humans connect to GOD, alone.
i mean DUH..
It takes practice.. practice.. practice.. to fly, run, and CONNECT TO GOD.
AND THAT’S just ‘common sense’, a so-called ‘right brain’ attribute..
The stuff other animals can take for granted never ever separated from GOD.
Culture and or Religion, overall, is the virus or the evil or the devil that takes human away from the rest of Mother Nature TRUE, aka GOD.
And that’s just sad for the folks who CAN SEE THIS.
I WATCH “‘EM” PASS ME BY EVERYDAY,
in PUBLIC STORES AND STRAIGHT LINED SIDEWALKS, ‘LIKE’ ‘NEO’ flowing in GOLDEN SPIRAL movement in PHYSICAL/EMOTIONAL/SENSORY INTELLIGENCE
seen all over GOD’s creation, AND the other metaphors for ‘THAT’ per ‘NEO’.
PEOPLE who understand this have been attempting to be ‘THE SHEEPDOG’ THAT BRINGS THE Light and TRUTH to the sheep, but truly that’s the job of JOB.
And it takes a lot of JOBS to get that job DONE, LITERALLY REMEMBERED CORRECTLY, FOR CENTURIES….AS WELL…
IT’S ‘JUST’ A ‘MATTER’ OF ‘WHO’ WILL STEP UP AND ‘JUST DO IT’, like Nike says…..without words
..alone….
ALLONE IS THE WAY….
The REAL ILLUMINATI IS NOT A BODY ORGANIZED BY CORPORATE INTERESTS.
THE REAL ILLUMINATI IS NOT A BODY ORGANIZED BY CULTURE AND OR RELIGION.
THE REAL ILLUMINATI IS ORGANIZED BY HUMANS WORKING WITH GOD, AS SUPER SOLDIERS OF GOD.
THEY COME IN MANY COLORS, FLAVORS, AND WAYS……IN ONE ‘BODY’ OF ‘CHRIST’.. as ‘Just’ one metaphor for THAT.
AND ‘they’ are STILL HERE NOW.
IN GROWING NUMBERS….
Can you recognize them…
IF SO.. YOU TOO
ARE POTENTIaLLy
one of ONE, OR WE, OR US, OR ME, OR YOU…:)
That’s the problem with anthropomorphizing GOD.. as the darkness comes with the light.. and GOD AS NATURE GETS ALL THE CREDIT.. to me.. whether it is a cataclysm and the ending of all life on earth from a comet hitting
SQUARE IN AIM..
or a Sunny bright morn..
and GORGEOUS tanned girl
without a bikini…. (my wife by the way..ha!ha!:)….
To stay humble and blessed AND STRONG AND CONFIDENT.. IS to know all the darkness AND LIGHT of GOD that CAN be.. SO to thank what IS FOR WHAT IS.. AS IS….FOR NOW….
I don’t know of any fair GOD.. all I know is GOD as Nature TRUE… and come ‘hell’ or high water.. there is no use in blaming anyone for THAT..:)
THERE IS NO ‘GOOD’ OR ‘EVIL’ IN MY BOOK.. only myth of METAPHOR OF what GOD can do…. and YES that THINGY folks call GOOD and EVIL that I TOO.. use as metaphor too.. AFTER all is said and done.. WRITTEN language is just a human TOOL…. yes A METAPHOR IS all OF THAT…. CONCRETE or soft for tell of tales….
But I’ve been to the most dark AND LIGHT of places AND with or without feelings.. blaming is just.. a dead end road…..dead or alive….Anthropomorphized GOD..FORCE OF NATURE.. AS GOD OR NOT…
The blame game is just a waste of time and that’s ALL tHere IS to THAT..:)
AND CERTAINLY a source of much human death and destruction by the hand of human illusion that CAN kill so well…..with tools of ANTHROPOMORPHIZED ‘gunS’ and ANTHROPOMORPHIZED TRIBAL DEVELOPED..
QUARTER BACK GOD…
Hmm… tribal “Quarter Back GOD”.. i think i’ll use that one.. somewhere else..;)
Human kind is a sentient manifestation of THE GOD of Nature..
