Storm of the Frozen Soul

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Cats..
know storms before they
come..
and take shelter to stay
when the really
big
ones..
come..
One must go back
all the way 22 years ago..
to the Ides of March 2013
on that 13th day..
to remember
Thunder
Snow
pouring down on the Apartment my wife and i
share.. yes the Woodland Apartments
are all snowed in..
but it is
only
DELIGHT!
IN FLORIDA
TO SEE SNOW ANY WAY
IT COMES..
EVEN
WHEN
IT HUFFS AND PUFFS
WHITE STUFF
BLOWING
MY
SISTER’S SHED
OFF ITS
FOUNDATION!
But anyway.. the last i remember of that snow..
is a Blue Cavalier with valleys of snow
with the words
i love you..
ART
of
my wife.. and still stored somewhere
before.. digital art and files
and pictures come
lost in books
filed
away
in shelves never
looked at
again…
Do
YOU
EXPECT
ME
TO
BE ABLE TO FIND THAT PHOTO..
no i don’t.. tHere’s always Google to come
up with something to replace
anything
huh..
But then there is a different Winter Storm..
that comes any season
where the environment
is
just right
for
a perfect emotional storm
like a black hole sun..
sucking light
into
darkness
seemingly
never
seeing light..
farther dark
than any depression..
the anhedonia
that
is
OPPOSITE
FROM
HEDONISM…
AND NAH.. THEY DON’T
TEACH IT IN SCHOOL..
IT CAN’T BE FOUND
IN
BOOKS
IT
CAN’T
EVEN BE FELT
IN THEATERS..
ALL  IT IS
PAPER THIN
EXISTENCE
OF
NO
THING
AT
ALL…
AND YES.. i guess like
all things else
there is
a spectrum of
IT
from darker to darker living
frozen in a storm
of
soul..
that has
no emotional
touch
with
reality
at
ALL.
But to escape.. can be to know how
not to return.. to learn what the ancient
philosophies talk to in deficiencies
of heart.. soul..spirit
that
can
connect..
to the flesh
and blood that
IS truly ALIVE as Loving healthy humanity does…
And then with chronic stress comes disintegrated senses..
where cold can be in the hottest humidity of one hundred degrees…
Nah..
no one tells me
about mind and body
balance in school..
to truly
find
it
in ART of movement
is to finally balance emotions..
sensory integration.. and even cognitive
EXECUTIVE
functioning
AND WORKING
SHORT
TERM
MEMORY..
to
a
machine of brain
and body
balance
finally
with
OIL
AGAIN..
SO
THE
WICK
GROWS
BRIGHTER
THE FLAME
GROWS
STRONGER
ALIVE
AGAIN
IN
DANCING
balance
am
i
.
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