And yeah I worship the GOD of Nature from the time I get up and the sun shines on my naked body doing TAI-CHI-like movement in total mind and body balance listening to whatever music on Youtube I like with my ear buds from iPhone hooked up to me like I’m into A ‘cultural hive’ of life.. in love.. with all that is inside me… outside me.. all around me.. above AND so below…
Humankind is one form of sentient manifestation of THE GOD of Nature, and my cat Yellow BOY is another form that ‘smells better’ than I do.
We (EVERY CREATURE IN THE FRIGGING UNIVERSE) all have our strengths and weaknesses in diversity of uncountable ways of perceiving life, and that’s what makes this whole thing so frigging REAL LIFE MAGICKAL NOW IS that humankind has made a way of life for one who takes advantage of it IN MIND AND BODY BALANCE to SERIOUSLY LIVE IN A RELATIVE HEAVEN NOW, considering what the other animals have to deal with on a daily basis out in the UNIVERSE WILD….
I mean, seriously, just the benefit of toilet paper and not having an itchy butt is heaven, ain’t it…
A warm shower…
Whatever the hell ya wanna eat at the all ya can eat buffet….
‘72,000’ virgin LOOKING FEMALES MADE UP ALL LIKE THAT TO LOOK at if one’s IN to THAT…available on the Interwebz…
Hell, this is what some extremist Muslim folks die for, as martyrs, just to get ‘into’ 72 or 49 or whatever number of virgins they are promised in an imaginary afterlife that the American male gets for free on the Interwebz uncensored as such….in a virtual HIGH DEF WAY….
IS IT ANY WONDER there are no more terrorist acts of great note IN THE good OLD U.S.A. WHEN A POTENTIAL terrorist gets here and finds THIS IS REAL HEAVEN…NOW!
WHO knows if that is the reason but sure it could be part of it.. just imagine the thrill in comparison of uncensored Internet over here as compared to over THERE..
HELL that could LEAD TO WORLD PEACE, IF EVERYONE GETS A PIECE of that HEAVEN LIKE action….
MR. DENT, really, this is so simple.
Back in the day folks have the innate instinct and intuition that there are laws and a driving FORCE of Nature known as the three letter word GOD that brings order to life when studied, learned, understood better, and practiced.
Religion is all there is for science then…
And Now there is science that calls the GOD thingy, then, Nature NOW….
The problem is with rigid black and white thinkers who are afraid of change, whether it is another labeled name for the THREE LETTERED WORD OF THE GOD of Nature LIKE ALLAH OR WHATEVER, OR EVEN GODZILLA, or WTF, OR the refusal to bring to light the understanding that the essence of truth remains the same no matter the language, culture, religion, or science labels that SCRIBE THAT TRUTH.
The INNATE INSTINCTUAL INTUITIVE POTENTIAL that human emotion and sensory abilities bring to the table of human when enhanced through regulation and integration through physical intelligence as the driving force is the essence of TRUTH, AND WRITTEN words as metaphors designed by human beings are simply symbols as tools to guide one better with THE Truth and the LIGHT OF THAT EMOTIONAL AND SENSORY LIFE!
Human relative free will in balancing mind and body; belief, hope, faith, and the attribute of unconditional LOVE ARE NOT JUST EMPTY WORDS; THEY ARE SYMBOLS, WORDS, LABELS, TOOLS, FOR THE ESSENCE OF HUMAN TRUTH EMOTING ACTION in life….
Science cannot cover everything as everything is not a repeatable experiment, particularly when it comes to the TRUE MAGICKAL EMOTING POWER OF ALL OF POTENTIAL IN ABILITIES driven by humans emotions and senses.
MAGICK, by the way, is a term originated by the British Occultist and Poet, Aleister Crowley, and it simply means the pursuit of the inner life of human being to reach greater human potential.
Religion, Culture, and Science are benefits but also, at times, roadblocks, in exploring, REGULATING AND INTEGRATING the inner driving force of emotional and sensory intelligence POWERED BY PHYSICAL INTELLIGENCE that is a healing and DRIVING force for greater human potential…
WE are THE EMOTIONS AND SENSES OF the GOD of Nature UNBOUND IN THE METAPHOR OF the POTENTIAL OF THE ‘QUANTUM’ human mind AND BODY IN BALANCE unleashed.
A child of GOD is simply what that is.. the EMOTIONS AND SENSES OF GOD UNLEASHED….
HUMANS ALREADY MOVE MOUNTAINS;
THEY ARE VISIBLE SKYSCRAPERS AND ALL OTHER MONUMENTS CREATED BY THE tools of written abstract human language aka the WORD OF GOD UNABRIDGED AND ALL OTHER SENTIENT COMMUNICATION in the UNIVERSE bringing MORE tools of COLLECTIVE RECORDED INTELLIGENCE PER BYPRODUCTS OF complex culture, as WE bridge the gap of GOD WITH WE AND WE BECOME ONE WITH GOD….A MIGHTY MANIFESTED SENTIENT FORCE.. always working stronger together than alone……
IF ALL THAT AIN’T WORTH WORSHIPPING, NOTHING IS…
NIHILISM IS THE ‘EVIL'; relative Human FREE WILL balancing mind and body, BELIEF, FAITH, HOPE, and TRUST IN WHAT IS, IS THE MEDICINE.
THE RESULT THAT CAN BE THAT IS ALL AROUND US FOR THOSE WHO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT, IN MIND AND BODY balance WHO simply live in REAL HEAVEN NOW…
AND yeah, sure, there is that other place for people who don’t appreciate AND ACT ON, PER ‘just doing It, where they REaLLY ARE NOW…..
IT’S ALL METAPHOR BUT AT ESSENCE OF TRUTH IT’S ALL REAL TOO…
And this is my favorite movie clip that CAN apply to NOW.
The form of metaphors DO NOT MATTER alone
PER different vehicles and vessels that house the truth.
The essence of TRUTH IS WHAT COUNTS.
AND WHEN one
ARRIVES IN BLISS AND STAYS THERE NOW..
There is NOW FOREVER IN HEAVEN NOW.
It just does NOT get any better than that..
And I for one, don’t even need the 72K virgins
to make me feel that way…..
To master heaven is TO LIVE REAL
forevermorenow….
Anything else is meaningless fluff….
or NIHILISM, TAKE your pick….
WITH DUE RESPECT OF COURSE…
if ya get THIS far..:)
And truly I WILL like nothing
better than IF YOU
AND EVERYBODY ELSE DOES NOW..
‘They’ WILL JUST be smiling foreverMOREnow.. that’s all….
SORRY.. books and school will NOT TEACH one this,
for one WHO has THE POTENTIAL to hear it,
PRACTICE IT, IN ACTION NOW….
And there are many Paths that work
JUST AS amazing in real life
HUMAN BEING MAGICK
Miracles NOW.
AspE writes:
You are insane.
aghogday writes:
I CERTAINLY hope so as if that’s TRUE THAT PUTS ME in an excellent ‘TRADE’ of life:
Quote:
“Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
-Steve Jobs
And on top of that when a person can have this much fun at age 54, who the hell wants to BE the peg that FITS in the hole of hell..OF LIFE….
I live in heaven BABY and I can prove THAT HERE.
IF YOU CAN’T SMILE BY THE END OF THIS..
Check your pulse….
Whatever the hell I am IT WORKS AND THAT’S AN IRREFUTABLE FACT.
I didn’t make well over a hundred gorgeous smiling girls happy like THAT WITHOUT SOMETHING
UNIQUE and special about ME.
Like I said, It Just don’t get any better than this…
‘Call me back’ when you are age 54 and tell me if you can do THAT.
Oh yeah, and let’s see if you go to the gym and LEG PRESS 930 LBS with your legs 12 times like I did tonight, and in case you missed IT here is the irrefutable evidence of one videoed slow rep. when I was ‘just’ at 810LBS two months ago with my female gym attendant friend exclaiming ‘HOLY SH**’. The other 11 reps. are evidenced in high-definition panoramic view in the comment section of the Youtube video below, just in case you missed THAT EVIDENCE earlier in the thread…too…
Dude or dudette.. or whatever you are.. I don’t wanna be anyone but me, and no matter who or WHAT you are, I can only hope you feel the same way about YOU.
OH GOD.. SOMETIMES the folks around here
are so predictable.. it’s amusing.. inspiring..
for just 500 more words..or so..:)
Keep it coming.. A ‘Real Life Superman’..
DOES NOT get tired….OR EVER GIVES UP..
to ‘little’ people.. personal attacks…..
The lowest hierarchy of critical thinking THAT EXISTS….
heHE….;)
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